Sup /adv/ this may be tl to read, but this has really been on my mind lately
>be me
>20 y/o, working in a restaurant full time
>I'm essentially a fucking autistic robot that is trapped in the body of a chad
>there's this one qt at my work that I fingerbanged in my car after my friends party
>very proud moment in my life.jpeg
>same age as me, literally my dream woman
She found me "adorkable" (her word, not mine) and thinks I'm handsome, but my extreme social awkwardness and other circumstances has completely ruined any potential non-platonic relationship I could have with her
>essentially told this woman that I loved her after I fingerbanged her, however she told me that the feeling was somewhat mutual
>then the next day, I fucked off back home to Scotland for a month
>while I was away, she fucked like 4 different guys, some of them more than once, despite her saying she had the same feelings for me
When I got back from Scotland, she was so cold to me and never even looked at me for at least a few weeks. A few months have passed now, and we've started talking again. But whenever we talk irl now, I just can't make her laugh or tell her the things that make her eyes catch fire the way they should. I just don't know what buttons to press anymore. I feel like she just doesn't have a personality anymore.
>I've also developed a stutter whenever I talk to her
>verbal spazzing on top of a Scottish accent sounds like incoherent noise to her and she no longer understands me like 70% of the time when I speak
>FUCK
>is there still hope for me to turn this around and make a comeback?
>or should I just give up and try forget?