alcohol, i move from town to town, getting to know bar owners, convincing them to let me have a bar tab, blow that shit right up then move town again with a new identity, i work from home and have a good job so im not poor, i just get off to this for somereason.
>>704573127 My life would just backslide, never accomplished fucking anything. That includes actually recovering. Plus eventually the drugs stop working due to tolerance and I had maxed out my resources so I couldn't buy more. I was already getting a $300+ paycheck each week and selling $200-$500 of dope a day. I could've started robbing dealers or businesses but I didn't wanna do that. Now I've got 90 days sober, fucking I'll answer questions if yall got any
>>704573719 I felt terrible and dope sick, I was pretty pissed I'd relapsed again. Now I'm doing alot better, I don't even crave drugs everyday! That shit is shocking, I've always wanted to get high since I started at 15. Plus I was able to step my sub dose down to 1 mg so I'm confident ill not be too terribly sick this time
>>704573067 Good luck anon I wish you well I have had too many friends die on that shit I used to have a smoke and drink while they shot up They quit a few times but there were always some fucker willing to share a boot with them . One of them moved in my place so I could help him . Never stole off me .got him a job and now he is doing better than me . Thanks me every time we meet for a beer H has to be the most horrible drug I've ever come across
Used to be dependent on Diclazapam, I used to sell a lot to a lot of people when it was legal and available online, and I'd eat them like tic tacs. All got a bit unreal tbh.
Now weekend-wise it's coke and ketamine, xanax and valium are always available and tasty, but I try to stay away cus of that old downer habit.
Occasional H user, but I buy online and (thankfully) don't know any local dealers now I've moved. Once a month or so I'll get a gram or maybe more and chase with the few other people I know who do it. Oxys are nice, but nigh impossible to get hold of in the UK outside the darkweb.
>Hardcore pharmaceutical opiate addict for over 10 years >Started Methadone maintenance program in '08 >Have had nothing but methadone ever since >"Hey that shits just trading one drug for another! You ain't really clean!" >Methadone saved my life & I'll probably be on it my entire life. >see it as my insulin for my disease, I don't get "high", and function better than ever >Fuck critics of MMT, try it if you were like me, a serious junkie....it may work for you...
>>704576914 Honestly anon I feel for u I can't imagine how bad the TDS are I've seen them but to feel them must be terrible. I hope that when you have gone through hell . I hope you never go back to that shit again . When you were scoring your baggies were it from another user? Or just a dealer. If it were a user Why did you start ? Knowing that you will end up just as fucked up or worse . Are your vains all hardend up . In time they will kinda improve. No offence I am genuinely interested and want to back you up .
>>704576735 H is weird. I've taken it less than pretty much any other drug, but it's always the one I can feel myself saying to myself that 'I could really do with some brown right now'. It's so evil because it's so perfect. Nothing else matters when you're in that zone, and when you stay there for too long it changes from not wanting to leave, to not being able to even if you want to.
Those are words from a close friend who went a lot harder with her usage than me. I've never reached that point, and I hope I never will.
>>704571885 I'm pretty fucking basic, I'm the next in line in my family to be the walking booze and cigarette consumer. Sounds pretty fucking ridiculous, but no one in my family has ever had any kind of cancer or shit.
I also smoke weed fairly regularly, not like everyday, but maybe once a week.
>>704571885 Smoke too much green, I started smoking recently and whenever I drink I drink with my own death in mind. Vices are an emotional crutch so I use them often and don't moderate my self very healthy...so yea that's my blog post
>>704571885 Never smoked even a cigarette. Making $140,000 this year. Wife making over $105/$110k. All i gotta do is show up because of so many fucking idiots like you all who can't be relied on. Companies pay us more than our worth now (supply & demand). Some of you all would even have the nerve to say white privilege. Lol. Sure, whatever makes you not try harder means more of a need for my hard work being over paid.
>>704578314 Yeah good man don't I used to feel the same when I had Coke Completely different drug .but I couldn't stop myself.it all came to an end when I did crack for a few weeks.then it hit me point blank if I don't stop I'm gunna be fucked . 2 rocks per day so that's £40 Plus 2packs of cigs around £19 Then then the special brew to ease the come down 24 pack £32 My wages weren't paying enough and I had to stop At one point I'd have robbed anyone for some gear Been clean for nearly 2 years now but still I think of a quick line and toot But keep my self busy. Married last year things are going well Still drink and smoke tho That's a bit too much to do at moment >were you from anon ? I'm South Yorkshire England
>>704578958 I really couldn't care. Thats nice anon good for you but you'll never experience true joy and you'll forever be wrapped in it your shitty little ego saying "xD I'm better den u lololololololol" Your "I'm a giant douche" metal will come in the mail.
>>704577899 Not that anon, I'm Suboxone anon. O was a dealer and I scored from higher level dealers to sell and use. I started opiates in highschool, I sold oxy 80s I paid $10 for and sold at $40. My first supplier was a teacher at my school and I loved making money and getting wrecked everyday. Then the oxys were reformulated and dried up so I started using the dope I pushed. It was all downhill from there. I could go into further detail if u wish bro
My true poison is tobacco, plus weed (mostly shitty hash tbh) almost every day. Spent the whole summer drunk, sometimes with bzd and/or dxm. Thinking about getting some Etiazolam while it's legal in Yurop.
>>704578403 Suboxone anon here, it definitely does but you have to work at recovery to accomplish it in a meaningful way. Your coping mechanism that worked for so long is now gone so staying dry sucks worse than using, you have to work recovery to achieve happiness. The initial shit is the worst and as a junkie I want everything to happen NOW, so patience is tough
>>704579215 Not at all actually. Got a great family. Great job. Great vacation time. Life is going great. Definitely had my hardships with the murder of my father, don't get me wrong. But wanted to let some of you all know I'm benefitting financially because of your decisions. I DO hope ya'll fix your shit via better methods though.
>>704579449 Yeah if you want to anon I'm just waiting to go to work fuckin night shifts suck But that's when my urges start so I suppose it's a good thing so I have to be sober for the drive and job Did you use cold water filtration for the oxy I used to do codine that way before I made lean
>>704577899 I honestly started dope because of my love for opiates. It was very cheap ($100 a gram of china) compared to sky rocketing pill prices and potent all because I was connected and a known dealer. In my mind it made sense and was just another opiate
Crack's pretty funky. Done it few times and even though I didn't even enjoy it that much all I wanted was more. Difference is afterwards when I'd come down I didn't really crave. With H, days, even weeks later it can be on my mind. Tbh it can be on my mind whenever, nothing to do with when I last took it. We never buy it rocked though, we just rock our own stuff up. Friend sells puro and crack makes it heavier. How much were you getting for your twenty? Also big ups for kicking it. Don't be a bitch and go back. Drinking's my big one too, calming it down atm which is decent. Manc/Westcountry here.
>>704578403 21 months clean from opiates here and yes, it does go away. I quit cold turkey and my withdrawals lasted for what felt like forever. It was about months before doing anything didn't hurt. You've really got to work at it though. Like want it with every fiber of your being. I'm pretty happy now and am way stronger (physically and mentally) than I have ever been. You just have to decide if you want to live your life in the miserable hell you're in or pursue an actual meaning life.
>>704579837 These were 80 mg oxycontin, so no Tylenol just crush and go. This was before the reformulation so it was fucking easy bro and selling was easy as shit. Id normally sell 40 a day so thats like $1200 if i didnt cut any breaks. What else would you like to know?
>>704579843 Yea that's why quitting is so hard by yourself and why 12 steps work. These are here to support you, they've been where you are and came out happy and successful. I wanted that, I was tired of depression and failure, shit they had conquered. So I did what they said and worked hard and I'm starting to do better and get what they have. I figured fuck it, why not try? It worked for them and if I didn't like it I could always use again but I was willing to try
Woke up for class after tripping on shrooms all day yesterday, realized I didn't know where my wallet was, not in my room, went out to my car to look for it, nowhere to be found, smoked a bowl in my car from the pipe I keep in the glovebox, drove to Tbell for a breakfast burrito that I payed for in quarters, ate and smoked another bowl in the parking lot, by this time I was already late for class so I went to the local shelter and played with puppies for a little while just baked out of my mind. Just got back, smoked a cigarette and took a bong hit, considering downing a few caps of nitrous
>>704571885 I tried coke for the first time this summer, friend of mine gave me a bag since he knows it makes me more social etc. I only do small keybumps tho, but the last couple times all I got was a headache.
>>704580707 Yea, South East us fag here. That man was my lifeline and he supplies most of winston so I got his number and kept him very close. Was always reliable and we made good $ together. They're probably referring to opana or roxy in my expirence that's what that means. We used to mix dope and green roxys to shoot, called it predator blood haha
>>704580814 1. Get a slide bong and make sure the end of the slide fits a nitrous cracker over it. 2. Fill up balloon with nitrous 3. Fill up bong with thick hit 4. Slide the end of the cracker and full balloon over bong. 5. Take bong hit and nitrous hit all at once. 5. Stop staring through me 5. Smell colors 6.Ph'nglui mglw'nafh Cthulhu R'lyeh wgah'nagl fhtagn
It's even better if you do it while you're tripping. I'm totally sober now but son of a bitch. It's quite a ride.
>>704580168 Half gram for 40 Good yellow crack 70 gram for good Coke Had to drive to pits moor Sheffield for it tho Not a nice place to be flinging cash around. Thanks I will never go down that path again. When I'm out clubbing I see people bumping a key and just want to have it but the shit it's done in my past keeps me clean Luckily I haven't crack teeth lol
>>704579537 http://pillreports.net/index.php?page=display_pill&id=36222 googled it and description doesn't sound like a high dose... i still have 5 purple tomorrowlands laying around here, but i'm still waiting for a good opportunity to take it with other ppl.
Ex H shooter down to 1mg suboxone yayyy. Though ive started shooting my subs now and pretty sure thats not a good sign... can anybody recommend me a good doseage to jump off? Stay in there heroinfags, it gets better, man it would like one shitty ass day to go and score again and ruin everything ive built but yeah itd just be the one day, hate living on such a precipice :(
>>704581713 I'm also down to 1 mg, I'm jumping off on tue because I'm already feeling the effects and it's been a month. So fuck I'd just do that. I don't need to add this but stop shooting ur subs, dumbass
>>704581268 >>704581356 I dunno, he always gets good shit apparently. He has money to throw around and takes his drugs seriously. But hell if I know, used some friday at an event and just felt bad. Also drinking beer tho (I don't drink beer) so maybe that was it.
>>704580379 Yeah I've got 20 mins before I go What's your worst experience with the drug ? I once woke up in a crack house on the worst comedown ever with a crack slut stroking me .then she told me I were foaming at the mouth and trying to fight the group who tried to help me Banging night in club I were told Still talk to her on fb now and again She's still bang at it It's a shame
>>704581169 Yeah that's probably it dude They were banned in uk because of od's in prisons .no gear just inject green eggs . I used to have a little tamazipan linctus when I could get it >ok speak Mazzi juice kek
I drink a bit, at least 12 beers a night. I can't remember the last time I had a full week off. I always wake up feeling fucking fantastic and it has never interfered with my work. I feel like it's getting worse lately though, I used to have a few days off here and there but I haven't had a sober night in a good month or so.
>>704581868 Eek, are you sure that's wise? Thats gonna hurt, I would highly recommend tapering down to as little as you can, I wouldnt wish opiate wd on my worst enemy. I tried jumping off 35mL methadone and it was Hell on Earth. As for shooting subs, dont even know where that came from, but at least im not scoring...yet :(
>>704582128 Haha nice one, nothing like crackheads in the morning. Let's see one night I had to keep a friend alive while he was trying to od, he'd drank, taken benzos and shot dope. His gf calls me at 1 am saying he's dying and outside my house. I run outside and rip him outta the car because he was choking, dumb bitch had bought him food to "revive" him. So he's asparating the burger he couldn't swallow. I had to clear his airway and prop him up face down so he could breathe. He fucking pukes clear liquid all over my shorts and feet and can't stay concious. I threatened to the gf until she finally took him to the er, dumb bitch was so scared of going she almost let him die.
Another really bad expirence was I found out a former customer/close friend was making and selling cp to pay for his shit. He got 40 years, wife 20 and that little girl was 7. He was in Texas at the time, here's the article
Closet call with the cops would be the time my buddy got pulled over after I bought a quarter ounce of dope. We passed the police station to buy it and on the way back passed again. He neglected to tell me his car was reported stolen, a crackhead sold him the car then had sellers remorse so she called the cops. Also he had out of state tags that were no longer legal. We get pulled over with all this and there's fucking needles and spoons sprinkled throughout the car, it was like the junkie easter bunny had visited. I shoved the 7 bags into my mouth so I could swallow if necessary. We somehow talk our way outta that mess and they let us go. The real kicker was I stepped outta the car back out of the house and a bag I'd missed falls outta me, I had missed one!! Thank god I didn't get pulled outta the car because it would've looked like I was shitting drugs in front of the cops, haha
Wish I had a connect for weed shrooms LSD. All I have is shit tier alcohol.
How could anyone get addicted to this shit? I've tried drinking for like a month and I was fucking bored a week into it. It fucking sucks. Once you do weed, shrooms, or LSD, alcohol seems like the kiddie version of weed.The only thing it's good for is the occasional pizza but I don't eat pizza that often.
>>704583005 Yea fuck it, I'm already sick and unwilling to wait any longer. It can't be worse than jumping off methadone after 3 years, fuck that noise. I gave it a month and I'm not feeling better so I just wanna get started
>>704584161 Got hit by senior citizens on the bridge, half ounce under my seat. They said it was me. The highway was too busy, cops let me go. My heart was in my throat, had to accept that I hit them, or get searched. Basically. Was glad to admit it, because of the shit. Still glad, even now honestly.
>>704584343 Ok mate, good luck, I couldnt do it (and I will never, ever try again) but big ups to you if you manage it... also dont go back to shooting H or whatever to feel better, oh man, I do not miss walking around Sydney in cold, sweating withdrawal trying to score :(
>>704571885 well i started friday night by popping molly then doing couple lines of coke on that which explains i have only slept 6 hours in the last 3 days all this while steadily drinking and taking occasional bong hit the a now its 3 in after noon like i said been up since last night doing moare line of coke while mixing it mdma
>>704585313 Yeah but I have 8mg strips that a tear into 1mg doses, eating 1 daily but shooting 1 ontop of it on bad days... I figure the 2mg naloxone inthe entire strip would be negligible inthat 1mg slice... either way it makes me feel slightly buzzed... :/
Hungover from staying up working until 3am, drank half a 1.75L of Evan Williams. It's shit tier whiskey but the price is right. Work from home as a software dev and rather work all night and sleep all day. Employer doesn't seem to mind.
Going to a ska show tonight, will be sneaking in to 8 ounce flasks and whatever I drink there. Will get shitfaced, drive home drunk like an idiot but hey what are you gonna do, then probably finish my 1.75 and tap into the next. Get some work done, go to sleep about 4 and wake up at noon. Repeat.
>>704587123 >>704587446 I've gotten drunk off my ass with like 20 20ozs at a time. It just isn't the same as weed. You don't feel that great. You don't remember much from the night before. You can't keep your balance. You can't eat anything because you're bloated so food tastes like shit. You can't create music, write, draw, or play vidya. And to top it all off, it costs about 3x the amoutn that weed does.
Alcohol is shit-tier after you've had some high end weed. Same thing with tobacco.
>>704586897 it depends on the batch u get if some thing like i took right now which feels like its been cut with speed then its like almost like being on coke with out the numbeness of the face and last a lot longer i also feel like the comedown is 100s times worse at lest for me i start getting depressed really quickly and over thinking things till i get a good nights rest and a lil time to unwhined
>>704587750 i dont know if agree i drink pretty much everyday regardless of the time and it does the job i still steady smoking weed at the same time but like i said b4 to each his own just as long dont become a homeless addict that only lives for the next hit then just find what ever makes u happy
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