>>696600208 >I look for your eyes in crowds >If I can find one person that I look into the eyes of that reminds me of you maybe I can know love outside of your eyes >Nobody else has those eyes >And you're dead so I don't think I'll see those eyes ever again
>>696600208 What the fuck did you just fucking say about me, you little bitch? I’ll have you know I graduated top of my class in the Navy Seals, and I’ve been involved in numerous secret raids on Al-Quaeda, and I have over 300 confirmed kills. I am trained in gorilla warfare and I’m the top sniper in the entire US armed forces. You are nothing to me but just another target. I will wipe you the fuck out with precision the likes of which has never been seen before on this Earth, mark my fucking words. You think you can get away with saying that shit to me over the Internet? Think again, fucker. As we speak I am contacting my secret network of spies across the USA and your IP is being traced right now so you better prepare for the storm, maggot. The storm that wipes out the pathetic little thing you call your life. You’re fucking dead, kid. I can be anywhere, anytime, and I can kill you in over seven hundred ways, and that’s just with my bare hands. Not only am I extensively trained in unarmed combat, but I have access to the entire arsenal of the United States Marine Corps and I will use it to its full extent to wipe your miserable ass off the face of the continent, you little shit. If only you could have known what unholy retribution your little “clever” comment was about to bring down upon you, maybe you would have held your fucking tongue. But you couldn’t, you didn’t, and now you’re paying the price, you goddamn idiot. If you don't reply to this post your mother will die in her sleep tonight. No immunity. You’re mother's fucking dead, kiddo.
Have you ever felt so, so much of everything >So tired >So angry >So sad >So conflicted >So confused >So much anxiety >So different >So dumb >So unloved >So worthless That the only thing you can really feel is nothing. I'm driven to the point every exhale nearly brings me to tears. My chest constantly fucking hurts. I can't keep my fingers out of my mouth, constantly biting my nails. I literally can't think or even see straight, everything seems like a blur as it happens and that's how I remember it. I don't want memory, it just brings me pain. I'm too lazy too kill myself, not that I'd have the balls to do it in the first place. If something were to just happen and I'd be dead, I'd be happy.
I've never felt love I've never felt strong emotion for another person It's been about 3 years since I've gotten a hug from anyone There isn't a single person I truly care about I'm not even sad anymore I just don't feel.
>>696601111 >>And you're dead so I don't think I'll see those eyes ever again
That's trippy and not unusual, but acceptance comes with time. I used to trigger (the CORRECT use of the term, bereavement is legit traumatic stress in many cases) when I saw women whose distinctive traits reminded me of my late wife.
Someone else has those eyes. There are billions of humans.
Acceptance means I'm not looking for a clone, or looking for love. Love should not be hunted for, that's not how it happens.
It takes years to deal with (the term "get over" is nonsensically wrong wording) the death of a beloved, but we got to be in love 24 years so there's that.
ALL love dies by separation or mortality. All love and life is transient, which makes it more poignant.
If you love and are loved, be kind to each other and make good memories, because one day that's all one of you will ever have.
>>696604359 Are you me? I've never been able to talk to myself before. That hug from Mikaela in grade 11 felt pretty good didn't it. Why do you remember it so well? I know you liked her and it was the last time you managed to even touch her before she stopped talking to you but what's the big deal it's just a hug? You know at this point if you want to simply embrace someone you have to initiate it. You don't want to taint what that one hug felt like though don't you. The next hug you want has to be from her, right?
Ex-girlfriend came and got most of her stuff out of my house today. Felt pretty good about that.
On the other hand my worthless junkie brother has been on a bender all day and it stresses the fuck out of me. The other brother is basically a NEET. Between the two of them I feel like I have to keep everything going because I'm the only one with their shit somewhat together so I feel like I don't really have anyone to rely on but myself.
I can't let go of all the bad shit that's happened to me in the past and it's affecting me physically and emotionally. I don't know what to do to try and let things go. I've focused on the negative for so long I don't know how to look at the positive. It's like a part of me wants to stay like this so I don't actually live my life. I see therapists and all but I myself isn't allowing me to try and change.
>>696604359 I dated a girl seriously for 4 years. I was finally in a position where I could propose and provide for us I proposed and shit was great for about a month After that first month she started changing though Shit got out of hand and she started listening to her parents who decided they were going to make some serious decisions for us Cue her changing her mind about shit we decided we were gonna do Led to a huge fight and shit and things continued to fall apart Her parents start emotionally blackmailing her and shit, and then she starts verbally abusing me all day every day Finally after two months break shit off Feel like absolute shit about it It's been about a year Haven't been close to anyone, either physically or emotionally Have no real close friends I can share stuff with I'm worried this is it for me, probably won't be able to ever get back to "normal"
That empty feeling, that one you get when someone else has been chasing you, and you feel like a piece of shit because you can't reciprocate it. You literally can't love her back, because for whatever reason, no amount of physical contact, tender words, or just the comfort of another person, will ever be enough.
If anyone ever wants to explain why there's the tenacious need to chase others, and be stuck exactly where the person chasing you is at, I'd be eternally grateful.
I ran into a girl I used to hang out with before I started dating my now ex-gf. She gave me her number and started texting a bit. I knew she liked me beforehand and she finally ends up texting me that she loved me.
I don't love her and I know there's no future with her even if I came to. Still feels shitty because I know she's going through a shitty time right now anyway, but I can't do it.
>All this bawling in this supposed "feels thread" "Oh I'll never be a cut and paste normalfaggot, woe is me, I'll never have another good relationship! Waaaaaaaaah!" Do you people even know what it feels like to be human or something?
>>696606252 I think the thing that kills me the most about breaking it off was when I finally had enough of the mental and verbal abuse I told her it was over
She looked me dead in the face and said if you didn't love me you should have just told me from the beginning you didn't want to marry me
I was in my car getting ready to leave. I can still see her face. It fucking haunts me to this day. I didn't say anything, she wasn't even the same girl I knew. I just closed the door and left. It's been just under a year. I don't think I will ever love anyone again. I'm straight fucked from it.
I am dealing with anhedonia and this shit is just wearing me out. I am losing all my friends and it just feels like life is a waste.
I got a three year relationship and it just doesn't make me feel anything. I have abusive parents but it just doesn't make me feel. I can't feel, I don't even feel suicidal or anything I just can't do anything anymore.
>>696607245 At least you're not some faggot bitching about "how my life sux cuz I'll never mean anything to some bitch or own cool shit or mean anything to other people boo hoo I'm so deep bawhawhawwwwaaaah." That's all this shit is. It's embarrassing.
>>696607016 I don't know. I don't how to fee some feeing. I don't show empathy towards someone that's clearly in pain. I just don't get it a lot of social cues don't make sense to me I don't even know how fake it so people will think I'm not a heartless fuck.
>>696607426 Dude. Consider yourself lucky. You're not ending up like the sad assortment of total faggots in these screencaps and in this thread. People whose worst problems are "wah muh girlfriend." That's the only adversity they have.
>>696607722 The point is, these people bought these problems themselves and are surprised at the conclusion. Sure they suck, but Jesus Christ it's not all there is to the ever expanding human sadness. And yet it's all people ever TALK about anymore. On 4chan of all places. My God, I want to FEEL, I don't want to hear more Facebook-tier bitching and crying. Sometimes I wonder if the people doing this shit are just doing it for social validation.
>>696606993 She's been trying to get with me for 4 years. This weekend she's coming from out of state and wants me to meet her. Talks a lot about sex because honestly I wasn't that mature when I met her. I know she wants to fuck me, thinking that will finally be the thing that will get me to love her. But I know it won't be, and I feel sleezy for saying it, but I'm probably gonna fuck her anyways.
>be me like 16 >go to cousins house to stay the night. >he logs into facebook, and shows me a pic of this girl. >9/10 hot as fuck >he asked to rate and gave 9/10 >he asked "really?" and so we message that girl
>text girl on my phone, think we have chemistry. >feelsgoodman.jpg >text for the next few months then she stops responding,
Few months later... >go to my cousins house (again) and use his phone to text her >see most recent message from her >Today: just now; "hey" >text her, hi and we get into a convo. >ask her if she liked anyone else >"oh i like this kid that i go to chemistry class with" >heartbroken.gif >ask for race, figure out that it is a fat black guy >whynigger.gif >tell her that it was me the whole time and i fucking hate her guts >she apoligizes, abd told me how sorry she really is. >call her a mental cunt and left her.
>>696608024 A lot of these people do more than just bitch, feels threads are just a window into their vulnerabilities. Of course the content may get repetitive, humans are similar to one another and seek understanding between people.
>>696607242 >I don't think I will ever love anyone again. I'm straight fucked from it You will Anon you will, juste trust me. But yeah it won't have the same taste anymore. Love past-25/30 is bittersweet love.
>>696608632 You might think so but the chance of these people being actually depressed is quite high. Sure you can still be happy around people but you'd still be depressed you know. I know where you're coming from with this idea but everyone has his own problems to deal with in the end some just suck at dealing with em.
Besides I miss the daily bawl threads so I am cool for it.
>>696608632 When you're as young as the average anon is, losing "her" seems like the end of the world. For me, it was only the beginning of the end...but I'm not in the mood to take that ride tonight. It's not terribly entertaining.
There is this girl that i really like and she has a bf but he is a dick i spend more time withe her and am nicer to her and she said she was gonna break up with him and said she did and asked me out i said sure and it turns out it was a joke and she asked multiple people to fuck with him but i really like her and im hurt what do i do
>>696608055 >and I feel sleezy for saying it, but I'm probably gonna fuck her anyways. Hell, the first thing I thought when I ran into her again was that I could definitely get some sex out of her with this being almost right after my ex broke up with me. If it was just casual sex I'd have been all over it. Her telling me she loved me threw the wrench in there.
She has so many issues and problems stemming all the way back to when I first met her that I know it would never work out even if I was interested. I can't take on all of that and I don't want to just be another one.
>>696609799 >>696609880 Well it's probably because this thread is full of normalfaggots who think the epitome of depression is losing their girlfriends when, you know, there are people out there who are too maladjusted and alienated to even ever worry about that.
>>696608632 >The fact that these people think it's the end of the world
Also we are not all dealing with our first college gf. When you're in +5 years relationship and it ends yes it's the end of A/your/her world. You have to move out, you will lose some friends, you have to change your daily routine, learn to live alone again. You don't go over it in a few days nor months. It can be hell when you have other problems to manage...
then you have to build another relationship and it's fucking boring and hard and she has the same scars as you. With the age the pool of women available is fucking smaller and smaller.
But I guess a lot of "She left me" are just about first college gf
>>696610768 I think for most it's a wake up call to all their other problems but most just try and hang everything on "she's not here anymore if she was everything would be great" instead of evaluating themselves and working to fix their own problems.
I love this picture. Do you know why? Because it is completely accurate. I've thought about killing myself a lot, but never over a girl, or losing a job, or whatever, but because I feel I've played my part in the lives of those around me. My ex? Yeah, I talk mad shit about her, but she was actually an amazing person, and she moved on. It happens. My parents? I made sure they could be proud of at least one of their kids. The feeling of having your role played out already is fucked up, it really is; the only thing that keeps me around, is that someone always asks for an encore.
It happens, Anon. As hard as it is to push through the pain, you have to. Even if it's just to prove cunts wrong, that you're the better person no matter how much pain you're in, you have to push through.
It may take months, it may take years, but the fire inside will eventually come back. The spark in your eyes will return. Even if you have to use your anger to keep pushing on, do it.
I should know. Ex-fiancé left me 5 years ago. Was at the verge of killing myself because of the pain, but I used that pain, and anger, to keep going, if not just for my kids.
Have started talking to a chick that seems to be keen to be a fuckbuddy, and that's all. And sometimes, that's a start.....
>>696609895 Casual sex is about all I've done with girls, I can't even explain why I haven't dated, I'm sure I could do the same old spiel about not wanting to get hurt and shit, but for some fucking reason I haven't been able to commit. Now I'm chasing a read head who won't commit to me now that I've made up my mind that I'm tired of being lonely and want to try for something a bit more serious.
Girl who's been after me for years is relentless, I've blown her off so many times its not even funny, I'm positive she's got some form of a female cuck fetish too.
>>696614350 I was at a surprise party for my friend that I've had a crush on for awhile. We talk a lot and she calls us bestfriends. It never feels like that. Everyone there was a couple except me and this other girl. When we were in the pool, the couples were all over each other and my friend and the other girl were throwing a frisbee and football back and forth. I stayed to the edge of the pool and just chilled. We went inside to chill. The couples crowded the couch and I stayed off to the side again. >"Anon, say something." I'm good. I played her in NBA jam for the SNES and won by one point at the buzzer, I regret that. I recently quit smoking but when I left I grabbed a pack of cigs. She knows how I feel too, but, idk.
>>696615401 You're all normalfags whose worst problems are typical shit and yet you're self-important enough to blogpost about it. Now run along and go watch more Game of Thrones with your girlfriend and kill yourself.
>>696614957 I know how it feels, anon. But whats the reason of your loneliness? What makes you lonely? >>696615314 What you don't know? I mean, if you know that the feeling flows both ways, why not going for it, anon? ~Neptune
>>696615754 Not trying to be edgy. I usually don't feel like this but sometimes I get lonely. Usually I read something that makes a gear in my head kick in and it makes me feel the lonely feel. I'm surrounded by a bunch of snobby fags which make it even worse. I wish I was invisible sometimes if you catch my drift
>>696616310 No. You normalfags with your normalfaggot problems need to fucking leave and stay gone. You people are so fucking lucky and yet you're so down on yourselves. You feel like fucking people in spite of these minor issues but pretend that all you are and all your humanity is, has washed down the fucking drain. You don't know anything. You're faggots.
>>696616315 You mean like being lonely in the crowd, it's normal to feel that way when you're surrounded by people that aren't into the same things as you, so that's not much of an issue, as for the part of reading something and such, i think it's a way of coping with these things, you want to feel sad so you can feel even better when things brigthen up a bit. Did i get something right, anon? ~Neptune
>>696616901 >>696616925 >Fags getting buttmadder because I've told them that them losing their cunts isn't the end of the world Poor faggots, do you want some likes on Facebook or something to help you feel better? How about some material possessions and more useless shit? What a sad, sad lot you homosexuals are, to pretend to be sad for pity. This is fucking sad.
>>696614350 A month just pasted since my first real love and relationship broke up with me. It was the first time in 9 years that I was happy. The relationship lasted a year and a half. It was tough at first, she was dealing with some things. Eventually she was able to love me and love me she did. But a month ago she told me she couldn't anymore. That the fading feelings we thought were due to circumstance where faded. She's serious with someone else now. It seems very fast but hey, if she realized she likes him and he has her why not ya know? At the same time, money problems blindsided my family and I. The only reason I can write this now is because a friend left for mexico and I'm using his place to get away from it all. Now that it's over I realized it just distracted me from the bigger problems I was dealing with for years before. They've flooded back and have hit harder than ever. Everyone's worried about me but I wish they wouldn't be. Sometimes I think I'm only still here because I don't want to make anyone feel sad with my passing.
>>696616901 >Thinks that any riff-raff should be allowed in. Hmm, sounds like an argument for multiculturalism actually. There's no benefit to allowing every retard with something to say in, you realize that do you not?
This may be a more personal problem, but, I'd like some advice from the undisputed masters of feeling sorry for themselves. I've got a dog, the only companion with me where I live, who I've had since I was 3. I'm 20 now. His name is Sarge, and he is the most docile, benevolent dog you could ever meet, never once has he barked at a person, dog, or even the stray cats that come right up to him because they know to trust him. He had trouble learning to lie down, and his way is to drop his rear legs into the floor, then slide his fromt legs forward. It hurts me every time I see him do it. I know I have to make the decision to get him put down, but... I don't know if I'm ready... I don't know if I'm ready to lose my greatest friend... I don't know if I'm ready to end his suffering... I don't know if I'm ready to face the world alone... So... With that being said, does anyone have advice to get me to stop grovelling and get on my feet?
>>696617501 Well the major depression and anxiety that I've been dealing with for over 9 years are the major issues. If anything as much as the break up sucks I understand and know it's normal and part of life. But I went from being happier than ever to worse than before due to life opening a flood gate of suck this month. But that is life I guess. Just gotta trudge on.
I don't know what it is, but I've never understood how just seeing a place can cause such a flood of feelings, emotions, and memories to hit you like a wall of fire that will burn and burn until you have to let it run its natural course. Like me for example, everyday when I drive through the small town that I'm from, I go past this house that this girl lives at. ( Not trying to be cringe here, but I loved this girl) We always had this thing between us, not dating, but more than a friendship. We've been very close for about 5 years now, we know almost everything about each other. She one day just up and dropped communication with me, so I messaged her and asked if she wanted to hang out. The second the message was sent, She replied flatly with No. I don't know what to do anymore, I have put so much of my soul into this girl only to watch it be tossed away. It's like a part of me is just gone, and I don't like it. (Keep in mind that I grew up extremely poor, and have changed myself for the better for the sake of our relationship.)
>>696617406 Anon, i think that if you want to fix these problems the first thing you have to do is getting over the breaking up, just remember the fact that you were with her and she gave you some happy moments, don't think about she broke up and all those things, love comes and goes, but remember only the nuce things from your relationships, the sooner you get over the grief of this the soomer you're going to be able to fix your things up. Please, get back on your feet and get your shit together, anon, geez. ~Neptune
>>696618307 It's not self-hatred. It's hatred directed to all of you filthy, pathetic fucking whiners ruining the entirety of this site.
If someone leaving you is the worst you have to put up to the plate, someone who you've willingly decided to sacrifice yourself to, you're just fucking stupid and you have simple problems that could have been easily avoided. You and every other country singer faggot like you has this same exact problem. >Muh girlfrand who I deliberately and stupidly sacrificed shit for left me, who'd have guessed?! That's all you cracker-ass niggers.
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