I wonder if anyone ever gets that terrifying feeling when they realise one day they will die, I get it sometimes when I'm trying to sleep and this unexplainable fear comes over me. I just have to get out the bed and run around a little, anyone else?
I have been trying to figure out why life seems to be more difficult for those people who generally want equal justice for everyone. I think I have treated people pretty much equally all my life, be they good, bad, ugly or good looking. However society is fighting against my ideas with full force all the time and the general message I get is that I should abuse and take advantage of people that I don't come along with well and hold in higher esteem those who I like and think along the same lines with. The idea that if you are a friend of someones enemy that makes you the enemy also seems to apply strongly and I think that is a part of the problem. This manifests itself in situations that I try to defend those I dont really like agains the people I come along with well. If I really think that people that I like are in the wrong I won't hesitate to turn against them and try to defend the side I think is right, wether I like them or not. I am not prone to following the same opinions people I like and respect seem to follow. This has led to a situation that most of the people I have encountered seem to leave me alone and dont try to contact me, but there is a select few that seem to think I way smarter than most other people and these people are almost always the ones who have recived the shitty end of the stick in life in general. Im not bitter about the situation I'm in because I have noticed that most of the people really try their best and still cant follow any good life lessions even though they know full well that it would be best for them.
Pardon my english, it is only my second language and this diarrhea of mixed thoughs is the direct result of the coffee I ingested earlier.
I might at some point try to write a short book about this or something, but I really need to sort this out in my head better first.
>>596915024 Ive always looked at it this way, in terms of why were shunned. 16 personality types. and you find most same type personalities get along very well. those kind of people are the majority, they form the social norm. i hope this makes sense. or at least gave you another way to look at it.
>>596915103 cool, I don't really bring the subject up around friends for fear of them not knowing what it is/ looking it up and being like "wtf lol". Its still one of those private things. Diana's pretty good as well, sometimes I get the feeling that she isn't that happy though, mainly cos of her expressions lol. Makes it a bit hard to relax. I found this cutie last night, hope she makes some more content soon.
>>596915001 Yeah. Sometimes if I think about getting cancer, just knowing you're going to die. And it's the ultimate fear; so hard to dissipate as well. And then the nothing. What is nothing? Black is something, white is something so what is nothing?
>>596915995 cute hopefully she doesn't turn out like sonidowhispers >be girl >on internet >harrassed 4 cute >leave and never come back she was pretty gud, i think she got it better than a lot of asmrtists do. can't really stand talking that much, unless it's a reaaaaaal fuckin quiet whisper or at least in a language i can't understand, gentlewhispering etc this is my favorite clip btw, DOoS does really good stuff too, never talks
>>596916116 Thanks for your experience :-), it's just strange that it's something nobody knows anything about but the fear of it is unlike anything else, maybe it is because we know nothing of after death that scares us?
>>596914036 Before I knew what to call it, I knew I loved listening to people type or getting my hair cut. I thought of it like a fetish, even though I don't get off on it, so I was embarrassed about it.
I find my self refecting on what happens if all the gods exist from every mythology and religion and based on what you believe in during your life is where you end up so for people who follow norse gods Vhallah, Greek Underworld ect
I belive you are referring to myers briggs personality thing. Even though that theory is not bullet proof it gives a certain amount of direction about the polarisation of people. And yes I have taken this into consideration. It has been obvious to me, my parents and the rest of everyone that I'm not like most people but there are others like me. I certainly fall within the boundaries of a rarer type in the myer briggs spectrum and it has given me a slighly better understanding of people that i did not have before.
inb4 a giant shitstorm of people yelling that the myers briggs is total and utter bullshit.
Imagine before you were born. Can't do it right? You need to fear only fear itself, which stops you from living. Dying isn't hard, dying you know you never live is the hardest though I would imagine. So really, not that big of a deal. A natural process.
And if atheists are wrong, the ride goes on I suppose in some way.
I've inherited a lot of money and I don't have a job. I secretly want to do fuck all and just chill for years and years. But I feel like I should get a job again and be a "productive member of society" (with a job that slowly kills me from the inside out)
Cats, these fucking animals are incredible. I am like 20 times taller than those bastards, and they still fearlessly crawl around my feet for my caring. They risk a lot. Think about it, would you come close to a giant that is as high as an apartment block?
Those creatures use our buildings, our staircases. For fucks sake, each step on a staircase is as high as they are.
Then there is this thing about men/women dorms in universities. I get to live in a room with 4 men, including me. 4 men, living, breathing and sleeping together in a room, for some reason is the generally accepted way to live. How is this any normal?
For years, I haven't slept with a woman. Say that I am an exception, take another average example person. That person also doesn't sleep next to a woman as often as I would consider it to be normal. We keep ourselves away from the other gender almost half the time, for nothing.
Mankind is a weird kind of animal. We for some love creating frustrations to ourselves, and declare "that's how the world is". Cats aren't like that, they just seize the day. Wish we were more like cats.
Here, another thing: Back in the very ancient days, we used to live all naked, right? At some point, a man should have been the first to put that piece of leaf in front of his junk. Why could have he done that? The only thing that comes up to my mind is that he was short. That's all about it.
>>596916706 If you aren't being a lying little cunt here is what I suggest you do. It is what I would...
Take this time to invest in yourself with personal experiences. Use the time to grow without having the economic slave collar chocking you. Explore the world and gain passions for real issues that need answers, there are plenty. Fight for those with what wealth you have left at the end of the process.
The only other answer is to work to horde the wealth which is what greedy jew pricks do to make this world fucked like it is in the first place. It is your choice of course.
I'm constantly waiting for my country to go to a ball of shit even Though everyday I think something happens that might just be the catalyst that starts the real downward spiral to chaos and disorder. But it never happens. Now I must fucking get a job and be a lawyer.
I am an atheist, but sometimes I wonder about the Omniscience of god. I think things like God can see every possibility of every action, but does not know what will actually take place. It would explain why it is such an ass all the time.
I also call God an "It" because if you are a certain gender then that would imply that there is an opposite gender to mate with. Since it says in the Bible that there are "No other gods but me" then I would have to assume that the Christian God is a being above gender and has no gender of its own.
I have seen a few of hers, I remember her uploading ages ago haha. I also remember this chick I think who was called AlexiaASMR or something, she was good as well but she just stopped cos of creepy comments/messages or something. It seems to take a strong woman to tough it out in the ASMR community, a lot of them can't deal with pervs and shit lol. I don't know if I've heard of DOOS b4, very good tho! I'm listening to this now. I think one of the earliest channels I remember watching was either Ilse The Water Whispers or VeniVidiVulpes, this was in like 2011 or 2012.
>>596915001 Today I am. One day I will not be. But for now, I am alive. I will do things, I will eat and drink and think and fap. As I age, some things will become more difficult, off limits. But there will always be other things.
And when I am no longer, it won't be a problem for me. Because there will be no me to worry or feel pain.
>>596916628 glad you got what i was going for. i havnt slept in 2 days and feel like my cognitive function is starting to get a little slower. but yes its the only thing that makes sense, i dont think anyone of a higher intellect will follow social norms and exclude us for biased reasons.
>>596917047 The way I approach it, is that people have been predicting the end times for thousands of years. The complete demise of our country/way of life has been just around the corner. It's always been just around the corner.
So, since it hasn't happened yet, despite all the signs saying it will, I'm really not worried.
>>596917342 That's my point though. What if It does not know what EXACTLY would happen, but knows every possibility of what COULD happen in any given situation. Like seeing every branch of the tree, but not knowing which is going to break.
>>596917358 It is sad really how some people who desperately try to stay true to themselves by swimming against the current get alienated so easily. Reminds me of some songs lyrics that go along the lines "He yells to the headwind even though he could be whispering to the tailwind". This does not seem too song like because it is translated from a different language but I think it crystalises this whole consept quite nicely.
>>596917637 I think of these things because I have Christian friends and I like to make them think. When I was young (13-15) I went through a religious crisis. I studied Christianity, Buddhism and Islam. I settled on Atheism but I have read them all. I have read the Bible about 3 times, as it is the one that is most interesting, and I like to think that the Old testament is basically a bunch of riddles.
hey guys im writing a paper for my english class in which it tells the story of the life of an egg living inside a refrigerator. the fridge people all worship humans as gods because humans pick and choose to lives or dies. the light bulb that goes on every time the fridge door is opened is thought to be magical and diving by the fridge people. it signals the taking of life.
the point of the story is the egg wants to know whats beyond the door without being one chosen by the gods. this soon turns into tragedy when the egg is chosen the night before his planned escape. what happens is that the day he was chosen on was easter and he is painted beautifully and loves the gods. until they all start cracking his friends and family over each other while laughing and having fun. the egg realizes that the gods are evil and is then forgotten of and is doomed to waste away forever lost in the grass where he was never found.
Im so fucking high right now but shit everything feels like a dream. Sometimes, I feel like I'm in a sitcom while high. I always wondered how different the 90s looked media wise but looking now nigga shit that was 20 years ago and now we have touch phones and shitty asss music bruh
Worry isn't my problem. I want it to happen. Everyone else had the bloody revolution and radically changed the status quo. I might just be able to make myself part of the elite in the inevitable new regime instead of being another professional working stuff in the current dispensation.
>Be me >Go to local Metal Festival >Nothing big, just some local bands and having a good time >Get stoned as fuck >trippingballs.exe >Wake up next morning, in the bus that will take me home >Don't remember shit >Have book lying next to me >This book apparently contains every single thought I had during my trip, still don't know how I got it or the pen >Can barely read the most of it >Some stuff I wrote in there: >"I have words like other people have money, but rich people can't be trusted" >"Every particle is part of every other particle, nothing goes without consequence. If I punch myself in the arm, some girl in India gets raped" >"My milkhole itches" >Finally, my favorite thought in that book, I still cherish it to this day: >"Watermelons contain every vitamin necessary for survival. Logical step: Build a tank out of watermelons. War problems solved."
>>596918262 think of it this way. atheism = no god. agnostic = theres no evidence of god but that doesnt rule out the possiblity religious = believe there is a god you aknowledge him, so youd be the one in the middle. i know it doesnt matter, its more of an fyi comment
sometimes i think about how in my dreams, everyone and everything is created by me and how one could travel forever in one direction without really getting out of the dream, just like we could in this universe and so if this was a dream, we would all be the same person creating everything every moment
>>596918727 but then, who would that person or being we really are, be? would someone (ultimately ourselves) dream him too? dream the one who is dreaming us? could it be that goes both ways - dreams forever?
Honestly sometimes I start thinking if we are just a product (I wish someone would give me a better word) of thousands of years of evolution why do I even bother doing anything meaningful when it just seems so meaningless?
Then I remember my family doesn't see it like that. I guess they are mostly Christian or just believe in Jesus or what ever and I feel like I should see things from their perspective.
But it gets you thinking... What if everyone saw their lives from the perspective of thousands of years of evolution, you know?
>>596918289 >>596918383 Agnostic is a position on knowledge, theist/atheist is the position on belief. You either believe or you do not, there is no middle ground in that. You can say you don't know, but that is again about knowledge and you are simply saying you are agnostic when you say that you do not know.
Also, not having an express belief in a god means that you lack the belief, therefor making you atheist.
Here's a random thought I had the other day: Ever wonder if a morning boner is kind of like the body's power on self-test? Think about it, how many serious health problems result in ED? Cardiovascular trouble, cancer, extreme mental stress.. So, not unlike when you first boot your computer or start your car, your body performs a functions test and signals you with a boner if everything is ok, or no boner if you should probably go see a doc.
>>596918523 People like you give me proof that I have not done everything wrong like society would want to make me belive. I think all this is amplified because I have lived all my life in a city with under 100k people so in reality there is not really that much variety or choises in that who you hang out with on a daily basis. It seems that most people who agree with me are on the internet.
>>596913853 just remembered somethin that had crossed my mind long ago, please share your thoughts on this.So when we die a chemical is released into our brain causing an intense euphoria, kinda like taking 100 tabs of acid. in this dream state, a second can seem lifetime. knowing this. how do we know were not dead?
>>596918699 The thing is that I am not thinking about It in a religious way. It is more of "I am trying to understand why they believe the things they do" kind of thinking. Then I end up thinking way too deep into the subject. That happens to me a lot.
>>596918927 But who are you to say that you know what Omniscience?
>>596919533 maybe because you are against it and it is taboo is the reason you enjoy it. That or you you are only an advocate out of guilt for actually liking it. Or you simply want plausible deniability for when you do rape someone.
>>596919533 I feel ya bro. I enjoy nothing more in my porn than crying and that dead look in the whores eyes. But IRL, I want the ladies to be safe. Fuck Feminism, we are the dominant gender and they should respect that we are willing to put our lives at risk to protect some Bitch we don't know. Notice how I capitalized Bitches.
>>596919696 The fact that everything we ever worked for, all our history from Alexander the Great to JFK to whatever else happens in a time scope will be gone. Nothing will ever know what happened here, that we were alive. Thousands of lives, dreams, hopes, memories...just gone.
>>596913853 If you were to go to another dimension where you were the opposite sex, and have sex with you... would that be masturbation, incest, or sex? and then if you had a kid, would that be a clone, bastard, or regular kid?
>>596920089 Dude....... You just ruined my drunk. Fuck you. I'm now going to go to bed and think of the meaning of life. I was going to think and dream of titties, but because you fucked up my day, I now have to have shitty dreams. Fuck you. Tits for your time.
Self harm is a western society creation. Westeners can't handle the pressure and they take things for granted. You never hear of people in oppressive countries in poverty self harming do you? A few weeks ago a US drone blew up a indigenous village full of women and children over forty of them died yet never is it said about how the siblings of those who were slaughtered self harmed as a result, why ? Because westerners are weakening and they take privileges for granted. Those in poverty learn to deal with things without bring pathetic and selfish
>>596919696 That's interesting cause I believe that everything must change eventually including change. Which means at some point even the universe may not exist unless there are rules in place in which it may continue, like repeatable big bangs. Who's to say there's been more than one? But yes I agree everything must come to an end eventually (maybe).
I wonder what would happen if I ceased to exist. Not died, just...vanished. Would my friends care? Would my family care? Also, the idea of total and complete nothingness...The absence of light, dark, and matter is legitimately terrifying to me. Is it bad to trust someone based on emotion instead of logic?
Sometimes I think that the fat acceptance thing is a propaganda from the processed food industry, coca-cola, kraft and etcetera. Everybody knows that obesity only brings problems, like diabetes, cariac arrest, strokes and make it easier to develop some types of cancer. But year after year we see more people embracing tha landwhales and telling them they are beatiful the way they are on magazines, websites and general media.While these fucking corps put more and more chemicals on food to enhace flavor and turn kids into some type of junk food addicts, and when they grow up and become fatfucks no one say a thing about how food companies also have a responsability in the growing numbers of obesity buy selling sugar coated fat with artificial flavor in schools and grocery stores. I know you can choose if you gonna buy it or not but it is very hard to find anything today that does not have some form of transgenic element on it or lots of conservants and flavor enhancers.
my boss and I were traveling for work one day, the car was silent as we passed farm after farm. He spotted a lone cow in a field, 150 yards away from the nearest herd of cows. As I was too looking at the cow - both of us unaware of the others meandering - I heard my boss say under breath "me too cow". I saw him differently from then out and knew that even people who seem overly confident have inner weakness.
>>596920361 There's no meaning to life. We are here for the same reason every other animal is. We just happen to be more intelligent and that causes...well I guess you could say problems for the human concious.
>>596921115 Fucking exactly. We are just beasts here to spread and reproduce. Nothing else, we can try and convince ourselves we have a higher purpose but it's pointless. We are just animals expect we are more like a virus
sometimes, when i smoke a lot of weed, i look in two different directions at the same time. and in between where my visions seperates and fades to black, i find that reality breaks away and tessalates into beautiful shapes and amazing geometry.
>>596920954 This is an interesting concept. If a child was left alone with no outside factors and survived somehow, how would they turn out? Could they talk? Would they have a need for 'education'? I wonder how much of us is just past experiences and other people pushed onto us and if deep down we're just a bunch of primitive animals whom, if raised in aforementioned environment would simply be 'wild'.
>>596920954 Could you explain this better please, it seems like your argument is standing on absolutely no real basis what so ever. You could just as well say that "you made that decision because god made you that way".
Are you afraid to take responsibility of the situation you are in right now or why are you making such an empty argument?
>>596921636 Never seen either live, hopefully one day but it seems unlikley. Tool is utter brilliance, something very spirtiual about their lyrics and sound. At least to me. RATM kind of puts how I feel about a lot of situations into lyrics.
>>596921317 I mean, another Anon posted that we're only products of experiences. And I somewhat agree. Would an infant in a solitary wilderness environment ever crave for internet connection? No. But a child raised in a house where he/she can see and experience other people and themselves using a computer would indeed...so, are we just a by-product of everyone else?
>>596921986 Eh, other people here are contesting it. Consider >>596921603 In which case to him, I make the point that look at children raised by wolves (in the rare instances it has occurred) to a child raised in a modern household.
>>596915001 >>596915001 >>596915001 For me, it's biking. Whenever I remember that I have multiple sclerosis, genetic hair loss or zero social skills, I feel the need to go out and take my bicycle for a ride for an hour. It distracts me from my fleeting youth, my detoriateing health and my lack of friends. Cycling helps with my parasthesia too.
>>596922097 Damn. I've only just started playing guitar, would love to learn some of their songs. Right now, Anemia has to be my favourite song. There's something so unique about them. Where in Scotland? I have family there.
Fuck I'm hungry, the backs of my fingers still hurt from playing tommy the cat on bass, but thats okay, I wonder if she thinks about me the way I think about her, hah bitch what a pussy, am I talking to myself, this is a horrible run-on sentence, stop stop stop
>>596921677 It just isn't. We've managed to stave off a 'Malthusian catastrophe' so far via the Haber process, advanced crop science etc, but these technological improvements cannot continue indefinitely. Annual yield increases have been stagnating, being vastly outstripped by global population growth. On top of all this, once you start to factor in the threat that climate change will pose to the global food production system, the picture starts to look very bleak indeed. You're right to point out that there has been no catastrophic population contraction so far, but we should not assume that this happy state of affairs will continue indefinitely.
>>596922673 I had barely read any philosophy until I got to university, and it honestly makes an impact on your education. Thomas Hobbes and John Locke should be taught as well, as a necessity to understanding the concepts behind the modern world. Instead I had to learn about the colonization of Australia at least five separate times.
>>596922555 >If I use a UV light Bulb and paint my room white would I tan faster than if my room was black >I'm preparing myself for winter, just kidding i'm getting fat wooo! >i went to a gym in January >i have gain 4 lbs >i look like a tree... >with a hair go deeper
Hillary will lose the next election because all the people who voted for Obama so black people would stop constantly batching won't vote for her so women stop bitching because black ppl bitch more now than ever
>>596915001 Honestly, I find comfort in the inevitable end of things. For me, there'd be no point in living forever. But I can understand your fear. Realising death is coming your way, may not be the most fun thought. My advice: live in the moment. There is no overall point to life, so you might as well make the best of it.
>>596919124 I don't think it's because they're not getting laid specifically, but because there's such a negative stigma around not getting laid in the first place. They get told they have to prove themselves in many different ways or else they're losers or outcasts, and since everyone wants to have a connection, to be ''in'' they get frustrated when they can't meet those high standards, and instead of realising the backward mentality that's imposed on them, they blame their frustration on others and convince themselves that others should pay for their inconveniences.
>>596915024 I get what you're saying. I guess for me, it's about the same, but I try to look at both sides of the coin in general. I argue with people who say IS should be nuked/heavily bombed, because I try to see the bigger issue. I don't think those people are evil, and I don't think the islam is evil. These opinions of mine often conflict with other people, so I get in a lot of discussions. I've been trying to keep my stance on things on the downlow, though. I don't want to become a stranger to those close to me.
I'd be interested in reading your book, and your English is just fine /b/ro.
>>596913853 Sometimes I think how society would be great if there were no norms on when it's acceptable to have sex with a guy. I don't mean like age or anything, but why do I have to run around a bitch to get pussy if she's single and willing just so her friends don't call her a whore.
>>596915001 Hit me quite a few times in complete silence when I tried to sleep causing panic attacks years ago. all I could do is get up and take my mind on anything else. its amazing I got it on control now. The idea of inevitable infinite death and infinite nothingness (not religious) started sort of a chain reaction of increasing panic attack.
>>596915024 that's pretty right, have the same problem here. Love the part that you say that the people who actually understand what I'm doing are people who received the shitty end of the stick. Maybe people need to get hurt in order for their heads to start thinking for themselves... I have this hunch that if everything in life goes right and as planned the tendency is to became just another person following the crowd, not develop unique personalities or points of view yknow...
the person i care about is going to die in about 10 years and i don't know how im going to do the things i wanted to do and still be with that person, because i really want to do both but idk anymore about either not trying to baw you guys seem more ok then most /b/fucks i thoughtd id hang out
>>596913853 >baboons are just werewolf monkies >cases of spontaneous combustion were just the last of the vampires committing suicide >I've got a weird vein on my dick that's not noticable while hard, but while flaccid is huge, bunched up and movable, and I'm considering seeing a doctor about it >the world is horrendously overpopulated and if I could hit a button and blow up enough major cities to wipe out about 2 billion lives, I won't even have to think about it >I don't like pickles, onions, peppers, or tomatoes on any of my food.
>>596915024 The nail that sticks out is most likely to get hammered in, and you can go with the flow or fight the curent. two good metiphors to explain that, you can't change people they will always have likes an dislikes in everything. equality won't happen.
>>596915001 Eh dieing never bothers me i think about it and no matter who you are or how rich you are you die. then slowly all your friends and kids die. soon enough no one remembers you and your remains vanish and all our lives are meaningless in enough time we don't matter. so it's what ever.
>>596913853 It recently occurred to me that people hold on to religion so fiercely not because they worry about their loved ones, but because without an objective good and objective evil, their accomplishments are meaningless.
>>596925689 Or they can relate to each others depression and subconciously act as a support group and give moral support to one another for being the odd men out. i'd like to say going threw a lot makes people better but that dependes on how the person handles it.
Welcome to my mind: -I can't showers in an empty house cause I'm convinced some will stab me through the curtain -I can't look at out windows at night because I'm afraid of someone staring back -I wonder if people are actually real or if I'm the only one who actually exists -I think about the history behind older structures, like what has happened there over time and stuff -I truly wonder if there's a girl for me, one that could handle me for who I am. I mean realistically, I'm not unattractive compared to some people I know with wives, but I can't shake the feeling I'm a disgusting beast no one wants
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