I want nothing more than to fuck a sexy deer girl.
Deer thread? Deer thread.
are we still doing dergn butts!?
>GIANT dog cock cumming in the mail this week
>probably most definitely have to go out of town for
>"family" will most likely open it
27 days since I last saved anything from FA, 547 new pieces of art from my watch list. Will I ever get around to saving again? Probably not.
Ooh, what did you get?
Coincidentally, I'm looking up BD toys right now, for Valentine's day. One of which was an extra large Rex, but he'll probably be later, after I get Nova which I've had my eye on for a while.
So what? If they say anything just look at them dead pan until they shut up.
Best effect is to wiggle it slowly in your hand while doing it.
XL rex's knot is a real challenge
should i tell fedex it's a bomb?
Yeah, it'll be fun on my tiny 5'2" frame. But a large Nova is the stepping stone to XL.
And no, that's not a good idea. Just tell your family to not open it.
Going to sleep now, take care of the thread, se yas
>I used to walk the streets at night as well. I was young, frustrated and depressed.
>I still remember those nights fondly, how strangely wonderful it was to see someplace usually busy now abandoned.
>To hear the errie sounds that came with night and it's ambience of machines and distant things.
It's wonderful indeed. I'm going to be doing it more often as well.
> I decided long ago to never take the cowards way out, and so I've suffered in my life for never facing what it was that depressed me.
> As I understand it now depression is something that can be used as a great power, if you turn it to do so.
> It's a calling from your mind, perhaps the subconcious and beyond, that there's something wrong that we're doing and it needs to be corrected.
>Yeah, I'd say those long walks or even the intense self reflection that accompanied it everywhere else changed me for the better. It helped me think differently and see things from other perspectives.
> I sometimes wonder, had I not been so harsh on myself, would I be as most people are? Sheeple for lack of a better word.
> I didn't talk to anyone and, being solemn and aggressive on approach people thought I would be "that guy" who shot everyone in the school.
> Truthfully, I did hate almost everyone at that time. But they were never worth the effort, in my opinion.
I don't know what depresses me. To me it's just a lack of anything interesting in my life. I'm an adrenaline junkie at heart, but have never had the opportunity to fulfill it. But soon I shall be racing motorcycles which I've waited for since I was 3. Oh yes, that will be fun.
Sounds like you've done well taking those walks. For me it's just finding peace of mind for 30 minutes. But it's something I guess.
Dude, I feel you. Everyone thought I was the next school shooter or serial killer too. But I had to be like that to protect myself from all those who hurt me physically and mentally in the past. It honestly hurts that people see me that way, but better hurting myself than others.
> Yes, depression hit me again for that very reason. The lack of involvement with things that are true to us, makes us hollow.
> That's a little trick I've learned to cope with any harsh feelings - take a time out. Ideally, meditation of some sort goes a long way. We're just so comfortable and involved with meaningless things it's easy to say we don't have the time.
> Yeah. People destroying themselves with drugs hurt me when I was young - I cared too much about people. Later on it became that other side - caring too much what others thought of me. In either case, thought, I know now it's not a crime to be a bit ego centered. Or rather, it's good to take care of yourself and not care too much for others. That is, after all, natural and the only way we can truly help others in the long run.
Then I hope you can find something to change that, brother. I feel your pain.
Yeah, I should do that more. I don't really think of it as meditation so much as something to do, but I suppose it is therapeutic in its own way. I know it's not nearly as satisfying during the day, but I'm sure getting out at night when it's calm and cool could help.
You and I are a lot alike, anon. I can't say for sure since we've only just begun talking, but it sounds like we've had similar pasts. I hope the best for your future, anon.
>tfw no big, stronk, bear gf to ride you hard all night, then be her little spoon and fall asleep in her arms
> Yeah, I've been working on bettering myself in ways, so it helps a lot - rather than just feeling sorry for myself and bringing myself further down the spiral.
> A walk, long and peaceful without much to think of, can be considered a type of meditation. Really anything that displaces you from the false existence we live and kind of recenters you - or gives you the pause to recollect yourself.
> I feel the same and same for you. I usually just lurk but decided to respond to you for that reason. After overcoming depression I yearned for something to help other people over come their own troubles. I still haven't managed to complete anything in that endeavor but I now understand that sometimes just talking about it with someone else can make a profound enough impact.
> These are the thoughts we repress from ourselves, after all. As natural and true as they are - we call them negative and try to ignore them. We often try only to be happy, drowning away our sorrows with entertainment, comedy or something of that nature. But some of us, it seems, just can't help but explore these things a little deeper.
That's good to hear.
I suppose that's true. Then I'll be meditating in that way more often.
Yeah, it can definitely help. I'm glad to have talked to you, anon. You sound like a good person.
Although we cannot explore those things deeper, we instead go deep into thought. Thinking about everything else in one's life, and meditating when the moon is high to help us find peace.
Life is suffering.
> A good person? That's a subject I've thought over with no real conclusion save for there is no true good or evil. There are things that are better or worse for us but good and evil - I feel - are myths of our species. In any case I read too much into that. Thanks, I'm sure you're a good person as well.
> Hmm... when the moon is high? I haven't explored those paranormal things enough, but they facinate me. I know that the moon really does effect us, and so other cosmic objects must. But I haven't experimented with that enough to know for myself. I've mostly experimented on my body with health the past five years and with interesting results.
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I suppose that is true. Everything is subjective after all. We all experience reality in our own ways.
I was thinking more literal than metaphorical, but such things are quite intriguing. It's been a while since I've messed around with metaphysical and paranormal stuff. I may get around to it again some time.
> I find the paranormal to be like the conspiracy theories. They both hold truths but are obscured by people who, on one hand, would rather bury their heads in the sand and those who, on the other hand, would find conspiracy in anything and everything.
> But they are different, of course. And what we call paranormal today we might later call "scientific" when we find some way to explain the strange things that are beyond our human understanding.
commencing small leopard dump
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Absolutely. I used to see ghosts when I was younger, and was way into alien stuff. I stopped seeing ghosts at around 8, and I personally believe it's because I stopped being afraid of them, and thus my affinity towards the paranormal slowly faded. I tried being edgy and getting into Satanism and the occult around 14, but that only lasted a year or so. However, just as I stopped, I had both the scariest and literally unbelievable moment of my life.
I don't want to say it was aliens, but I don't know what the fuck it was. I saw 3 lights in a triangle formation flash at eye level through the trees while looking through my living room window overlooking the back yard a few summers ago. I thought it was just a car until it flashed again a second later and was on the ground. I was frozen in fear, but after snapping out of it about 5 seconds later I pulled out my flashlight which I just so happen to grab. I shined it through the window and the lights stopped. I was so terrified that I ran back to my room. For 30 minutes I sat there in awe in fear of what just happened. I decided to go back out and watch it after mustering up ungodly amounts of courage, and watched for 5 minutes as these flashing lights moved around my yard. To this day I remember it with perfect clarity, yet I still can't explain it.
That was my story for today. So do I believe in the paranormal? Absolutely. But it's been a long time since I experienced anything paranormal, and never has it been like the "alien" story.
I just had a realization.
I wonder if my falling out of the occult is what caused that. I forgot to mention that I literally thought about meeting aliens that night too. Now I really want to get back into the occult.
> Interesting. I've never seen ghosts but I did smell one once. In a house where no one ever smokes inside, let alone cigars, I smelled the heavy stench of cigar smoke in my face as if someone was right there and blowing it at me.
As much as I want to experience something like that, I think my mindset is too closed off in some way to notice it. According to the Chinese horoscope, my sign wards off spirits, burglars and fires. My lady, on the other hand, is extremely receptive.
Do I believe in paranormal? Of course. But I do not claim to understand -what- it is or have much experience in the matter myself.
I've had that happen before. It's really weird when you first experience something like that because you can never explain it too. It makes you think.
Interesting. If you ever show up again, ask for Dash. I'm usually here, and would love to talk.
Have fun, anon. I really enjoyed talking to you tonight. Take care, brother.
Pretty good, relatively speaking. I had a nice talk with that anon earlier, and shared a lot of ideas and personal experiences. All because I went out for a walk and mentioned it here. My night has been made.
How about you?
> Dash? I've seen your name. I'll be around.
> And that was only a light experience, something like yours would seem more strange to others.
> I can only think of one thing that was so completely unexplainable that to try to describe it to other people would seem, perhaps, a bit odd.
> I was meditating and following a certain guide to link with my past self. In any case, the meditation became very intense. Best described as I felt... a sort of pulsating energy all around my body that was so strong I was a bit afraid and wanted to snap out of it - but I flowed with it instead. I saw some strange things that I can't all remember except that I saw a triangle form from my eyes and where you might imagine your third eye is and it trailed off in front of me. Straight lines that disappeared in the distance. All this while my eyes were closed, mind you. And it got me to thinking that this sort of thing was what that whole "illuminati" symbol was about. A triangle with an eye.
Ups and downs really, mostly ups though, but i woke up to a shitton of messages from different people telling me that, if i went through with the enlisting thing, they'd cut contact.
Beast mode: Activated.
Well that's fucking retarded. Who cares what you do with your life? That's none of their god damn business.
That's amazing. I've never had anything like that happen, but I did used to go into deep meditations, and would basically try to levitate. I got to the point where I raise my arms completely without ever using any muscles. I'm not sure how it works, but it was neat. Never had anything like your experience happen to me though.
Havent even signed up yet and im already a fascist murderer, kek. But yeah i just kinda let it slide, i'd rather go army than uni at this point anyways so it's not like my opinions gonna change.
> I think I was just in the right moment at that time. Perhaps it was trying to link with my former self. Perhaps it was the calmness of my mind and not really focusing on much - just letting things flow.
>I'm not afraid but I have not attempted it again - I will sometime in the future.
Good. While I don't necessarily agree with the military, I'm not going to try to stop you. That's your call. I wish you the best of luck, friend.
That's really cool. I hope you do try it again, and something good comes out of it.
Over here we learn a lot of stuff applicable to the civilian sector too, so who knows maybe it'll just be a quick stint, something to "do" so to speak and then i'll go back to the books or something.
Also it means a lot to me that you dont let your dislike/disagreement be a wedge between us. Im fortunate to count you as a friend.
Though admittedly making Jaeger or Frogman would be INSANE, but im unsure if im willing to become a career soldier.