/b/ i feel this feeling thats not going away. i used to kill animals but now i live in fuckin cliche suburbia. cameras and neighborhood watch all that shit. where can i catch or buy small animals without being caught? or some alternative (drugs?) im already an alchoholic so..
You don't have to kill animals anymore.
They come in a can now.
where do i get them though thats my question. fish dont work and im filmed when walking the streets i need an alternative. im a beheader and de gutter. then just orgainze all the bits
yes, it's called "practice acting in a certain way without thinking in terms of all-or-nothing until little by little the new way starts to feel natural, or at least like one of many options available to you". not to be condescending
alternatively you can try to blast at your ingrained thought patterns with psychedelics. might only work temporarily or not at all, or backfire, but for some addicts it's like an instant cure. you can get san pedro cactus, i.e. mescaline, online. or you can extract dmt with a bit more work, or maybe better to make ayahuasca
You seem to be living in a city.
Become a vet
Good advice here
I wish I could torture people too, believe me, but it tends to be frowned upon.
OP have you ever checked out My Friend Dahmer? Fantastic read, he used to torture animals as well, as you probably know.
deliriant, you'll love it.
Plus you can still drink.
National parks are filled with critters.
Nothing thereafter. You haven't justified the bahaviour besides 'fun' and 'a feeling' and you don't seem to be at peace with yourself if you're cutting, drinking, making suicide pacts.
So stop torturing, stop hurting yourself, find something else that's fun ... Profit.
Lying cunt. Another pathetic attention seeker without the stones to do themselves in.
You're a sad little boy who should ask his mummy to get him some low level councilling to help with your low self esteem and pathetic anxiety issues.
If that doesn't work pm me your address and proof it's you to [email protected] I'll come round and exact some vicarious revenge on you for the animals you've hurt, and assist you in your death wish.
Seriously, that's my mail address. Let me know where you are and I'll come by and stomp your neck for you.
Why don't you just go hunting. You can shoot animals and clean them when you get home, then give your mom the meat the feed the family in exchange for not paying rent in her basement.
Holy fuck dude calm down.
The only thing I would say is that if you peel the skin off a cat, imagine if somebody was peeling your skin off. It would probably sting a bit and you would want the guy doing it to fuck off so you can watch Seinfeld. People have the capacity to kill, you're not special in this regard, so I would put torture on the back burner unless you logically would want all those same things done to yourself.
God you're a fucking leech waste of a human. If you dont kill yourself i surely hope someone comes around and does. People like you deserve to be ass raped continuously in prison and force fed their own shit. Fuck you go back to the stone age where you belong.
If only i could find you in person i would tie you up and skin you alive, chop off all of your fingers and toes but first peel your nails off. And then set you on fire. How does it feel knowing people want to kill you? Soon you will get caught, and what will happen to you in prison makes me smile.
I used to have those urges too OP, it got bad to the point that I went out one night to find something I could kill (third wold country), found a kitten, beheaded it, but I immediately felt bad afterwards, not because of the act but it felt kind of a waste, its hard to explain, it just didnt feel fulfilling for me, I dont think killing or torturing small animals are my thing.
Goats work. Growing up my dad and I would go to ranches nearby and buy young goats for cheap. Ranchers never had a problem with us slaughtering, bleeding, hanging, skinning, gutting it at their place under a tree and then burying intestines,etc. We took the meat with us and then go back when we ran low.
Perfectly calm thanks m8
Just offering to help a pathetic faggot end his miserable life.
If you're unable to kill yourself because incompetence or fear you need a friend to step in. One less gaylord attention whore shitting up the world with their sad fantasies.
A true psychopath wouldn't want to kill themselves. They would believe their own way of thinking was correct, regardless of what others thought. Most psychopaths are narcicists and couldn't give two fucks about anyone else. They're likely incapabale of it.
You're just a teenage attention seeking little bitch.
no you're not. did you move to the suburbs with mom and dad? you know you have these "urges" and yet you moved to a place where you knew you wouldn't be able to do anything. you sound like a child that doesn't get enough attention at home.
Sounds like you have an immense amount of self hatred. When I was a kid I was like this as well. I don't think you're a bad person OP, you just need to get some some help. You don't sound like an inherently bad person, you just have alot of issues to work through.
Try self surgery. I have fun. I started notching my ears. I used a pair of scissors to cut a piece of my ear out. Then i graduated to scalpels and locals. After i was asked who did my work by a hot dominatrix. We work as a couple sometimes and all i do is cut bits of people off. Its amazing. I havent had to hurt anyone. I get paid to take toes. Most of them keep their bits. Usually just tips or bits of their skin. I have taken a couple balls. A jar of fingernails. I used to pull them out of bums for a bottle of vodka. Then they'd get hammered and offer tips for mcdonalds. If they sign a release form its fucking fine.