>be me age 15
>date 16 year old boy from my school
>literal best friends for two years
>do everything with boy
>don't have a lot of friends, but anon compensates and more
>so fucking content
>have anxiety/depression but anon helps
>may 2016
>boy about to go away to college in august
>me getting ready to go into my senior year of high school
>we can do this anon.jpg
>find out anon was plotting to cheat and move on with his life
>changed all bios on twitter/instagram took my name out
>confronted him, said he was sorta bored
>left him
>as 2016 progressed anon gets caught up in drugs and me alcohol
>anon develops schizophrenia
>thinks i'm in the FBI, a bunch of weird shit like that
>not the same person i left a year ago
>tried to talk to him a month ago, completely batshit and refuses antipsychotics
basically i've been mourning the loss of his personality since about this time last year. i always find myself getting painfully drunk and all relationships i try to have are meaningless one night stands or ones that i mess up. i still have no friends. i'm going to college in august and hope to make friends but as of right now i can't stop reading the sane letters he wrote me in 2014 and absolutely breaking down. it's been a year and i'm not over it. any tips?
Purge all the old stuff, get rid of everything, cut all ties and move on. Living in limbo is only going to hurt you and make it where you cannot move on. Get a dog, find a new guy, pick up a new hobby. Stop torturing yourself
>>18436470
>this
Stop torturing yourself by reading old notes. Improve your life by focusing on other shit. New guy will fall on your lap next thing you know it
>>18436408
Stop being a fag
Yeah cut contact completely. block all social media, burn or throw out all that reminds you of him and try to get on with your life. The absence of the letters, messages, emails possessions and means of contact means you have no choice but to stop thinking about him because there's literally nothing there to do about it, so you will automatically stop thinking about it.
Done this for every relationship I've ever had and it works perfectly. But every non-relationship crush I've had always fucks me over because I think "damn, if I had only asked them out..."
>>18436408
>when does it stop hurting
When you grow up.
>>18436489
i try to do this and every time the lack of other friendships i have drives me back to thinking of him
>>18436408
>be me age 15
You need to be over 18 to post on 4chan
>>18436408
Welcome to life after graduation. Life is a bitch, and then you die. Find new friends. Boy will become a hobo and probably die on the street eventually.