>>704563381 Kinda know how that feels, last year my boyfriend of 2 years broke up with me cause he found out that I had a drug addiction. I also smoke cigarettes which he knew about but drugs crossed the line. I can't talk to any guys the same anymore and only do hookups. Without him I feel like nothing because he was the only person that cared about me. Habe no idea if anything im saying makes sense, havent slept for 2 days. Femanon btw.
>>704563381 After I completed my sophomore year in high school, I went to another high school and entered as a sophomore again so I could meet more girls. I have to say, this is a pretty good plan because you get to experience things as a sophomore with them and form relationships.
>>704563381 i know the feel anon, been in love with the same girl for five years, twenty now, extremely toxic relationship on both parts, but always sorted shit out, dont really speak now only time we speak is when one of us is wasted and have a moment of weakness and tells the other how we feel, the girls fucking amazing tho, been through two relationships since all ruined because of her but i do the same to her, ever seen hancock with will smith, its pretty similar to that where it feel like we should be together and we are drawn to each other but s soon as we get close again everything goes to shit
I posted on craigslist before saying that I was a virgin and looking to lose my virginity, at the time I was a 25M who had already well past lost his virginity. Some 7/10 girl contacted me, she was bbw material but at the same time I found her attractive. I played the 'innocent male virgin' type the whole time and she dug every bit of it. Que 1 week later we meet up park are cars near each other, I get in her car and we start talking about whats gonna happen. She gets her tits out and gives me a condom and 'explains' to me what I should do. Meanwhile I'm sitting there amazed that this fat older woman happens to have the nicest looking pair of tits I've ever seen. Long story short I fuck her most of the night in the car (one hour?) and she asks If I was really a virgin, compliments me, then we part ways and never speak again. That night, I go home to my then girlfriend and cuddle into bed with her. Never told anyone, not proud of it, don't understand it, and forever hated myself for it.
>>704564350 I do opiates and xanax was into heaver stuff years ago its impossible to maintain a healthy relationship wile using if you get help n get your shit together youll basically get a do over addiction is the best copout or just take enough xanax to not care about anything that works 2
>>704565981 I'm sorry that drugs have had such a toll on your life. I know few people who've gone through withdrawals and had their lives pretty much ruined by not being able to stop, but I've also known people who don't WANT to stop and enjoy it. Overall though, I'm sorry that drugs stop you from feeling like you can have a good relationship and I wish you luck.
>>704563381 My 9yo kid managed to see the pattern unlock for my phone. Saw a bunch of nudes from the girl I was seeing at the time. I'm 24btw.
Anyway, instead of being a good parent. I sat there and showed him more. He was intrigued, a lot. I still told him not to be going through peoples things. And he obliged.
So I start asking him on a 1-10 scale what was she. He said 9. He was on point. Girl was my age, just a little too tiny. Short and very thin. So I start joking about trying to find the "perfect 10".
Long story short, it lead to me bringing home 13 different women within a short time. Probably 3 months. Every time after this woman would, or I would take them home. Him and I would just spend days talking and comparing the women. He never saw them nude or anything. But I let him talk how he wants. You'd swear your talking to a 20 year old, because he's mature, but just cussing and everything. Titties, pussy, bitch, cunt. I don't let him say fuck though. It was the best time we had short from amusement parks.
Talks to everyone with respect, his mother (separated), both grandmothers. Aunts/uncles. He takes karate and plays little league. But when it's him and I. It's time to pull bitches and whores. You'd be surprised by this kids wingman abilities.
He'll be 11 in January, and I do believe I'm raising a fucking Mac daddy.
>>704565827 I have no idea where to start to even quit/seek help. Everytime I take xanax I have to have at least alcohol with it. I used to be into crack but dealer got arrested. I just wish he tried to stick around to help. He just thinks I can't stop within a snap of my fingers.
>>704566590 be thankful you dont have access to crack anymore its the fast track to fucking up your live or land behind bars for turning tricks also learned pretty quick never to drink on xanax too many stupid decisions. you should explain that addiction is a disease and take him to a na/aa meeting with you any reasonable person that cares for you will support you n help you through it wile better understanding your strife
>>704566600 I also had scripts, and still have a klonopin script and thought the same thing, but it isn't that simple. The doctor isn't going to keep increasing your rx once it reaches a certain point, and your tolerance is going to get too high and you'll be fucked, but best luck.
I had an affair with a gay man. He fell in love. I got him to buy me heroin and he wanted to try it so i shot him up. A few months later i tried to get in touch for a blow job. I found out he had ODed weeks before. It was essentially my fault. I killed a gay
>>704567564 been doing it for years maintain by taking bare minimum to feel normal/good an occasionally taking more when I'm off work/ not making sales Florida is a pill mill state no problem finding drs if i ever need to, always feel happy + make lots of extra income = wining
>>704568006 yes they accept anyone any age but na will have a lot more people your age talk to him after you do a few steps, one of them is to make amends its the perfect excuse to call him your supposed to just to complete the step call apologise for you addiction and the stress it caused for you 2 be sincere and confident pull some heart strings don't grovel or cry he will be impressed and see your getting your shit together
>>704568006 You can age doesnt matter in AA , just seek help , if you believe in god hold on to it , and do it for your self not for someone else bc if he leaves you you gonna go bck to the old habbit ... best of luck femanon
>>704568643 or just take a hit and call him now and act like your on step 4 or what ever n make amends act like you've been going to meeting for 6 months google some meeting locations an na/aa lingo hide your drugs better
>Every time I talk to people it's just an act to get them to like me. I don't really like people but I think socializing is important. I find having to be social physically exhausting and after a few days of doing it straight I just get grumpy and short tempered >I only go for girls that are highly sought after/hard to get/supposed to be unavailable. I enjoy flirting with girls who hang with groups of guys who I know will never get to fuck her, girls with boyfriends, and girls who say they arnt interested. I don't know why I do this to myself tbh. >I'm minutely a sadist and a masochist. I vaguely enjoy the emotional and physical pain of others, and the same on myself. I browse my fair share of gore. I don't give too many fucks about the well being of others, but I'm against violence and for society and helping others on a Philosophical level. >I'm extremely depressed. Everything is hard. I want to tell people this often because I feel like I will be able to ease the pain. I also drink to stop it. Killing myself would be a good option. >I've never told anyone but I'm a pretty conservative Trump supporter but I say I'm liberal to other people because I know they'll just jump to prejudice conclusions about me from saying it.
Also I'm hung up about my fwb. I'm pretty in love but I know she'll never be interested. I wish I could describe my situation to you guys but she's so confusing that I don't think it could be conveyed properly through text.
I weigh like 8 stone 10 pounds. I'm not so straightforwardly autistic as that but I'm probably pretty bad. I'm pretty successful with girls and socially so I don't really feel like a neck beard as such. I'm pretty fucking autistic though I look like an Italian chef with the quality of spaghetti I drop sometimes.
I fuck enough. I left a year and a half long relationship over the summer and I've had two steady fwb since I got out of the relationship. When I said I flirted with girls who were supposed to be unavailable I was never implying that I didn't get lucky with them.
>be me, 23 year old teacher >met a 17 year old girl at a summer job in july >she's in the same school as where i teach now >she's 9/10 easily >has spotted me in school but doesn't talk to me cause would be awkward i guess >want to pound her voluptuous ass with the force of a 1000 bisons
>>704566493 Pattern unlocks are the stupidest shits in existence, please tell me most of you know this. I easily learned the pattern locks of every single one of my friends who used one. Our brains are good at patterns, and they use bright lights and shit. See it once and you've got it.
>>704563381 In 2010 i took a week vacation to go to Vegas with some bros. My boss asked me if i could come in Saturday (i was leaving Sunday and saturday afternoon i had directtv coming out to hook up my cable) and run a dump trailer with 3 tons of soil a couple hours away to a landfill. I agreed but I would have to leave at 6am to make it back in time to meet cable guy. Fastforward to saturday, when i get to the yard, whoever used the dump trailer last fucked up the wiring for the lights and hydraulics. I could have fixed it but i would have missed the cable guy. Call boss and say i cant fix it and go home, get cable, and go to Vegas. Fastforward to Wednesday around 11am, drunk already at frankies tiki lounge. Get a call from the boss. They sent the new guy (50 some odd year old dude with a wife and 18 year old son) to dump the soil and he lost control of the truck and went head on into a semi. Dead af. Because i didnt want to reschedule my cable hook up.
>>704571656 I was her first and I asked her if she was curious. Initially she said no, but I let her know that I was OK with it. We used it sometimes as a roleplay game during sex. Then one day she sort of sidled up to the subject, obviously concerned that I'd get mad. Turns out there was an attractie guy at work had been hitting on her, and she was curious. I said if she wanted, she revisited the decision until she was sure I wasn't going to get mad, then she decided to go through with it.
>I was in in a tumultuous, sometimes physically abusive relationship with my current gf >shits cool now, worked out a lot of her issues >recently started seeing a counsellor at uni, first time I'd talked about it with anyone >bringing these suppressed emotions up has hit me like a ton of bricks and right now is the most depressed I've felt in forever. >can't get anything done >fuck around on /b/ and binge play old tony hawk games
>>704571391 I'm actually pretty sure I know this feeling >Used to work as a security guard in a shitty town. >Would just fuck around on over night shift 10pm-6am. whipping around the parking lot in the patrol car >Lots of drugs and nigs in the area, but I fucking keep my shit judge dredd style >Pretty much have a rule "I dont give a flying fuck what your doing, so long as its off my post >One night just driving around >See a car parked at the closed bank at 2am. sketchy as fuck. Had alot of people getting mugged useing that atm so I'm watching it. >Get there, one guy comes out, waves me down. The other is a tweaked out looking mother fucker who tries to hid under his seat >fucks going on here? >"Im so sorry! We are waiting for a friend to get dropped off and drive. I lost my wallet and it had my license in it. Didnt want to drive without it." >Tweekers giving me some mean ass fucking looks. Dont like it >Parking at a closed atm at 2am is a sure fire way to get police attention. Go across the street, and your not my problem >"Ok but I dont have my license-" >Tweeker gets his head out and says "fuck you" >You take my advice and leave this bank or I call the police and say I have suspects for the muggers that have been jumping people at this atm recently >Nice guy gets in his car and drives across street >He gets into the dark parking lot, immedietly a cop rolls up on them >Tweeker up and runs into the brush >They aressted the nice guy for driving without a license, and the tweeker planted drugs all over his car and got away
I still feel kinda bad. I could have just sat in my vehicle till the friend came (which she did), but I just wanted my area clean and no paper work.
>>704566041 as someone who only drinks and knows nothing about harder drugs. How much money are we talking about here? I'm honestly curious. an 18 pack of beer sets me back close to $20 every week and it cuts into my monthly budget,,, I can't even imagine doing anything harder/more expensive.
>>704563381 I still have regular faps over the girl across the street from my family home. She is my oldest female friend, a bit of a butterface and has put on quite a bit of weight since she stopped being active and sporty. Would still love to cum over her face. She got a bit flirty with me over snapchat but came to her prudish senses and ratted me out to my girlfriend. Been having a lot of relationship issues lately and that certainly didn't help.
>>704564456 Follow her around stealthily. Wait until she gets to a shadowy area, put on your mask, and gloves and her gag and blind fold.Throw her in your trunk, take her to an abandoned building far away from city folk with a basement. Proceed to use her as your own personal sex toy as you fuck her until her mind breaks and she obeys your orders without question. Marry her, and enjoy her pussy whenever. Alternatively, get another gril and use her whenever you want.
>>704566477 this is pretty much normal. My wife doesn't really mess with my porn watching, and I have gone to strip clubs... both with her and by myself. However, there is a line I can't and won't cross.. and that's sleeping with someone else.
Hmmm.. wait I did fucked a girl while deployed in the navy, and we where married less than a year already.
As guys we tent to be less selective and tent to want to fuck around more
>>704564601 What are you regretting? Figure out what's bothering you about how the relationship ended and work to fix it.
If it just ended because she lost interest than not much you can do anon. Work on problems you see in yourself, as you fix those the other problems you're facing either fix themselves or get easier to deal with
>>704566695 I've seen some girls with not so nice pussies and it was never an issue. You should be alright if you don't say anything.... Oh but wait, what about the not getting pregnant thing and all that missing inside machinery?? hmmmm
>>704572791 Right. Dude was horribly unqualified. I just wish i had said "fuck the cable, I'll get it when i get back from Vegas" and repaired the wiring and dumped it myself. 1000% sure i would have made it there and back. It's hard not to feel partially responsible.
>>704567120 How's that working out for you /b/ro? Most I ever sold at one time was 1/2 pound. Used it to buy a shiny new guitar.
My main obstacle is that you need quite a bit of space to grow enough to make a living off of it, and I've always lived in small apartments where unless I wanted my bedroom to be overcome by grow tubs, I settled for just a couple at a time.
>>704565639 Dude, i know how u feel, i made something similar (but just oral sex). And i know the guilt u can feel with your gf or wife.
But my advice is to not blame yourself, everyone have secrets and have made some mistakes; and you can blame and hate yourself OR you can realise you are a humanbeen and its your final porpuse to learn about your mistakes and move on.
Your mistakes dont define yourself, the things you learn about it does. Move on and live your life loving yourself
>>704572745 This. My wife made me go see a shrink after my best friend killed himself. Did absokutley nothing. $100 an hour for a litteral faggot to tell me i need a hobby. My hobby is working 90 hours a week so i dont die broke and a faggot like u... smh. Fuck therapy...
>>704573950 23 i cant just leave her been together for 5 years and lived together for 3. Really enjoy her company as we both play vidya but now shes headed to college and will be gone for weeks at a time
I used to tell my cousin to suck my dick when she was 6. I would close her eyes and tell her to suck on it liek a lollipop. I would lick her tits and suck on her small pussy but she soon loved to suck my dick and wanted me to do more to her. I stopped talking to her for years. She's 15 now. I just met her.
Another story, different cousin from mom's side now. When she was sleeping, I licked her tits,licked my finger and shoved it in her ass. Used her underwear to masturbate.
On Step Mom's side. Told my 7 year old boy cousin that I wanted him to suck on a lollipop and just shoved my dick in his mouth. A few times, then I had to stop. He was annoying.
Now I'm just hoping they forgive me for what I've done to them. God be with me.
>>704563381 My secret is I'm an eproctophile. I've had this fetish since I was a young boy. It all started with one of my sister's on a bet. She said if I won I'd get anything I wanted, and if she won she'd get anything she wanted. Well I ended up winning and so I told her what I wanted. She laughed but obliged. It was one of the best times of my life. It's rare to find women now that are interested in it, though. Also, I love your picture. I would stick my nose directly in that ass so she can rip loud wet farts up my nose.
It felt just natural, I remember that sometimes I would pick her up from the Kindergarden and she would touch my dick in the car, I remember that one time I even made her suck my dick in the car. (can´t believe how stupid I was back then)
>>Be me 38 wife kid good job >>closet faggot >>Smoke weed occasionally but live in cali so whatever >> Never touch the hard stuff >>Last week get hot my as fuck for some dick >>Craiglist here I come >>find two guys PNP'ing and reply >> say never partied before and want to try >> go to house get naked and get it on >> first smoke a bunch of meth, then massive booty bumps while getting fucked and sucking dick >> then guys say if you really want to do it the best way is to slam it >> say fuck it, they tie me off and give me the point >>Fucking amazing >>Get Tina dick, they give me a viagra >> then break out the G >>I'm on cloud 9 and getting spit roasted >> fuck for like 6 or 7 hours >>go home, pick up snacks for wife on the way home >> act like nothing happened >> yep I'm a total piece of shit
>>704572745 He obviously hasn't squared it away if he's emotional during therapy. You obviously failed at therapy. When therapy is successful, the things that haunted you no longer do, or haunt you less. The most extreme traumas can be overcome. Overcoming them is different than trying to forget about them, really. It's a glorious feeling, a lightness of the mind.
Once every month I take a shitload of drugs and I party with strangers. Its always amazing and i've met some amazing people while doing it. Yet all my normal friends absolutely hate drugs and I act like I hate it too. I know if i'd talk about it honestly I would lose at least half of my friends and job.
>>704574610 It sounds like you really have things under control. Good for you anon, I'm almost a little jealous, I could use some adventure like that. If it's once a month then it's just kind of this thing you do. It's not like your life is overcome with drugs. Your friends don't need to know this about you. Cheers man
>>704575075 I've hinted at it before bur she just not that type of chick, tried to get her to peg me but not luck, closest I get is her being ok with me having an anal vibrator, nothing else. Also will never do meth or any of that shit again cuz face that. The come down was so bad I was fucked for like a week.
>be me, a mormon >be assigned by buddy for our two year mission >given several pairs of temple garments (mormon underwear) >it is very important that we wear mormon underwear at all times to avoid temptation >some time around 6 months in to the mission I was losing faith because nobody ever wanted to hear the word or listen to me >closing door after closing door after "fuck off" after "go away" >go back to our shared room >i excuse myself to go to the bathroom >remove my mormon underwear >stand for 6 minutes without my mormon underwear on >panicked and put them back on when my buddy asked if I was ok through the door >never told him what happened >never told anyone >no one ever found out
>>704574704 >>704573553 >>704574856 man, you just opened my eyes to a new venture. Starting my research now. Any recommendations/tips. I already work from home selling items online and youtube.... but I need a supplemental my income. Life is comfy, but I been stagnant for the past five years, and I need to expand my assets. Maybe get me a new car and a house to get the family off my back. I was an office drone before, and there is no way in hell I'm going back to that.
You're both wrong. Sunlight is a pinning trigger for them, but it's the weakest pinning trigger and doesn't matter much.
There are lightbulbs you can get in the right spectrum to mimic sunlight (our normal incandescent and fluorescent bulbs obviously don't do that), and you can get them on a day/night cycle.
The thing about the light usage is both correct and stupid. Nothing about the "daylight" bulbs tips off authorities. They're just normal bulbs with different spectrums. However if you had a shitload going at once then yes it would get hot and show up on infrared. They can catch weed growers this way. But if you were shooting an amateur movie with set lights it would be hot too... see what I'm saying? They can't raid your house because you have a lot of lights turned on, thats retarded.
And once again, light is the least important pinning trigger. You don't even need to mess with it if you don't want to.
Yeah but that's the problem with staying in the closet, when it's built up to the point that you have no choice but to release you're going to go overboard. I would just tell her that you'd like to get railed by a guy once a month. She can either be a part of it or not but it's something you need.
Even after 15 years x twice a week of therapy, I still have mental issues and sexual disfunction because of the things my mother did. I blame her for my life being garbage even though I'm just fucking lazy and dumb.
>>704575790 Good advise, bit seriously scared to do it, my shrink say just about the same thing but I honestly think she would leave me asap. I love our life together and love her, can image anyone else I want to get old with and she feels the same way, don't want to ruin it just cuz I need some dick on the side from time to time, total conundrum ugh
>>704563950 Sounds like you didnt love him enough to give up the one thing he wanted. He probably felt like he was compromising by letting you smoke and you blind sided him. Relationships require you to understand the other persons sacrifices. you deserved it unfortunately... all for a high
1. Ive been in love with the same girl for over 10 years now, which is why im scared of having a serious relationship 2. Depression caused by gender dysphoria and the fact that ill never be the person I want to be
>>704575688 I'll save you a ton of time and effort right here:
>Don't buy kits. You're a money wasting faggot if you do. Anyone who tells you to buy a kit you can instantly ignore as an idiot.
>Go straight to grains Don't bother with PF cakes. It got a reputation for being the noob grow method but everyone who does it and then moves on to grains just wishes they didn't waste their time with fucking PF cakes. Those who never move on from PF cakes are retarded.
You'll want to start growing before you've done enough research. Don't. Read motherfucker, read.
>shroomery.org is not only the best resource but it is the only resource you'll ever need. You can look through the "grow" part of the site to get your bearings but be careful - a lot of information is outdated as better grow methods were found, and they didn't update that part of the site because the real site is about the forums. >in other words, go to the forums and start reading.
Listen to RR and the other mods/ guys who've been doing it for ages.
>>704573087 its called depersonalization not dangerous but it can fuck you up real bad i feel like im dreaming most of the time and sometimes i forget things like, what season it is not curable, at least not quickly
>>704574198 The spirit of the rule is to limit any attention whoring by /b/itches faggot. And she is an attention whore for mentioning she's female to attract conversation from white knight! You fuckstick
I am an addict. Not to a particular drug, but I am addicted to the feeling of having my mind altered. I regularly use amphetamines, MDMA, LSD, 2CB, kratom, weed, yet I am still functioning above average, working on my PhD. Nobody knows about this. Even my friends who take drugs as well don't know about the extent of my use.
I need to get this off my chest because I can't tell anyone in my actual life or they will hate me. I am being cucked by my sister after I ate her out while she was drunk and passed out. She woke up mid-orgasm and drama unfolded, until finally she decided she wouldn't tell anyone so long as I do what she says.
>>704577202 Oh and you might want to buy RR's video series. It's $10 and although it's not comprehensive (it assumes you know a few things) it's great to have such clear visual aids for all the stuff you've been reading.
It's not necessary but the vids have been helping growers for years. I think it's worth the $10
>be me straight out of senior school >wee young lad at sixteen >wanted to get my own money because parents poor and I'm an only child >dad helps me get a job as store clerk >store owner is dad's friend >store owner looks like a human shrek >huge ass giant towering 6 feet 5 or something >takes the job because money >i wore shorts a lot back in the days so i went to work wearing shorts most of the times >the store owner / my boss enters store >greets me and slaps my ass >wtf.jpg >boss acts like nothing happened and shows me around >the ass slapping became a routine >i simply didn't mind it much because money >everyday he comes and smacks my ass and checks the stock and shit >one day i was asked to come help him to restock >went because more money >only me and boss and honestly, i wasn't even slightly scared >was rocking my brown shorts again >the usual ass slap occurs >but this time, the hand stays there >mfw he gropes my ass >wat.jpg >tells me i can get even more money showing him some skin >i back the fuck away fucking scared >he asks me to calm down and to relax >i couldn't, but i tried to act tough >he told me he only wanted to see skin >nope >he said he'd give me 50 buck on the spot if i flash him >mfw i actually thought about it after a few seconds of silence >back then, 50 dollars was an unbelievable amount >i hesitated and asked shitty questions for like thirty minutes >finally flashed him >he shoved the 50 bucks in my ass and asked me to stay like that >i didn't want to, but money >i looked back and he had his fucking horse dick out and was wanking it >boss groaned like a pig while i felt queasy >he cums in less than a minute >i felt like i was gonna puke >felt a sharp slap on my bare ass before i was told to leave >pretty much ran out
Funny thing was, I ended up doing it over and over again. Staring at him started feeling good, and even though I'm married now, I still get excited when I think back. I started liking it after a while.
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