I just broke up with the love of my life because I am a retard

> fast forward to last night, we are having an amazing day and roll around in the hay all day
> go to a party and get massively drunk
> get in a taxi to go home
> the taxi driver takes the long route and I get mad
> its all sandnigger taxi drivers where I am at
> I am like no tip for him
> we get out and I pay, no tip like I promised
> he starts yelling at me
> I yell back at him, my blood is boiling
> my racism comes out

> I realize/remember that my girlfriend had a sandnigger boyfriend for a year when she was in university and had a one night stand with another brown fucker
> I tell her she disgusts me and go on a massive tantrum
> I cant be around her anymore
> she tries to comfort me
> I push her
> she goes flying into a wall and fractures something in her arm
> I lock myself in the room and she is crying and yelling for help
> I thought she was pretending and lying to get attention so I go on skulking and trying to sleep while she is crying for help
> eventually I am not sure how she leaves the house to go to the hospital, I think she called an ambulance to get her

> which brings me to today
> I am still mad and text her to get her fucking cat
> she texts me from the hospital and tells me she fractured a bone
> she will be at our place in a bit with her friends and parents
> she wants to spend some time at her parents place
> one of the friends that she brings turns out to be her ex boyfriend of all fucking people
> one of her best friends is dating his brother, and he happened to be hanging out with them last night so he comes along to help
> he tells me "you should probably go for a walk"
> who the fuck does he think he is!?
> I am really fucking mad again but cant do anything
> my dignity was already shattered when her parents came into our place to help K get her stuff
> starting a fight is probably not a good idea

> They eventually leave but I am still here
> We have been dating for two years
>I do love her immensely but I dont know if we can go on like this
> I am pretty sure we are broken up
> I dont know what to do with myself
. Pacing around
> Repeating the same things over and over
> Checking the phone to see if she texted me ...

I dont know what to do, help me /b/

>>685629546
try to contact her and tell her that you miss her, if she loved you, she will accept your words

>>685629658
you are fucked up

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>>685629898

She is screening my calls which is understandable.

I have thought of killing myself.

baww and feels thread

dude just man up and kill yourself

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>>685630096

tell me something I don't know

So she's a whore, move on

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>>685630199
OP don't kill yourself. You're acting very hasty

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>>685630232

planning on it, but I dont have a gun and dont want to make it messy for when she comes to get the rest of her shit

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>>685630470

being dead is better than feeling miserable and hollow

>>685629546
I understand that you don't like her past, but you completely overreacted. but I think you know that she is right. Maybe you can somehow get her back in a few weeks or so, but you have broken her arm...did she or her parents say something to that?

>>685629804
u can always kill yourself. for best results stream it on twitch

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>>685630761

I dont know what she told them, but I dont think she would lie.

Waiting for a few weeks is hard when you have been inseparable for two years

>>685630485
do you really want to suffer like this for the rest of your life?

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>>685630761
this!
he is so right.
OP, go to see a therapist, tell him your problem and tell him to help you with your problem. Tell her that you are going to a therapist. after some months try to meet her, you will be better and if she loved you, she will still love you.

remember op, you can go to jail for abusing her

Kill her instead

>>685630819
not on twitch but yes on some other place

>>685629546

theres nothing do to.
change your ways.
men should protect their women not fucking assault them you dumbass

You Sir are fucking stupid.
>this bitch has social past and has been little slutty too but loves me
>Better start verbally abusing her


Dude just why. You could have had gr8 life with her and you overreacted and messed it all up. Good job

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>>685631147

I have already went to see a therapist and they diagnosed me as borderline

I stopped going because it felt useless and wasnt making me feel any better

I should stuck it through

Get the fuck over it dude. You fucked up. Time to grow a pair and move on. Quit being a woman.

>>685629546

You're violent and abusive with obvious anger management issues.Get help and leave her alone.

>>685629546

Have you tried switching to Geiko? 15 minutes could save you $10,000 or more on your car insurance.

>>685631439

this post made me feel better, more like these please...

hindsight is 20/20

fucking broke her arm? damn dude, wait it out don't kill yourself

Good job on being a racist retard. Maybe you spend way too much time on this website if you let that shit come out in your daily life. Holy fuck. Literally it just sounds to me like you cant control your fucking self. I inderatand getting angry or even insecure about your ladies past, it honestly happens to about everyone. But most people can at least control a little of what they say and do. I mean you apparently shoved her pretty hard. What the fuck?

>>685631571
this.

>>685631469
ur girlfriend sucks big nigger cock already..

>>685629546
you did good OP, what a sand nigger loving slut. good thing you got rid of her before you ate more sand nigger cum. what a fucking slut. good job OP

Are you an alcohol?

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>>685631614

I have never hit her before, but I fucked up hard this time

>>685631469
welll, now you know it wasn't useless. Go back and tell him to help you with this problem. he needs to help you not to treat your gf like that

>>685631680
/Thread

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>>685631909

fractured a bone in her arm, she is walking in an arm sling now, so not exactly broke ... but thats irrelevant

Call the woman. Tell you are sorry. Buy gift. Never say Nigger again.

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I hope it works out op :,(

You're a cunt op kys

How old is her dad? Honestly if it was me I probably would have stomped the shit out of you OP. Hell you might be lucky one of the other guys didnt kick your ass in. Might be why they told you to take a walk you pussy.

>>685629804
Go see her in person you dumbass. Calm down, look presentable, and drive over to her parents house and pour out your heart to her. Also, stop fucking drinking. Especially around her. You're whats called a violent drunk. She's your woman, go get her back.

>>685629804
you fucked up
get on with your life for nothing will come out of wishing for the best
stop wishing for it and go get it, combat your weaknesses and fears
strive for a better you and then you can hope for the best, take this experience as a stepping stone in your life

>>685632279
best wishes man, just don't do anything you would regret wait and see, do this >>685630761

>>685629546
its ok she was using you anyway, i mean a 28 year old woman with a 22 year old man, she uses anything she can get at that point

>>685629658
Well, you'll probably think twice next time before saying and doing idiot things? If you cant control your ignorant, shorttempered, violent drunk self you should give up drinking. Fuck you, OP

>>685632353
Don't call the bitch. Say nigger more often. Be less beta.

>>685632354
it wont, he screwed up and he better accept it as soon as possible

Show her naked you fuckin cuck OP

>>685632021

I do have a drinking problem, and today is going to be no exception

>>685629546
You are an abusive piece of shit, end yourself.

>>685632489
this

>>685632489
He will do nothing of the sort seeing that She never was and never will be his woman, he better start working on his fucking issues and leave her out of the picture both for his sake and hers

>>685632775
I really think this one could work
>>685630761

Buy her a Black cock she can suck on, after you have had it in your Ass. Never brake her arm again. Fist her ass instead.

>>685629804
>>685629658
>>685629598
>>685629546

You're a fucking retard, kill yourself.

>>685632926
i doubt it will if all he does is focus on getting her back, he has to get himself fixed before trying anything with anyone ever again

>>685632966
Definitely don't want to brake her arm

>>685632489
I would not do this. If you go to her parents house you are just asking for her father to slap the shit out of you. Tbh you kind of deserve it. So actually maybe you should do this.

>>685629546
So you're abusive and you want us to tell you ow to get her back?
She's better off without you, considering you're a racist, abusive asshat tbh

>>685633028
Fuck man, Are u a retard?

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>>685632120

She couldnt fucking target anything and gave me manuals on mindfulness which doesnt exactly help when your blood is boiling and you want to fuck shit up

Rape her

>>685632441
Agreed. Do that shit to my family, OP, and I'd contemplate to smack you in the face 'til you stopped shaking. Stop drinking and bothering people.

I take it you're a white guy like me, earning decent and living in a decent area since all the low status taxidrivers are foreigners. What is wrong with you, mot paying the man for driving you drunk, rude, racist, violent ass home? It's not like it was his dream job.

>>685633214
pretty much this

>>685632902
Seconded

OP not gonna lie. For some reason I think you are pretty much beyond help. You sound like a massive cry baby cunt. I get the vibe that throughout your little story you keep trying to justify your retard actions. And some of your comments here seem to further that belief.

>>685631469
oh you fucking bitch.
borderline girl here.
i fuck a bunch of dudes and gamble and shit.

but i dont hit people or verbally abuse them.
fuck you dont blame the border for YOU being a piece of shit, you're giving our people a bad name.

Op, you blame your depression for your actions. But you're just an asshole. Take a lot of time to work in yourself and become a decent human being. But realize you lost her and you will be alone for a long time. Once you are ready, you will find someone else. But you will go through many nights of crippling loneliness. That is the price you pay for growing and becoming a decent human being. If you're not willing to do that, then just snuff yourself now.

She's better off. Just leave her

she's gone you tard. you need help but just be sure no amount of help will ever get her back.

>>685629804
You just sound like a massive asshole. You should just kill yourself and do her and everyone else the favor

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>>685633214

I wouldn't hurt a fly on any other day

Wish last night was any other day

>>685632021
R u an grammer?

>>685629546
Hey, OP, how did that 'go to /b/ for comfort and caring words work out for you'?

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>>685633589

No justification, I fucked up and everyone knows it

OP, you should give it a day or so and then call her and obviously apologize and tell her how much she means to you then you should tell her if she stays with you through this difficult period of your life that you're going to get help for being manic depressive like go to therapy and get meds or something and tell her that you never would want to hurt her, etc. I have major depressive disorder and might be bipolar and it takes a while but after a couple weeks, both meds and therapy help a whole lot

>>685632021
Ma'am your daughter was killed it was an alcohol

>>685634408
>borderline girl again.
you. are. abusive.

until you admit that. honestly.
and try to get help. honestly.
and let your girlfriend tell you how you hurt her without you being defensive.

you're still an abuser.

>>685629804
You're an emotionally stunted, short tempered, immature control freak. This whole thing is entirely your own fault and down to your flaws as an under developed man child. In short, leave her alone, she's too good for you and you know it.

Get some serious help before its too late to turn yourself around and learn to be a man. If you don't, you will always be an emotionally abusive pieve of shit and will ruin everything you come into contact with. You're that guy that she will tell all her futire boyfriends about, the guy who she thought was sweet but abused her and hurt her. She will latch onto them closer than she ever will with you. Let that sink in.

She bought her friends and parents to help her move out because she's scared of you and what you might do to her. I bet this isn't the first time you've shoved her or shown physical aggression towards her.

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>>685633692

Probably this

> I cant seem to get it and derp hard everytime the subject comes up, throw fits and emotionally and verbally abuse her, even calling her a slut a few times because I couldnt grasp it
>>685634408
Abuse isn't JUST physical, dude. You know that.
She CRIED OUT for you. ALL NIGHT.
If my girlfriend cries, I console her. Instead, you think she is being an attention whore. Your worldview is so distorted that you are incapable of a successful relationship.

So expand your worldview/improve yourself over time or just kill yourselves and end your loneliness. Thanks.

>>685633589
> I get the vibe that throughout your little story you keep trying to justify your retard actions. And some of your comments here seem to further that belief.

this. 100%

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>>685629546
here anon, this video will make you feel better:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sxLOoIS8vx4

>>685634408
You aren't going to win her back. This will never turn out well for you. Let her live her own life.

LET HER LIVE. And maybe, if you improve yourself, one day you could find someone to love your sorry ass.

>>685634643
You should speed up the process tbh

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>>685629804
You're a shitty person. Don't talk to her anymore you stupid fuck! You had a woman when you really needed a fucking babysitter, you fucking manchild.

>>685634408
Sure you wouldn't. Sounds like something an abuser would say tbh. Comments like this further prove this posts:>>685633589 point

>>685634785
>You're that guy that she will tell all her futire boyfriends about, the guy who she thought was sweet but abused her and hurt her. She will latch onto them closer than she ever will with you. Let that sink in.

Ouch

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>>685634480

Its going exactly as I wanted, its just nice to hear other people say what you feel

>>685629598
>>685629658
>>685629804
>racist, abusive, short tempered

why the fuck should she put up with you?
there is not a single excuse for you to physically hurt her to the point that she has to go the the hospital and then not even help when she needs it. You are human garbage and she is way better off so just leave her alone

>>685635380
That line is honestly super true.

My girlfriend does the same with her ex.
He was verbally abusive, calling her a slut just like you.
Just like you he was racist and he made her cry herself to sleep on a regular basis.
Now she is so fucking happy, and we aren't alike you and I.
You aren't a good guy.
You are just the abusive ex.

>>685634646
NO NO and NO
he has no right to ask her to stick around so he can get help, he should get help and then tell her that he is doing better in the future, if he rushes things now there is certainly no possibility for him to get her back, i speak from experience

>>685635431
But you can improve yourself.
Go to therapy.
Tell your girlfriend (well, your ex) that you don't want to date right now. You need to work on yourself.

Go meet a few black people or chat with a Muslim. They're pretty nice as long as you're respectful. They're just like you or I.

>>685634646
things like that made me stay with my abuser....
he said the most beautiful loving apologies and sometimes would even go to therapy. or at least he'd go driving somewhere.

don't enable him. please.

>>685635839
>685635839
Agreed.

>>685636037
THIS.

>>685635985
He should leave her well alone.

>>685629804
Don't be such a fucking asshole, get a therapist and stop being am angry man child

>>685635985
>they're just like you or I

No.

As someone who has gone through depression, I know how shit it feels when you break up with someone.
If she does love you, she'll help you go see a therapist, but just sulking and posting on /b/ isnt going to make things any better

>>685636037

So much this.

>>685636189
>r well alone.
Whether he tells her he's going to therapy or not, they shouldn't be dating. That much is agreed.

>>685636456
stop it you dont know what you're talking about

>>685636443
Kill yourself, scum.

>>685636456
>you, she'll help you go see a therapist,
Bullshit.
She is not responsible for OP's mental health.

>>685636802
Yes I know it's not OP gf's fault, but it makes going to see anyone about your depression a lot easier

>>685629546
you know... the solution is to become a fucking man and face life...
I had similar problems...

>>685629804
You're a fucking bag of shit. You deserve the situation you put yourself. Hopefully, you realizing how much of a piece of shit you are will make your next relationship better.

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>>685629546
You're a cunt. You don't deserve her and she will end up hating you if you get back together. Just fucking end it

>>685637100
But this idea doesn't often work in practice.
He'll revert to his old ways without a big shift in life.

>>685637100
you dont know what you're talking about! please please stop teaching him how to guilt his victim back.

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>>685636667
Right he should be taking the opinion of the other /b/tards and just end his life :^)

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>>685637308

I think the consensus is for me to leave her alone and face my own demons.

Thats what I will do.

I did guilt her before and I will see a therapist

Admitting you have huge problems is the first step

>>685629804
You threw her into a wall, broke her arm, and ignored her while get cried. It's over. >>685634785 is right, the best thing you could ever be to her is a bad memory. Move on, and maybe be less of a total fucking cunt.

OP how many guys did she fuck? Why did it make you so insecure?

>>685636693
Fuck off, nigger

>>685637818
how is her past of any relevance?
his insecurities are for him to deal with, not her to have live with

>>685637308
>>685637297
>Go see a therapist
I was in OP's spot a while back and the only way I could go was to go with someone who I trusted

>>685638159
then he should seek a friend or family, not his ex whom he hurt

>>685629546
What is this picture called? Like how do i find all the different variants?

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>>685637818

She slept with around 11 guys total, 7 were relationships and others were one night stands.

It makes me feel insecure because I was a virgin when we met.

I hated myself and everything about me, and here was someone loving me but she has a past.

I pictured her fucking other people.

It made me insecure because I never had that

>>685634732
not op but fuck off faggot
all girks dream about being able to whine about an abusive dad/bro/bf that even the tiniest thing is now abuse to you

honestly just stop posting and kys already

>>685638141
Um idk nigger. Because maybe I would be a bit more understanding if was taking miles and miles of dick vs her just having a handful of sexual partners.

>>685638252
I went with my ex because I had no family or friends who I could trust.
But it's totally OP's call

>>685638431
>even the tiniest thing
did you even read the thread?

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>>685638292

I was possessive and overly jealous.

Massively insecure about myself and my dick (even though I know I am slightly bigger than average).

I didnt get sex before, everything I thought I knew about it was from pr0n

>>685638656
he was unaware of what he was doing thanks to the heavy drinking

he didn't want it to happen, it was an accident that will cost him a lot but it's not abuse

>>685638292
>>685638737
You would have been insecure about that shit if you were a virgin or not. Alot of guys get insecure/uncomfortable about their womans sexual history. The difference is in how they handle those feelings, and you apparently handle them in about the worst way you can

>>685637916
I'm a white female, but k.

>>685638159
So in OP's case, someone that has never had sex with someone that isn't white.

>>685639212
>unaware of what he was doing
>because of drinking

What? I have been pretty fucking shit faced. But I am always at least slightly aware of what I am doing. Enough to not get violent with someone.

Why are you throwing yourself a fucking crying fag party??? You fucking physically hurt her and never once apologized... and she was nice enough not to bring big brawly men to fuck you straight up when she came to grab her stuff. You are an idiot. Maybe you need to figure out why you're such a fucking vagina first AND THEN get a hold of her. She don't deserve your bullshit.

>>685639523
Fuck off, mud shark.

You are an idiot, but on the bright side you can move up to a younger model.

>>685638292
>pictured her fucking other people

Cuckold tendencies?

>>685639620
He wasn't an abuser because an abuser knows what he's putting the victim through and still, intentionally carries on the abuse. OP is a paranoid faggot with anger, drinking problems and a big fucking pussy for not apologising or at least heroing. Oh I've drunk enough to not remember shit and enough to start a fight. Depends on what you drink.

>>685639676
I am a white female dating a white guy, but k.

>>685640575
>depends on what you drink

I have never understood this. Alcohol is alcohol. It all just gets you drunk. Whiskey, tequila, etc. All of that. None of it makes me feel differently than the others. Just drunk.

>>685629546

Oh wow. I just had a one hour phone talk with my girlfriend about our different view on the relationship. Been together 6 years. The worst part is she is totally happy with the way things are but I'm not. So it's up to me to decide whether i'm overreacting and things actually are ok or that I need to move on.

>>685629804
I think you should kick her ex's fuckin teeth in. He's definitely got her in his arms right now and soon down the line you'll find out that "he was there for me" and she fucked him later tonight.

Fukin stand your ground, man up and be alpha.

>>685641873
Lol except the ex would probably kick OPs teeth in since it is apparent that OP is a huuuuuge pussy.

>>685634479
Back to 9gag, newfag

>>685640575
oh what the fuck ever. an abuser feels they're entitled to exploit their victim.

you can have comorbid diagnoses and still be an abuser. You can have paranoid, drinking problems and not abuse.

>>685636456
Stfu, gtfo & kys

>>685642139
Nah lad.

OP will be that pumped with aderaline he'll pound on him.

I say OP shouls punch him in his Fukin throat.

>>685636580
Yup, I think he should probably leave her alone alltogether tho'

>>685638737
Kick the ex's teeth in already and report back faggot

>>685642453
Doubtful. OP would prolly get the taste beat out of his mouth. And tbh he might deserve it

>>685629546
You fuck up. Put it on stand by. Become a man . Find yourself. you have lots of inner work to do seek help. See if she still want to help you if no its because you scare her. You need psychiatric help OP.

if i broke my girlfriend's arm, i would probably never allow myself back into her life again.

you physically harmed her with your bullshit, and that is a line that once crossed will always stay crossed.

p.s. she's crying into her ex's lap now.

>>685642852
Fam trust.

Just let OP go in swinging.

I want this to escalate into something worth while

>>685631972
Not every girl has a past

>>685642427
Ok :(

>>685633634
>borderline girl here.
>i fuck a bunch of dudes
Pics

Too bad OP was not reported to the police and could have a chance of going to prison.

>>685642427
Abbreviate more you pussy