Hey /b/oys. Military fag here. Had 4 friends die this year and it's only fucking March. Contemplating scuicide, obviously. Already drunk. Have guns. It can be done. Always pussy out though. How has 2017 been for you tards so far?
>>724208767 Go talk to the fucking chaplain. Seriously. If you fail to kys they send you to the psyche ward, and it takes a long time to get back out of there. They treat you like shit, food's even worse than the chow hall, and they'll probably put you on enough pills to turn you into a zombie. I was lucky and only spent a week in the funny farm.
>>724208767 There's a shit ton of help available for military, start by talking to the chaplain. There's free counseling somewhere on base, just gotta find it (plus it gets you out of work for a few hours every couple of days).
>>724210325 No, chaplain is required to have absolute confidentiality. They can strongly recommend you to seek medical treatment, but you could literally say "Hey chap, I feel homocidal and want to kill people. I have fantasies about stabbing people, and lately the urge has been getting stronger" and he couldn't do shit.
>>724208767 Havent had work since this time last year, I was in a car accident in September that fucked up my back so even if work comes up, I cant do it. My wife hates my guts and thinks Im a lazy piece of shit because even the most trivial household tasks are excruciating, and I cant find a lawyer that will take my case seriously. With me not working or getting any settlement, the bills are piling up and we're close to losing everything.
If it werent for my kid Id have jumped in front of a train or something already since I dont own a gun and probably wouldnt be able to get one anyway.
>>724210667 Nigs here are the worst. If they're higher ranking than you they love slave driving. And "white privilege". They won't shut up about it. If any minority has a problem in the military all they have to do is call racism and it's game over.
>>724211925 Best to some how put the gas into a continuous release canister like a axe spray can filled with the gas and pressure.. 12 ounces of that shit in vapor would defiantly kill a room full of people in under a minute.
I've lost everything this year. My partner, my friends, my job, a place to stay, and my confidence. I pretend to everyone that I'm doing ok yeah it's been rough but I'm fine, but in reality it's not fine and I see no way out that isn't suicide
>>724212965 I never had any friends of my own in the city my partner and I moved to, she had lived there before and had contacts. And so her friends became mine. Now we've broken up and the 'friends' don't care about me
>>724213597 I don't have anger issues at all, I'm even more calm than I should be in certain situations. The reason behind it all ? >adopted, foster family are abusive alcoholics, I've been abused and witnessed abuse of any kind throughout my entire childhood, diagnosed with social anxiety, bipolar 2, ocd, major depressive disorder, psychiatrist stuffed me with 4 different meds that made it even worse, I lost my partner that I thought I loved to some female (lesbian shit), I struggle with gender identity, I failed college, my life is pain, I have no idea why I'm here anymore, where I live police doesn't care and one neighbor has 10 dogs, other 2 and they bark night and day, I feel like going crazy, it's been 2 months, I plan to kill the dogs anyway since the neighbors don't give a shit about me telling them they are very noisy, I want to move out of the country but my foster family is so against it and start beating me up, I started talking to my biological mom again and I want to live with her after 2 years, she's abroad.
>>724213712 Well thanks anyways anon, if you ever wanna make some ghetto fertilizer explosive mix 16 parts of some powdered ammonium nitrate, 1 part fuel oil (if you cant get fuel oil mix gasoline and motor oil in a 1:1 ratio) in a bucket and stir with a glass or wooden rod then store til use an b safe!
>>724215245 A Sarin bomb sounds fucking nasty with that in mind.. good thing i'm that fucking crazy to make any of this shit.. though i'm kinda tempted with the home made sarin.. but i dont want my muscles literally squeezing me to death followed by lung failure and heart explosion.
>>724216058 Sarin basically works by blocking a certain enzyme that acts as an "Off" switch.. without that off switch your nerves and muscles are being constantly stimulated and with no way to turn off they burn out/overload and explode.
>>724216262 Also i dont think the fertilizer would b very effective for a bomb you should mix 1 part 99 sulfuric acid 10 parts acetone and 10 parts hydrogen peroxide, mix the HP and A first ( both can b cheap over the counter shit) in a glass beaker/jar thats sittin in water with ice then add the acid slowly and stir lightly for like 10 mins and leave it sitting in a cool area for 2-3 days filter it with a coffee filter then dry it and store somwhere cool and dry... Dont kno if yur still lurkin this but b super safe with this and good luck with your sarin b/ro! peace.
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