TTC finally worked, changing my mind

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I guess, at first it did really sound fun. I know I'll be a better parent than a lot of people. But now I wish I would have waited. I didn't want my husband to be like 60 when they finally leave the house, but damn it, I'm so much younger than him and I forgot to take that into account. Life is getting easier and more fun and I don't wanna be a mom yet. My period is almost 2 months late and I've been crying about it ever since I realized I'm probably pregnant. I'm too scared to test. I don't know what to do. I don't want to be a shitty parent just because I jumped the gun on this.. After having IUD complications, pelvic inflammatory disease and whatnot I honestly thought it would be harder to get pregnant. Even the doctor who helped me told me that I might have issues TTC. At the time I didn't want kids, but once I got married I really did, and I was scared of infertility on top of it. If I had realized this would take us only a year with no fertility treatments I would have waited another 2-3 years. I hate myself for regretting this, idk what to do. Either get over it and find the mindset I had a year ago, or be miserable, right?