Help please: Decision about a relationship

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I'll keep this as short as possible

>Be me
>Had only one serious relationship in high school, another couple that lasted a month or two
>Meet my (now ex) 3 years ago
>She has issues, but we both do, we take care of each other, very happy except for when she gets into her moods or gets paranoid and gets mad at me tipping a female waitress more than 15℅ for example
>Things get worse during the summer of 2016
>Leave her in the fall
>Get emails about her doing drugs again, getting hit by a guy she was seeing
>Email back and forth
>Finally see her, it goes really well
>This was two months ago
>Found out she has a new bf... One month ago now
>She says she wants to see me, and doesn't really care about him. But our families don't want us together
>I want to tell her today I want to marry her if I can fix everything and she wants to be with me again and be honest with each other


I feel worse than I ever have in my life without her. I've been depressed, thinking about her every day, hating myself for leaving (even though at the time I sought the advice of all my loved ones and a counselor who all told me to leave)

Even some small thought would help, I'm seeing her today and I want to tell her how I really feel. I also want to say if she doesn't want to get back together, I'm done seeing her, now that I know she's dating, I don't have her cheat with me, I wont be a part of that knowingly