feels thread i dont know why im making this, i guess i just

>>719011518
ill share some feels with ya

Have you been diagnosed with a Mental Illness?

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I have been feeling listless and Sleepless

>>719011749
no i havent

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Closure ? .....From what?

>>719011518
Is it your negative inner voice telling you to hate yourself and your accomplishments, or are you actually saying people are being complete assholes to your face?

>>719012017
to like have how i feel said and announced, rather than being bottled up for ever and ever

>>719012243
dont bottle it up, let the hate out

Well if I have learned anything from being online is that no matter what someone posts , there is always someone who identifies........Even if we can't call each other true friends ...we can take comfort in knowing we can continue to eeek along just for the small and few Laugh out loud moments we can have with others ...even if artificially.

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I'm feeling pretty good about most things in my life right now. Not everything is going 100%, but things could be worse and if I'm honest with myself they're not bad. Plus I'm working toward other things to make it better again.

I know that's not in line with what you really meant by a feels thread; but there are also feels other than being a miserable, joyless bore.

>>719012364
This.
Live YOUR life as YOU want to, OP. if someone doesn't like it, fuck them.

>>719012243
Don't bottle stuff up. Accepting your emotions is the first step of getting to a better place mentally.

>>719012088
i feel its both
>>719012364
im scared to be completely on my own i mean i have friends and family but i can feel it when people talk to me. its a sort of why are you here type tone. ive never really been good at anything and ive missed out on a lot of stuff because of it, mostly because ive developed this fear of failure so i dont hang out with friends or i flake out on them cause i dont want to dig my hole anydeeper

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>>719012666
Checked

>>719012915
>>719012775
thank you both. i stopped seeing a therapist a couple years ago and even then i didnt open up to him all that much. i only ever truely opened up to my girlfriend and best friend of 2 years about this kind of stuff but she is long gone out of my life now
>>719013019
and kek, i honestly didnt expect a positive response like this thank you to every one in this post

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I think about suicide almost everyday, not really that i'd do it but just the concept of just not worrying anymore is something very attractive. I have fun online and even have a lot of friends that care for me but im always so afraid that ill lose everything and live in a downward spiral. I also have ADD and have put off college because of a fear of failure and my highschool life was filled with disappointment from everyone because I had what it took but I never applied myself because I didnt enjoy it. Should I get some kind of help?

>>719013007
You're letting yourself be controlled by your fears.
I know how that feels, I've spent the last 4 and a half years working myself out of stress induced depression and anxiety.
One thing that comforts me is the notion of "People don't really think of you as much as you think of them thinking of you. Rarely do they think as negatively of you as you do yourself."
Go look up cognitive behavioral psychology and mindfulness meditation. Those two things have helped me a lot.
When this shit started for me, I had to use about 8 hours just to psyche myself up to go grocery shopping, now I can just go if I need to.

>>719013328
i would say to try a therapist when i had one it helped me for the little while i went to it
>>719013453
i will check them out thanks

Things could be worse mang. You could have several street gangs hunting you down because you snitched a few of their dealers out to your friend's father who's also a cop

Could be worse

>>719013269
No Problemo B\ Bro ...regardless of what other fags on this site say some of what goes on on this site is still Redeemable..

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MORE GUTS
MORE GLORY

>>719011518
I like your pic so I'll respond.

I feel you. You feel like a brick in a wall and that you're screaming but nobody is hearing it, right?

I can tell you're in a situation that involved a routine of some sort like school, work, or whatever and it feels like you're stuck in your current position.

If you don't fit that description, stop reading here.

You, my friend, need change. Do something new, find a hobby, hire a prostitute in Nevada, interview cannibal warlords of Liberia. Do something. Anything that you can think of that will be different and get you out of the current situation that you're in now, if not temporary than permanently.

>>719013637
Another thing that is good to remember is, that you are not unique in feeling like this.
So many people before you have gone through this and so many people in the future will go through it.
If you're open about how you feel and openly deal with it, you're making space for others to chime in and figure out that they are not alone in those emotions.
Just be honest with yourself and others. Give them a chance to say no thanks before you unburden yourself though, if they ask you how you feel, answer with "You really want to know or are you in for a polite answer right now?"

>>719011872
i love feels threads

I saw the girl I like with her bf, I regret not making a move last year when she talked to me daily but then it stopped. I wish I can get rid of her in my mind but I'm stuck, I tried for almost 2 years that's seems beta but if you understand then you know how hard it is.. I feel like this
>>719012485

Yeah, im on the cusp of moving out OP, but i dont want to do school, and have really no motivation. Overall just scared of whats gonna happen in the next few years, probably just gonna enlist :\

>>719015166
You should go out and meet more people anon, it won't be the girl you wanted a year ago, but once you meet someone who attracts you and who are attracted back, your emotions for the first girl will fade.

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>>719015285
Go find a gap year job anon, something that gives you a bit of work experience while you figure out what you want to do with your life.
Combine that with a social hobby and you'll be good to go for a bit. You don't have to have your entire life planned yet, you're still young.

>>719015302
I hope so, depression and social anxiety is a bitch though. Not many girls left who like my humor and my hobbies

>>719015320
this is how i think and how i am and how i want to stay

Anyone else feel like nothing is worth doing, like no one is worth seeing?

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Suck it the fuck up. You're fucking alive. Do something. Anything. You can literally do ANYTHING.
The fuck you doing?

>>719015166
Same happened to me used to like me but i was to oblivious to notice except she sends nudes to a guy now and is so possessive even though he does stuff with other girls she gets mad at him but does stuff a few days later. It makes me made cause the commitment to another person no repercussion and it hurts that someone is willing to be there for her

>>719015750
The fuck are you doing?

>>719015750
Drugs. I'm doing drugs.

>>719015750
Alive on the outside just barely, depression eating me from the inside out

>>719015690
As I said above to the op, cognitive behavioral psychology and mindfulness meditation could help you a lot.
Also the way to minimize social anxiety is to expose yourself to the situations that scare you and normalize yourself in them.
Go to a social place to do your hobbies, someone is bound to like your humor if you get out there and meet them.

>>719015907
why are you sad, bro?

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>>719015835
Being Carl motherfucking Sagan

>>719016030
tell me about quasars in that dreamy voice plz

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Bitchin in this thread won't get you anywhere faggots

>>719015995
Dropout, virgin,no work experience, always looked down on and just last year was horrible

>>719016030
Better get to the hospistal then, chemosabi.

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>>719016095
What If We're Already TherE?

>>719016179
That picture is autistic.

>>719016226
Ohhhhh~ someone's good at insults

>>719016095
Won't get me Nowhere?.....So it WILL get me Somewhere! !!!! NOOOOICE

OP here i wanted to say thank you so much to evryone here in this thread who came to talk. it really does help knowing how so many other people feel and that im not alone, its very warming. i really need to sleep now.

>>719016122
Im not hearing any fundamental, unchangeable problems, just areas you can improve.
>work on motivation first bro
>carve out some goals from that feeling of want
>stick to goals
>become alpha
>????
>profit!
If, you know, the whole white picket fence sounds good to you

>>719016309
Sleep tight anon, we might not be close to each other, but we're in the same boat.
Take care of yourself.

>>719016663
u ok anon?

>>719016663
This barely applies to me, since I'm not even friendzoned.

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>>719016275
Yeah mate that's me alright. Take a step back; you might get burned.

>>719016756
Read >>719016760

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>>719016095
FUCK OFF MR LAHEY

>>719016583
To be fair this door swings both ways. All the time I see both men and women that are snobby and aren't prepared to settle for what they're really worth.

>>719016423
Thank you

>>719016663
Oh come on, how can you be upset and feelsy at that one?

>>719016910
I'm not, really…I've just accepted that as my fate.

>>719016931
>"Looking for love in all the wrong places"

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AWAKEN MY MASTERS

>>719017114
I'm not looking, but no one is offering me anything either.

>>719017001
Don't entirely believe you; but that's neither here nor there. So okay.

>>719017186
That's like wanting a new house without contacting realtors to get some offers.

>>719017186
I feel you, I used to give people love to make me feel good but then I felt empty because no one loved me back..

just failed my english midterm, fuck yeah i fuckng hat emyself

>>719017186
>I'm not looking, but no one is offering me anything either.
Glad I never quite got this pathetic. I came close, but not quite.

>>719017183
AWAKEN MY MASTERS

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/b/ros I feel like shit. I have a few friends back home but at the moment I have none, the people I hang out don't know me, I allways need to be the clown, making something or saying some shit so that they notice me... Otherwise they'd just ignore me. Plus every time I look at the mirror I feel like shit... No I'm not a fat ass nerd, I guess I could call myself normal but not thin, plus I'm a manlet( approx 5'6), my hair is wavy shit, I don't have a defined jaw, I'm not strong or menacing. I'm a hand hold virgin, like I never even got to hold a girl's hand romanticaly, but I guess it's by choice seeing that I've rejected some girls for being shit, but I guess some of them were 6/10... I sometimes feel like the fucking Sun, and then it seems like a bomb drops and I'm pure unrefined shit... I'm too young (19) to feel like this /b/ros and I don't know what to do, and like I have no idea what to do with my life from now on...

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>>719017289
>>719017342

>>719017332
Do you know why you failed?
Can you do the it over?

>>719016122
Sounds like me, except I'm still in my university

>>719017316
That's why I try not to get too close to anyone anymore. It always ends the same.

>>719017603
Does your feeling good and feeling bad come in cycles?
If so you might be bipolar.
Go seek out help anon.

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>>719017603
>baawww no one notices me
notice yourself then faggot

>>719017614
To be honest I'd rather you told me to go fuck myself.

>>719011518
I don't know whats worse:
The rover did a good job but can't go home, or that I am feeling from looking at a fucking robot on a dusty ass rust covered planet

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>>719018046
Go fuck yourself.

>>719017885
So you're telling me to become the ultimate narcissistic, because sometimes I am, principaly when I have people I know with me, I just go around trying to prove how much of a hot shot I am, but I don't feel like that that much, I mean I do feel smarter than most people even thought I've never actually focused on my studies in the end of High School...

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>>719018333
i didn't say any of that fuckface

>>719018059
Share with us anon, it'll feel relieving.

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I'm so tired anons, I've been tired for about 5 years now I don't sleep at night not because I have insomnia when I'm lying in bed and everything is quiet I can only hear every failure and obsess about what other people think about me and so I turn back the computer just so I don't have to be alone with my thoughts.

>>719017829
I don't actually know,I guess I could say I leave home feeling like the boss and come back thinking I'm shit, sometimes I leave feeling like garbage and come back the same. I used to go to a therapist since I was 12, I've been diagnosted with OCD and I guess borderline depression. Last year I visited a psychiatrist for 2 sessions but the "medicine"(homeopathy) he gave me didn't feel like shit. Then I moved and my suicide thoughts vanished for awhile, but I still feel like a nuisance to most people that I talk, and most people are a nuisance to me... Guess I'm just a depressed asshole... Btw my dad was full on bipolar, is it hereditary?

How do you get over someone who was perfect for you knowing it was your fault you fucked it up

>>719012071
This is the most terrifying post I've ever seen. I'm surprised nobody responded.

>>719018815
Yeah it can be hereditary.
Go look for a cognitive behavioral psychologist for your depression. If you are actually bipolar, homeopathy will do jack shit for you, since it's usually a hormonal imbalance screwing you over.

>>719018885
By accepting that you fucked up and doing stuff to improve yourself and move on.
You'll meet another person to love in due time if you put yourself out there.

>>719011518

How do you feel emotions? I want to be able to feel emotions.

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currently

>>719014757
I dunno, man. I'm not OP, but personally I can't think of almost any situation where I could let my true emotions out, and not be judged for it. Only time I could are around my 2 normie friends, who can't relate at all, or my one friend who feels more down than I do, and relies on me a little bit to help him out of feeling that way. When would you ever open up like that?

>>719012071
wow

I take acid because its relatively the safest drug I can take that lets me forget about all my fuck ups for a while and allows me to enjoy life again

I wonder if SFbro who was posting about some bitches on a train for a long ass time will pop in dis thread

>>719019273
All the time really, people have an easier time understanding you if you're open about how you feel. It takes a lot of hard introspection to do so, but it is rewarding in the end.
I've spent 4 and a half years working on being honest like that and it has helped me tremendously.
Also let people judge you if they want, if they have no empathy for how you feel, they're not really your friends anyway. As long as you don't go on a constant whine it'll be good for you.

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Thanks to whoever reads this but


I moved out about a year ago, was 16, am 17 now. My friend said i could come live with him and his mother if i wanted, and given that i hated where i lived i said why not, i wasnt leaving anything behind. Possibly one of the worst decisions in my life, i cant buy a car because i cant open a bank account by myself, if i got a car who's insurance would i be on. im doing online school which i hate, and much like a few of you anons im terrified of whats going to happen in the next year. OP's pic related

>>719019864
>am 17 now
underage n b&

>be me
>be in highschool
>sign up for school talent show
>get excited and think "I've always wanted to perform this will go great"
>signthatshit.png
>practice everyday to not fuck up on stage
>go to auditions
>do fine just freak out a little bit
>they still accept me
>practice on stage everyday for a week and get better performing on stage
>today'sthebigday.mp4
>4 of my teachers there and a shit ton of my friends
>my turn
>abouttopissmyself.gif
>walk up on stage
>make a few jokes and people laugh
>sit down to play the piano
>start song off and do fine
>get to the middle of the song
>forget lyrics and fuck up the piano
>bomb harder than Hiroshima
>walk off stage about to have a panic attack
>miss school the next day so I have a 4 day weekend and not see anyone for a while

I'm really disappointing in myself for somehow fucking up the song

>>719020046
what song /b/ro ': <

>>719020046

Man, if they were even close to being good friends they'd appreciate you like mad for even having the balls to do something that brave.

>>719020180
Are You Happy by Bo Burnham

>>719020258
i put a firework in my mouth and ripped my frenulum under my tongue and had to be taken to the hospital on new years, that was pretty embarassing

>>719011518
>>719012088
You just need to stop worrying. It's a phase everyone's bound to go through at some point.
You need motivation to go through all of this. For me..this motivation comes from having true friends (friens with whom you actualy can talk about anything and not be judged)..or a girlfriend..or meet chicks..that shit motivates you like a motherfucker.
Read this book - The power of now by Eckhart Tolle. It changed it for me.
Once I did MDMA with a friend..it brought our friendship to another level..I didn't know that was possible..the honesty..the trust and the support you will get.

Put a smile on that face, bro, you'll overcome it like I did and like everyone else.

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Am I the only one who ever really feels sad when it's the dead of night and alone

I just feel that's the most vulnerable I am and when I'm in this state anything can hurt me

>>719020046
At least you did something in spite of it scaring you.
You'll do better the next time you do it.

>>719020408
it just makes me sad knowing other people are happy and having fun at those hours

>>719020408
No you are not alone in feeling like that sometimes.
In fact I'd say most people feel like that from time to time. I've felt like that plenty of times.

I don't feel like I fit in anywhere. The people I hang out with I don't feel actually like me, I feel like they just humour me. I don't love anyone, I honestly can't even say I love my parents. My entire existence is a facade, hollow and lonely. I know I'm not normal, but is there anyway I can feel less fucking empty?

I'm scared I'm going to spend the rest of my life with someone who doesn't benefit me as much as I benefit them.

I love my girlfriend to death. But in the years we've been dating, I'm the support for finances and emotional things, life in general. She is a glass cannon, gets mad at me and says things to me that would put her to tears in a few seconds. I love this girl. Everyone has their downsides, I've accepted that.

She's also had depression for years. She is very close with her family, they all live close by. But her mother passed away a few weeks ago. My gf already works every other month, not making nearly as much money as I do (we're both minimum wage college students working part time). I have material wants, but a lot of my money goes into supporting both of us while her dad's paychecks go towards the piled up medical bills and keeping their living situation decent.

I recognize she's in a shitty place in life. But it's so fucking hard to want to do so many things, buy things for myself and do what I want, because our lives revolve around her and her anxieties and depression. I love this girl, no doubt. But what will the future hold? Will I be stuck, half-way up the career ladder I want to pursue, because I'm locked down as the sole bread winner? I don't want to carry the fucking team, I want to help.

I love this girl but I'm scared.

>>719020667
Yo need the fucking friends bro..you have to look for them.
I have this one true friend who is a very tough person to talk to..but he has filters..like everyone..you have to earn their trust and they will open up.
MDMA connects people..1 on 1

>>719020667
that is like me dude 100% of the way
I'm even in a relationship and I feel like he doesn't even love me

>>719020667
Does anything bring you positive emotions?

>>719020667
Yeah, by realizing that you are not alone in feeling like this. That emptiness is probably from a defense mechanism you've employed to avoid feeling bad. You're actually exceedingly normal, plenty of people have felt like that.
Go look for help anon, it's worth it and so are you.

>>719021116

Literally fucking me. I get so paranoid because my girlfriend expresses her love for me so much, and I say it back but I don't really feel it. It fucking sucks man.

>>719020667

MDMA, Animals. That's about it.

>>719021276

It's hard you know, to go out with your friends and have to stand like a fucking idiot when someone starts crying, or to have to fake a response to something you can't relate to. It feels so superficial, and it makes me feel weak. I hate it.

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>>719012685
Shit mate. I used to be like you just a week or so back. Then suddendly problems started to arise in my relationship. I mean, it was never perfect but it was never terrible either. Just broke up like two hours or so ago and I'm still a tearful mess. But the only person I could tell is gone. Pretty coincidental that a feelsthread is up just as I came on to try and distract myself.

She spent the last two hours crying and talking to me. I had so many thing to tell her but I didn't know how. I feel like a failure.

>>719021125

Little bit spaced, replied to my own comment.

But yeah, MDMA, Animals.

>>719021392
Yeah I know it is. I've been where you are and gotten out of it, so it is possible, hard but possible.
Getting a cognitive behavioral psychologist and attending mindfulness classes helped me a lot with it.

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The only thing that inspires me to make music anymore

>>719021043
Bro, you and your girlfriend went through many tough situations and that bounds you together..psychologicaly speaking.
If you have dreams you want to pursue you must go do them. If you think she's holding you back help her have dreams of her own and to fight for them. If she doesnt she's definetly holding you back.
I understand you love her..but..the saddest (lemme put it this way) thing is that what you feel with her you will feel with the next girl also..I fucking guarantee it.

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M e right now.

Was going to make a post like this while at work today. I feel you guys. Wanting to die but thinking of the ones who care. The only reason I have not downed my two bottles of anti depressants is my little brother. I'm 19 and hes 18 but we're closer than anything. I've been out of state for months now and daily I'll sit and fantasize my own death. Never used to dream now they involve me dying or my ex of three years. Shit feels rough but I found a job that treats me like family,and renting from a close friend.only thing I can suggest is to move at your own space "suck it up" doesn't work. Be you just focus on the future involving you as the main role

>>719021875
Thanks for the response. I know she has dreams, I'm just not entirely sure what they are. I think she wants to get into astronomy but she knows that's not a money making career because there's thousands of people who'll do it for free.

I don't want to leave this girl, but I see what you're saying. I just feel stuck. I mean I don't mind it, but I know I want to branch out. It doesn't help I never really got around in hs, but I'm more attractive now and want to achieve a body count higher than 3.

We're both very young. Another thing is that if we ever split up, she'd be a fucking mess. I'm one of a few things holding her together. I don't think she'd kill herself, but I can't see her getting past it. I don't know, I'm just rambling. I don't have anyone to talk to about this.

>>719022291
You'll live your life the way you want bro but Take it from me, the decisions you make for a significant other don't mean anything if you guys split

I broke it off with a girl because I had to be honest with her because I didn't have any feelings for her. I wasn't in the best place could barely hold any feelings for anything so if I held any attraction to her it was dead. Half a year later I grow as a person and I still see her around but she was in a relationship by then and I couldn't tell her anything bout it. I soon begin to find out she shares a lot more interests with me than I knew from politics to Rick and Morty to to views on life and shit even gangster movies. Kills me inside because I know I blew it. One day she texts me out of nowhere asking me if I wanted to go to an art show. OFC I decide to go. When I get there she greets me with a smile and a big hug, we spend the next few hours listening to the live bands, painting and being close to each other and talking bout life (had arm around her but didn't do anything. I gotta go cause shit needs to get done before I can sleep. Tell her and she gives me the biest fucking hug thats lasting a good minute. I don't do anything cause I'm fucking retarded. Now its 2 months later and Im taking 4 tabs of acid and I realize how fucking great she is I text her and she says thanks and she's flattered but that's about it. We keep in touch talking about Trump cause its pretty fucking rare to find another Trump supporter where we're from. One day she's texting me how she thinks of me every time she wears this Rick and Morty pin and she misses me and we should hangout and we decided to hang at six flags "some time during February". I agree but now I see her talking about other guys on snap cause after I see it it disappears. I tell her a bout a new movie coming out and she says she can't and now she's going away in a few months and I don't even know if we're still gonna hangout when she gets back to LA and I need to know how do I get over this girl who is perfect knowing I made the biggest fucking mistake of my life letting her go cause I'm not feeling any better

>>719011518
I care about you anon.

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>>719019228
emotions are overrated

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Hey guys, just another anon here. Apparently I have "Extreme Depression" (according to the test therapist anon on /adv/ recommended anyway). I've been wanting to tell my story for a while now.

>the place in this picture is where my soul belongs
>since before I was born, my Dad has walked dogs
>I was raised around them. They are my best friends
>I could always rely on them for comfort
>I never really had many human friends
>I had my parents friends, but none my own age I could really call a true friend until a couple of years ago
>For most of my childhood, I was a social outcast. A lot of it was my fault for not being able to control my emotions, but I never wanted to be mean to anyone
>I've been a slacker in school, and my grades aren't going to get me anywhere. It's too late to fix
>I can't torture myself by watching the only people I love and care about slowly grow to hate and resent me
>I wouldn't blame them
>The dogs are dying /b/
>Almost all of the original pack, my friends, are gone
>They died before my eyes as I grew up
>Shröeder, Boomer, Jenny, Cassie, Emma, Cody, Maggie, Jack, Luna, Alexis, Luka, the list goes on
>Winnie, Lucie and Ivorie don't have long left
>Muldoon, Toby, Tony, Rosie, Sparky, Luna, Gus and little Bohdi are all doing well, they'll still go to the park after, I hope
>I know these are just names to you, but to me they are my friends; companions through good and bad
>Next week I am going to commit suicide
>I am going to go say goodbye to everyone who is still alive and then go to where my soul belongs
>the place you see in this picture is where my soul belongs
>the place you see in this picture is the park, where I got to be with my friends
>rain, shine, fights, escapes, I've seen it all
>I'm going to do it by the water, so my body will be washed away
>if they find it, I want to be buried by the picnic tables where everyone sits and talks, throws the ball, pets stranger's dogs
>I'd be happy there

>>719017183
AWAKEN MY MASTERS

>>719023367
How old are you, anon?

>>719022418
Me again.
I had this girl in college..she was very down..low self esteem sometimes..and suicidal.
The relationship wasn't healthy but i did it for her just like you..hell we didnt even have sex at some point..but i did it for her.
She got past this stage..because everything is just a stage..and then cheated on me and left me..that fucking bitch, man : ))
Be ready for anything..you said you.re a 3 i think..my advice for you..it works for everyone:
- hit the gym (it boosts your self esteem + it makes you healthy and to look good naked)
- read all the books you can (you need them to know shit about anything..ideas will come..plus you gain vocabulary)
- watch RSD - real social dynamixs on youtube on how to pick up chicks..it"s good in many ways but it focuses on chick hitting..awesome stuff!!

>>719023367
That is a great looking park, it's just sad that you want to die in it. Things can always get better if you ask for proper help anon. I really hope you change your mind and decide to stay around a bit longer.
Getting off the experience of life early can be enticing, but you might miss out on a lot of great stuff if you do it.

>>719021434
You're more than successful for me you somehow got a girl to like you enough to trust you. That just shows that you can do it again. I've accepted that I will never have that

>>719023603
I myself am not a 3, but my body count is. I guess I was a bit beta in high school. I tried for some girls, admired others instead. I've been working out regularly with a friend for the last few months. I'm over weight but I'm strong. The gf was supposed to come with us, but her anxiety makes it so she's never comfortable unless it's just us two, but even then she's too sad to go to the gym. Hasn't been in over a month, I'd say.

I know everyone says this, but my gf doesn't have the capacity to cheat. She doesn't have many of her own friends, either. She was bullied in high school, and the people she was friends with were either toxic, leeches, shitty people in general or fucking annoying. So she has few people in her life and her social anxiety (her whole family has it) prevents her from reaching out.

>>719019864
why'd you move out?

>>719023367
Dude at least wait for all of your friends to go, don't be selfish, you know dogs have feelings aswell...

>>719024042
It's not so much about not having a girlfriend as it is about losing her. I'd love to stay friends but at least for the time being she wants nothing to do with me.

But dude don't give up. There are a lot of girls that feel the same way you do.

>>719023603
>watch RSD
Real talk: Has anybody ever actually made it through that entire series? I tried to watch it years ago but holy shit it just drags on for so fucking long and Owen Cooke makes it so hard to keep listening to him.

>>719018810
Sounds like you arent comfortable with yourself. Best way to fix that is to develop a personality through hobbies. I would suggest one that you cant fail at first, like writing about your feelings daily, even if they are shitty. You must know yourself to love yourself. After you tackle that, could take time, get into more complex hobbies and socialize. Its especially important to set goals in your hobby so you feel like having a direction.

Remember that the hardest part to all of this is getting started, i know how it feels to want to stay in bed all day. Or to die. But its a decision you need to make for yourself.

>>719018885
Demonize them. Develop a hatred or anger toward them. Just think about that one thing you didnt like about them and only remember that about them. Maybe its unhealthy, but works for me.

>>719025293
Watch the ones you resonate to.
There's also Julien, Todd, Max. You don't have to watch them all. They have also great materials for purchase which are not on YT. My country allows piracy so they're free to me.

i sleep for twelve hours cause dreams are better than real life atm

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>>719016832
>FUCK OFF MR LAHEY
it's just "fuck off lahey"
lurk moar

I'm sorry for killing the thread

>>719020046
When you're walking down the street and someone sees you stumble, they laugh but forget almost immediately. In the grand scheme of their whole life it is no more than a blip in the radar.

Just like you bombing on stage the exact same principle applies, but the length of remembering the incident scales with how drastic, or in this case funny the incident is.

Bottom line is people almost always forget. People forgot the time I shat in the school showers. People forgot the time I had a boner in drama class. People always forget. The trick is to accept your previous mistakes and then you too can forget.

>>719026840
This is a feels thread.

>>719019230
In the same boat, it's fucking shit.

I just want to die. It's getting really hard not to just kill myself. I hate being awake. I went to bed at 4pm and just woke up. I'm just so depressed that I don't enjoy vidya or anything.

>>719025677
And they say there are no girls on the internet.

>>719025741
I torrented RSD, MM and one or two others a long time ago. But I got bored of all the PUA shit after a while, plus the more I looked into it, the more it looked like a scam; so I gave it away.

>>719028609
you need to find some purpose. I'm not talking about a girl, or a job or anything like that, just a purpose for being. You have a world of knowledge at your fingertips on the internet, and as sad as it is to let go of the things that you think you love you need to get off this black whole /b/ and find something that isn't just going to facilitate you wasting your life.

We are all guaranteed the pursuit of happiness.

>>719012071
Halfway there

>>719028967
I'm already learning a language and doing all my college studies. I have chemical depression so the only happiness I have is weed. I'm gonna try Kratom soon though.

>>719021434
Well that sucks for you and you have my sympathy; but I've taken enough of the right performance enhancing drugs for this stuff to be like water off a raincoat at this stage. I'm almost always pretty good.

>>719014579
Im not OP, but ive considered the advice you have given before. The only things in life I have not done but have an interest in are not really good things to do. What i mean by that is that by doing those things I would be a bad person or that doing said actions would end up bad.

Anyone ever get a weird craving to cut your face off?

>>719029179
That sounds great. Just try and find passion in whatever you do in you life. Obviously it's how we get back up from our falls that defines us, but it's even better not to fall over in the first place, but some falls are inevitable.

>>719017183
AWAKEN MY MASTER

>>719015166
i'm in a similar situation, this girls i like/d at school for, what, nearly 4 years now, who I've never made any move on because i'm a pussy, has recently gotten in a relationship with someone else, which sucks as i may have finally done something.

>>719030499
Then do something now. Who cares if shes seeing someone now.

The world isnt a nice place, so dont be nice to the world. Unless its friends or someone you actually give a fuck about, look out for yourself first because no one else is going to put you first.

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Alright faggots, who wants to hear the story of when I was a massive betacuck that fucked up a girl's life? I'll start off a little while before so as to include the cockblock of the millennium for you as well.

Way back in year 6 this girl and I were as close to being together as an eleven year old and a twelvie could be. Problem was that when we graduated she went off to one of the schools my primary school was a feeder for while I fucked off alone to a selective school, no friends came with me at all. The night before graduation day I got my mum to make little discount business cards because I was a cringy fuck like that and needed a fast way to get my contact details to everyone before I had no chance. On graduation day I got one of the little slip things to everyone except pseudo-gf, but luckily I was at a Catholic school so we had to come back at night for a graduation mass. After the mass, everyone went outside, it was a clear night, full moon, pseudo-gf was standing alone in the moonlight. I walked over to her and in what was almost the most climactic moment of my life at that point (and possibly would've been if this didn't happen next) and handed her the slip, bathed in moonlight from the full moon, standing together right between two palm trees in the courtyard...

As I handed her the slip her best friend rushed in, took it from me and said "thanks". Flustered, I grabbed another from my pocket and handed it to pseudo-gf, the mood totally shattered. Said my goodnights and goodbyes to everyone, went home and that was that. Nobody ended up contacting me after that (because I was a massive piece of shit back then but it still broke my heart until year 7 started). From here on out I'm greentexting this shit to save time in another post because I'll probably hit the limit on this.

>>719031109
You know what you have in common with your post?

No one cares.

>>719030611 >>719011518
i've only got 2 weeks before school starts and i'm in senior year, I need to get a job, license, workout, etc. but i severely lack any motivation unless it's for something i truly want, and recently the only thing i've truly wanted so far is to clean my room to set up my fuckin computer i got from christmas, nothing else interests me to put effort into
if i got a girlfriend, however, i feel that would really get me goin, although i know i'd come out to be a needy fuck.

it's just easier inside on my computer, ya know?

>>719031386
You think getting a gf will give you motivation, but you dont have the motivation to get one. By your own words, that means its not REALLY important to you then, is it?

>>719031523
it's really that i just fear rejection, and always think of the consequences
like what will happen afterwards? will it be awkward af? would she tell her friends and joke about it? heck, am i being full of my self believing i have a chance with anyone?
and yea, it's a bit of a catch 22 situation

>>719017183
Awaken my masters baiters!

>>719031109
Part 2: The tale of innocence and happiness.

>year 7, walk in for first day of school, already made two friends who I'm still friends with to this day
>still slightly sad about year 6 gf
>maths lesson next, bro I'm hanging out with talking to a chick he went to primary with
>we go in, I sit down and wail a "joke" that only borderline autistic 11-yo me could call a joke
>"Why does nobody talk to meeeee"
>she fucking laughs
>heartbreak gone, I've fallen in love again
>she was fucking hot even back then when she was more cute than hot
>she was also a 10/10 for personality, played vidya, had a slightly rebellious and malevolent streak that I loved, especially when we were causing havoc in class or trying to trick teachers into giving us early marks
>became really close, after every maths lesson at the end of the day we'd walk and talk together
>pretty sure she liked me too, you see we'd part ways at the top gate at school where I'd walk to my grandpa's car while she'd walk for longer to the train station, one day she walked out the lower gate, stopped, turned around to look for me and waved to me
>no social networks or phone for me meant no contact outside of school
>maybe we would be together if I did
>so many cute happy moments we had together that have now turned sad with regret and sorrow and longing for the past
>there was a fucking siiick casual teacher who looked just like me except older and had a similar surname, cool played vidya, frequently admitted to piracy, made lots of DBZ jokes, teachers mistakenly called me him so my mates and I are still wondering if one day I'll time travel and become him
>I realise now he was wingmanning me with her
cont.

>>719031836
Rejection is hearing no. If you dont ask its a no anyways. If she says no you lost nothing.

Honestly mate, I get it, but the best thing you can do early in life is get used to being rejected. I got over by going to a mall and literally hitting on 100 girls. I was rejected 100 times, but honestly by the end it meant nothing to me anymore.

>>719031883
Bump

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>>719032254
bumping doesnt work without an image mate. Let me help you with that.

>>719015320
I feel the same, but how are you doing, anon? Things going OK?

>>719031883
Part 3: the tale of retardation, lost chances and betafaggotry

>cool casual was once about to stop a rubber war that went too far but saw her and I teaming up with class retard to pour soy sauce on this dude's arse so he'd jump up and she'd slam down a textbook on his head, knocking him down and allowing retard and I to rinse and repeat
>teacher says "just don't get it in anyone's eyes alright" and puts on some sumo wrestling videos
>later on the last day of the year, last period of the day we had him for maths
>by the powers of sheer autism I got drunk off non-alcoholic ginger beer and he gave no shits, in fact he said I was the best behaved in the class and let me out early but I stayed back to thank him for being cool
>anyway that was the last anyone ever saw of him
>literally nobody, not even the teachers he was closest to, know where he went
>year 8 started, girl and I no longer in same class, talk rarely and it's usually just a brief "hello"
>think she still likes me but still want to play it safe
>spend most of year pissed off at another retard boy who thought he was top shit (just like me except supposedly I became cool when I got drunk)
>the jury is still out on that one but that year I spent too angry thanks to retard boy to be cringy
>the year passes with near no contact with her
>year 9 starts
>halfway through I finally get Facebook
>talk to her again
>think she still likes me
>hold on what
>she mentions having a boyfriend
>I get worried but still have too much hope
>eventually my confusion and curiosity reach bursting point and finally ask her if she really does like me
>she apologises for leading me on for so long, says she doesn't, asks why I wanted to know
>I spill the beans
>shit went downhill from there
>her bitchy SJW friend got into her phone and harassed me over my conversations and told me to never speak to her again because I've been stressing her out too much
Cont.

>>719032625
More plz

>>719031990
i just dont have that ability nor the confidence to do something like that

There is a girl that I love. I never met her until just recently, but she's from my hometown. We're friends. She calls me up just to talk sometimes. She was even interested in me at one point in time. She said so. But she lived three hours away and I hesitated. I hesitated and she's with someone else now. Even if they break up, if you know anything about attraction you know that once that initial attraction fades for a woman, it's very unlikely it'll ever come back again.

Let me tell you about her, /b/. She's what most people would call "batshit crazy." She's an impulsive as fuck alcoholic with bipolar disorder and probably also borderline personality disorder. But she's so goddamn smart, funny, and fun to be around. She makes me laugh. She makes me cry. She makes me think. Sometimes she pisses me off beyond my capacity to handle my anger and I think I'll explode. She makes me feel something that it's been so long since I felt, I can't even remember if I've actually ever felt it before. She makes me feel fiery, passionately alive. But she doesn't want me and probably never will. She's with some stupid redneck pretending to understand her because he's cute and plays guitar. But I know he doesn't really have any idea how goddamn lucky he is.
(con't)

>>719033437
Now there's someone else in my life. Funnily enough, also from the same small town me and the other girl are from. I ran into her when I was down there visiting family over Christmas (but I mostly just came down to see the other girl). She's kind, sweet, gentle, and understanding, attractive enough, and apparently is super into me. She thinks of me the way I think of this other girl. I'm probably going to just be with her. I'm getting older now, and the way this girl is so way into me is nice, it hasn't happened in a long time. If I can, I'm probably going to marry her. And she'll love me. And I'll take care of her and shower her with affection and try to meet all of her needs, emotionally, physically, financially. I'll do my damndest to make sure she has the best and happiest life possible, and I'm sure she'll do the same for me. And maybe I'll be content. But, although she'll never know it, I'll never love her. I can't. Not after the way the other girl made me feel. I seriously doubt that there's even anyone else out there that could ever make me feel like that again.

/b/rothers, if you find a woman that makes you feel this way, and you have even the thinnest ray of a chance, don't fucking hesitate. You may regret it for the rest of your life.

>>719033053
How do you think you get that confidence? You either born with 12 inch horsecock, or have to learn it. Im telling you man. Even if you have to get drunkish beforehand for fake courage, FORCE yourself to get used to it. In 1-2 goes. Just like I did. Im gonna be real, it helps a lot in life. Its worth it man. Its hard as FUCK to do, I know, but itll help the REST of your life. Isnt 1 terrible day worth it if itll help improve the rest of your life?

>>719032625
Part 4: hahaha what a nice grave I dug myself

>bitchy SJW friend of hers thinks I'm trying to break up her (hot girl) relationship
>feel the need to tell her that I see they're happy together and won't get in the way
>run betacuck.exe
>exams roll in, her baby brother becomes higher maintenance and so she gets more stressed and less time to talk
>I forgot to mention that she let me down easy rather than allowed my heart to break (although hilariously a few days before I spilled the beans to her I nearly blacked out in the shower, which totally fucked up my heart so now I somehow can take manual control of my heartrate, so I was literally heartbroken) which meant dumbarse me thought I still had a chance
>resolved to wait out her relationship and then swoop in like the white knight I was, pick her up and ride off into the sunset towards the Holy Land
>anyway so she was getting really stressed and busy
>not enough time for conversations like we used to so I resolved to send her messages during the day and she'd reply whenever
>super autist boy (me) starts sending upwards of 50 messages a day
>she starts having breakdowns in class
>I comfort her when they happen but still have yet to make the correlation that they were my fault
>we stay friendly somehow
>I'm on relatively good terms with her boyfriend (even still)
>oh yeah they're still fucking together
>how many fucking years on?
>ah well they are a pretty cute couple
>so on NYE she was the only person I spoke to, she finally got some free time, I was looking up at the sky and like the retard I was I thought I felt her presence in the wind
>pull out phone a second before she sends me a message
>maybe I wasn't being a total retard?
>flashback to the night of September 25
>a girl I had yet to meet dreams of a boy who completely fits my description, right down to appearance and the things I like
>apparently dream me's last words to her were "see you next year"
Cont.

>>719033644
Part 5: realisation of folly and prophecy

>year 10 rolls around
>first guy I met at high school (I'm still friends with him) throws a nerf war birthday party
>oh btw the girl that had the dream had it on the night before her 13th birthday, had short hair and at that point had a bf with the same name as me
>anyway she was there
>theprophecyunfolds.png
>like the true autist I was I brought a foam Master Sword replica, no nerf guns and shitty cardboard greaves to the war
>dream girl (that's what I'm calling her from now on, other girl is called several years in love girl now) impulsively kicks my sword out of my hand
>we roll in the grass fighting for it
>think to myself "holy fuck is she a good fighter"
>reminder that she's like fucking 1 metre 50 at this point and really didn't look like she had it in her
>she breaks away with the sword, I dive for a gun on the ground and open fire on her
>run back to her, we fight again, I win the sword back
>anyway that was all the contact between her and I for that day but it's relevant I guess?
>return to normal life
>several years in love girl has breakdowns about once a week now
>your boi Autismo Supreme still hasn't made the correlation
>one day her other bitchy best friend goes on her FB and blocks almost everyone
>notice that her breakdowns stopped when I got blocked
>shitting bricks
>on the morning of some excursion I found her just about to wander off and get lost at my home train station where we had to meet
>help her out, tell her she's in the right place, get down to business
>tell her I don't want her unblocking me if I'm causing the breakdowns
>she assures me they weren't my fault and still happen when I'm not around
>to this day I still don't buy it, her SJW friend's words ring in my ears
>she doesn't unblock me for a while because she's simply too bogged down
Cont.

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Quick bump

>>719012666
Yeah dude. Never forget, you're not the only one

>>719012071
Living this right now. Go to class, come home, cling to whatever relationships I have left and watch them slip through my fingers. Does it get better?

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>>719034552
Part 6: solitude and growing up

>Easter Sunday I take matters into my own hands with regards to primary school friends rather than leaving meetings to fate and make an effort to bring them back into my life
>all cool and good but the problem is it cemented my "never give up" attitude because well look here I got all my old friends back through hope alone.
>account gets zucked
>make new acc
>several years in love girl still too bogged down to add me
>that acc ends up getting zucked too
>there's more story to that but that's for another day, another feels thread
>one of my old best friends is one big ironic meme
>he cleansed me of my cringy hehe xD ways
>somewhere along the line first high school friend bro invites me and a bunch of others to his house again
>we have science projects to do so we all use each other as test subjects
>dream girl is there again
>this time we get to talk and we get time alone together
>we fell in love sitting on bro-dude's trampoline
>she's pretty gud at Smash but not many other vidyas
>I add her on Skype later, she initially gets worried about how I managed to get her details but I explained it was from the group chat, she relaxed and we spoke for aaages almost every night
>several years in love girl still hasn't accepted my request
>I find myself torn between the two
>eventually in a moment of pure smoothness (read: it was completely sudden and jarring) I asked dream girl if she likes me (she was dropping so many massive hints like after she asked me what element No stood for I said something like "the reaction to me asking out any girl" she changed her mood message to "I would say yes tbh"
>she's flustered but as I suspected she and I both fell in love sitting on the trampoline on experiment day
>we get together
>we still are together
>problem is there was still unresolved shit with several years in love girl
>school year ended too soon for me to say anything in person
Cont.