I was rejected by my crush about 5 years ago and thought I had gotten over it.
T'was a rather harsh rejection too.
Anyway, I've come across some of their information via resume and am now have a moral dilemna over if I should take revenge by signing up to stupid shit with their email and phone number or if I should just leave it.
Over the weekend I was in the ER with my pregnant wife. She had a miscarriage. We're crushed. She was 2 months along. I know this is common, but it's just insane how devastated I am right now. And it's our own secret. We were waiting to tell family and friends about the pregnancy until we knew everything was healthy and okay. Depressed. You faggots are the first people I've told.
i'm sorry for your loss anon.
I never know how to reply to posts like this. Or whether to reply at all.
there's the /b/ tard in me that wants to take the piss. Then there's the human side that tries to relate.
But I can't relate. I have no idea what you're going through. I hope you're both coping anon. And I hope time makes the hurt less.
My mom once mentioned to me and my siblings I would've had another sister born in '93, but she had a miscarriage. She's almost 50 now and she's only ever talked about it twice. I'm sure it still hurts her to think about it. My condolences to both you and your wife.
If you ever feel like this, just remember it's not a recent invention, life has been pointless since before you were born.
I don't really have anything helpful to say because I don't know what you're going through, or how that would feel in the slightest. But despite that you should remember what you have, and cherish it for being in your life.
Stay strong anon, our thoughts are with you.
>My Mother was in the hospital for CHS & was on Medication
>She was doing good
>Supposed to be released yesterday
>On my way to pick her up with my Father
>My Mother randomly dies yesterday morning when she was supposed to be released.
>Nobody expected it, not even the doctors
Everyone is shocked & grieved, it feels like a strong punch in the gut, & I was really close to her too.
This has got to be one one of the greatest losses I've endured.
Oh gosh, anon... I'm so sorry to hear. I honestly dread this day more than anything lately. Time doesn't stop for anyone and as my parents get older it's becoming more of an issue to fully digest.
Shit... RIP to your mother, anon.
She was only 50 too, nobody was expecting her to die this young. She had a good 30 years in her.
>tfw roughly 25 minutes before she passed (6:00am) she was telling the Nurse how she was looking forward to be released to spend the day with my Father & I.
>my dick doesn`t listen to me anymore
Also I forgot to mention, I found a voicemail that she left me perhaps a month ago.
"Hey son, I just called yout up to say that I love you, goodbye."
>Hit me like a ton of bricks.
Jesus, my mother is diagnosed with lymphoma recently
It doesn't look fatal but they aren't doing anything, I'm worried that it will evolve into a nastier type which isn't curable
She must be so scared, trying not to show it to us. I hear her cry from time to time
Why is life so bleak
This thread is full of butt blasted beta bitches
No, my childhood was fine anon. Even divorce really wasnt a problem.
Would have had another brother but he died two days after birth. He and my other brother were twins. The twin survived and mom always thinks of the one that didn't when she sees the one that did.
My father's not doing so hot. He as two large brain tumors growing in his head. They're really Fucking him up and the doctors are just sitting on their hands. I may lose him soon. I'm sorry anon. Cherish your memories and she'll never truly be gone.
I was diagnosed with Von Hipple-Lindau yeasterday. It's a condition where your body desn't produce the right enzymes to stop tumors. I have kidney, adrenal, pancreatic cancers; a benign tumor in my brain; and a tumor in my eye that will blind me in 10 years if is survive cancer surgery. All of this revealed in the last 3 days.
I'm going to go home after work, have a bottle of expensive scotch, and jerk off to camwhores.
I think i've found the love of my life, and i'm speaking in the past, because i did, but now she's long gone, and despite the fact i've tried to cover it all up with lies, pretending to love other woman, i can't get over her. When i thrust my hips against a woman, i see her, i see myself cheating her, when i kiss another woman, her lips come into my mind, i wonder, why do i have to be such a scumbag to people i aprecciate and love?, and such a cool guy to nowheres?.
I had her, she was mine, all i had to do is claim the prize, yet i never had the guts, i went close to her, but fleed, always discretely, was it gonna be months? or a lifetime? I'll never know, i lost my chance, it's long gone, will the destiny, or the luck, or god make us meet again? I don't know, but for now, it's just a memory, a sad and embarassing memory, but even still, thinking about it makes me so happy, i'm here, walking forward, hoping that someday, our roads will melt and we will walk together.
I know this will attract the usual trolls...but I have no one to turn to.
>recently graduated from business school
>depressed for over 10 years
>fucking alone...always have, always will be.
>About to start working, but it hurts to function...to interact...and to just be.
>is scared to death that this will be it...that this will be the path to slow decline
>I would rather kill myself now than live another day of this fucking misery
>Thinking about ending myself...but fearing what it will do to my parents.
I'm afraid of the fucking world you guys...and I don't even know what I can do about it. I dont want to live in this world anymore you guys...
I dont expect pity, I just wanted to put my emotions out there
I just want the constant sadness to end....
My mom had miscarriaged twice until he finally give birth to a child that died before she could hold him. Two years later she had me and year later after that my sister. She tells me it was rought until she had me and my sister. So my thoughts go to you. Keep trying and when she finally give birth to a healthy child she will gradually ease the pain of loss
>tfw depressed and not feeling like getting anything done
>weary of the world
>constant arbitrary anxieties about future, upcoming tests, failure and disappointing my family's expectations
>disturbing pictures in my mind of my loved ones as I physically hurt or kill them, or finding them dead, couldn't even harm them however even if I wanted to
>never ending stream of thoughts, can never stop thinking, even during sex
>can't just learn, have difficulties understanding things, getting constantly distracted by the things listed here, can't learn for more than 15min straight
>test on Monday, deadline for portfolio Wednesday
>even playing games isn't genuine fun anymore, it just distracts me from this bullshit somewhat
>and some other things that didn't come to mind right now
Who knows this feel? I just want to do good in my studies (CS freshman here). I can't turn it off, I can't get myself to stop these horrible thoughts. I'll get Venlafaxine in the middle of February which's supposed to suppress such thoughts and to boost my motivation to get shit done. I feel tired, weary and lost in an ocean of unnecessary questions... Anyone have advice on how to bear with it?
this sounds like OCD. I had the same thing, and its a mental-coping mechanism. I honestly have no idea how to battle it other than try to fix the way you handle your stress...since that is the only thing that really helps
pretty much exact same here anon, I know its not really helpful but I recently decided to embrace it and just lean into my depression yknow? I was stressed 24/7 about nothing much in particular like my relationship and university and the like, and it was destroying me both psychologically and physically.
So I've recently dropped out of uni halfway through my 3rd year and broke up with my gf last week. Shouldn't be long now before I kms.
Don't worry mate, making a temp gmail right now. Gimme a few minutes while I get the verification code and I'll let you know. I'll save you yet my man, that's a promise on me.
3 months ago I bought as much cocaine I could to overdose on it. Did over 2 grams and started fading. Called my dad to say sorry. Did another gram, downed some pills with whatever was left of beer and went to bed. I woke up the next day to the sound of a voice inside my head. I dont really believe in anything, but if there is a god, this was it. The voice said I had to stop being a fucking idiot. Im not even kidding. It said my life was going to be alright, I just had to take control over it. Stop the whining and self pity. Life is what we make of it. I was born again that day. Threw all my drugs away, woke up a new man. Life can be good, but you have to MAKE it. It wont just happen. Chase a better future. Leave behind everything that doesn't work for you, and become something else. Help another soul once you find yourself.
Super thanks anon, didn't know about it. My carrier's proving a bit fidgety rn and I haven't gotten an SMS :/
That's what I get for choosing a cheaper SIM option that throws me in the back of the traffic queue