>>675768819 I feel you there Three fucking times I never made any new friends after the last time and now everyone wonders why I have none... I want to lay into them so bad but it would destroy them knowing they ruined my life
>>675768923 I never got to do what I wanted youngest of 5, parents divorced when I was about 8 All of my other siblings had their sport or activity. I was denied everything I feel like I could have been something, but now I'm a fucking loser that was taught giving up is ok through neglect
>>675768942 >>675768819 The one thing in life that taught me empathy was seeing 2 close friends have to deal with their parents' divorces. One is like a brother to me, and seeing him break down changed something.
>>675769187 I try every day. Since I got on adderall, take 30MG when I wake up and I actually feel ok. Now I just need to find a day job so I dont sleep all day and stay up all night when theres nothing to do Been wanting to hit the gym. Got a 24 hour one near by, but.. I sort of need motivation. A buddy >>675769318 ^
>>675769362 One good thing about getting fucked so many times, so hard in life is you gain wisdom. Downside is you have the wisdom to perceive. You see too much >>675769399 You got dubs, though. I turned into an alchie, too. Im happy during the day when I have things to do, but getting home, sitting in my room man.. shit jsut crashes
nothing, the composition of ones life and how the outward expression is manifested explains the great ponderance of what we convince ourselves is the fulfilling life and most often than not is only realized after some time after they have happened, sometimes even after we have perished...what we have in these moments are conceptions/inceptions that live long after they have passed and although some have been repeatitiously reacted they are nonetheless ultimately importance in the grand scheme of human discourse
Acne. It destroyed my confidence early in life and turned me into a social recluse. I'm now a 26 year old virgin with social anxiety and no friends or family. The worst part is that I know I'm actually kind of attractive but I just can't overcome my anxiety. I realize it's too late for me by now anyway since I'm beginning to go bald. Kill me, m8.
>>675769984 34 now. had this 31 yo grl when 26. she cheated. by beta brain convinced that its alright to renew contact when 31, she ditched me after 2 years. had almost none semi-serious rls beside that whore.
>>675769600 You made it before. Make it again and go bury that bitch in wads of cash until she suffocates to death >>675769625 Same. That path was giving up >>675769691 I used to live with a heroin addict. Dude was a total fuck. I would kick his ass every day if I could. Lock yourself in a room and have a budy help you kick it. OR commit a crime and g oto jail. Wait it out, bro. >>675769879 My moms ex is like that. Gave up his kid for alcohol. Divorce and neglect run in my family and we're all fucked up for it. I'm never getting married. Never having kids. >>675769984 Women arent a damn thing. If you do what you love and do it well, they'll come to you. >>675770032 Well, I'm happy for you anon. Also go fuck yourself >>675770090 I was ruined before 4chins >>675770157 I feel the anxiety. It's.. you just feel worthless and no one really actually wants to talk to you. >>675770168 Id like to leave mine behind. Theyve held me back for so long.. so long >>675770191 women are whores and will always leave for "something better" They want to feel owned. its weird >>675770203 I woke up today...
>>675770342 I have a theory on that. Digital life has ruined life. I was happy before.. >>675770389 not him but is me, OP. Pic related >>675770422 Too many parents fucking up. Things used to be simpler... we dont need any more kids these days >>675770436 I self medicate and it works. Keep looking, brother. >>675770517 Get away from them. Just fuck the family that fucked you. You owe them nothing. YOU OWE YOUR FAMILY NOTHING
Bald is fine, if you're not really skinny, or have a baby face. Two of the hottest girls I've ever known had a thing for bald dudes, which frustrated me, having a full head of hair. Trust me, girls don't care that much about baldness (unless you're desperately trying to hide it). Height on the other hand - you're fucked
>>675770701 It's not that easy. I have to pay for my college classes and I don't have enough skill to find a better paying job than minimum wage. It also doesn't help that I'm gay and they're rather homophobic
>>675768619 Moving states at the beginning of my high school years and my ex gf being a qt alternative girl thus cursing me to chase the elusive blue hair for life. It could also be being molested by my favorite male cousin when I was 8 so it made me over sexualized causing me to lose my virginity at 11.
My dad ruined my future at a real social life by being a general alcoholic and beating my teeth out at a young age. I'm still missing a front tooth my dad destroyed in a drunken stupor it's made it very difficult to have confidence when I don't have the money to fix it.
My parents dynamic makes me very emotionally unavailable causing most of my relationships to fail. Even though I do feel everything for them I have problems showing it which makes most women leave.
Life was never good for me so I don't really know where to place the exact moment that ruined it. All I know is I was doomed from the start.
>>675770904 Sorry anon, my life was a little like that aswell. Parents got divorced when i was around 3, mom had to raise 3(4) children by herself, me being the youngest. She died when i was 16, the saddest part about that is that i never really appreciated what she did to us, even though she didn't spend that much time with me, with us, everyone who knew her said she was a great person. I'm a sad person... i didn't cry when she died.... now i barely have any feelings left but keks...
>>675770855 I started out making 7.75 as an order selector in a supply warehouse pulling on a handjack. Five years later making 45K salary as Distribution Manager. Do something and do it well. >>675770904 People either fuck you or they die. I've stopped feeling anything when someone dies. Even a close friend. I watched my grandma stop breathing in a care home. I felt nothing and everyone else around me was crying. Still nothing when I put her in the ground. >>675771001 I'm a pretty big loser for chicks with problems. I've helped many women who friendzoned me fix their relationship problems. I dont have advice for anons, though. Threads kill. Find the nice guy, though. The one who's ignored. The one who knows pain. He'll see you. >>675771140 :) >>675771188 I was socially retarded for a long time. Started when I lost my one and only friend due to a move. All day, every fucking we played Every Fucking Day >>675771284 I used to do my school work because my parents checked it Parents divorce, work goes unchecked I no longer do my work. I only get lectures, scoldings, grounded. I gave up and no one cared. >>675771459 Yeah.. I got ti hard. Except it's not really shy, it's that I feel like an alien. I just dont understand how to interact. How to keep things going.
>>675771610 Why would I want a guy to see me? Honestly, I've been thinking about going to Tumblr just to try and get something. I just can't do these normie girls who try to be alt. In the end they just can't do it for me.
>>675771022 Deinstall it. Talk with anyone left close to you about that addiction. If you can delete the account (exDota2 player here). The path in this game leads nowhere! Start something else you can put the energy in before invested into the game. Sportshooting for example or football or whatever. Just try to imagine a "skill tree" for any activity you choose.
It will get better. The numbness you feel when not playing the game WILL vanish. But don't start other games as a substitute.
>>675772023 I'm not here to defend games but LoL is an Esport, and nowadays it's as much sport as football so saying he's not gonna reach anything is not true, the only reason why most of us aren't pro at that particular game we play is because we don't spend our every free minute doing it, it's the same with everything in life.
>>675771792 I really dont know what to say.. It probably wasnt that alone. Dont think wanting to see naked women ruined your life. I spied on my sisters, too. >>675771940 Ahah, I read that shit wrong. Replace guy wth girl, or dog or horse. Whatever you're into >>675772045 I have too many words for that When your friends are happy to see you when they bump into you at random, but try to mae plans and get nothing When they just sort of fade out of your life. Try to be funny to keep people interested, but.. fuck, man. I just cant relate to anyone for anything meaningful. >>675772059 :D I didnt expect the thread to do well, but this is what makes me feel better. Sharing and knowing and let know that what happens doesnt happen to you alone.
>>675772349 People are different, some people enjoy doing their work 17 hours a day, it's called being a workoholic, same thing applies to gaming, but if you're not doing it pro, then there's really no use for it.
>>675772341 Women need to be put in a place. They physically need it. They are inferior, and all important fields of advancement prove it. Men do great things. Women are just along for the ride. >>675772429 Ouch. Just finding out youre into them or did you do anything? If they're ostracizing you for feeling an emotion that's bullshit. I've been insulted for everything right down to the very way I breathe. It's given me heavy complexes Sticks and stoned may break my bones, but words leave emotion scars that last forever >>675772584 There are. They're ignored or never go outside for fear of gaining more wisdom like myself. I offer so much love and support to friends, but when they no longer need it...
>>675772207 But if he himself feels it destroying him, he need to quit. The constant image in his head that he could be once living of the price pool money is maybe hindering his rehabilitation. I know and accept that e-sports fall in the same category like other million dollar sports (at least moneywise) but not everyone can be sucessful in it. It is all up to him. If he feels it destroys him, he needs to quit.
>>675772744 You're probably right. I do try my best to appreciate those people, though. It doesn't really seem like others do, though. It's kind of like the evening news. News reporters will report for days on the negativity, but will only give a couple of seconds to something positive or heartwarming.
>>675772969 i don't think it's that, i think he just lacks a kick in the butt, i know this because i'm like him aswell. And i had a kick in the butt, i need a fucking ass rape to get me going it seems.
>>675771022 Yo I'm gonna tell you this right now, I haven't been on 4chan in about 2 years, and this is my first time on /b/ since. My life changed one morning when I uninstalled league and slowly walked my ass to the gym. That's all I gotta say, this website makes my cock and balls shrink so I'm out. good luck
>>675770359 The worst part is, before my mum moved away, I was a straight 'A' student.
It's taken me many years to make up for the damage they did. I went to uni and studied fine art as a mature student. I only got on the course with a portfolio (according to my school grades I am retarded) and got a first
>>675773502 >Parents you can't chose your parents so you don't always get the best option >Hated school everyone does, it's school >No skills or education Now this one was totally up to you, you could've finished school but i assume you quit because you were an edgy teenager. BUT, you still can have skills, there's tons of stuff online to learn from, just take a thing you like and go pro via all the information you have at you fingertips. >Nowhere to go You don't need to go anywhere aslong as there's a roof over your head and you don't starve. >I'm a total fuckhead at 32 who knows nothing change it! there's still plenty of time to make something out of yourself, be good at something, get a career, family, kids and don't be a shitty parent and teach them that they can reach the stars if they want to.
Damn, I missed the very first and apparently second >>675768703 Human nature is beautiful. It's built this world, even if it is shit. What was built is still grand and monumental. It allows us to do great things. >>675768722 Alcohol has me. I cant really watch things anymore. I get bored and lose it. Interest s a difficult thing to hold. There are plenty of groups out there for your interests, and theyre huge. >>675772975 I love and hate my insight. Gained through tortuous pain and experience. I still gladly let them use me. Igive them what I never had And its very difficult to find a down to earth woman. Chances are, theyre already taken >>675773046 You cant care about everyone. Someone always gets left behind. Most only see what they want and not what they need. Even if they do see wht they need, human nature comes in and fucks it up. >>675773050 It's grinding on me so hard. I've been acting on my suicidal tendencies lately. Thankfully I'm easily sidetracked >>675773221 Parents meet for the first time They feel a burning desire They mistake desire for love Get married Desire burns out quickly Those tangled in their lives get fucked when they cut the connections True love is not a strong emotion. It is comfort and trust. When you can see the one you love flirting with someone else and smile, because you know you're the one they're coming back to. When you trust they know what hurts you, and will do their best not to. And when they do, they fix it the best they can. Love is friendship. Understanding. Comfort. >>675773302 Government. It all sucks, brother. Do not trust those with money and power >>675773408 Women are whore. Social media is sedation. I have no social media. Its never interested me. I love being in the real world, out in nature where its serene. Quiet. The world is silent and mother holds me. >>675773441 A vice to forget what ails you. Its impossible to kick without replacing it. Without help
>>675773900 >You cant care about everyone. I don't try to, just the ones that care about me. This is kind of cringey, but I'm starting to live by a motto, "Never forget those who do good to you." I try and think of ways to show that I appreciate them.
damn you guys are coming too quick hah.. thats not what she said for 6 years now.. :( >>675773502 I'm basically in the same boat. I bought a tablet and started to draw. Started out with events, the girl only I can see. How she gets close when I get stressed or anxious. She never talks. She never emotes. >>675773659 Breathing gives you cancer. Keep breathing and this will solve your problem soon enough. I promise. >>675773727 Then why are you on 4chan at 4-5 in the morning? Either way, props Also, go fuck yourself. >>675773980 You get stabbed by a stranger. You bleed. You go to hospital and doctor asks why you're bleeding You say someone stabbed you. The doctor looks at you, confused. >You cannot blame your wound on someone else >>675774217 Same. So much ambition, but no motivation. No support. No will. >>675774294 I try, too. But I always leave my real friends behind. I hate it..
>>675774050 Yes and it is good realising it. But he must identify his core problem, which I'm sure he already did. Once he solves this, even if there is no one there exept for himself to cherish his victory, he will have gained trust in hinself and be able to solve the other problems (like the one you mentioned).
When the first gear falls in place, the other's will follow with perceverance. But he must be true to himself about his core problem (Which what he described in this thread for HIM is the game)
>>675771022 I played that shit with my friend all the time, you really need an outside perspective.
I quit playing, he kept on. I started working and left the state for 3 years. Everytime I came back to visit this dude he kept getting fatter, never cut his greasy hair and was sitting in his room, playing league.
It's 4 years of his life are gone, just sitting in his room playing league, thousands of dollars blown on pixel costumes for pixel characters.
He's 20 years old and finally got a job, quit playing and is making an attempt to better his life.
It pisses me off just thinking about his lazy ass sitting in that room, playing league while his parents feed him, clothe him and keep a roof over his head.
Quit playing that shit you fuck, go fucking do something, ANYTHING.
>>675774294 you should trust the dude who replied to you, he knows better, i know better. People are selfish fucks, 90% of them, if you managed to get a friend who TRULY cares about you when he's got a shit ton of problems of his own, then i applaud to you. But there's a saying that goes something like : Do something good to a person, and he will forget it the next day, do something bad to a person and they will rememeber it for the rest of their life. My point is that there's no reason to be nice because you're not getting it back.
But... then there's people like us... who still try to act nice because of the fact that everyone's a dick. Give what you can and expect nothing in return - Jesus.
My dad left before I was born never cared to look for me. My mom is nice but we've always been poor just the 2 of us no father figure. Loosing house after house. Having to move away from my friends for 3 years to a different state. Then I came back and they all dont give 1 fuck about me. I have a girlfriend but our relationship is so bad and I have no idea how I can end it without crushing her. Then if I do end it im scared being alone cause I'll just have to deal with me. I honestly hate myself. Oh almost forgot to mention I found my dad's email a few months back messaged him he told me not to ever contact him again. So yeah thats my story.
>>675774627 Go on brother. And everytime you take a false step, don't let it drag you into the abyss. Take a right step again instead. It WILL become easier with time to take right steps again after having failed.
>>675774649 You may be right, but I'd like to think that most people have a natural sense of altruism that is just ignored because of superficial reasons. I know it's really not rational or not supported by too much evidence, but I liked to think this way. I guess it just makes my problems seem smaller. It gives me a little hope to not kill myself.
OP, i just wanted to let you know that you're doing a great job, just look. People get in, tell their stories, you comfort them, provide hope that they need that desperately. You might have actually turned a few lives around. (is reddit taking over? kek(continue gods work)).
>>675774627 Now FOLLOW UP. Find a buddy to help you keep track every. Single. Day. Dont do it alone. Text, messenger, forum. Whatever. Have a constant in there. >>675774649 Keep giving in hopes they'll keep giving to you.. But they dont. Keep going Dont give up Sure, yesterday hurt, but I tried again today Today hurts, too, but I'll try again tomorrow. >>675774833 Center on your mother and your girlfriend. They both love you. Seek out what made you bond in the first place. Do the things you loved. And contact your dad again. Tell him he's a fuck. Tell him he's dead. Show him your smiling face. Get closure on it, brother. >>675775106 It's built in nature. To find all of the qualities you find attractive. They have 100 great qualities but one that turns you off, and yo forget all the good. The baser instinctual wants. >>675775149 Thanks man. I did something for myself today, too. I always feel good during the day, but then I get home and sit in my room... depressed. So I fucking cleaned the bitch, the bathroo laundry. Sat back down.. depressed. Make thread, feel good. I was going to start RE4, but that'll wait for another day.
>>675772744 I told the spouse i had feeling for him, he had mutal feelings at the time. Everyone found out and it ended badly. Again this was all about a year or two ago. Ouch is fucking right though /:
>>675768619 Ass. I can never have it, yet I crave it. I grew up experimenting with my male cousin so I know what ass is like. it haunts me. Also I don't feel gay but that experience makes me gay so I kinda wanna kill myself.
>>675768722 just do it faggot. live stream it, you brought this beast upon yourself, you can also slay it. but you should probably just give up, would entertain me for a few minutes i suppose. stop being selfish and kill yourself
>>675775621 oh god no... its crawling... in.. my skin AAHHHHH >>675775671 I still dont follow. Elaborate >>675775685 Thats kinda bullshit. I understand their feelings towards it, but family never forgets that shit. I dont tell my family anything. I dont tell anyone anthing. I've been a schizo for 24 years and not a damn soul knows. >>675775729 Me and my childhood friend did things. I sucked his dick. Same thing with another friend in middle school. I like cock, but I like women more. Futa.. mmm >>675775889 Kill yourself Record event Watch it later
>>675768619 >lost only family member to emotionally nurture me to drug addiction at young age >emotionally tormented and borderline molested by another family member >manic depressive for years but nobody thinks it's a real problem, so I just try and deal with it day by day
I'm tense around people, I have trust issues, I'm always emotionally hungry but I don't make deeper connections with people (the few times I have it's ended rather badly).
I spend all my time practicing music because it's the only activity involved enough to properly distract me from my problems.
I used to cut due to anxiety, which I've stopped, but only because I smoke weed everyday.
Even though my life is completely fucked I still wouldn't say it's ruined.
>>675775971 I feel like i'm not doing anything with my life right now, so for some reason i got the urge to create a shovel knight/castlevania clone. I'd like to learn coding, and i also need someone to do pixel arts(music aswell but we'll get to that later) and i really need to capture the dark setting, i've made up the plot, with a twist which you only find out if you get the secret ending and it's gonna be one of those "cycle games" like dark souls.
And you seem like a nice dude so i figured i'd ask you, i understand if you don't want to tho.
>>675768619 >be me, a 14 chink, early 2000's >living in big city, good mix of diversity, always hanging out with friends >family moves to the middle of nowhere >95%white and 5% is split between the rest >huge culture shock, everything is different, becomes withdraw >the web is now my comfort zone
>>675776184 I am a troll, true. I'm fake quite often. An asshole, I hurt people. I'm unhappyy with myself and my life. What's eating at you? >>675776329 Aside from the talent, that's me. I distract myself with internet and games, but even those dont sedate me for very long. Keep practicing your talent. Dont let it go. >>675776378 Ah, make a game. I know nothing about coding, lost my talent for art and I have terrible motivation. I would love to say yes and try, but I never finish things. Hell, I hardly even start them. I wish you well on your venture, brother. Keep asking and someone will come along. Search artistic venues. >>675776616 You take risks doing anything at all. Sure, it was my fault for being there, but it was their decision to do harm. One thing cannot happen without the other. It takes two, brother.
>>675776747 >What's eating at you? the fact that if i were a regular 4chan fag i would now be probably flaming you to death and you still would keep a calm face and ask what's wrong. Or i would give in to your kindness and seek comfort. Then again, your first sentence can be true aswell, it is the internet after all and if that is the case you're the ultimate troll in this thread. If not, i tip my fedora for your kind words in these dark times for .... other people.
>>675776670 The glories of sedation. You never see kids playing outside, anymore. Playgrounds, empty. It's social media, phones, games, computers. It came too fast, and everyone else is too busy to do anything else. >>675776690 I hear you there. I live in the U.S., and while it certainly doesnt affect me like others, I've seen what it's like.. North Korea with the brainwashing, China ruling with iron fist, Africa in poverty and so many others just lawless. Trade one problem for another. >>675776774 Adderall is what gets my ass up. It's what helps me feel somewhat normal. Takes my anxiety and my noticable "problems" on a much lower level. I feel something other than stark depression. >>675776860 >1.5 I dont think there are any actual role models around anymore. Theyve grown old and died.. being social is difficult these days. Theres a lack of any real interest with anything anymore. >>675777080 Remain calm in the face of evil and they will cower before you. Were I troll, it would require a punch line. Or if I secretly thought these pathetic losers are gaining an amount of satisfaction from a fake asshole was something to kekkle over. I'm just a loser, sitting behind my computer with nothing to do but share with my fellow losers. Because what we feel, we feel together. We are anonymous We are legion >>675777118 I feel like I should know this one >>675777201 Shit public school that ignored me Shit parents that ignored me No life insurance. Dont need it. When I die, it's going to be by my own hands. I'm going to get lost in the mountains Blow my brains out Let mother embrace and grow me into something more beautiful than I ever was here >>675777311 trips and dubs. There's always new threads, and this one still has a ways to go. How long before auto sage, 350?
>>675778092 difficult to have ambition when theres nothing to strive for. Theres not really any real work out there anymore. Technology has taken over, and real men are gone. If you want something, you have to use your head these days. No longer is experience valued over education.
>>675778612 Things change when you grow up. You're no longer "forced" to go out in public. You social pool shrinks when you leave high school. It's reduced to work. And when it's just work... I dont mix work and friends, anymore Not since I went through a window. >>675778729 To make life easier. I would love to just go out in the mountains where it's nice and cool. Survive off the land. Be independant, but with certain tech. Like solar power and internet of course. >>675778805 Current women dont know what they want. They're told, and those who tell are the loud ones. The assholes.
>Born with Aspergers so already fucked from birth >Get bullied badly all the way through school >Like entire classroom yelling shit at me while the teacher looks on badly >Had no friends entire way through school >Fucks up my social skills >Fucks up my education >Near the end of school have a massive mental collapse that I'm only recently starting to get over >Best friend is a legit sociopath who tells me it's my fault and puts me down
The worst part is I believe him like maybe I could have tried harder or something.
Sorry if my story is shit I know some of you guys probably had it worse but that's my story.
Have one more story about this dumb slut I dated if anyone is interested.
>>675770697 scrollin back and I see this. Sorry I missed you, man. But Im a terrible buddy. I need real life interaction. I'm just an annoying faggot online. >>675779352 Wisconsin, 54601. Shit town of 53k. Tons of nature and wildlife preserves though. Too bad its only nice enough to enjoy it for about 4 months a year. >>675779379 28. My short term memory is awful, long term is great. Except my childhod.. real spotty. Nothing really worth remembering these days, thogh.
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