Same I alternate between thinking of the booty and screaming
Nice 69 I'm triggered
so that I can find you
The dump is too smelly to visit.
I can keep it alive since I have nothing better to do.
CPR is my specialty.
My specialty is anti-CPR.
I don't do it for free, sorry.
Because I don't have to wake up early.
I'll do CPR to cancel out your anti-CPR, thus making it free.
Don't you know what happens when CPR comes into contact with anti-CPR?
That is good, I slept through my morning class today on accident.
How are you today, feeling okay?
No, it just makes an awful big mess.
Just okay. How about you?
Alright, need to get some homework done here in a bit. Okay is good, better than bad.
I can clean it up.
I'll bring lemon Pledge.
i want this thread dirty af when i get back
I'm going to tell him you think its small.
I want you dirty AF.
Just throw it into the fire. Homework is the root of all evil.
I don't think that'll be enough
It needs to be done or I will find myself out on the streets. I do hate homework though.
Mornin', how's neffy?
Alright. Finished my first week of school.
Much heavier than last semester. Gonna need to sort my work shit out cause I don't think I can skip half the classes this time
HE'S NOT EATIN IT!
I'll bring TWO sponges.
Well, don't just stand there.
Let me know if you need help with chemistry
He got to have his supper!
You're gonna die in this hole, and you're gonna like it!
Try and get away from my babies, cocksucker!
Are you swapping to days soon too for work?
The hardest class this term is prob philosophy. I'll let you know if I take a second chem class sometime though.
That gun is not gonna work the way you think it will!
Philosophy? How can that be difficult?
Tonight is my last night shift
Issue is work hasn't confirmed that I have those days off. Which means until then, I just need to desperately swap shifts with anyone who will
It is online meaning I need to manage my time and it is not particularly interesting to me right now so I can't focus. Actually difficulty my hardest class would be integral calculus, but I'm good at math and like it so it's an easy focus.
Trade sexual favors for days off.
Who taught you how to drive?
That's not very nice.
Guns aren't much use 'round here, son.
I'd rather stick my dick in a blender than in most of my co-workers.
Y-your compliments don't make me happy Zac.
That is fair, maybe ask politely and they will concede for just that.
It's always nice to spout some quotes.
The issue is that they would have to give me their weekend shifts for my weekday shifts for the hours to match up
Meaning they'd LOSE money, which is why no one will do it
that is a hard deal to organize.
How are you going to manage it?
Hoping work gets off their ass and responds to my TWA request
I hate you with all my being.
Work agreement thing. "I will always have these days off until XX/XX/XX date" or something
Ah alright, hopefully that goes through yeah. What are you learning this term?
Mostly just tax though
Let me die with no strings still attached to this worthless mortal coil.
I hate you so much that I will love you forever
Well if you need help you can account on me
Love and hate are both strong words.
Let's not kid ourselves, though.
There's no strong feelings between us.
I love you and this is how you treat me ;_____;
When we reach the end of our existence
We'll mean nothing to each other.
Even in the scope of our lives
I'm nothing, and you're likewise.
I'm just being odd and melancholy.
It would be unwise to take me too seriously.
That's what I did, and what put me in my state.
I tried to feel full, but now I just feel empty.
It was nothing but a mistake.
That's pretty useless though.
Just cutting off my existence would hurt people around me much more than it would ever help me. The only benefit it produces is (probably) neutrality, which will come eventually anyways.
I'll try to bear through it all even if it's not for me. It's not so bad.
can't be that. needs to be something biologically symmetrical. the beast is neither symmetrical or biological. maybe they're schizophrenia sixes since it's about senses and dharma
It's all life is.
A seemingly unending rollercoaster of unforgettable highs and unbelievable lows.
Why bother to seek happiness that's but temporary? That very same ecstasy will soon prove to be your misery in due time.
The only sense of ease can come in the fact that neither will last forever; pain and pleasure are momentary only. But when neutrality in this world is so wholly inadequate (see: boredom), what comfort can this statement really offer?
What do we head towards but eventual acceptance of the uncertainty that comes with the end of an age? Can we even hope to reach that, or are we bound to desperately cling onto something that we will never fully understand, trusting only in the euphoria of those eternally lost days?
Did I jump into a philosophy conversation today?
It's nothing but my drunk thoughts that deserve nothing but to be laughed at and discarded as the drivel they are.
You saved me the embarrassment of commenting further on that, thanks.
Meanwhile, I'm just eating yogurt, wishing I had some beer instead.
Beer doesn't do me any good.
I'd rather be content with yogurt.
Count them blessings, fam.
Pls. The only reason I'm even eating this is because I've been overspending on eating out. Tried to stock up on healthier stuff this paycheck.
Also I won't be drinking beer here anytime soon anyway. The US is not kind with their import prices.
the devil is us but not on an individual level, i could be you talking to me and you could be me talking to you. but what having two chaotic attractors means our lives are a job in one dimension of logic, where to the machines of the micrological they make the jobs (plural) of the immediate personal life you live a different realm of physics. this is what most people mean when they talk about the human endeavor like social behavior as metaphysical and maybe even unnatural
the devil's got twice as hard a job to make sense of the world since not interacting socially and making it more complicated actually for itself to do so in the meanwhile pretty much means you can take it for granted that no human or entity is the devil. it's like thermodynamic entropy. you can't be evil, because even civilization is something that reverses its own tendency to backslide
Price doesn't matter to me since I'm a spoiled little brat who's got all the money in the world.
I've been trying to spend less on eating and drinking lately, but spending 40 bucks on immediate food / drink today kinda nullified that.
I'll be back to normal with some determination tomorrow and probably spend less overall than in past weeks, but still.
Hope you can keep up with it.
Living the dream.
I'm living "on my own". I rent a room so I don't really have a huge level of expenditure, which is how I justify spending on comfort/fast food. If there's anything I miss about Mexico is that there is an abundance of bars with cheap, good beer, and absolutely no need to have a car to go out. SoCal sucks without a car
I have to say, eating or drinking problems wouldn't be quite as bad if I didn't have a car. It's a lot more easy to get around since I have one. My freshman and sophomore years of college were more lax. The car's been a blessing and a curse.
SoCal would have a lot of shit to do.
I know for a fact that one of the reasons I don't get fast food more often after work is because I don't have a car. I'm seriously considering not getting one, but because I have hobbies and want to be able to have friends and see them, a car is almost a requirement.
If you have such a problem with drinking just buy the stuff and send it to me. Just no rum.
Though the car is pernicious, I don't plan on just giving it away or anything. You're damn right that they're useful.
I don't ship, unfortunately.
In terms of drinking: in my youth (before the age of 21) I drank only Jim Beam bourbon because it was easier to get a large quantity of for a reasonable price. Now, I'm onto stouts and brandy.
I got rather sick on cheap rum before the age of 21 so now I'm turned off to it.
I've only had rum once, I didn't even have to get drunk off it to know that I wouldn't enjoy the actual drinking experience. I'm more about Vodka, a nice Whiskey, and most any decent beer, especially dark beers.
Just don't drink yourself dead and be useful to someone.
I'm too tired to discuss the human condition and how it effects the perceived and unperceived reality, so have some Satan porn instead.
I've enjoyed stouts from the start. Things like brown ales are growing on me, so I could probably diversify. Will probably just stick to brandy despite my origins in whiskey.
I'm quite broken enough that I'm more useful to others by being alone rather that giving my problems to anyone else.
I CARIDO YESTERDAY
TODAY I AM SEEING DOUBLE
wpuld u satan? I would sATAN
Well then stop presenting yourself as a problem or a burden or a liability or whatever it is you think of yourself as. Just be, Christ. Even an out of touch, no friends douche like me knows that.
Alcohol helps, btw.
I just don't present myself at all. I'm not in the business of making friends.
Alcohol is only a temporary solution. Making it a permanent solution will kill or injure you. It's useless.
I feel like even answering that should be an offense.
If i if asked nicely maybe
how r u doing
I'm failing to understand what the problem here is now. Or rather, what it is that you're trying to aspire to that you can't reach due to whatever it is you're struggling with internally.
For some time, I'd wanted to be irrationally happy. I optimistically thought you could somehow achieve lasting happiness outside of any heaven.
Then, I tried to be great. But I'm not strong enough to achieve cold greatness.
My desire to be great barred me from any goodness. I've largely denied the warmth of others, only holding onto scraps.
I have nothing to aspire to anymore, and that's what is killing me.
I failed twice.
I hope you only succeed greatly.
Surpass me and find something.
Hello julian darling how are you?
julian, lick butt
who wouldn't tbh
So, you're the kind of person that needs some goal to reach in order to feel fulfilled while living? Hmmm
I guess I used to be like that, but to be honest it's a kind of shitty way to live. I can't bring myself to live any other way than day to day, with the obvious minor planning for near future events so I can continue living. I'm not stupid enough to believe that there is a true "live in the moment" mentality to live healthily by
Probably, I mean, sure.
excellent form, 10/10
I am tood runk to *lick butt* in a fancy manner but I'm pretty sure I'd be really good at it if I were not typing it rn
>ywn lead a bunch of cats to superstardom with your accordion skills
why even live
I didn't think most people, myself included, had any reason to live but that they're constantly chasing after something to distract themselves from the inevitability of an end to everything because most don't want to confront the fact.
You can't be alive while doing nothing. The neutral state of being human is "boredom."
I'm not meant for it, likely.
You wish you were cool enough.
You have a class at 9:30?
Keep up, or I'll Satan you.
so your professor invented a device to make 60 years worth of time last in the few hours of your class period? because he should probably win a nobel prize
b-but what if I want you to
It's not fate.
Everyone has their limits.
Do you have a job? Do you go to school? Have a hobby? Do literally absolutely anything other than be at home drinking and eating while at the computer?