Ask a guy who was molested by an older woman when he was a k

>>562653043
How was it?

>>562653043
You say
>molest
Just how young were you? Did you not enjoy it?

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>>562653369
I'm going to assume you mean overall? Because she took advantage of me quite a number of times. At first, I felt used, abused, dejected, and pathetic. As time went on, and I got closer to her, I felt loved, cherished, comfortable, and safe... most of the time.

>>562653043
How are you anon I think the Rayne story is yours?

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>>562653598
It started when I was 12, went on for over a year. And at first I didn't much like it... but as time went on I learned to enjoy it. Bribing me with video games to keep my mouth shut helped too. For a kid who was poor and hardly had anything, this seemed like a fair deal back then.

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>>562654129
If you mean the accounts between Rayne and myself, then yes, I wrote those... still writing them. Just got sidetracked. Most of my free time has been gobbled up (among other things.)

>>562653839
Ah. So a bit of Stockholm Syndrome towards the end? To be honest with you, when I was a tween, this was sort of my fetish.

I mean, I'd rather have had a choice in the woman I wanted sex from. Not into wrinkly old potheads with pedophilia, but sex was still a working concept for me.

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What was stopping you from posting? is it related to rayne? I know a few anons wanted you to find her, did you ever attempt too?

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>>562654502
I suggest you read that link I provided in the first post, should help you staying nice and hard.

>>562654736
My molester wasn't wrinkly or old, just a woman ten years older than me. And it wasn't my fetish when it started, but afterwards I couldn't feel attracted to anyone unless they were older than myself. Still can't, in-fact.

What I wouldn't give to go back in time and have an experience like this.

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>>562655385
Oh, I knew that she probably wasn't wrinkly or old; that's just the idea I get in my head when thinking about any older person who smokes.

>Still can't, in-fact.
Shit, that sounds rough. How is your romance and sex life now?

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>>562655108
Sort of... she seems off and on about the entire posting process. But what has really halted the final two accounts is my own schedule. I work more hours now, and what little free time I have left I either spend on playing video games, or hanging out with Rayne. Oh, and yes, I did locate her.

>>562654736
>wrinkly old potheads with pedophilia
Oh God. I don't old yet, but if I make it there this will probably. Between the drugs and the suicidal ideation though, I probably don't have to worry about it.

>>562653043
Do you sometimes fantasize about having sex with your mother? I've been having strange dreams lately, many of which involve exactly what I just said.

What does it mean, Anon?

On a scale of one to ten how sexy was it?

>>562653043
Get some therapy anon, traumatic can leave a developing mind pretty fucked anon;

>>562653043

How hot was she? Would you do her now, if you had never met her before?

>>562656795
>traumatic can leave a developing mind pretty fucked
Clearly

>>562656427
I'm not sure, but I think it means you want to fuck your mother.

Lots of boys go through some sort of Oedipal complex. I'm not well-versed in Freud or even much in psychosexuality at all, but I'm sure you're going through some form of that stuff.

>>562653043
tl;dr

>>562656932
lel

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>>562655750
Hope my accounts can help you at least fantasize then.

>>562655940
It was tough in high school, until the end when I just accepted that only girls older than me would do the trick. After I stopped fighting it, things got better. Dated a couple girls, bedded them too. But the relationships never lasted. I apparently developed trust issues.

>>562656427
I have nothing but contempt and disdain for my horrible mother. So no, not ever.

>>562656561
Depends on which time we are talking about.

>>562656795
I thought about it... I'll pass until things really seem grim.

>>562655385
I was molested for months when I was 7. She was 12 or 13. Unfortunately, I was too young to understand or appreciate at the time. It had a different effect on me. Instead of always wanting someone older, I'm locked in to being attracted to young teens.

>>562657185
But I'm 25, and have absolutely NO sexual attraction to my mother. However, I did dream that my mother's appearance had changed slightly, and I couldn't keep my hands off her. Seriously, I kept hugging and kissing her on the cheek as if she were my girlfriend or something. She kept taking it too.

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>>562657667
It affects us all differently, because it happens to us all differently, and we are all wired differently. The varied affects these encounters leave on us are actually kind of interesting.

>>562658216
How big were her tits, and do you have any pictures of her? And if there's no pictures, any porn stars/celebrities that look like her?

>>562656164
>I did locate her.
Well, tell us about it. How did it go? Did you ask her why she did those things? Did she even want to see you and/or did she even feel guilt for taking advantage of you?

Also nice seeing ya again, I caught your thread a few months back. Hope things are going well for you.

>>562658216
I was molested at the age of 4 by my sister. Weird Incest fetish ensued.

Please, someone help me with this. I'm freaking out...

>>562658845
It's in the doc I'm reading it now.

>>562659202
Ah got it. I just opened it up and am picking up after chapter 4 I think.

>>562653043
Have you told anyone about the incidents, i.e. police officers?
Has she ever apologized for what she did when you were young?

>>562659134
I think in all honesty you will be fine, I mean incest is wincest

>>562658216
have you and rayne hooked up since you guys met?

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>>562658673
Large Cs... or small Ds... somewhere in that range. No pictures of her then. And if you know Grey Delisle, sort of like her I guess, mixed with a touch of Flo.

>>562659134
Clam down. No what is the matter? Take your time and give us a full account of wat is bothering you.

>>562659371
I never reported her... I developed a sense of loyalty to her. And she has apologized to me. But in a way she also helped me too, as strange as that sounds.

>>562659834
Its not official or anything, but we spend a lot of our free time together. Part of why my updates have slowed down to a crawl. Part nine is about 75% done.

>>562659596
But what does it mean? I mean...do I go sleep with someone else's mother (best option), or what?

I know it's not related, but there is a point in Chapter 5 when you write, "I closed me eyes and..."

>me eyes
>me

And suddenly, pirate sex is on my mind. Dirty, pirate hooker sex.

>>562660314
I meant have you fucked her recently

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>>562660314
Basically, I've been having strange thoughts of sleeping with women much older than myself. The other night, I dreamed I had sex with my mother, and have had similar dreams frequently as of late. What's bothering me is what this all means. Do I really *want* to do that with my mom? Maybe I'm spending too much time around her or something...

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>>562660350
If you sleep with someone else's mother, make sure that you have known that woman most of your life, and that they know you and your mother. And be sure she is cool with you calling her mom. That should do the trick.

>>562660350
It's just a fantasy Anon. As long as you don't act on it nothing will be wrong. It's just something you'd fap to, but would feel disgusted to actually do.

I mean, I once lusted after one of my cousins, but that passed after a month or so.

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>>562660541
Shit, thanks for the spot. I'll fix it right up.

>>562660572
... Its complicated.

>>562660729
I've been thinking of doing that, and I know just who to ask. The question is, I have absolutely no idea how I'd go about it.

>>562660864
Stroking it to my own mother. I don't know man....

>>562661113
It's just a fantasy, Anon. You'll get over it eventually, trust me. I went through a point where I wanted to fuck my mom too (along with my cousin, but my cousin made more sense since she was 9/10 and my ideal type)

>>562661065
As long as you're correcting typos, you say "hopped" instead of "hoped" 3 times in the document

Can you let us download the doc?

didnt you find her?
was it worth it?
about how much did it cost to find her?

>>562661636
It's in the doc...

>>562661065
Damn it man, give the deets. Are you hitting that?

The majority of men who claim to be molested by women are in fact lying to cover their tracks of previously molesting women.

Why should I believe you?

>>562661409
I still want to fuck one of my cousins...

>>562653043
What's her address? I'll avenge rape her for you

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>>562661113
Be polite. Find an excuse to be at her place with her alone, any will do. And after whatever business is concluded, take out a bottle of wine and ask if she would be interested in joining you for a drink. I know it sound corny but god damn if it doesn't work half the time. Also, don't let your own fears or trepidation hold you back. Don't be a dick, but don't be timid either. Try to get the course of your conversation over the wine steered in the direction of your worrying thoughts of late, and that you have been thinking of older women quite a lot. if you can't make it work from there then give up hope.

>>562661516
I'll keep an eye out when I can.

>>562661584
You mean you can't just copy an paste?

>>562661921
We try, but she can't seem to get aroused, even though she wants to. I just might be too old for her now.

>>562661950
Because I poured my heart and soul into my accounts, and if I were making this all up that would be a massive waste of my time and efforts. I don't need you to believe me, but I do need to get all of this off my chest, and chronicling my encounters seems to be the best therapy.

>>562662201
No need.

How's Rayne doing lately? And whatever happened to her roommates/friends?

I've been following the google doc for several months now, interesting stories.

>>562653043
So are you and her dating now or are you just friends?

>>562662632
I'll be honest, it's mostly for me anon.

>>562662632
Seems like a good plan. Considering the type of person she is, I can see it playing out. Plus she's added on my Facebook (and poked me the other day), so hm...

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>>562663297
Ctrl + C, nub

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Am I far off if I imagine this to be a (really fucked-up) love story?

Idk, a little sex and groping for the fappers, but I actually kind of enjoy watching the progression of these "characters".

>>562663457
Dosent work, that's like the second thing I tried.

blump.

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>>562662652
Rayne is fairing OK, I suppose. Her roommates took different paths. One got knocked up shortly after I left. The dad married her and they had a couple more kids, but then they got divorced after their third child. The other roommate left her boyfriend after he got arrested for a second DUI. She stuck around longer than the other roommate, but ultimately stayed behind in the High Desert when Rayne moved over here. She has dated some other guys, but after the last one cheated on her she hasn't wanted to waste time on finding love. She seems depressed more than most of the time, and Rayne is thinking about convincing her to come visit her for a weekend or so, just to raise her spirits.

>>562663779
I would love to make it something you can copy, is there an option you can tell me about, or should I just try searching google?

>>562663682
My life is a pretty fucked-up story as is. I still find it funny everyone thinks of my life as made up.

>>562663779
Ctrl C
Ctrl V Worked for me, you sure you know what ur doing?

>>562665036
When exactly did you guys stop your 'thing'? 15? 16?

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>>562665440
13.

>>562665036
No idea never used google docs.

>>562665274
When did you open it up? I did pretty early on but when I refreshed I couldn't do much other than look.

>>562665601
Wow, that seems pretty cut short. Would've thought it'd go on till at least 15.

>>562665036
it really funny how i originally sat down to fap, and actually got caught up in reading your chronicle more interested in the relationship now building than anything

>>562662632
Have you tried initiating it? Focusing more on her than you?

op you're a little bitch if you're not fucking that bitch now that you're older after all those years. you deserve to hit that. i'm not even kidding when i say force yourself on her. that's what she did to you and you better get that pussy now that you can actually enjoy sex more better.

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>>562665712
I moved in with my dad, who didn't live anywhere near Rayne. If I hadn't moved, it might have gone on for a couple more years.

>>562666016
Glad I could help make your evening all that much more enjoyable.

>>562666281
Its always been all about her. I think the next thing I should try is shaving my entire body. The body hair might be a big turn off for her.

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>>562666607
I see where you're coming from. But I prefer a tender loving that leads into a crazed sex frenzy. That sort of thing requires both people to be into it.

>>562666676
She doesn't try and initiate? You'd think with her being so dominant years back.

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op lived the dream every boy has and had sex with an older chick at a super young age?

he feels used? upset? regret? trust issue?

top kek u r a whole new brand of faggot. obviously u were hard core gay and didn't want to accept it.

>>562666676
>almost sextups

What I wouldn't give to have something like this, though. Shame it didn't go on. Sucks, man.

>>562667095
I have to kind of agree with this guy OP. I'm sure if the shoe were on the other foot I might have a different opinion, but from my current POV this was like all I wanted when I was an adolescent. You will get no sympathy from me. Now someone get him his luckiest boy in America medal.

>>562667417
Anyone who thinks this is the biggest faggot. You don't understand how children's minds work, dumbass.

>>562667008
i understand but i highly doubt that will ever happen. to be honest she sounds like a selfish bitch who just cares about getting herself off no matter what. she's probably still raping kids with no care in the world. give her a taste of her own medicine and see how she likes it.

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>>562667417

I don't think there is a "shoe were on the other foot" thing here. every normal boy in the age group of middle school (11-13) has sex on the mind.

the only thing id regret is my first time being with an ugly old bitch.

but no matter what happens in the future i won't have to worry about becoming a sexless neckbeard bc I already got pussy.

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>>562667008
I just finished your story and it's probably the best thing I've ever read that originated from /b/. What do you think is going to become of you and Rayne?

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>>562667627

I detect feminist here or a cock blocker bc he/she never got any till after community college

>>562668075
Got laid not long after 18, nice try though.
Spurglord

>>562653043
I have been following your threads for a while now, and I always hoped you would find her again. I caught up with your doc finally. I am actually really happy for you OP.

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>>562668226

conforming ur mad bc u couldn't get any before 18.

I almost feel bad for people like you but then again mcdonalds needs simpletons to keep their business going

>>562666676
artist on that?

>>562668527
not really since they're all fucking each other

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If you are still here OP what happened to Jeff?

>>562668527
those people in the pic have the craziest sex, actually most people that are into most con scene do. hooking up is one of the main things you go to do there

>>562668527
Not really, faggotron. Age of consent is 18 here, so no sex till then.

>>562654607
oh shit. I remember reading your thread awhile back. It was a really great read. Post moar!

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>>562653043
>>562653839

Your a fag bro.
>Be 13 sex with 17 year old. Lost virginity.
>Be 15 sex with 32 year old. Friends aunt.
>Be 20 now hooking up with 28 year old.

If you felt used or abuse at all during that time period you are a fucking chump and still a chump ass bitch. Man the fuck up and realize you probably had better sex with this older woman than any of your friends got with the preppy dikes from when you were in shcol. Unless you are in school then you most likely shouldn't be on 4chan.

>>562653043
Really enjoyed reading the doc, thank you.

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>>562667071
At first she did, but she would break it off. Saying sorry or what not. I understand where its coming from... but foreplay can only take someone so far.

>>562667151
I both cherish and resent everything that happened, for different reasons.The man I am sort of takes pride in how I lost my innocence, but the child I was feels dejected and pathetic that he was so weak and was bought so easily. That he was taken advantage of and didn't know how to make it stop. Then eventually all he had was her and was so desperate to be loved he opened his arm to his abuser. Also, what a disappointment, so close... fuck you 7!

>>562667829
She does have a heart, and we do have fun hanging out together... but I have me suspicions that she might have had other boys after me... I don't know if she does today, but it is something I fear hearing about from her own lips.

>>562668041
Glad you enjoyed it. My writing is amateur at best, but I do try to make the read enjoyable. And if we can't get Rayne turned on, we might just go to being friends. I have a couple more plans on getting her moist, so hope isn't lost.

>>562668297
Thanks for the kind words.

>>562668712
According to Rayne, after I moved in with my dad a couple years passed and then Jeff went to jail after punching a cop who was off duty. After he got out he dropped the wigger talk and developed a hatred for Niggers. Then he tried starting up his own druggie house like my mom was running, but kept using up all of his stock like a moron and was losing money and what little clients he could muster. He was thrown in jail again after he got caught trying to solicit sex from a minor with the promise of free drugs. She was 16 I think, then got cold feet and narked on him.

>>562667008
How do you not hate Rayne for what she did to you?

>>562669334
>implying you're not full of shit
But on the off-chance you're not, OP was abused and neglected, only to be picked up by a girl who eventually also used him for physical pleasure. Act like a le edgy XDD faggot all you want, but that is traumatizing.

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>>562669121
In time, good anon, in time.

>>562669496
You are welcome!

Someone dump some comics for the lurkers please

>>562669639
Do you believe in god?

how old were you during the first occurrence?

i cant find any ages in the google doc

>>562669639
As interesting a read as this has been, you're not helping yourself by posting this. You're rationalizing something that hurt you severely, which still hurts you, which you cannot explain the reasoning behind completely.

It's okay to accept that you're hurting, even if you can't explain why everything happened like it did to begin with.

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>>562669745
I have had a long time to come to terms with what happened. A couple things come to mind though. Firstly, towards the end of our encounters I became very close to Rayne. Next, the hate I felt for her during my teen years was never anything close to the hate I feel for my own mother, and Rayne also shared my hate for her... we were the only ones, as I saw it. Lastly, after years of no contact, I spent a good deal of effort finding her again, and she has been the best friend I have ever had. Its a complicated relationship.

>>562669996
Not in the conventional sense. I have my own theory on if there is a god or not. And if there is, then what it is isn't what has ever been proposed before. As far as the consequences of my actions go, I have no one to punish me but myself and my peers.

>>562670394
I was twelve.

>>562670541
I felt much better after sharing than when I kept it all bottled up inside.

>>562671063
So it's more about explaining your experiences to someone than about getting some sort of condolence. Makes sense, sorry about the mixup. I sometimes have to share my story with people, too, even if I shake while doing so.

Just hard to say anything that would be considered "proper" to you.

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>>562671439
Don't worry about being proper or not. A lot of anons have told me I should seek help professionally, but I find this so much more... cost effective. Also I get to be creative about it, and constructive. Not to mention now everyone can enjoy my story.

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What happened to the gifts? Do you still have some?

>>562653043
I feel the Fed's eyes on me when I go on that document.

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>>562672039
I never threw anything out that she gave me.

>>562672031
Fair enough, you seem to have it covered. Write on, then.

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>>562672189
That's good, I feared that your mom might have stolen some of them to fuel her habits.

>>562672481
Where are you getting these pics???!

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>>562672673
/b/

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>>562672481
We both feared that, part of the reason why she the gifts out of sight, or kept it at Rayne's place.

>>562672189

how old are you now?

also, are you successful (like job or school and life wise)

I'm half way through the story now and just was wondering if someone with a childhood experience like this would get fucked up mentally and end up in a shitty situation as an adult

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>>562668527
The fucking jew on the far left

>>562673251
Do you love Rayne?

>>562672673
https://danbooru.donmai.us/posts?page=1&search=&tags=nora_higuma

>>562673251
Are you ever going to wright more about the events leading up to, and after you moved with your dad? there isint much on the doc and I only remember tidbits from the old threads

>>562653043
suspicious.

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>>562673832
Forgot pic.

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>>562673475
I'm 27. I have an OK job, wish it were better though. I am thinking of pursuing a career as a PI.

SPOILERS: I got out of the shit hole known as the High Dessert and move in with my Dad in Orange County. Now I live in LA.

>>562673675
A part of me has always loved Rayne.

>>562673832
Working on part 9 right now, part 10 will be the departure (rev up them feels!) And Rayne wants to write the epilogue from her POV, starting from the day I left up to our reunion.

>>562673883
Mind elaborating?

>>562668527
People actually take their dogs to these? Jesus christ.

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>>562653043
OP, thanks. True or not, thanks.Reed all of it. OP i had life like yours but with no way to escape it, almost an hero, but it failed. well, have a good night

>>562674658
I'm actually pretty interested to read Rayne's side of the story, so I'm looking forward to that.

>>562673251
Just finished your story.. er.. accounts. I stayed up way later than i planned tonight. I have to say a great read indeed. I found that i could not tear myself away. Hearing about Rayne brought back pleasant memories of the kinds of people my parents hung out with when i was young in the late 90's. It also stirred some things in me that i haven't felt in a long time in a nonsexual way. Thanks for sharing OP, wish you and Rayne all the best.

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>>562674658
Can't wait!

>>562674658
How did she find out about the story?

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>>562675000
Bump for interest.

Op i love your story and feel happy and glad that you found her. At first I'm faping and now feel happy for you. Pls keep us up to date. Its strange the are love stories and such things not saying u guys are together or anything but its what it feels like i even forget that you were 12 at the time. My encounter was a highschool girl when i was around 10 or 11. But i knew what was going on and what i was doing and loved it. Saddly it didn't last long enough fir me to feel anything about it. Godspeed op thank you for your tale.

>>562674658
Do you see yourself having a future with Rayne? Have you told her you loved her recently?

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>>562675000
READ THE FUCKING LINK HE PUT OUT

>>562653043
How do you deal with it OP? I mean, well, there were a few times, with one of my mother's friends, she was/is kind of emotionally unstable and manipulative, and I just felt, feel, really beaten in about it. Like, the details are vague, I remember... Snippets, like, having her vagina in my face, being threatened after, and I remember crying a lot and being unable to process what had happened. When I think about it it makes me feel messed up, since I can literally trace years of crippling anxiety and depression back to it, and yet all my fetishes and sexual preferences as well.

Like, this one thing, just... Then boom! The rest of my life is decided. I just... It doesn't even make me feel upset, just this weird uneasiness. It's shaped so much of who I am as a person now, that I can't imagine what I'd have been like if it hadn't happened. Do you deal with anything like that?

Dammit OP, like many others I was just looking to fap, but instead got sucked into this gripping tale. I actually legitimately feel sad for you that she might have had other boys after you, and that you guys don't seem to be able to make things happen physically these days.

I ship this Trayne.

>>562675651

That is my OTP for life.

>>562674658

You're story made me sad. I wish I could give you a hug or something.

I'd ask why of all places are you telling /b/ but after lurking the entire thread I kinda figured.

>Are you depressed now?
>Do you think love can bloom on a battlefield? (Do you think you could fall and love and be happy)
>How do you feel.. sexually now? Like do you have any complex because of this? (Milf, etc)

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>>562675557
""She knows... I think someone blabbed in an /ss/ thread and she put two and two together. She wasn't very happy." This is a bit vague and brings up more questions. Like How was she browsing /b/ an not see one of these threads? Or what did this person say to tip her off?

>>562676039
All of these have been answered.

Why were you such a faggot as a kid OP

>>562675557
I did read the link and he speculated on the source. I was wondering whether or not they talked and she confirmed or whatnot.

>>562674658
That story really touched my heart dude. Do you think you and rayne will have a future together? That would make me so happy

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>>562674858
Glad you are still with us, and thanks for reading.

>>562674920
I'm sure she will be glad to hear that.

>>562674930
Thank you! It makes me glad you were able to relive some of your life through my experiences.

>>562675000
Did she ever...

>>562675290
Many warm and heartfelt thanks! I'll try to focus on my accounts again.

>>562675364
I want it to work out... but I know if we can't find a way to make her aroused by me then there is no hope for a meaningful, sexual relationship

.>>562675617
I used to deal with some of what you are going through... still do I guess. Anyway, the difference between the two of us, it sounds like, is that Rayne might have started off rash, but became more loving as time went on. I was able to adjust, I guess I am saying.

>>562675651
"Trayne"
I fucking lost it. Good god that had me in stitches. Glad I helped to make your night feel fuller in return.

>>562676039
I am not as depressed as I was when I was dishonest with myself, and when I was holding all of what happened to me inside... and that I both missed and hated Rayne not all that long ago. But I have been dealing with my issues, coming to terms, and finding some closure. All of that has helped my mood significantly.

As for falling in love, well, I'm giving Rayne a shot... if this doesn't work then I have little hope for my future prospects, to be honest,

I can only feel attracted to women who are older than myself.

>>562676395
She doesn't just browse /b/, only every so often. Much less than I do, in any case. But it was only a matter of time before she was bound to find out. If I'm perfectly honest, part of my kind of wanted her to find out that way.

And I wasn't in that thread, she was. It was enough that she found out and confronted me... I don't know how much experience you have with dealing with angry women, but there are some things you learn not to push, even when it seems like enough time has gone by to ask them later.

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Would you wear a cock-cage for an older woman? Would you dress like a girl if she made you? Would you hold all the bags while she shopped and your dick ached in it's cage at the thought of her fat thighs riding you later that night? Would you keep quiet as your balls turned blue at the thought of her fat MILF tits in your face?

How old was she in comparison to you?

>>562669334
>fedora hipster fag
>sex with 17,32,28
>implying they're badge worthy to broadcast
>actually posting your pic with a fucking filter
pls go back to vampiredreams.com. Unless proven otherwise those bitches were pencil ugly. Learn to use language outside of bro and chump for fucks sake a 20 year old acting like hes an grown man lel. Go back to bed the gap needs you in the morning junior.

>>562677998 see >>562655385

>>562677109
Out of curiosity, did she every really force herself onto you sexually or was it more consensual?

I got to chapter 4 I couldn't read the rest...
Maybe I'll read it another time...

>>562677109
if she was angry, that shows what kind of a person she is

she wasn't afraid to go to jail, she was angry...

what does that tell you about her ? she's just manipulating you

if YOU did this to a 12 year old girl ? it would be LIFE IN JAIL

she owns you, it's over for you, and i'm sure you're not her only sex toy

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>>562679724
Mostly it was her forcing me, but by the ed I had gotten into it.

>>562679817
Hope you enjoyed it so far!

>>562680118
How many women have you dealt with in an intensely intimate way? I'm curious.

You say it's hard for her to get aroused with you..

Would you consider repeating what she did to you?

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>>562680537
This need to be a manga or some shit idfk but god this may sound strange but the world needs to know

What was her relationship with her stepdad? I know she despised him, but could you elaborate more- did he hit her mom, abused them both, molested her?

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>>562680537
dude, you got fucking raped by some pedophile druggie broad then you come on here trying to romanticize it and justify it or make it okay ? go to a fucking shrink already

i read the beginning of the story, it's pretty clear she's a fucking pedophile: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nCpr3hr0K30

proof.

and she was smart enough to manipulate you into doing exactly what she wants, what a great fucking predator this Rayne of yours, she probably has 9 other pieces of meat just like you, goddamn genius this woman gotta give her that

why do you think she pushed you ? then laughed at you when you got mad ? because that's what female pedophiles like, they like power, control, they like seeing ''men'' reduced to boys, being helpless and powerless, it's amusing to them, like a cat playing with a mouse just to torture it but not kill it

Rayne will never show you her true face, and even if she would, and I think she did when she got mad at you, she has you twisted all around her pinky finger and you're hers for life

that's the cool thing about 12 year old little boys, if you're around them growing up, once they're grown, they're loyal to you forever, like dogs

a good dog is a loyal dog, are you a good dog for Rayne ? I bet you are :D

you got raped by a psychopathic sociopath, a sexual predator that preys on those that can't think for themselves or fend for themselves, but don't fucking try to rationalize it or excuse it or romanticize it

it is what it is, and you will never see it for what it is because she dug her claws deep into you at the right time in your life, and now you're in her grasp forever and she will never let you go

you're just another fucking idiot...

I'm a guy, I sucked my neighbor's cock at my Dad's apartment complex when I was 13 and he was like mid 40's, was the first thing I ever did sexually with someone else. Never felt like I was molested.

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This is some fucked shit OP. Hope you finally overcome it.

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>>562681183
Don't know if you are joking or not, but that might actually help...

>>562681219
Oh, if someone wanted to draw this out they can be my guest. If they wanted to monetize it, that is a different matter.

>>562681337
He was her main source of income. She was used by him sexually and he would pay her to keep it hush hush. Its where she learned a lot of her tricks from.

>>562681584
I'm not going to say you are completely wrong, but you are not completely right either. Bet you feel good getting that off your chest though. Would I be wrong in thinking you went through something in your past too?

>>562682398
When/if she writes her side of the story, tell her we want to get more details on her abuse and relationship with stepdad, as that is the most likely cause of her affliction towards kids.

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>>562681584
You seriously just made the story 10x hotter.

>>562682398
It was a legit question, and you're slightly fucked up if you think putting another kid through that is a good idea.

I missed your the ads so much! Have you thought anymore about contacting Rayne?

God damned that was really enjoyable to read. Even though the story is kind of 'unreal' to me, I can't imagine it ever happening, your writing made it feel very real. And I'd be really interested in reading her motivations and thoughts through it all.

Would you ever consider trying to get any of this published? If not these exact documents then something loosely based on them?

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>>562653043
Where does everyone get this milf porn from?

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>>562682854
I'll see what can be done.

>>562683385
That isn't what I was getting at at all. I was suggesting that perhaps I tell her about all of the things we did together when I was still a kid, then see if that gets her going or not.

>>562683561
Its been done. Check out the reunion section of the doc.

>>562684047
And again. people thinking my life is unreal always baffles me. But yes, I have considered taking all of these accounts and rearranging them int a cohesive novel. No idea how to get things published though.

>>562684564
where can we be notified of an update?
also great story.

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>>562685251
Just keep tabs on the doc. Also, thanks!

>>562684564
I believe it's all true. It just didn't go with how I viewed the world, but if anything your writing/story broadened my view of things. Pedophilia is one hell of a taboo in todays society, but your story made it quite clear that it isn't always as straight forward as it seems. I know it probably wasn't easy for you, but it also seemed like your only escape from what seemed like a really shitty life.

>>562684564
OP, it only can't be copied because the file is visited by too many people at the moment. Your "novel" is too popular right now.

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>>562685335
Is it possible that we could see pics of her?

Op, have you been keeping up with any of the other running greentext stories about underage sex similar to yours?

The Storybro sleepover one comes to mind.

When I was 7 or 8 a friend of my dad stuck his hand down my pants to cop a feel of my dick and balls. Other than that he was a pretty nice guy.

Even before then I was always doing weird sexual things with my friends and now my sexuality is all over the place. I'm 23.

>>562661950
the majority of statistics and facts on the internet are made up.

But is this statement true and false at the same time?

what happened to this reyne chick? she in prison? how about your deadbeat mom?

>>562685604
Being abused as a child isn't always a world shattering event but pedophilia, true pedophilia, should always be guarded against. There's just too much at stake for the sake of getting off.

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we need more shota for the waaaagh

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>>562653043
I'm sorry man. You seem cool and well adjusted and maybe im a freak. But I was a lil pervo fuck back then. i love nasty older women like that.

I wouldve died and gone to heavan if a woman like that got on top of me.

You sound kind of.... Really feminine and super fucking... Uuugh I'm trying to avoid the words beta and highly autistic... Then again I would've been playing Perfect Dark while you are playing Starfox, which I thought was utter shit and is the source for many furfags out there. Bleah. Fucking bleah. Wish Rayne jumped a deserving lil freak.

how the fuck anyone thinks this is real is beyond me. there's so much cliche and 'perfect storm' moments that it's almost entirely unbelievable.
its a relatively good story though

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>>562686652
There is nothing wrong with pedophilia, at least not within the law.
The problem is when people act on it and it becomes pedosexuality.

I myself am a pedophile, i like little girls and can be sexually attracted to them, however I would never have sex with them or touch them, both because it's morally wrong and I don't want to go to jail.

Almost nothing is black and white, so is it to with pedosexual relations. As this man has written there is always that grey area that people tend to forget when things are illegal.

>>562687389
And the fact that OP is a beta bitch. That happened to me I woulda been bucking up into her and begging to not stop. Would cuddled and slept with her and felt her up all night..

Again my sex drive since very young has been borderline disgusting... But I guarantee most boys wouldn't MIND it as much. Dream come true given to a fucking faggot.

>>562687542
Put some tape around your posts, someone could cut themselves.

I bet you're like fifteen.

>>562687416
Still if you have the stuff thats enjoyable like pics and you download from a honeypot or are caught with it you're fucked sooooo..... You're kind of wrong, there.

>>562653043
NO fucking way it's you i was in one of your threads a while ago! :D

>>562687693
Lol cry more. I legitimately don't get what it is with people crying 'edgy' all the time. I'm not even trying to be edgy. I've never heard of a boy that didn't want that in some form. Hot for teacher, man. The one thing I guess I forgot to account for is OPs life sounds really shitty overall. My childhood, despite my mentally retarded sex drive, was pretty "basic".... So the thought of a woman doing that was a fantasy... Not something to potentially shake things up more within an already unstable life. I'm just saying. Most boys wouldn't freak out. I've been skimming it. How old was he, even?

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>>562653043

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q0GXaFR992A

>>562687703
he's not wrong, you're just describing a different situation. possessing pictures of sexualized children is illegal, being attracted to children isnt

>>562688009
Ohh gotcha.

>>562653043
>https://docs.google.com/document/d/1AVRaNRlVzjOBkOfXcvHEagDtawhlMz2KSMmVy7XgWnw/edit
Wow thats a long read, thanks OP you are my hero

>>562687416
That was kind of what i meant. the actions, not the thoughts.

this thread is facinating, Thanks for your story OP. I've always wondered how pedophillia works when the genders are reversed. I always fantasized about getting laid as a young teen and wanted it, I still have trouble understanding how it would be negative unless the woman physically hurts you. Though manipulation is never fun after the fact I would have consented to a half attractive woman at the drop of a hat.

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>>562687703
I never said I have CP on my computer. (and I don't btw 'cause I still don't want to go to jail)
I just said I can be sexually attracted to little girls.
This is seen as a psychiatric disorder and I completely agree. However according to the law pedophilia isn't wrong, acting on your thoughts is however (but then it becomes pedosexuality)

>>562653043
do we ever find out why she had her stepdad's credit card?

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>>562687416

>>562688529
Well you'd have to be caught like an idiot if you DID have any. Like downloading it from a trackable source. But yeah fuck that man.Not worth the risk to have findable. I never meant to imply I thought you did... I just thought in general that's all... But nice. I gotcha. Lovin the shota. I still dont understand. OPs life sound like heavan. But his upbringing and shitty mom seems to have been why these first few chapters are aggravating me... His current position made what she did really tough on him, and i can get that. But as a young kid this was all I could think about.

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>>562688858
Well shota and loli (amongst other more normal stuff) do the job so no need for illegal stuff.

>>562688772
You do it

Don't you want to fuck her again? Can you?

Glad to find out more about this OP, I remember seeing this some time ago and was really curious as to how everything would turn out!

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Now that you are adicted to it, you want to do it with u mom, aunt, older neighbors... ?

Hey OP after reading your story I kind want to track down the girl who molested me when I was younger. how do you go about and once you meet up what do say?

>>562689957
Depends what you want out of the meeting, I guess.

I've read enough. Too many contradictions to his initial feelings to create a tension in the narrative... The shitty setup, and then THIS-
' It lasted for god knows how long, but she was moaning soon enough. Saying things like "I've worked so hard," or "I deserve this," and "I don't care anymore!"

I was making my own noises, panting and strained moans. Then the tightening came, and my thrusts lost their rhythm. "I feel... funny... Rayne..."

"Just don't stop," she panted.
'

LOLNOPE. Fake. A lot of parts are too "juicy" or written in such a way that's just bullshit. Plus he picked the name Rayne... Fucking silly.

I like it a lot and its fantastic writing for the most part. But this isn't real at all. Too much BS. I lol'd at the 'i deserve this!!!' part.

unless a woman fucks an under aged boy by wearing a strap-on and pummeling his ass, it SHOULD not be REGARDED as RAPE..

>>562690582
This.

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I have doubts about the validity of your story, OP.
>>562690410
This guy basically summed it up. A lot of it reads a bit too much like porno dialogue for me to believe it.

Doubts aside, however, I can't hate a girl who likes Slayers.

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OP is just a fat ugly girl who reads too much shota/woman shit.

0/10
Poor language skills, plot is trite and uninteresting.

However /b fartfags are so retarded and sex deprived, they will buy anything. LITERALLY ANYTHING.

>>562687693
Yeah legit can't believe you lapped this up after I've read more. This is so shitty. And if you think that me thinking the author of this shitty fiction is a faggot for making the kid such a little cunny bitch over getting a good fuck, free stuff, and a hot caretaker (which, by the way, is too fucking anime-good to be true) Then you're literally just as aspergers. Nothing edgy about it. Just the truth. Unless she's a hag or she's pegging you... You literally CANNOT be raped as a boy. I wanted to fuck older women before I could do more than dry-cum. Faggot.

OP got anymore stories?

>>562653043
Well, if it's true - fuckI'mjelly.nig, and if it didn't, then would you like to try it? hueheuhue :^)

>>562691584

>You literally CANNOT be raped as a boy

Holy shit you have been living in your basemant for too long. To say something like that you are either retarded or feminist...

>implying not both

>>562692150
No dumbass. Unless you're a little bitch like yourself... If a chick did everything Rayne depicts in the fucking story, which keeps getting sillier by the minute.... An adolescent boy would be in HEAVAN.

Therefore, can't be rape. Too fucking awesome. Moron.

Also good job using implying. Neckbeard queerlord.

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>>562692827
Nah nigger, since I'm currently at the wonderful autistic age of young teen, and I can safely tell you I would've fucking hated that you dumb fuck. Got a girlfriend

>>562693261
>since I'm currently at the wonderful autistic age of young teen
I'd tell you to enjoy your ban, but the mods don't even care that underage retards are shitting the place up anymore.

>>562693261
You would have hated it because you're a fucking queer, feminine lil pampered bitch. You sound like some of the really pathetic Japs in that super weaksauce culture.

Wow. Your parents should have ended your life instead of letting such a crybaby live in this world. Fucking sad.

Enjoy being a beta bitch. I'm out dis shit.

>>562693541
I know, that's why I cared to post it you silly cunt
>>562693626
Well not really, I just care about my girlfriend more than some nig nog there is no need to be mad, friend :^)

>>562653043
Hey Bro !

Still reading that story behind that link u gave.

Dont get me wrong but this is best content ive seen in years.

Wont be mad even if i find it to be fiction =) , as u pointed out in your story “Can I write fan fics too?”

>>562694097
I like you mini-anon, you're literate unlike most of your litlle pals

>>562695275
Thanks, I try not to let my autism show too much. Unlike my little pals.

Cool shit how old were you OP? Also wht's she look liek?

>>562695275
And thanks for calling me mini-anon instead of the plethora of shit you could've called me :c