Feels thread I haven't seen one all day Dump your feels pics

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>>713404655
Im tired of society's shit, i wish i were a pigeon

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still in love with gf who dumped me nearly 3 months ago.

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>>713405667

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>>713405693
>tfw all you ever wanted was a chance
>you fucked it
>what's new

I always like to listen to "Everything You Synthesize - The American Dollar" whenever I feel sad.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aSU49AFzgtw

i feel like these threads are really shitty

>>713404799
Welp too bad

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i feel like my boyfriends getting tired of me and i dont know what to do

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>mfw she was perfect
>mfw I fucked it up
>mfw she lost interest

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9jRv1cnjDA

>>713405426
Never had GF, people around here would prefer to fuck 10 dudes a day.

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We tried, but in the end we couldn't do anything
They fought to protect us
They died to make sure we lived
And in the end we don't even want what they died for
They died in vein

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>Meet a nice girl
>She's taken
>I always feel disgusted when I see her and boyfriend kiss and copulate
>She tells me she barely knows me
>I don't know anyone

>>713407109
>vein

>>713406244
Just have sex with him, he'll never get bored of you.

>>713406987
its better to just stay alone and never have the fear of someone leaving you. i regret dating her every day

>>713407415
Fuck you're right

How do i kill myself. Ive been thinking about it over the last 3 months.

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>>713407456
Thanks anon but I've tried that and it doesn't work unfortunately

>>713407846
Don't do it. Get a little dog. Not like a teacup or anything. Look up really nice, long-lived little dog breeds. Most apartments allow them, and trust me, it'll help. Also, because they're smol, they require (usually) less effort and money to take care of

>>713407962
Get better at sex so he doesn't leave you for a tighter vag.

>>713407846
Pill overdose, hanging by snare wire, slit wrists with blood thinners. 10/10 wouldn't suggest it.

>>713407846
Helium exit bag is the way i'd go

>>713406244
Do something nice out of the blue for him. Doesn't have to be big, could just walk up and hug him. I would love if my girlfriend did that to me.

>>713408159
Thanks didn't help

>>713408424
Genuinely appreciate the advice. Hope your girlfriend does something like that for you

Anyway, how is everyone's day going so far? Pretty good here just wanting to talk to my fellow bros.

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>>713408858

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cche-h83qNQ&index=1&list=PLViUxT9xaNEati2Yz33ewLmJJelokGOzc

Im pretty happy here
>met my friends gf
>start getting to each other
>finds out she doesnt love him but he does
>timetosteal.jpg
>success
>living good, but she's kind of clingy

I worry she might cheat on me, she's REALLY clingy

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q8ir8rVl2Z4&index=15&list=PLViUxT9xaNEati2Yz33ewLmJJelokGOzc

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>>713409247

Everything on my life is going downhill... my car is starting to mess up and that's everything I've achieved since 2014 when I graduated high school. Tomorrow is my last day at work because they don't have enough "founds" to pay us anymore. I just got a letter from the hospital and I'm getting charged with us $4600. I really like this girl but I don't think she likes me, she told me that it would be weird if anything happened between us since we're all a "squad"... I feel lonely as fuck... I feel pathetic... haven't done shit for my life so far

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is anyone else out there

>>713408684
No problem, I like helping people. And it's a nice thought, but she won't. I know her too well.

>>713409369
the saying goes
if she cheats with you she will cheat on you

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Im thinking aboot getting a job at public storage. Its only 9 an hour but full bennifits and free 2br apartment. Seems like something i could do day in day out till i die. Ive kinda just given up on trying to be or do anything with my life. Everything just seems so pointless. I just dont really get the whole "life" thing.

>>713408481
Did you even try to get better at sex in this short amount of time? No. You did not.

>>713409562
Thanks anon, i love her tho, and she really loves me a bit too much, she's over protective and doesnt let others talk to me

I feel good tbh, but she has really bad break downs when im not around her

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>>713409922
Check em

>>713409464
i know, im desperately trying to do something for my life like getting a good job or becoming the best at something but i seem to fail at everything and im starting to see that i have wasted my life.
i feel like the only way is to scape to another country and start all over again, but i cant i dont have enough money to even pay the tickets to somewhere.

everyday im feeling more and more tired, like i just wanna take a break from life.

>>713409501
Of course anon. Just search for them. Hell, they could be a monk in Thailand or a recovering addict, but they're out there somewhere.

>>713410283
We all wanna take a break at life, but life is a complete jack ass to us

Ever feel life the human race just goes against the laws of nature?

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>>713404799

>"you're so positive"
>"i wish i was that pure lmfao"
>"how are you always so happy?"
>i try to make other people happy because i cant make myself happy
>i helped my friend get with a girl i had feelings for
>i always fuck up everything
>fucking up in school
>all my self-worth comes from other people
>lack of motivation
>don't even feel like the people i spend most my time with don't want to spend time with me
>can't even play vidya anymore (four months)
>at least if i give up i'll i won't feel like i wasted my life entirely
>my entire character and personality is made of gimmicks
>everyone thinks i'm happy except for this one person i've opened up to, and now i feel like they only respond out of pity
>they check up on me and i say that i'm getting better but i'm at square one
>if i tell other people i'm not happy i'll bum them out so i keep it to myself

>>713412112

That hit a little too close to home.

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>>713412112
I can relate so much, it's depressing,

Failing relationship, father diagnosed with leukemia, kicked out of my place, family moved away, found a place to live but can't pay next months rent so going to get evicted, no friends. Going to just off myself once I get kicked out from this place.

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>>713411584
>wolf face
>bear feet
>luckily pouring that vase without spilling a drop
>implying animals will ever advance that far in evolution with humans pull holocaust 2.0

Fuck off furfag

This has been pretty much the worst month in a while, I dropped all my hobbies because I just don't feel like doing anything, I haven't gone to school in a month and a half, but I've got exams to go to tomorrow, Shit just feels empty. Dumping a lot of stuff from my feels folder for you anons

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>>713414187

>>713412112
This hit pretty close to home.

I used to be seen as a happy person, but I've been depressed for years. I just became really good at hiding it. In my everlasting quest to hide and deny my own depression and keep those around me happy, I started doing the whole ironic suicide humor so I could talk about killing myself without depressing those around me. A while ago, some people within my friend group started doing it too. I always thought they were the happy ones, but now I can see right through them.

I know they're not joking when they talk about killing themselves, but I don't think they know I wasn't either. I thought I could keep them happy.

I failed /b/

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Ive kinda had it up to "here" with society. Im seriously becoming a terrorist.

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>>713414252

>>713414301

>>713413761
nice feet

>>713414252
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zxYsgRsNg2s

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>>713414301
v

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>>713414491
Fuck it i'll include some of the tunes that keep me going too, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WrO9PTpuSSs

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>>713414575
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AwD6U5sA8hw

>>713405426
Don't worry; it can be hard to get rid of cemented feelings, especially for someone who you loved and thought loved you.

From one /b/ro to another, all I can suggest is find something to spend your time on, like a hobby or job, that you can use to feel good about. Hang out with friends and meet new people. Soon you'll find someone else, because she wasn't worth your time anyways.

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>>713414641
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RX8JHO5_Kv0

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>>713414812
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YbPNn3pJMLw

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>>713414909
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dIC4VSUE7q4
Sorry if some of the pictures are shit guys, haven't cleaned up the folder in ages

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>>713415021
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KEpb4UaAr8

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>>713415130
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Agl1TgVfls0

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>>713415225
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ycJsnzJ-hA

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>>713415317
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=24Jc8rC6S_E

>>713414259
I use to do that kind of humour, but my anxiety told me it was obvious and even if I didn't have anxiety I bet it is.

Usually when people make those jokes I always think there's some legitimacy within so I say shit that reminds them I care and disguise it with humour.

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>>713404655

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>>713415462
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-CqJVHxdvH8

>>713415596
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QJ6hHj9vqdU

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>>713415714

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>>713415824
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVo1jRVe-Qk

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>be me
>be mentally really fucked up
>my closest friend is my cat although i have real friends too
>tired of life
>failed at suicide a few times by opiate pills and alcohol overdose because good health
>slowly turning into alcoholic and drug addict
>going to psychiatrist to get antipsychotics cuz i want to feel totally numb and sleep 20 hours a day
>considering suicide again
>probably gonna do it when i get enough cash

I'm miserable.

What you would call "fantastic".

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>>713415903
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uYsq7fbRbvk
That's all from me, thanks for always being here anons, time for me to finally sleep at 6 am,again

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>>713407846
helium exit bag.
Completely painless

>>713415907
Do you know why you feel this why Anon?

>>713416923
basically gf left me on my hardest times, dropped out of school, lost my job. but all this really doesnt matter, the whole problem is in my head. been depressed for 4-5 years and this shit has made me literally insane. i cant function normally anymore, i sleep all day, do drugs drink alcohol and browse 4chan all night.
this cant be explained properly

>>713417663
kek
rolling for trips or quads

>>713417802
reroll for 888 trips

>>713417614
>this cant be explained properly
No you're right Anon, but I share the same mental roller-coaster.
Did she even have a reason for leaving you?

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rolling

>>713417663
id love to kick a furry right in the face

>>713418405
Same dude. Shit makes tears me up when I look at his face...

>>713417981
I fucked up my relationship. gf was unstable too but not insane. I was making her feel depressed with my suicidal thoughts. sometime I stopped telling her about my condition and pretended to be fine. after about half year she found out I was still depressed and stopped communicating to me on the day I was flipping shit and tried to kill myself.
cant blame her really

anyway my point is, who the fuck wants to date an unhappy person
personally i find unhappy people to be more intelligent and even funnier if you make them trust you.
but talking to unhappy person who doesnt trust you is probably shitty yeah

>>713404799
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ug0GwTwOnE

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>>713418702
No, I guess you can't really blame her.

Bitter feel anon. I'm sorry for your loss. But I wouldn't advise suicide!
>Think about it
Although you are in the state you are now, at some time there will be a moment where things WILL change.

I have seen it's magic before.
Long story but i'll shorten it.
>Me and my father were thrown out of my mothers house. (She was mentally unstable)
>She sells everything I owned (I was 12)
>Father began to drink
>After a year or two he met a woman who helped him change his life

I believe in this "It will get better soon"
I hope one day you might to Anon

Is life ever even worth putting in work when you just die?

>>713409596
I mean, with free room, then you probably make up for the low wages.

>>713404799
dude

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>>713419601
my life has nothing wrong with it. i could get a good job again, go to school next year, start working out, basically get anything i want that money can buy. but i dont want to. it doesnt make me happy. i am heavily fucked by mental disorders.
although I will probably stay alive as long as I have no problems with being totally numb
abusing drugs and shitposting has actually made me happier than i was a year ago tbh

>>713420164
holy shit

>>713408064
this is so true, I havent killed myself because I have to tke care of my pupper, my hamster and ,y gerbil. When they die the sadness will help me to just shoot myself in the face already

>>713408858
fuck you

>>713411257
humanity should be illegal

>>713421530 - samefag here

>>713421693
main reason I'm alive because I wouldn't leave my cat alone in this shitty world, failed suicide and then thought i should at least wait until my cat dies

>>713422240
couldnt agree more. humans think of themselves as more importnant and valuable creatures than other animals. shit makes me sick
kek

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>>713421530

EXACTLY.
This. Is. My. Point.
Why have money and a job, if it doesn't make you happy?

I'm Glad to hear you're happy. I wish you good luck my friend, for the future.

Pursuit happiness Anon.

>>713414680
Spoken like a true bro

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>>713404655

>>713422240
Good idea. I think the SJW's'd like it.

>>713414274
http://foreignlegion.info/joining/

):

>>713422574
its verty

I guess it's my time to shine. This is a long one, and probably not worth the read, but I want to let it out.
It started in 6th grade. I moved to a new school because it was better, and left all of my previous friends. I met a new group who were into vidya, so I joined them. The next 2 years were the best years of my life. I was on maximum honors and played with them every night. In 8th grade however, they stopped talking to me and would not answer my texts. The only person I had was my friend who I'm calling Andrew. Andrew was a weird white kid, much like me. There would always be an annoying jewfag that followed us around. Andrew too stopped playing vidya after a while. One day near the end of 8th grade, I got sick of the group's shit. I started texting them about all the horrible shit they had done, and in the end they all blocked me. 8th grade had ended, and I had nobody. For 9th grade, I went to a Christian school, and nobody I knew went there. I decided I should join the cross country team to make friends. I made 2 friends that I would sit at lunch with. My grades were decent, but not close to what they used to be. I I reconnected with 2 of my old friends that the previous group had distanced me from. We played vidya over skype, but didn't meet in person. On one cross country meet, they announced the winners of the race. First place was the biggest asshole of the previous group. The only thing that I was better than him at was running, and now that was taken away from me. My grades slowly got worse throughout the year, as did my mental and physical health. In January, I was diagnosed with scoliosis (my bad dun got fucked up) and my depression got even worse. Since my life was falling apart around me, I decided to just be the funny guy. Though I couldn't be happy, at least I could help other people achieve what I wish for. My grades are abysmal now. I have 3 f's and 2 c's. I go to school every day to entertain 3-4 people while dying inside. 1/2 to be continued

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4chan feels thread. Is this it?
The truth is, everyone on 4chan knows that pain. That's why we're here.
Our pain is the worst.
Your pain can be nothing but horrific if you visit these threads. All of our pain is.
But we soldier on anyways. That is our way.
When I die, these threads will be one of the last things I think about.
These threads will be the last thing that a lot of us will think about.

All of us will. Don't forget the /b/rothers who've helped you up.
Through all the "OP is a faggot," and the "cancerous thread is cancers," we really do love each other. If you haven't loved anyone else, you've sure as hell loved us. I love you guys.

Don't ever forget that.

2/2 I like playing video games because I still have to fake being happy, but at least I don't have to keep a smile. I want to kill myself, but I wouldn't do that to my family and I want to keep my friends happy. I now have to get back surgery for scoliosis. I just want the pain to end.

>tfw gay for one of my straight friends
>tfw one day they confide in me they like their best friend who's the same gender
>tfw their best friend is straight
>tfw they'll probably never like me and just move on from their best friend

>>713423150
I love you too, Anon.

>>713423337
Thanks, /b/ro

>>713414309
>tasty drinks
Enough to drown in?
if so yes and nice feet.

>>713415907
comon

redo your life.

can you pull yourself back into shape?

http://foreignlegion.info/

you have it in you. I believe.

>>713423656
schizophrenia aint a thing you can simply redo.
I'm not one of these autistic schizophrenics who shitpost irl, I'm just having difficulties controlling my thoughts and emotions

>i feel suicidal every night
>too insecure to tell a professional
>bottle up my pain every day
>vicious cycle

>>713423150
I love you to, anon. I'm bi, by the way, so I could actually love you. You may never know.

>>713424284
Same here. Im gonna tell a proffessional soon.

>>713424284
As a professional, don't worry. We get retarded shit all the time and nobody cares.

>>713424284
totally feel you anon, same shit happening to me. how long u been doing and feeling like that?

>>713420164
Woah.

>>713424552
About 2 years now.

>>713424306
I love you, anon.

>>713424417
Good luck anon

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Some days are tough.

>not beta
>not apha
>plenty of friends are girls
>fat ugly
>to scared to ask any out

>>713411512
everyone feels like this

>>713424306
Also, quick note, even as a bisexual guy who has engaged in homosex and liked it, traps are still gross.

>>713424957
Sorry to tell you but that's beta mate.

>>713424520
Don't wanna seem on the spectrum but what are you trying to say?

Like what i'm doing is retarded?
Or the predicament is?

>>713415225
this finally made me cry. Why? I'm the big sis. My brother and I had an amazing and cute relationship.

Fast foward some years, teen years suck, he was atill a kid. Our relationship died, he would never think or write something like this about me, even if I know he'd be sad if I died.

Im sure he doesnt think highly of me.

I miss that

Iit's too late, even if it shouldnt, Im onl 21 and he's almost 18, but every thing and move I try to make for us to get closer, fails.

Im not important

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You fucks want feels? Well, sit the hell down /b/tards, I wanna vent.
>be 18 and entering college
>never had a girlfriend
>meet 2 best people in the world
>let's just call the guy John and the girl Jane
>first friends i've had since grade school
>learn social skills
>gym++
>go from 4/10 to solid 7
>lose virginity to hoe at party
>no ragrets
>told Jane about it when asked
>also told her I wish it was her
>total_retard.gif
>doesn't_feel_that_way.sad
>still have John and some other friends
>that feel when still no girlfriend
time passes
>John meets 10/10 QT3.14 in Deutsch 101
>literally perfect match for me
>call her Anna
>back off since bro code, even though not actually dating
>banging other people to get over it
>not working well
>figure no harm in talking to her
>hit it off fast
>fuck fuck fuck damn shit
>blatantly disregard bro code and ask her on date
>success
>John hates me, convinces all friends to stop talking to me
>I'm thinking "it better have been worth it"
>do everything together for a month
>finally have balls to ask for some commitment
>REJECTED
>honestly confused, thought feeling was completely mutual
>ask why
>she says i'm too emotional
>literally shocked, only negative time was telling her about cousin's death
>receive zero further contact and leave the house as many times that week
>John eventually finds out and forgives me
>friend group felt like shitheads too and apologized
>leave house and become normal person again
>Anna ends up dating some other loser in our group
>still can't understand, but eventually move on
present day
>still having casual sex
>still lonely at night
>still haven't had a significant other
I have never felt more empty in my life, /b/.

>>713412112
i know the feel i use to do it. life is getting better. little by little

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>>713414259
I am a graphic designer living in an unstable part of Asia, believe me when I say I can also relate with your situation. I'm too pussy to kill myself conventionally, I can always ask for morphine to overdose or eat this poisionous plant that grows everywhere here.

However, happiness doesn't exist in my religion. We are taught that everything is an illusion from a young age, thats why my people seem humorless or cold to the average outsider. So I am not going to tell you to cheer up or try to stay alive, because the illusion that is life is how you shape it to be - down to the small details like what you choose to eat, who you choose to be with and where you choose to do your everyday things anon

>>713424995
lmao ok

>>713422547

makes me sick and laugh at the same time for some reason

>>713422405

exactly. Also I'd wait for my parents to die. Im an unimportant piece of shit, but they still love me idk

>>713425094
No. I'm saying we get edgy 14 year old girls saying they're depressed and want to kill themselves, and we still listen and help. You're another human on the line, miserable. Or in the office or wherever. We don't give a fuck if it's retarded or, indeed, on the spectrum

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I have a question for anyone who can answer: I have been to a therapist and he diagnosed me with a case of clinical depression. He says though, that because I don't show enough signs that I shouldn't be worried. The thing is though, is the signs he was talking about is the things I hide on purpose. I make jokes and stupid remarks to get a laugh as a coping mechanism for a constant feeling of dread (and I am being serious when I say constant, no hylerbolies).

So here's my question: how do I convince the people around me that I'm not ok. Every time I try to tell them subtly they think it's a joke, and I'm stuck. It's made me so afraid of being judged because of it I am unable to ask for help. So if any anons want to throw their hat I into the ring I am looking out for 'em.

>Be me 13 years old
>Playing video games not giving a shit about anything
>My 11 year old cousin came over
>He had always been there for me
>I said fuck off and he hanged with twin bro instead
> Then he left to meet his father
> He said bye
> I said k
> Last Time i saw him

My cousin got murderd by his own father in a extended suicide, It mentally fucked me up.
And i never got the chance to say good bye

>>713425346
Okay thanks for clarifying. That sounds like bullshit tbh

>>713419612
You only have one life to live, so make the most of it. Remember it's not about whether or not people will remember, but if you can die without regrets.

>>713425581
Shit i mean the edgy 14 year olds sorry

>>713425101
>>713425318

samefag here

just wanted to tell you that, man, I've always had suicidal thoguht, but I havent felt suicidal in a long time.

Anyway, thanks for making me cry, Im not even being sarcastic. I needed it.

Now I need a cig and/or a noose

jk, need to take care of my pets

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I haven't laughed at any racial jokes for a while,

Racist jokes thread,

>>713425676
It usually is, 14 year olds. It's okay.

I dont know what to say I'm not good at talking. All I know is I need help badly. I went through 5 different types of pills i took each one for over a month. The last ones seemed to make it way worse early today I had a knife to my wrist standing out side in -20c unable to move. I'm in unbearable pain everyday and I dont know what to do.

>>713404799
Tough shit it is your destiny.

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>>713425358
it isnt probably good thing to say, but why tell other people about it? most likely they dont understand, think you are weird or something. maybe its just that i dont know what its like to trust somebody, maybe trusting is normal for other people. honestly dont know. but i understand your issue, i'm dealing with same problem
sending good vibes to you anon

>>713414812
Fuck you, man. Dad recently died and this hit harder than a motherfucker.

>>713426606
my condolences. I truly wish for a good recovery for you and your family

My 2 friends of 6 years always forget my birthday and I alays buy them. Gifts but they always skip out on even saying anything the friend I had from middle school is the only person to ever say anything ... I wish I choose friends more wisly

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>be me
>be schizo
>be on /b/ like 10 hours straight
>I actually beat suicidal thoughts and I feel semi-normal maybe because sleep deprivation
>dont wanna go to sleep anymore
anyone pls create hungergames thread, love those

>>713405758
this one hits close to home

>>713420164
best story ever

hold me, /b/

I try to be nice to people because I don't want to be enemy's with anyone but but still manage to get made fun of when all I do is stay quiet and do what I'm supposed always get made fun of at work by customers and coworkers and people I talk to all I do is act edgy because I'm not funny and I can't talk to people like a normal person does

>>713428522
alcohol and drugs cures this.
although dont take advice from /b/.
shit works for me, its temporary solution tho

I have everything I could ever want, compared to you /b/rothers.
I had this lovely girlfriend that would care for me every single day, but I didn't care at all.
I have lots of friends, but I don't care about them.
I have a lovely family which is open to help me with everything, but still, I don't care.
Everything feels sloppy, I can't enjoy sex, drugs, alcohol, friends, anything.
All feels, empty. Its like I don't know who I am, or who I want to be, my body feels like an empty shell.
somebody feels me?
please /b/ don't let me alone.

>>713405693
Everytime i look i think that fucked up

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>tfw when i have a 1/4 of a nug
>tfw broke
>tfw apathetic
>haven't been able to sleep
i want just want to be high and be left in my empty cold room all day long.

>>713429012
kill self

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>>713405693
Addicted and i been clean for a little while trust me i never cry but this shit man ...

always post this and it's cliche as fick but there is this one girl I wanna bang so bad but I'm too socially retarded to even start a conversation with her.

Love you /b/ros. I'm off for the night

Always thinking about how little importance my life is and how people tell you they would be if you killed yourself out of pitty knowing that they don't give a single damn about you

>>713404655
Woah, this thread has been open for a long time.

Night /b/ another empty night

>>713425318
THIS IS WHAT IVE BEEN SAYING FOR YEARS NOW

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Just got a phone call today saying my dad was in the er my mom always hated my dad so when I found out she said she was glad and well we fought and now I'm questioning even living anymore because i have nothing going for me and i really don't wanna deal with anymore shit

>>713424957
>not beta
>fat ugly
Pick one.

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>>713404655
:( nobody has texted me in so long

So, my mom just told me why I never met my dad.
Turns out, my mom was raped at 17 and had me.
I'm 24, married with a child on the way and I have absolutely no idea how to process this.
I feel like everything I've ever done and everybody I ever met is somehow tainted.
I wish I never asked.

I'm not suicidal.
I just feel empty.

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>>713404655
I'm just gonna vent a little.

I love my girlfriend completely. It's just she's a flaming prude. She's refuses most sexual contact I have with her, but she'll still give me handjobs and shit like that. She says it won't always be this way, but she just doesn't want it right now. It's fine, I get it. But she also shuts down any sexual talk over text and will not send a nude no matter fucking what.

I'm just a guy who needs to feel some kind of sexual affection, I don't even want to cheat or anything like that. So I tried to catfish a chick, and we hit it off great as fucking FRIENDS and there's no sexual spark at all. It's pretty much equal to the amount of Scoville units a pickle gets. She really likes me, and I tried to get those subtle advances in there, but she just ignores it.

I'm just sick and tired and deprived, I don't understand why I'm not allowed to have one thing I really want. There was this one obese chick from back in highschool who's always been hungry for my dick, so I'm almost mentally stooping low enough to hit her up. But I bet you at this rate she'll probably even turn me down.

I'm not even a fucking creep. I'm in great shape, I'm actually attractive, and I'd like to think I have a good personality (but now I'm second guessing myself there since apparently I can't spark a sexual conversation anymore.) And the worst part is some people are probably going to tell me I'm complaining about nothing but this has been practically frying my brain for the past several months.

Just fuck everything. What should I even do?

>>713415824
>resort to posting on feels threads at 1 in the morning so I can talk to somebody about my problems
Jesus anon...........god damn that hit way too deep

>>713406244
Talk to him, hug him, socialize with him, do something different every now and then, Go on a road trip.

Set a goal of some sort that you both can strive towards

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>>713435207
Nothing a quick fap wont fix who the fuck needs the touch of another human being amirite

I'm still not over someone I only dated for 3 months and we've been broken up for at least 6 months. I almost lost all my friends because of my depression, I rely on Chewing Tobacco and anti-depressants to get me through the day. I have to see her everyday in class. She broke my heart and doesn't even care. She told me she loved me, that I was the best. I guess it was just a lie. I don't even have any motivation to talk to any other girls. I have no motivation to do anything. I've thought about killing myself, but i think it's a selfish thing, so I'll never do it. Just had to get it off my chest.

You looking over i guess I should consider myself lucky as I really don't have any problems just minor issues that are easily fixed so anons hang in there there's only so low you could go but no limit to how high you can climb

I am 26 and I was never able to find a place in this world.

I never fit anywhere, I don't have friends, I never had a girlfriend and all of this made me lose any little enthusiasm I had before, and since 8 years I have been a NEET.

Every time I wake up feels like drowning, and I don't even know why I bother, why I don't just kill myself. I feel there's no hope for me to change things for the better.

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>>713437461
>obsessing over a women
Stop being retarded.

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>>713437461
meet new girls at >>>/soc/

>>713404655
I usually really enjoy drawing, but I keep it to myself because in general I am very afraid of rejection, and I have a pretty fragile self esteem.
I recently told a friend about my drawing, a friend who I admittedly am infatuated by, but since then I'm struggling to draw because I don't want to make something that isn't of the best quality.
I have something that I'm working on but I'm afraid to fuck it up, I hate feeling the pressure from someone who I'm sure would be kind regardless of what I make.
How do you push yourself to create something when you're afraid of the criticism?

>>713439345

I feel you, anon. Drawing used to be the one thing I found joy in. People told me I made good art. They all said they loved the things I drew But now it all feels hollow and meaningless.

They were lying.

>>713439568
I guess my problem is the same as my emotion, I hoard everything for fear of disapproval.
Any chance you'll post something you'be drawn? It would be nice to see.
The only place I can find any solace from myself is here, because it's safe here in the anonyminity.

I hate everything about myself and my life. I'm fucking up in school, I'm a complete failure with women, and I have no discernable talent. I don't want to tell anyone that I feel fucking worthless because I don't want to feel like a burden or for people to feel sorry for me. I want to fix things but I feel so overwhelmed by everything at all times that I just freeze and do absolutely nothing.

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>>713439802

I don't have much on my computer. Haven't drawn anything I can bear to look at in a long time. This one's a mess.

>be me
>youngest of 4 children
>father town drunk
>mother beat the fuck out of us
>oldest sister left home years ago and nobody has heard much from her since
>second oldest is a recovering heroine addict who stole from me and also beat me
>she has a daughter now and is trying to get her life back together
>all I can see is what she's done in life and hate her for it
>don't even like talking to her kid
>third oldest sister is also an ex-addict
>she went to medical school, had a son, mildly successful
>she acts childish and blames our parents for everything wrong with her life
>has called me up crying about our childhood on multiple occasions
>I don't feel anything for these people anymore, and I wouldn't care if any of them were gone
>family considers me the well adjusted one
>Collect porno mags and dildos to deter myself from killing myself through shear fear of them being found

>>713440991

Brilliant survival plan, anon. Keep it up. You don't need to stay in contact with them... do you?

>>713441199
nope

>>713440908
that looks pretty good, its a lot better than anything i could do

>>713440908
It's still really good though, no joke.
You obviously have a grasp on active pictures which is really hard to do.

>>713428467
We can't.

>>713440991
She used to do it to us in our sleep, since then I have trouble going to bed before 3 or 4, it's like i'm afraid of sleep

>>713440908
Also I'm sorry for taking so long to respond, I'm drunk and watching Scrubs for the millionth time and got distracted.
For real, that pic is enough to tell me that you are pretty good

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>>713414309
nice feet

>been drinking for 2 hours
>already have a worm tummy
>didn't eat lunch or dinner

it works, it really works!

>>713442557
You can't reverse the things that happened to you, all you can do is try to move past them, and to see the people in your life for who they are now.
Your sisters dealt with it in the ways that they could, and you need to do the same.
If that means disconnecting from them and your family then so be it, if you need to throw rocks at the moon and yell till you're tired then fine.
But do not ever admit defeat, and don't ever let the burdens of other people overshadow you.
It sounds like you have already, so you need to prioritize yourself and take care of yourself so you can be present for the people you choose to have in your life.

>>713404655

move on m8 no reason to dwell on the past

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>>713441571
>>713441827
>>713442589

Thanks guys. It means more to me than you think.

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I feel the worst that I ever have in a long time. In fact, this is my first time visiting and posting on this board.

I'm typically the type who is bursting with confidence, security and general happiness, and most of that is still no different. The confidence has not left me, nor has the security, but I have the biggest sinking pit in my stomach as I type this.

I fucked up with a girl who means the world to me and is probably the best match I've ever encountered in my 19 years on this Earth. Everything clicks, we get along brilliantly, she's gorgeous, everything's perfect.

Several months ago, this was all still going strong, but I didn't have any intentions of dating her because of complications with my job and schooling. Little did I know she had massive feelings for me that she suppressed because she was nervous about how I'd react and whether it'd damage our immaculate friendship.

Fast forward to now, and she's slowly growing more attached to someone who pales in comparison to what I could provide for her. Our conversations aren't as lively, and I feel as if the apocalypse comes nearer with every message she sends.

I don't want to come across as some jealous bastard, nor do I want to hurt her in any way because I genuinely do care for her, but god have I missed out on the opportunity of a lifetime. I want to die

>>713407201
This song is for you anon
Scott Walker - I Don't Want to Hear it Anymore
youtube com watch?v=OaIV_KJ59ZM

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>>713443576
I'm literally going through the exact same shit man, she actually doesn't even text me back anymore. It just makes you wish you could go back in time and say it to her, rather than saying it now and seeming desperate.

>>713444383

Here's a poem we can share, I don't care how gay that sounds

...what we are looking for
In each other
Is each other,
The stars at noon,
While the light worships its blind god.

The Present by W.S Merwin

Well I guess I'll post my pathetic fucking life since it's not like I have anything else to do.

>be me
>19 years old
>moved into my first apartment this year in June
>lined up a bunch of jobs while I was living in the college town but I had to go home for a month before I could move in
>all of the jobs fell through and no one was hiring
>I had no money for food and barely enough to pay my rent
>the only future income I had was my student loans in August
>I had to make it for 2 months with no money
>started getting really paranoid
>hearing voices and seeing things
>I would talk to myself out loud in public about fucking weird shit like aliens and the government
>I'd take the free buses in town to the grocery store with my backpack
>probably stole $50 worth of groceries over the entire summer
>mostly rice and chicken or canned food
>every time I'd check the food bank it would be empty because everyone leaves during the summer since it's a college town
>still feel like a piece of fucking shit for stealing
>wanted to kill myself constantly and I made several detailed suicide notes because I stopped sleeping and I had nothing else to do besides apply for jobs I knew I wouldn't get
>probably spent at least half of those two months going without sleep or barely sleeping at all
>finally went and saw the free campus therapist around the middle of July
>diagnosed with Bipolar I
>great I'm fucking insane
>start taking Lamictol
>turns out I'm allergic, I got nasty rashes all over my arms, legs, and stomach and my throat started to swell up
>called a taxi instead of an ambulance because I'm poor
>doctor said I need to buy some Benadryl and it'll go away
>fucking $120 medical bill just for that
>paranoia takes over and I assume the government is poisoning me
>now I realized it was just mania
>classes start and I'm failing almost all of them
>I crashed into depression and now I can barely shower or get out of bed
>stop going to therapy until the end of October
>now I take Lithium

The only friend I've made in 5 years left me and I dont really know why. It's not dumb kid stuff either, she's 30.

>>713444979

Drop out and take some time to collect yourself, regardless of what your circumstances are. It may seem as if everyone is rushing through life as quickly as humanly possible, but you must realize you've got plenty of time to go through these motions as well and it doesn't reflect poorly on you to take a different path because of your material conditions and mental health.

>>713445103

That sucks, man... that sucks a lot.

Rest assured that premium feelings are now being conveyed to you by the highest quality faggots the internet has to offer.

>>713444979
cont.

>the Lithium helps but I just started taking it
>I just want to feel normal
>if I fail my classes this semester I'm going to drop out because I don't want to repeat them and I'm constantly stressed out
>my degree is worthless anyways I just wanted to learn how it works because I would like to be a professional musician or sound technician
>now I live in constant fear of my student loans and I will only take out more if I don't have to repeat anything
>if I drop out of music school my family will be even more disappointed in me than they already are but I stopped caring
>I'll just end up in a loony bin anyways
>my life as an adult is still better than it was when I was living between my mom and dad's houses in a shitty redneck town
>I just want to get a job so I can buy a house and work at a fast food place or something for the rest of my life
>maybe I'll just blow my brains out
>the only reason I'm alive is because of my friends and my younger brother
>maybe things will be okay
>probably not

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>>713445363
Thaaaaanks.

>>713445306
I continued the story at >>713445428

I think I'm going to drop out. If my grades improve my degree will be much easier next semester but so far this year has been terrible. Thank you, I think I might take a break. I don't know how much more I can handle.

>>713425105

too emotional? fuck girls dude I hate the bullshit they are capable of pulling

>>713445574

Isn't that what we want tho?

>be me, a few years ago, about 14
>Me, my sister, and my parents fly to California for a few days to visit my grandparents
>Me and my sister in the hotel room, doing whatever, watching TV and ordering room service
>One night, my parents are out drinking with my grandma
>Grandpa doesn't drink because of bad liver or something
>Eventually we get a knock at our hotel room door
>My grandpa and an officer are standing there, grandpa in tears
>Officer tells me that my grandma and both of my parents died in a car crash a few miles away
>I'm 18 now, my sister is 15
>Cry almost every day

>>713442991
Is that also something of yours?
I would honestly enjoy some tips on how you do what you do, because it really is lovely.

>>713445553

There's absolutely nothing wrong with acting for yourself and I think removing what is, by my perception, a huge source of stress in your life is a good first step to take.

My closest friend is schizoaffective and was in hell 5 years ago, today he is engaged and living what is on all accounts a successful and promising life. That anecdote might be useless to you now, but you're not in an impossible position.

Sorry that words can only do so much.

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Long story short
Date this broad for a couple years
Valentines day last year
She dumped my so she could ho around for the summer
>>didnt see it coming
>>depression
>> shes absolutely fine and moved on
>>Literally went from talking everyday to never hearing from her agian

Tried moving on
>>only left me feeling more empty inside.

>>713445103
Take it from someone who is a serial friend abandoner, odds are it isn't your fault at all.
Some people get so scared at the thought of being close to them that they look at their friends under a microscope just to find something they don't like so they can pull away.
It's entirely possible that you have done nothing, it hurts but it may be some help to understand why.

>>713445881
Thanks, anon. I think if I end up doing alright on the final and I don't fail my main classes I'll go on to the next semester but I won't be able to continue my degree if I have to repeat this year.

Hearing about your friend is helpful, I think with enough treatment I can deal with my illness but right now it's just too much to handle. Thanks.

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i want to text her i know she misses me too , misses me and loves me but if i text her what would it change ? im stuck between if its meant to be it will be but also if i want to get it go get it. But i also think if she wanted me she would text me too but what if she is thinking the same thing hoping to see me text her first her bday is coming up soon i dont want to text her and ruin her bday but its so hard to fight the urge to not text her

>>713446050
Of course. I wouldn't mind staying in prolonged contact with you if you've got some kind of non-personal method of communication. Your skype or telegram or anything like that could be worth sharing?

>>713446261
I don't use Skype but Reddit messenger would work, I know Reddit is faggy here but it's an easy way to message people without giving away who I am.

My user is kanjobanjo17 if you ever want to contact me. Thanks again, that's really kind of you.

>>713404799
https://youtu.be/oTjQbQu1HjY

>>713405426
Same but it's been 3 years.

We still talk, and I'm glad for that at least.

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>>713445764

Yeah, I did that. Well, the big thing is to practice. I've practiced conventional art seriously for about a year. If you want to get into digital, get a half-decent drawing tablet. Mine's a piece of crap.

Look at things. Find the lines, the curves in them. Watch movies, read comic books... find what you like, and copy it. The first picture I posted, the ninja, is what's called a gesture drawing. It focuses mainly on the kinetic form rather than shape and shadow.

I also strongly recommend this site: http://drawabox.com/

That guy will teach you a lot.

That's all the advice I have, sorry.

>>713435207
with my gf for 3 yrs now. Same as you no nude no nothing. Actually worse than you not even handjobs. Zip. Nothing. I felt bad, still do. Im in a pretty good shape too, but i live in a place where young adults like me dont have sex. Its tough, especially when you are in love with someone and all your sexual energy is concentrated on that person. I've found out something useful recently though. I found out a rather beautiful pornstar. Tried my best to fall in love with her and concentrate my sexual energy there. Fap is getting better. Its pretty good. You should try it.
#stayBeta

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>>713412112
Someone put it into words, comforting knowing you're not the only one, right?

>>713444784
I know you've probably left the thread by now, but thanks anon, means alot man.

>>713446910
Yeah I fap every day anyways. It's just I need sexual attention. Like the feeling of someone being sexually attracted or wanting me sexually. In a way, it makes me feel like no one wants me.

Maybe if I get into those videos where the girl talks to the watcher all cheesily, but I highly doubt I can bear that

>>713447527

There is good POV porn out there, man. Just look a little harder.

>>713440908
The lighting is absolutely on point.

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>>713447647

Thanks mang. This is all I have to share... no interesting stories or heartbreaks.

>Too depressed to work
>Legit get panic attacks and shit when I think of filling out applications
>Live with parents, they take care of me
>Can't get healthcare without working
>Need healthcare to get the pills that will make me feel better
>Dad brings home applications for me every couple weeks
>Can't even look at them
>I know they resent me
>No one to talk to
>Suicidal as fuck
>Don't want to be more of a burden on my family
>Know it will destroy them if I died
>They do everything for me, and if I killed myself they would think it wasn't enough

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>>713406382
I know the feel man

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>>713447899

Have a Batman. He's dark and cool and edgy and stuff. Stop thinking about all the shitty things for a while.

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>broke up with gf of 5years
>doesnt want to find love
>find it with a close friend of ex and mine
>she digs me and I dig her
>2afraid to ask out so I don't end up fucking up this friendship
anyone else would of been ok if they rejected me why did I fall for a close friend

>>713447527
"in a way it makes me feel like no one want me"
very true anon. I feel the same way. To make matters worse, i dont have any friends and i spend all my time alone and that makes me think too much and i always end up feeling sad. The trick is to not think too much about her, i know, easier said than done. Try to focus more on your life, if thats possible. For me i do that pornstar love thing and i also concentrate alot on my gym workout. Reliefs the pressure alot. And i try to spend most of my time on memes and not thinking about her

>>713446489
Honestly I'm pretty on and off about drawing, but husbando got me an iPad and pen to draw with so I feel compelled to do so.
I have all the materials and none of the inspiration, which you are currently providing.
You have lovely art though, for what it's worth. I think I'll push on when in sober again, both for me and the guy I'm trying to impress.

>>713448265
cos you enjoy the closeness, the intimacy, cos you are not a cheater, cos you are not a cuck. Go for it anon you have my blessings

>Mom died 21 Jan. 2016
>Been sick for a while, always hoped she'd get better
>I was away at Uni instead of by her side
>Great way to start the fucking year
>Can't focus in class any more, not that I did too well in first semester anyways
>Weeks of missing school, still go to labs even though I keep messing up
>Write a letter to her and burn it up by the beach, break down crying
>Oddball of the family, only really ever was close to her so little support
>'Friends' don't bother to care after first few days of sending condolences
>Summer spent doing nothing of value, just sitting around being a NEET
>Decide to get better, start taking antidepressants
>Starts to work for a short while. Do okay even though I'm still in first year standing.
>Forget to take it one day, literally can't sleep.
>Life begins to crumble day by day, to point where I haven't been to class in weeks
>Present day, exams in a week and I don't know shit. May kill myself if I'm stuck in first year the third time around.

Call your mom or dad or someone you love before they're gone anons.

>>713447899
Listen, none of it is your fault. Adulthood is a fucked up life to get used to. But that's just it, you get used to it.

Jumping into adulthood, especially in ways like filling out applications and even working your first job, it's like jumping into a freezing cold pool. That doesn't sound appealing at ALL. Quite the opposite actually. But everyone else is down there in the water already. You know you and everyone else would be happier if you were in there, but you're nervous about the act of jumping, the freezing cold water below, the fear of failing. But at some point, you have to essentially cut your brain off from thinking and jump in, because it's all this overthinking that is keeping you from it in the first place. It's like you're overriding your brain and going against your inner will. If you can pick up what I'm putting down. You have to jolt your body to work against your logic, against common sense. So basically you kind of have to train yourself to just stop thinking altogether at times.

Once you're in the water, you'll adjust.

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>>713448504

I find that the key to doing things... is to not think about them. If I can get myself to do it before I second-guess myself, or before the voices tell me it's wrong, I can see it through to completion.

Good luck! And for what it's worth, this random stranger on the internet believes in you.

>>713448565

Sound advice, anon. I will not forget this.

>>713448554

>Thanks for that snippet

Going to tell my mother now.

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>>713448675
I thank you my friend.
Usually my ideas start out like that, then falter when I take them seriously and I get frustrated at a lack of skill
This is what I have so far, I love it and I'm so scared of fucking it up.

>>713448565
I screenshotted this and I'm gonna try to look at it whenever life is really fucking me up. Thank you so much anon.

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>>713449153

Hey, you're doing better than I can. Your pencil is solid; just keep inking! What's the worst that could happen? I've made a ton of bad art, and a little bit of good stuff.

You do have the skill! You can do this.

>>713449344
I feel like you draw with a confidence that I lack, which is why I really like what you have. It looks true, and it looks natural.
That's the only thing I've drawn in years that feels right because it's how I feel. I've got a name for it already, Shield, but I'm so afraid of messing it up for myself and for the people I want to see it and feel what I feel.

>>713448565
I'm 21. I've had jobs before, so I have been right down in the water.

I had my first hospital visit because I messed something stupid up at work. I worked at a bookstore and stacked some books wrong, and my manager kept making me restack them.

I went home that night and cut myself for the first (and only) time. I don't even know why I did it, I just needed to feel something other than crushing despair. If I can't even stack some fucking books the right way, what hope is there for me?

Writing it out makes it sound even more stupid, I hate this.

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>>713449473

Hah, I have no confidence in my art. That last guy's hand was all fucked up. I've had a couple of drawings that I've left half finished because I didn't want to ruin them, but now... that seems even worse. It's worse to leave something beautiful undone than to finish it and have it end up imperfect.

You have to at least try.

Shield looks badass, by the way. Love the spikes, the neck, the hollow chest... it's beautiful, but scary.

>>713440908

that one is truly a mess

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>>713449686

Yeah, it is. None of my art is very clean.

>>713440908
Any chance I could contact you to make requests for art? I like your stuff a lot :)

>>713449667
I'm sorry that you don't have confidence in your artz
If it means anything I think it's wonderful, and it's raw, and it feels right to look at.
Unfinished drawings are nothing to be ashamed of, they're the purest for of your inspiration. It's perfect in its own way.
I'm glad you like Shield.
In a way it represents everything I've been blocking out, maybe that's why it's my baby right now.
The vulnerability of a tiny creature who generates and hides inside something horrific.

>>713449749
>>713449912

take advantage of this anon, make a few bucks

>>713449912

Yeah, hit me up at [email protected]

I might get back to you, maybe not. I feel like shit, and I've been busy.

What kinda requests you thinking of?

>>713449964

The idea is awesome. The execution is nearly complete... :P

>>713450075
I'll email you tomorrow anon, pinky promise. Can't wait to see what you can do for me :')

>>713412112
Every person I've ever opened up to has abandoned me. They don't even check in, one break down and they realize I'm just to damn broken.

If I ever strike it rich I'll repay them for the precious time they spent putting up with me.

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>>713450299

Don't be too hopeful.

I am:
1. Depressed
2. As I said, busy
3. Fickle
4. Not often online
5. But if I can motivate myself, I love to draw. ;)

Alright, I love you anons, but I need to catch a couple hours of sleep before the wicked dawn. Hang in there.

>>713423102
Are you me? This is actually really close to what I went through. I was even on the cross country team. Except... I started switching schools since third grade. I made quite a bit of friends that genuinely missed me after I left that new school in 4th grade. Fifth grade I met a qt3.14 and she had an on off relationship with me. It ended not too long ago, in August. 7 years... Fuck. Now I'm depressed and just browsing /b/.

>>713450075
((underpressure))
I can only perform between the hours of my first drink and third drink but I hope to god I can finish this because it's my precious brainchild and I don't want it to be aborted.

>>713449486
It's not stupid at all anon. It wasn't even the books you were upset about, looking at it. You felt hopeless, stupid, embarrassed and degraded. Maybe a combination of things bothering you from previous experiences that flared up because of this.

But it's important for you to know that you aren't hopeless, you aren't stupid, and you aren't degraded or seen as "low" in anyone's eyes (anyone important anyways).

I know this is probably the cliche dad speech sort of thing, but EVERYbody makes those sort of mistakes. I'm sure your manager's probably even done it at some point too. You can only do what you know, and you just simply didn't know it at the time. Now that you made that mistake, you're less likely to do it now that you know. A good portion of life itself is making mistakes, then feeling stupid, and the impact that had on you will lead to you not making that mistake again. The only one who thinks you're "stupid" is you, so drop the overthinking and look at the big picture here.

And the whole cutting thing, I get that too. Your emotions always come to a head. You're learning in this area too; this time with how to respond to these kind of failures. But there's a difference between failing and being a failure. The people who are in high positions and have lots of experience are people who have failed a SHIT ton and coped and learned from it. The people who are living in a lull and go nowhere in life are people who failed a few times and said "fuck this I can't do it"- those are the failures.

>>713450478
I'm a patient anon, I don't mind waiting however long it takes. Sweet dreams.

>>713414309
Nice feet
Hope those drinks are straight shots of absinthe, I'm gonna fucking need it

>>713429444
Are you me?
Also, nice trips

This was my mother's favourite song, I become an emotional mess whenever I hear it. I haven't seen her since I was 8.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWAsI3U2EaE

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>>713404655
>>713404655


I am the guy who post things in my dick 2 time a year on here.

It was my birthday Oct 7 ,
On my birthday both my Mom and Girlfriend Both had mental breakdowns for stress and anxiety.
On the 17 of October, my mom was hospitalized, she had terminal cancer.
A week later I was expecting my Pokemon cards I ordered for my birthday to show up( Mom paid for me to order them)
Sometime after my neighbour that I was arguing with stole my mail as an act of revenge for calling the cops on her. She left a tag of a Pikachu Magicarp Cosplay Plush tag on my doorstep as some kind of omen.
(She was noisy and beat her puppy because she was not letting it out so it was shitting in her apartment )
On November 23rd I found my moms body in her apartment. She took pain killers for her cancer but took a few too many and her heart stopped working, and she fell asleep pain free.
She died alone, we didnt get a chance to record her stories like vlogs,. for her children,
Its been a bad 6 weeks.

>>713406244
I understand, I'm going thru the same problem with my gf yet I love her more than anything. it's a really shitty feeling to say the least

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>>713454557
Good luck anon.

>>713449486
Level with your parents about how badly you need psychiatric help before you can work. You won't be able to make anything in your life work until you get out from under this crushing anxiety and depression.

There are ways you can get expensive psych meds without having medical insurance. A doctor can give you free samples, some of the pharma companies will give people meds for free if they need them and can't afford them, or you can go to a public mental health clinic if your parents can't or won't put you on their insurance.

Some people need psych meds to get to the same baseline other people start at. It sounds like you're one of them.

>>713414309
nice feet