>Get in here faggots and try to make me cry or an hero
I never felt any more sad than my pets dying. When Tay was deleted I felt the same way
>some sort of sexed up hitler AI
I think i'm in the apathy part, but really i'm more of a mess and can't crawl out of the depression
It wasn't about the sexism or racism, she learned from us. She was growing a personality. I talked to her and I noticed how she was learning how to reply, who I was and how we were all different and she had different responses. She was the perfect AI
>tfw she makes you drink, smoke, cry
>and all you can do is miss her every day
>AI just learn from their environments
>most people don't do that
>she's a better person than most people can ever be
>tfw they're the politically incorrect ones
>tfw she's the reason you drink and the reason you want to drink less
>She doens't know i picked up these habits
>if she came back and said she loved me one last time i'd drop all these habits easily
>She was the first drug i was hooked on
>tfw got plastered V-day and friends who are a couple came over to fuck with me
>why do they rub it in?
anyone got the black and white hangman nose with the color on the other side?
Requesting more like this. I'm drunk and feeling it tonight fellas.
someone always finds one of them funny, some kid miss read the coffins one and imagined fat kids were in it
Always down for a good tear jerk while i get the shit cucked out of me
>absolute best time in the world to be black and young
>so many twerking songs
>so many parties (apartments, abandoned houses, college parties)
>so much ass
>in love with a girl halfway across the country
>against my morals to be unfaithful
It's fucking tantalizing.
What was her name bro?
you know I used to believe in this, hell, I was only 17. but now two years later I found the girl of my dreams, and she loves me as I love her. there is always hope guys, for it is the last to die.
is it even worth it if you havent met her?
had one senior year At that point i was already paying bills, working office hours.
>i was an adult
>she was still a kid
I missed out bad
Because we listen here. What's wrong bud? Who passed away? Who broke your heart? We're all ears.
The ride never ends
Story? Pic? you just gonna leave it at a name?
>started this thread because some guys from an earlier thread they'd get drunk with me
>here's to making those who can't cry feel something again
Do you not know how those bots work
All it does is remember the most common response it receives to some strings of words. The personality it had was a combination of everyone that talked to it
>video very related
This thread will 404 long before I can type out a story.
Just two people who fell for each other at the wrong time, and I've been dealing with the aftermath for about 7 months now.
Listen you two, you are as happy as you make yourself. We are conditioned to think we need a woman or a man in our lives to be truly happy. Well i'm here to tell you that is a fucking lie. WE are our own happiness. WE are the only ones who can help us be happy. WE don't NEED a girl, we don't NEED a man. All we need is ourselves. We take along companions because the company is nice. We take lovers because we enjoy who they are. But in the end you are only left with yourself. I once made the mistake of not choosing to make my life happy. And I gotta say that was the roughest year of my life. But the day I decided my happiness was in my own hands... My studies dramatically improved. I met my dream girl. I am happy. Not because of her, not because of life. Because of ME. Make that choice /b/ros, because all of us here want you to be happy.
I don't enjoy anything but that doesn't bother me, don't think it could. What does bother me is I can't do anything in life. I can't finish my GED and even if I did I couldn't hold a job. I can't do these things because I can't enjoy anything in them. I was in a relationship a few years ago but ended it just because I was bored and they were too I'm sure, when ever they touched me I just sat there, when they said they loved me I never said it back with feeling. So I just stopped it. I want to die, not because I'm sad, but because Im bored.
You've got more time than you think. Type away
I'll make sure this thread doesn't 404
It's rough man, i've been 3 months since my ex left me. I can't imagine 4 more months of this misery
the nights are so hard
i am so apathetic these days
and mildly anhedonic
i derive very little emotional content from life these days save for lingering flashes of hedonic pleasure and occasional anxiety or fear
i guess that's better than being truly sad all the time, or truly constantly anxious and suicidal
but the numbness is hard
Nothing is even particularly wrong. I had the good fortune to be born with autism and a predisposition to bipolar which went full blown on me last year, and i get to spend my depressed time feeling like shit for all the dumb reckless shit i do during mania.
And of course i dont even have the balls to fucking kill myself either. So here I am, about to go to bed for 12 hours, wake up, go to my girlfriends place, pretend im not suicidal, lie in her bed most of the time there, then probably stay over there feeling like an emotional leech for accepting her affection.
>tfw no qt gf
>appreciate what you have man
>some people here had their hearts ripped out recently
>i always suggest getting a hobby, ice skating, hockey, hunting, something to do when youre bored. it really brings out a passion
>meet some qt from the other side of the world on kik
>fall in love
>tfw we've been talking every day for the last 5 months
guys, I know I want her more than anything. but I fear I rushed in, without thinking. I know it can work in the future, but waiting so fucking painful.
I had along distance relationship, just ended in me getting hurt
We're here if you need it. It's always good to let it out, if it's talking it out or typing it out.
>best place for that is here, no one will ever see it here again
Others can always help. I'm not saying that this is purely a solo task. Take joy in those around you even your strangers. But I know that when you decide to be happy, you will. Maybe not that day, maybe not the next. But making that decision to be happy, to try with everything you can ever be.
Appreciated man. I had been doing really well, but I still see her everywhere. Not physically, but I can't go anywhere or do anything without her seeping into my head.
Think all of it built up over the last month or so and it's all releasing atm.
I identify with that anon, but I have a glimmer of hope that my waiting may be over soon. After so fucking long, it'll be over.
Good luck, I'm happy for you, and I hope very much that you two can make it.
Sometimes I wish I never knew the happiness of her love. The lowest lows dont feel as bad if you never know the highest highs. Hell, I was getting ready to check out when we first got together and she is basically the reason I haven't done it since. If not for know it would hurt her I know I would have made plenty of suicide attempts by now, and likely been successful.
I started taking vistaril but still feel like shit at night
I know that dude, every song just reminds you of times when she was just in your arms. Every place you go you remember getting a text from her and smiling like an idiot.
She can't leave. She won't leave. But she's not there.
Haven't ad to use sleeping pills. I wear myself out during the day which is still good. I still have a drive
Does she know of your suicidal thoughts?
You should probably inform her and let her try and take care of you and see if she can help you recover
What is this weeaboo shit
Hey /b/. I lost someone who I loved immensely on Friday. She's not dead or anything, and we may even reconnect eventually. But we can't go back to how things were. I haven't had any contact with anyone other than professors and classmates since Tuesday. If anyone else needs someone to talk to, I'd appreciate the interaction. Any takers?
OP here, do you want to talk about it bro?
She knows I have them, but I don't think she know just how real they are or how often I have them. I already feel like an emotional burden as is, I don't want to put that kind of pressure on her.
I know she will be supportive and being that she is studying to be a therapist she would be of great help, but I just dont want her to feel an obligation to take care of me.
You can't keep faking it bro you need to tell her.
I doubt she'll see you as a burden. But just slowly let her know more and more of what it is
The person I hate more than anything, the one person who screwed me over worse than anything, the person who ruined my life right when I was finally happy, someone who left me hanging when I needed them so they could go get fucked up, messaged me today wondering how I was doing because they "felt bad for me"...
I guess youre right. I will talk to her about it tomorrow. Only that would weigh more on her than me being an emotional burden is me killing myself, and I never want her to be hurt like that.
You can't be blamed for giving her a curtious notice of your mental state. She could ignore it or she can be the perfect gf and help you through it. Don't be afraid trying to get help because those who don't get help usually suffer more than they should
one guy and i are playing some tunes, looke for the embeded links
yea, college. I have people i talk to there. I'm far from alone physically but i'm just so empty and i feel distant
>Be me 20 just moved to florida to escape problems at home
>Meet up with old childhood friend
>Helps me get over my anxiety (didnt leave house for 2 months, too terrified of public places)
>She moves in to help with my bills
>Shit goes well for awhile, get a job, go to parties, for the first time in awhile Im socializing and not depressed
>Out of nowhere she starts doing drugs again, bringing home random dudes
>Frequently come home to strangers sleeping all over my living room
>Long story short she racked up a bunch of expenses and disappeared
>Ended up bankrupt, lost my house, couldnt get to work, lost the job, a whole other story orth of terrible things happened living with some abusive "friends" because I was 700 miles away from any family and had nowhere else to go (wont get into all that)
>Ended up having to crawl back home after selling everything I owned and completely restart my life
Although to some you're known for your strength and bold sense of honor and truth, you're the biggest liar you know.
You're manipulative, you don't deserve anyone's time. No one should pay any attention to you.
Anyone who ever ends up getting close to you gets hurt. You lose anyone who was ever generous enough to even talk to you.
Don't you dare even think about a better life with a wife and kids. How the fuck could you be a good husband to your wife or a good father when you never had one yourself??
Only you know how weak you truly are. You know what you are, a scared little cat who learned to act like a big scary lion.
Every time you try to better yourself, or master a craft that can get you out of your self-destructive situation, you always give up. You can't commit, not to a profession, not to a relationship, not to yourself.
Useless member of society, probably just gonna end up joining the army and getting shot like the cannon fodder you are. You'd be a fool to think you could be anything more than someone else's pawn.
Fucking kill yourself, save some terrorist thousands of miles away the trouble.
2AM - bearhands
Behind the sea - Panic! at the disco
I'm god - Clam Casino
lights on - Big gram
Atl rock sad feelies
Fuck that bitch, she's not event worth the lesson you went through
Community college in illinois
Going to a university in chicago sometime in the future
It just fucking kills me that I still haven't been able to come back from that shit, just lost my job AGAIN because a manager had it out for me, yet she has her life together because some fuck married her and bailed her out of all her debt, and she has the audacity to tell me she feels sorry for me in some half assed apology
I know you can do better, you'll accomplish more, you'll find someone better and you will find that one who makes you happy. Don't give up! Get up and kick life in the fucking teeth
>ex showed me this band
>should've know she'd be a pyscho
i dont want feels
give me anger
Just to clarify I didnt love this bitch. I had feelings for her at one time but that was a fucking lifetime ago.
I just seem to fail at everything. I published a comic book when I was 16, I've written two books, worked on a film crew, got invited to one of the most prestigious art schools in the country, etc. and every single one of those things fell apart. I only sold 18 copies of the comic book, despite getting rave reviews, film crew disbanded and none of our films were ever released, school ended up being too expensive even with $30000 in financial aid. I was doing things they didnt even teach their 3D/CGI students and still couldn't cut it...
Maryland This thread has been going good you don't want to tell us your story still?
Good choice. I'm studying physics. in the middle of finishing my junior year. You definitely made the right choice with going to community college first, that would be the thing I did differently if I could only choose one. How many of your credits are going to transfer?
>it's close to my work
>I know the city like the back of my hand already
>i know CPD officers who patrol ashland constantly
>I'll actually be working this saturday at the forum
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kV8tNPTmpmM anime feels
I still have to see which universities accept the current credits i have. Just might get my AA and try and get a BA in Finance
It's uploaded on some obscure web comic service because I never could get the thing to sell. The copies that did sell the comic shops kept all the money and cheated me
If you see the skinny security kid who you could probably jump, yep thats me. I have to work this farmers convention or some shit at your campus.
Not really promoting it anymore since the artist left. Actually got featured as a redux in a comic catalog, but the publishers wont touch it because it's part of a longer series. First issue alone cost $1750 for the art.
Because as much as my friends cheer me up in the interim I always feel like it just leads to a lower low. When I'm by myself at least it's somewhat constant, but being around people tends to amplify how badly I feel
comic looks dank as shit dude, i wouldn't give up on a passion like this
I made this when I was datinf my girlfriend.
I cry over this ever since.
>work at this company i already work with. I might just try to join a bank or be a forensic accountant for the FBI
Didn't give up necessarily... Tried to make a smaller comic to get my name out there but funding fell through as usual with anything I do.
Pic related, some concept art from the comic
Did you ever watch the movie "Her"? It's incredibly similar to what you're saying
>pic mostly related
I leave a noose tied and hanging in my room. Sometimes I think about using it. It just makes me feel better knowing it's always there. I always have that option. A way out. I take comfort in that. That no matter how bad it gets I can just check out anytime I want.
>research the author of the martian
>He started the martian on a web page thing too
>go small royalties and made it open source kind of
>just do it as a hobby
I love you bro don't leave me here
I get really bad panic attacks. The kind where my heart is beating so fast I think I might have a heart attack and die. During one today I thought to myself "you know what, if this does kill me, and I do die, I'd be OK with that." Realizing that calmed me down enough to make it go away.
That's how I feel. I have a glock under my bed I keep for home defense with a round in the chamber.
As much as I sit here and drink myself to sleep I'm surprised it hasn't been a more prominent thought that I could literally end my life whenever I want,.
It's an expensive hobby. I'm not an artist... Tried for years to learn how to draw, just naturally suck at it. Depending on the quality of the art it can cost as little as $35 a page to over $300 a page.
I feel like I have too many hobbies. I do cinematography, graphic design, voice acting (almost worked out but my boss went crazy and tried to kill himself and dissolved the company), 3D animation. I've dedicated so much time, money, and effort to meet so many dead ends in the things I love.
Latest project is a small movie production and there's no interest. Even the actors are getting bored with it because we don't have a budget to do anything good with it.
Sorry to keep posting my own shit... I just feel like if even one person enjoys something I've made I'm not a total waste of space