I was cheating on my wife for awhile. Kinda fell for the girl I was cheating with. She wanted me to leave my wife but I ended up staying with her because of the quality of life we have together. Broke her heart for awhile, but she found another guy now. I'm pretty jealous of the other guy. I think me and the wife fixed our issues and we're pretty great now, but I still feel for the other woman. I'm scum I know.
>>696418665 >be me >orphan >raised by alcoholic and abusive foster parents >grow up abused and witnessing violence in family >get diagnosed with social anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder >attempt suicide 2 times >gets hospitalized and I have to take 5 different medication, nothing for anxiety >i can't leave the house without having a full blown panic attack >cry every night to sleep >i caught first bf cheating on me >second one beat me up then left me, it's been 2 years and I still cry thinking of him and I'm not recovered yet >he immediately get a new boyfriend, I was shocked and disgusted, I still am. >nobody to date >i only wish to have a boyfriend to love and cherish for life >drop out of college >come out as fag to mom >she threatens to kick me out of the house >nobody to love and take care of me >i cry everywhere due to intense emotional pain and i tell other people that I'm okay >i hate myself for allowing me to live till this point because the emotional suffering is so intense >i don't care about my family since it's their fault >i hope i rot in hell as I'll suicide within a month, I just wait for the perfect trigger
I consider suicide daily, you /b/ros is all I have and I post this in every feels thread :(
>>696418665 I just lost my virginity at 20 years old a few days ago. It was great she is on the pill so i got to raw dog it and cum inside her a few times, she also gave me some great head. But i really had no idea what effect it would have on me, i cant stop thinking about this girl now. I'm just obsessing in an unhealthy way. I don't love her or anything it's just that shes a good friend and now a lover i guess and i just cant stop thinking about how this can go wrong and how i'll probably fuck it up. Just thinking about that hurts and i know it's inevitable she will get bored of me and go suck tyrones dick instead. It's driving me crazy.
>>696418665 Moved 1,000 miles away from friends, and family Talking to my friend, lets call her M She's been there for me through everything. My friend got hit by a car and died in 2011, she didn't know him, but she knew he was like a brother to me. He died 3 days after my birthday. She helped me get through that. In 2013 my ex killed herself by hanging herself in the closet. M knew her and they were close friends. We had helped each other get through that. I have fallen for M recently. Me and M talk every day, we have a 30 day streak on snapchat. I asked her if she would ever date a guy out of state, she said she would never do that because long distance is stupid. >long distance is stupid as shit I know this I have a very strong feeling she doesn't like me though. She's my best friend /b/ros I think if I tell her I like her, things will get awkward. I'm not smart enough to be with her. She is beautiful, funny, and I'm just a btard.
tonight my best friend is calling it an early night, so we can't hang, same with my other friend who doesn't get off until eleven. So I get to sit here at my parent's house drinking and wasting time till I or they fall asleep. I fucked up a relationship with the only girl who truly loved me 4 months ago, and I still think about it all the time. I'm crushing hard on this girl I work with, gave her my number since she was planning a pool party or some bullshit this week and wanted me to come, so I'm hoping to get a text from her. She likes my sense of humor, and she's stunning, so both of those things are rare. She only works with me one day a week, but I'm really starting to look forward to those days. I think I might say something like "hey we should do something this week" next time I see her. Shit's getting lonely and all that.
>>696423279 If you are still having that much difficulty anon I urge you to please seek help. Speaking to a professional and slowly coming to terms with what happened and helping to heal, or heck, maybe changing your medications or something. I agree that the way you feel can't continue, but it doesn't have to end that way. You can feel better. Maybe not perfect, maybe not happy all the time, but better. Please google the suicide hotline as well because 4chan marks it as spam : /
The patullo bridge in New Westminster, bc, Canada.
If you're near here you'll know it never makes the news, but if you watch for it, you'll have seen my friends, a half dozen of them at this point. I see it every day from the skytrain from Surrey. There are too many people that throw themselves from it. The tally will probably grow again this week ....
>>696426889 Look if she would have a 30 day streak on snapchat she definitely likes you at least as a friend. I would say that if this has lasted over a few months and you still want to be with her after you masturbate, then go for it. Specifically say "Look I value our friendship a lot, and I know this is unlikely, but I think I've developed more feelings for you. If you don't feel the same way, that's okay too, and I don't want to make this awkward. But I at least wanted to say something. If we can't have that, then I want you to know that you're my best friend and I cherish you." Yeah it may be a little awkward, but if she's an adult she'll realize that sometimes when you hit it off with someone REALLY well, feelings happen. Part of life man.
>>696428173 If you're crushing hard on someone else I think you've kind of moved on past the "fuck up", which mind you is great. Given that she definitely wanted your company I think that there's certainly a chance that would work. You can't hit a grand slam if you never swing.
Got ghosted almost 2 years ago. To this day, I still haven't gotten any answers as to why the girl I really liked ghosted me. We were good friends, we went out a few times, and we never really had any major fights. Almost every day we were chatting, and then one day she ghosts me, and doesn't talk to me for almost 2 years. I got really hurt by it, and I'm still wondering why she did it. I'll probably never get closure, but I really want to. I even asked her a couple of times, but she didn't respond. Man, why would you even ghost someone without really stating a single reason? Fuck, think I'm gonna cry..
>26 >Married with my first child >Still in love with my first girlfriend >She's a divorced mom at 25 and a E7 in the army. >My current wife is not working and stays home with the baby >Realized I don't love my wife, and rushed into marriage >So my options are stay, or leave. Either way I feel like shit
>>696429577 Thanks anon. And it's not like it would be weird dating someone I work with since she's only there once a week (I'm a waiter). It's just, I don't want to screw this up. Like we just get along really well, we don't even have the same interests (obviously I'm into vidya, weed, movies, all that), but she thinks I'm really funny and we hug and shit when we leave work. I just have a hard time closing the deal. And you're right, I am past my ex, but if I let myself just sit there and think for long enough, I wonder what could have been and all that. and how crazy she was for me.
>>696429317 I have had feelings for her since 2014, but I've been to beta to say anything. She seen me the day before I moved and she said "I'll always be here for you no matter how far away you are, just like you've been here for me." She even wrote on some of my boxes while I was packing. You're right bro. I think I'll tell her exactly that. Thank you for the advice!
>>696430119 It feels good to feel loved like that, but that in many cases isn't healthy. It's much more important to feel LIKED in a long term relationship. I would say that it's no big deal to express interest in her, you seem to get along well. Heck, be lame. "Hey, I really like spending time with you but we only see each other once a week. Feel like maybe getting a cup of coffee some time? I'd love to get to know you better when we don't have to focus on the job." Worst case scenario she's not interested and you still have a really cool friend. A cool friend who thinks you're cool and probably has single friends ;P >>696430632 No problem man. Also, to be aggressive, if she for some reason let that get in the way of this awesome friendship you guys have? Then she ain't very nice anyways XD
>>696418665 My ex girlfriend started talking to me the other day, I'm seeing this other girl and my ex is seeing someone else, but I think I'm still in love with her, but I can't tell her or else I'll scare her away and lose one of my closest friends.
>>696431246 Kek, I hope it doesn't get in the way of it. I mean after all me and her have been friends since the 5th grade, it would be kinda fucked up to throw a friendship away over something so small
>>696431718 You're not in love with her, you have a new gf who's better than your ex. Why did you break up? If it's because she cheated on you, don't ever hook up with her again for a serious relationship, because he'll probably cheat on you again. Been there done that, not worth it.
>>696429697 one of the best friends i ever had,one who was with me for one of the longest times did the same. She helped me through any problems i had and assured me of my actual worth and that someone gave a shit, we both did anything we could for each other until she just stopped responding, eventually i met some girl i liked, fucked it up. And this old friend of mine knew them too, this old friend is someone ive liked since i met them because i just find them to be the most gorgeous, selfless, and kindest of people ive ever met. Shes just gone now. She fucking followed me on instagram but refuses to talk to me, doesnt unblock me, doesnt do anything but have that reminder sitting there anytime she posts something that i lost one of the best people in my life for some reason she wont say, ive asked her so often, asked other people shes friends with, nothing. Anytime i think of her for more than two minutes i realise i probably love her. and just want to be with her, probably why i barely leave to see people now since she left. i dont really want anyone else i guess. pic definitely related because the two of them are what i want but ill never be good enough to have
>>696432142 Dude, I hate to say it, but if she's the sort of person to do that to you. Much less ADD YOU ON SOCIAL MEDIA and then BLOCK YOU, she is not a "best friend", she is not a "friend", she's not a selfless or kind person. If she just cut you out completely, then fine, maybe you fucked up and forgot about it and she's just MASSIVELY immature. Her friends most DEFINITELY told her you were asking why, and she ignored that. I would bet you'd remember if you fucked up so bad that she wouldn't even say what it was.
But no, the fact she has you there, yanking you around like that, means that the woman you loved was a lie. She was never that person, because that person you fell in love with would never do that shit to you. If she would do that shit to ANYONE ELSE, and you were still talking, you would be disturbed as fuck she was treating someone she supposedly cared about in that way. I get that it's easier to believe that you're the one that fucked up here, somehow rather than realize that person you thought was there never existed, and I'm sure you weren't perfect, but that doesn't change the fact she is a stone-cold no-holds-barred bitch. If she'd treat you that way? Damn glad you found out now before you got romantically involved, got married, or had kids. EVENTUALLY, and not because I said so, you will realize that you dodged a bullet.
>>696432142 I feel your pain. The worst thing about being ghosted for me is, that I really liked chatting with this girl, and she also enjoyed it as well. We talked constantly, and were pretty open to one another about are problems, secrets and all that shit, but then she ghosts me for an unknown reason, and that starts fucking with me. Why do people even do that? If she gave me a retarded reason, It would have been easier than nothing at all. The best thing to do would probably be to move on, but I've tried that, and I still can't get over it. She really meant something to me, but I guess I didn't really mean to her much, otherwise she would at least say something. I've tried asking here a couple of times, but nothing. Not even one respond. I really hate her for that.
>>696432602 If you didn't love her enough to get over your pride or do what made you healthy and stable, then no man, you didn't love her, and you only "love her" now because she's gone. If you really loved her you would have sucked up your pride and gotten help before you broke it, if only because you didn't want to hurt her, and for whatever reason, you didn't. You want her because you can't have her, and if you have any affection for her at all, you won't make her go through that again.
>>696433222 If you mean physically, make small changes. Don't exercise for 45 minutes, do 50 jumping jacks. Get into the habit of doing that every day. Then add five a week. Start adding pushups. Etc. If you mean mentally or emotionally, go to a therapist or psychiatrist, get tools you can use to better yourself, use them.
>>696431246 >I would say that it's no big deal to express interest in her this is the biggest hurdle for me. Fuck she's so great I don't want to screw it up. I don't even know her that well, but I haven't felt this kind of crush in awhile, I didn't even feel it the whole time I was with my ex.
>>696432883 Thing is i did fuck up, but it wasnt even something involving her. I just acted like a massive autist around a friend of hers and then said to her i fucked up and asked for her advice, she gave me some and was really supportive then just... blocked. Like i know exactly what youre saying and i agree to an extent because she wasnt herself like that but i think its the fact at this point i havent even tried contacting her for like a year.
>>696433588 Dude. If saying that you enjoy her company and asking her out for coffee equals "screwing it up" you were fucked to begin with. If she IS interested, and if she is hugging you all the time she most certainly is, and most people don't -imagine- chemistry in person, then delaying showing overt interest is more "screwing it up". What if she says no? Then she was never going to be interested and you can move on. If she says yes? Then you get to go on an adventure. Literally nothing to lose. If she is a bitch because you had the GALL to ask her out? Then she's a bitch, so bullet dodged.
>>696433901 Dude. If you asked for advice and she was supportive and then stopped talking to you, she's even more so a bitch. If you REAAAALLLY want to contact her, try instagram. If you're still blocked, she isn't interested, and she's also a bitch.
>>696434024 >hen delaying showing overt interest is more "screwing it up" good point anon. Only problem is she has my number and I don't have hers so it's the waiting game for me. I remember why I come to this site, and it's because anons like you tell it to me straight, you aren't my buddies so you're not going to beat around the bush to make it sound better.
Why do I miss you so much. I tell myself that I'm over you but it's just another lie I tell myself so that I can feel better, maybe one day I'll believe it though. Take care, but God I miss you so fucking much but you just left me, didn't tell me why. You were the only girl that I've truly been in love with and now you're gone. Maybe for the better, but you changed my life and I will always be grateful. I was asked if I regret anything about you, how close we were how much I cared and fell for you, I would've said no but honestly, I don't. Because at one time in my fucked up life, you were everything I wanted, everything I needed. I'm so sorry for whatever I did to you, but baby please, just tell me why you left when we were doing so well? You never gave me the proper chance to tell you, to show you that I loved you.
>>696434212 Yea, i just have no clue what to say though about trying to talk to her, and shes still close to other friends of mine so it may well get back to them and fuck up all that if i mess up. Like i cant just say "hey remember when i was an asshole and you blocked me out? lets forget that and just move on fam"
>>696423279 Don't say that anon, I love you :) Don't end your life you just need to used all that suffer intro energy and show the world that doesn't matter how hard they beat you, you can stand up and that you will never stop fighting for your dreams
>>696434287 Nah man, it's an expression of hope more than anything. Tell you what, meet you halfway. If she never invites you to this party thing, that is evidence she's not really all that interested, because if she was INTO you that'd be a priority. I would STILL ask her out to be sure though, because things do slip through the cracks. >>696434336 If she left without saying goodbye or even having a reason then, like the advice I gave to other anons, she wasn't the woman you thought she was. I don't care if you straight up were verbally abusive, unless she was in ACTIVE DANGER being around you and you are just that dense, then anyone that's worth caring about would have the decency to say why. The fact she didn't shows that her leaving was most definitely "for the better".
>>696434800 Doesn't have to be complicated. "Hey, I know we haven't talked in forever, and I feel like we left on a bad note, but I miss you. I am not certain why you decided to no longer be in my life, but if it was something I did, which I think if so I think I know what might have been the reason, I am sorry and want to move past it. If you aren't interested in that, can you at least tell me why? If only so the next person like you that I meet, doesn't end up the same way."
If she doesn't respond? Sincerely, 100% permission to write her off as a bitch.
>>696429317 >>696430632 Nah, fuck that, what you with her is already good, it's may not be epic, but it's good, enjoy this. if it develops into something deeper, that's great. But think about what would happen if she said yes while you were still ling distance, things would get awkward and your conversations would be clouded by the stigma of relationship. Be flirtatious and drop hints so shes aware, but don't make it a convo-stopper.
>be me >be 11 almost 12 >brother is in town and is 10 years older than me I am youngest of 3 by ten years >cant wait to turn 12 >only a couple of more days till birthday >spent time with my brother and watched him play WoW >had generally a good time and dont really do it that much with my brother >hear that brother is moving back into town and i will see more of him >sqeuls.mp3 Fast forward to two nights before birthday >cant wait for birthday with family >rush to sleep hoping it will come closer >mom wakes me up at 5am >tells me to come down stairs with her >see cop and sister in living room >cop informs my family that my brother has been killed in a motorcycle accident This was one day before my birthday. My fucking brother died a day before my birthday.
My best friend, and close to only friend broke up with his girlfriend last year, and now she is super into me, flirting, touching, the whole 9 yards. She is a super cute red-head, and I've wanted to bang her for some time now. It's just that I don't want to screw up my friendship. I know y'all are going to say dont do it, its just getting so hard to resist. Help me b
Y'know, I normally ignore feels threads, but lately I've got a little bug I can't get rid of.
Tl;Dr: I'm worried I'm only a good person cause I have some kind of emotional blue balls.
I recently came to a nasty realization. I've always felt confused because people often claim that I'm kind and caring when I know I'm not. But a few days ago I was riding the bus to the local comic shop and realized why.
I'm madly in love with someone who is far too busy, lives too far away, and as far as I know really doesn't want my love anyways.
So faced with a choice I decided not to be an emo faggot and channel those emotions elsewhere. Sure it's insincere, but at least the emotions are real.
So now I'm caught in a horrible place. I don't want to live a lie like I am now, but I also don't want to revert back to the cruel and manipulative person I was before.
>Be me high school >Goes to some christian club on weekdays/weekends with friend >From friend meets a cute blonde >We date >Oh shit.jpg >She blows me and accidental sex >I break up with her a few weeks later >be me 5 years later Years of failed relationships none lasting more then 2 month give or take. >Thinks about blonde ex one night. >Realizes I'm still in love with her >Wut do.jpg >Looks her up on facebook >Sees she's probably fucking some other dude >To pussy to add her, tell her I fucked up and tell her I want her back. Wut do /b/ should I stop acting like a cuck?
>>696435001 >If she never invites you to this party thing, that is evidence she's not really all that interested, because if she was INTO you that'd be a priority Thanks for the advice anon. Like I said, shit's just getting lonely and I'm overthinking things in an effort to keep things from falling apart, when it's unnecessary for me to think like that. Gonna drink a little bit more, maybe play some dark souls 3 and pass out. You've been a /b/ro
I had a long ass post ready to go and my computer fucked up. Short version: woke up this morning with what I've been told is carpal tunnel in my left wrist. No idea how it happened. Hurts like a motherbitch without this brace. Not full of feels myself, but know all your feels. Been there way too many times myself. Ride it out.
>>696418665 Not sure if this is more feels or confession, or what, but it seems to fit. >Be me >Be 14 >My older brother has been molesting me for years, and he actually raped me a few days ago. >Finally decide that I've had enough. >Hide my camera and leave it on next time it's just me and him at home. >Now I have proof. >A few days later finally manage to work up the courage to tell my mother. >She calls me a liar, doesn't believe me until I actually show her the footage. >She begs me not to tell the police, not to tear apart the family. >Keeps begging me for a good half hour, I don't relent. I've dealt with this shit for too long. >Mom finally "agrees", tells me to give her the camera so she can see the footage again. >Like an idiot, I agree. >The second she has the camera she deletes it. >I'm screaming and crying as she orders me not to go to the police. >Says she'll talk to my brother, tell him to stop. >Of course she does, and of course he doesn't. >He shows up in my bedroom a few nights later when it's just he and I in the house that night. >He's furious. >Rapes me again, uses my own trick against me. >Videotapes it, threatens to upload it to porn sites if I even cause him trouble again. >He continues to molest and occasionally rape me for another two years until he moves out. >My mother never did anything about it.
>>696438019 Theres prob nothing wrong with adding her on fb but dont be a fucking faggot and message her right off the bat saying you miss her. This is something youll prob have to take your time. After adding her wsit a couple of days then message her saying something like "hey its been a while but i happened to find you on fb. Hows it been?" or some shit similar to that idk. But then from there you slowly start to build up and learn more about her life. See if shes still interested in you as well, if she has a bf, if she just wants to be friends, etc. Take your time /b/ro, you got time
>>696423661 I slept with two different girls when I was 19, but I couldn't get it up for either, so technically still virgin. First one was nice but I was embarrassed about my performance and didn't see her again. Second was a great cuddler but gave horrible toothy blowjobs and wasn't good at handjobs either, and I couldn't keep it up long enough to stick it in (she was also a virgin I think, didn't ask but she seemed very inexperienced, especially considering she was 21). I kept sleeping with her once or twice a week before I got busier in spring semester because I was lonely and cuddling is great, she actually caught the feels for me. This put me in a difficult situation because I wanted to be true to my feelings, that I wasn't really interested in a relationship with her, but I also didn't want to see the look in her eyes when I told her that. Before the end of the fall semester, we slept in my bed one last time before winter break. The morning after, she asked if I was going to miss her. I didn't answer, basically said "uhhh..." She asked if I was going having her by my side when I was in bed alone at night. I said "yes." She said, in a vulnerable tone that made it hard to forget, "that's not nothing." Early over winter break, she texted me to say she missed me a lot, I had little to say and I feared I might really hurt her. She asked if I was still interested. I said I liked sleeping with her, but I didn't see things going anywhere. I promised her I would keep seeing her when we came back so that maybe my feelings for her would change. After cuddling once or twice in the beginning of spring semester, mid and late January, we somehow got on the topic of our feelings for each other (in my bed, of course, since that was the only place we really ever saw each other). She said she didn't have the same feelings for me anymore, that she was happy to cuddle but lost interest in dating me. She asked how I knew she was infatuated, then stopped me to spare her the shame.
>>696439634 Ok anon if your mom dosent want to tear the family apart then give your brother a taste of his own medicine, knock his ass out with a baseball bat and fucking rape him and record a video and use it against him
Dammit people just give me a sign that there's something to hope for! I've been living this empty shell of a life just wanting to feel! BUT THAT DOESN'T WORK ANYMORE I just need hope /b/ros. I just need to see someone who actually lived happily ever after. I just want to know there's a chance.
/b/ what should i do. The girl i love has ghosted me and i dont know whether i should say something and risk throwi9ng away any chance with her and possibly lose so many friend sor just leave her be and never speak to one of the people i used to be closest to in this world with
>>696442338 He's moved out now. Once I'm also moved out I'm never going to talk to either of them ever again. If I did go the police it would just be my word against his so there's no point. No evidence.
>>696441246 kill him, or run away. Leave your phone, pack your shit and leave. They look for you, or call the cops, tell the police you don't want to live there because your brother rapes you. They will open an investigation, do lie detector tests, and let you live with whoever you want to.
Okay, just fuck my life. My girlfriend of 3 years and I are on a a little break have been for about a month and a half now. I just sent her a long ass text. Telling her to tell me how's she's feelig about us and if she truly wants us to be together. I also have suspicions of her cheating for reasons but if course she's going to deny it but I'll have to eventually get it out of her somehow. I just can't take the fucking uncertainty. It's just fucking with me mentally. I'm so exhausted. She hasn't even replied in two hours.
i think this girl was interested in me because she would always try to talk to me but i was too much of a beta to act until the end of the year but i went too ham and gave her a mk bracelet and earings and asked for her number. she never texted me back
>date girl for almost 3 years >absolutely beautiful and perfect to me, really loved her. Amazed she wanted to be with a fat fuck like me >broke up with me out of the blue >really hurt, attempted suicide twice and just felt like a shell for a long time >year and a half later, meet another girl >also extremely beautiful, mainly just watch her from afar because i had classes with her, always figured she was just out of my leauge so fuck it >one of my friends told her i liked her and she was apparently very interested in me because i was always the loud funny fat fucker and got her attention >date for almost a year, happiest ive ever been >ex girlfriend texts one day >start talking to her just catching up >current girlfriend catches wind of it and thinks im cheating >i tried so hard to convince her otherwise but she just couldnt get it out of her head, she was so hurt... >basically just abandoned me >she called me on my birthday to tell me something and i just kept trying to convince her to come back, she told me she already found somebody else >spent the whole night just bawling >i work at refineries, so i had to drive 12 hours the next day to work somewhere >spend the whole drive crying and picturing driving off the road into the trees >spend the whole job picturing myself jumping from a tower >after this me and my ex get back together, get pretty close again and things get better >then the other girl starts texting me but i refuse to talk to her and ruin something else >then about a month ago, the ex breaks up with me out of the blue again >been talking to other girl since then, started out really happy, we went to each others houses and even fucked a few times, told each other we loved them >now shes acting like she doesnt want to see me and not saying i love you anfd barely even texting me >i dont even know any more man
>>696441678 I'd rewrite my story, but I really don't feel like it and it's no happier an ending than anything else here...just more muted.
I will say I have survived being homeless twice and am slowly moving upwards in life. It's a horrid slog at times but your life has meaning to someone, somehow. Find what it is and live for that meaning. Yeah, that last bit sounds like bullshit but it worked for me.
Can anyone here relate to my situation, or at least part of it?
20 year old virgin, problems (probably porn-related) with keeping erections. Live at uni during fall/spring semesters, still living with parents during summers. Taking summer class at uni, which happens to be within driving distance. I don't commute during spring/fall because that would be extremely inconvenient with 4-5 classes. That;s the reason I give my parents, who agree, but really the benefit is not living with them. My mom really gets on my nerves, I can't go three days without getting irrationally angry at her. Barely see or talk to anyone other than my parents, despite several high school friends and several uni friends living fairly close. Too afraid of rejection to ask to hang out, know they sometimes meet up this summer without me, I don't even get an invite even though they know I'm around. Feels bad, man. Anyway, no romantic prospects because I'm too afraid of rejection to ask girls out, seems like my whole life will go by in solitude without me confronting my fear of rejection and meeting grills. I'll be moving into an apartment (and probably staying there for 2 years) with some other undergrads next week, which will solve the issue of my mom getting on my nerves, but I'm afraid that my romantic prospects will remain bleak at best, and that my friends will stop hanging out with me. The latter would be personally devastating because we are all part of a group that people can kind of get "ejected" from, so if they decided I was unacceptable, I would lose 5 of my best friends, and that's an emotional blow I cannot take.
Well, I can't make friends, I never have been able to make friends. I tried today, and it failed horribly. Nobody likes me except my SJW ex girlfriend, and she hates me now because I'm a fuckup. I can't do anything right; I don't fit in anywhere. I don't live a life that's sad enough to bitch all the time, but everything sucks anyway. And, in this one community, the one place I feel like maybe I belong, I know nothing about. I'm a complete newfag, and I don't even know if I'll ever be "in" with you guys.
>>696418665 Never in my life have I had a woman say "I think I love you" to me. I wish I had the life of the anon in OP's picture. Even losing her it must still have been nice to hear that. Any anon here ever been in love? Are those words as nice to hear as I imagine they would be?
>>696442729 Everyone gets busy. Man has developed a keen talent in distraction. Music, tv, vidya, maybe even a walk while playing (or pretending to play) Pokemon Go.
True love comes in the form of trust, but paranoia in controllable doses is healthy. What you are feeling now is just a sign that you care, but don't let it consume you. The moment paranoia trumps trust love will be gone.
Tl;Dr: Prepare for the worst, but trust her and do your best to understand her position.
>>696442673 Ok anon no offense but I'm pretty sure getting raped by him has desensitized you and I'm telling you now, under no circumstances should you stand for it, honestly if you want real justice your going to have to kill him or something else but your going to have to get your hands dirty, if not just do what the other anon said and run away and tell them everything, there's no way they wouldn't find anything under a full investigation, or start a thread and leak some of your brother personal info and the story and leave the dirty work to us.
>>696443735 Never been in love, but I have gotten so infatuated with a female friend of mine that thoughts of her invaded my mind and tortured me for eight months. Felt like I loved her but she didn't see me as anything more than a friend. That was awful and made me want to die, but it vanished when we went our separate ways for the summer and didn't return that fall.
>>696443735 You know those people who claim "it's better to have loved and lost?" Yeah, they've never actually been in love and lost her. I honestly believe you're better off. You don't still hear her voice after seven years and hate yourself for being a dumbass in his early 20s and fucking EVERYTHING up.
I had a really bad stomach infection a few months ago. Had intense pain in my stomach for a few hours first, just thought it would go away on its own or some shit (I'm pretty stupid).
Get these fucking horrible cramps and actually pass out from the pain. Gf was home and called an ambulance. I woke up in a hospital the next day, got meds etc, got better. The doc comes to talk to me before letting me out. We chat for a bit, he tells me "pretty lucky for you your gf was home, you probably wouldn't have been able to get help yourself and it wouldn't have been long before we couldn't help you anymore", "oh, right, yeah. Lucky for me then"
Gf was supposed to be on a trip with her family but canceled last minute to spend time with me that weekend.
I really wish I could be happy she was home and stop thinking it would have been better if she went on the trip.
>>696444191 Or I could just be smart about this, finish my degree, and only see my family once a year at reuinions or whatever, when I can rub my money in their stupid white trash faces.
I don't need cops to help me. Unlike everyone else in my family, I have my life in order. In twenty years when my mother is dying from her shit lifestyle and my brother is just getting our of prison for whatever crime he'll inevitably get caught for, when they come to me for money or legal help, I'll remind them what they've done and tell them to fuck off.
You don't have to be strong or courageous if you're patient.
I have been depressed, anons, for about 5 years now. It's never gotten better, and each day, it's actually gotten worse. I think about killing myself at least three times a day, and today I'm done. I really enjoyed coming to these feels threads. I have seen many an anon come here to announce their suicide, and tonight I join them. Goodbye, brothers.
>>696443637 4chan is, ironically, the most welcoming and open minded place on the internet when it comes to user diversity. On average everyone assumes everyone else is an autistic weeaboo faggot, almost everybody is right about this fact, and then we spout memes at each other until someone asks for advice. Then they get called out for being an autistic weeb faggot and are then usually given some kind of advice.
>>696436366 I was in the same position and I did it without telling my friend. The bitch broke my heart 20 days ago and my relationship with my friend will never be the same again. He secretly hates me, I see it in his eyes.
>>696421170 2 years, she might be thinking about me, we were both each others first, but she became a hoe and i became a cunt
i've had 2 girlfriends since and i love my current one but i still love my first girlfriend in some way, it's weird. i regret who i was back then, because although i've always resented her it was my fault that she broke up with me.
>>696444829 Ok but don't forget what they've done make sure every chance you get you make their lives hell and get whatever dirt you can on them just in case things don't go the way you expect them too.
>>696423279 I've always been anti gay, but never bashful against people regardless. If I could take in every /b/ro and robot, and those in need from 4chan I would and help them get on their feet. I wish I was rich. But money corrupts. Sorry for your life anon.
>>696444857 I will not attempt to say why you shouldn't. Many have suffered less before taking their lives. Instead I will hope that in death you find the tranquility you are searching, and that ultimately such suffering was not in vain.
>>696433876 I cried. I did meet an irl lolita girl she was kind beautiful and made me feel ways no person had ever made me feel. But she had a boyfriend, and he was much older. He was unkempt awkward and possessed qualities of a /b/tard in fact he was one. That man made me loathe the fact that he had what I've dreamed of having. He's living the life I want all he did was be a pedo and he's rewarded with unconditional love.
>>696445692 I don't need to waste my energy on them. They're all irresponsible shortsighted dependent assholes. Inevitably they'll come to me needing help or a free lawyer or cash, and I can just turn them away.
Why hurt them with action when I could do nothing and hurt them with inaction? >>696445698 >>696444984 Thanks, I've been thinking about it for a while.
>>696444357 I feel this. I want to go back and scream at and beat the fuck out of my 19 year old self for being a dumbass who thought she would put up with my bullshit. I'm 26 now and still dream about her.
>>696446489 All I had to do was listen. That's the worst part. In a long distance relationship, that's the best you can do most days.
But no. First, I tried to help her fix her problems. You dumbass, that's not what women want! Then, I started ignoring them. I got preoccupied with what I wanted to do instead of listening to her (and I don't multitask well at all.) Not to mention the myriad of problems I have that I didn't even recognize back then...
I'm sorry, my Angel...
Damnit, I wasn't going to feel like this tonight...
I hate being this guy but I am this guy. Loneliness will make a nigger to fucked up things.
We were together for almost six years. She asked me to leave the week before Christmas last year because she felt our lives were going in divergent paths. Problem is she was right.
I try not to dwell on her too much but on average I'd say I think about her once a day. Her? I'd like to think she thinks of me at least on occasion but she was always headstrong and emotionally fortified. I wouldn't be surprised if she's forgotten my name by now...
>>696421170 Ellie. 2 years and 4 months, ever since she gave me that note saying she missed me. By now, she's probably forgotten me. She was always good at life, probably got a good boyfriend and is halfway through her degree by now.
i'll tell you my story: (Not english speaker srry)
>Be me, no formal work, i dont study, i have 23, 24 in august >I take care of grandma >Usually its very calm and i can play videogames, lol recently. >I watch cartoons, i surf in 4chan, /b/,/biz/, etc. >I invested in bitcoins to make some money. >I can't say that my family dont care about my situation, but they are very comprehensive about it >I've been like this for 6 months, and it feels awful. >I feel very empty, meaningless and basically wasting this year. >Can't complain about my economical situation but i feel really awful. >Sometimes i just want to end it all, but i know there are people who love me.
>>696448117 Hi guys, since I don't have friend I come here to release my sorrow.
I'm applying to a master's degree program trying to improve my career, leave my parent's house and this master is in Spain. The problem is that I sent my papers to the university which I am applying and THOSE MOTHERFUCKING of Fedex didn't deliver my physical papers and now I missed the date to pay the fee and register myself to the program, because FEDEX drenched my papers and they didn't delivered it, saying anything about that and just waited for me to call them to inform me that my papers are now useless and ruined and they will give me my money back. FUCK fuuuuuuuuuuuuck I hate my life! The finest change to finally do something great with my life and now I'm fucked! I need to be awake all night to call and talk directly with the university about what can I do and If they receive my wet papers and give me a change to deliver them again and maybe help me to register myself into the program.
I don't know b/ros. Sometimes I feel like I'm in this planet to be ashamed and in disgrace. It's like everything I try to enhance or any endeavor is crushed by destiny. Now I'm here with no GF, no money, with regrets for all the money I wasted collecting those fucking papers that are now wet.
If the university reject my papers due to they never arrive in time... I'm considering be a hero..
>>696448117 Honestly it sounds like you just need a hobby. I felt the same way until I let a friend of mine convince me to play DnD with his group. Through that experience I've found that you find some chill dudes through groups centered around a shared hobby.
>>696448353 No, it's less blurry than you think. You're overthinking things. We know what a typical human behavior is, therefor we know what a typical human behavior isn't. Psychological disorders are just problems with our brains. We know how they're supposed to work, so when something is wrong we can tell. Stop overthinking it.
>>696418665 So this story already sort of solved itself in that I was able to talk to those involved already but it's still kind of bothers me. >be in love for first time >be cucked by girl for like whole year because I'm too much of a pussy to take the full on rejection and maintain the "what ifs" >Finally ask girl what were doing and she says that she doesn't want to hurt me >it's complicated.jpg >continue to be friends because Can'tstoplovingyou.webm >She is genuinely a cool person and her role in this was really non-voluntary so I don't really blame her. >Be chilling with her and this girl whom she claims she's having confused feeling for. >Chilling going well and I'm kind of high and drunk (me and her were the new girl wasn't) >dropping off this new girl >she goes in and kisses her right there >I was third wheeling the whole time...on a date between someone I had just spilled my guts to...with the GIRL she was catching feelings for. At first I was angry because I thought for some reason they had done it on purpose. After some thought I realized I was just a beta cuck and had to deal with it. Nothing wrong was done but I felt gutted. Still kind of do although now I have finally come to terms with the rejection. Why are some of us just meant to be lonely /b/? I came out of my shell that I was in only to feel like it was better in there.
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