What to expect when meeting him

>>18516341
How old are you Op?

Welcome to being a hormone filled teenage bitch. It is very easy to fall into the pitfall of, and getting carried away on, all the fantasies in the safety of your own brain where you've preemptively consented to and accounted for all the factors. In short, it titillates you and turns you on because 1. you have no actual experience or information to base the full impact of such a situation occurring in real life and 2. You have the safety of distance and the psychological assurance of "since I've never met this guy, I can always back out later".

If any of the things happened in real life, you would find it frightening and disgusting beyond your control, and you wouldn't be tittering about "lol how insecure i am tho".

Also, stop fucking calling your fucking retarded daydreams a complex. Your bullshit navel-gazing is EXACTLY what causes autists here in 4chan think "rape fantasies" are a thing and it is somehow ok to rape a woman who has "rape fantasies".

It doesn't sound sexual, it sounds like you just have low self esteem and want to be the more desirable one of the couple.

>>18516353
20
>>18516356
The way you describe it makes it still seem romantic to me? When I see him will I get over it? I never have had such an experience after all.
>>18516358
This is true

>>18516415
And to add i feel like backing out isn't an option for me because I want him to cling to me and not ever back out. But it's hard to feel validated when I'm jealous of him in a way.

>>18516426
Have you dated or fucked anyone before?
If not just roll with whatever happens and keep your fantasies in your head

In a real relationship you'll get over alot this bullshit fast and see them as a person

Unless it ends quickly then you'll fantasize even harder

>>18516451
I havent. And I didn't realize I was objectifying him.

>>18516459
You are but there's nothing wrong with that
Especially when you're insecure
Just dont over think this shit and dont go on thinking you'll get an obsessive older lover
Just see what happens man your young
And there is always a market for young love

>>18516415
How is it "romantic" in any objective sense when all you're doing is writing fiction about something you have literally never experienced? It's only romantic in your hormone added brain because to say otherwise about it will make you feel stupid, and like many other retards of your generation, you have been told that calling yourself "insecure" somehow means you're not allowed to receive criticism.