Just went through easily one of the most embarrassing moments

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Just went through easily one of the most embarrassing moments of my adult life. It stings in an especially acute manner because it happened here at work just now, a job I took because I've been embarrassed to admit how I would like to spend my work-energy. I know partially the reason I'm making this thread is simply to distract myself from the pain of shame, overpowering shame.

I work at a massage/health clinic, and we have this extra room with a vibrating recliner that vibrates with music being played through headphones. Its a small room at the end of the hall with the Fung Shui of a teachers lounge. We charge a disgusting $50 for 45 minutes. No surprise, we get maybe one person a month that wants to try it. Usually it's a woman in their 50's and seem to enjoy it;

Super cute gal comes in, mid 20's. She comes in fresh off a run, with obvious expectations (that are already unmet). She goes back, and after the 45 minutes comes out of the room. When she comes to my desk to pay, I can sense the overpowering feeling of "I can't believe I agreed to pay $50 for this, this was a sad pathetic waste of time" I try to ask a few questions if she liked it or would recommend it, to which she said "It was good. It was good. I was. It was good". I was trying to communicate that I recognize her discomfort, and that I wanted to alleviate it but she has to say something. I ended up charging her 50% just because, she signed the receipt and booked it out of here in a hurry.

The only way I see this not happening again is to quit my job. I don't mind charging a sad older house wife for this, but someone my age who deserves (and has definitely experienced) better I don't know if I can bring myself to go through this again, it was the worst kind of shame.