Can't get angry

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So I've never really had anger problems but in the past I allowed myself to be really expressive whenever I was upset or angry. But for the last year and a half I haven't really expressed a single bit of anger or sadness in front of anyone else.

For the last three or four months I've been in a combat sport. This is completely different from a lifetime of doing ballet and gymnastics, and both required a lot of emotion and competitive flare to excel at. But whenever I'm in the ring I'm told I'm just an emotionless opponent who doesn't seem to care if they win or lose.

I win a lot regardless considering how many years of athleticism I have under my belt but the team captain says they want me to be the next captain when they graduate and if that's the case then I need to work on my emotions a little more. Captain is one of my closest friends and vouches greatly for my technical skill but says that I have a really steep barrier when it comes to actually getting fierce and competitive. Captain has also known me from the days I was a performer and says that the difference between me then and now is jarring. For many years when I was performing I would get so wound up angrily after a competition if it didn't go the way I wanted it to I would end up angry or in tears or just off an emotional deep end either way. Being dramatic naturally goes hand in hand with competitive sports but I didn't like how it felt so I just started shutting my anger down. A year and a half later I can't seem to get angry over anything at all.

So, bottom line is, they want to have some private lessons with me where they just have me release all my pent up anger and go nuts so I can finally get a little more angry and fierce when I'm in the ring. But I actually don't know if I can just release repressed emotions that easily.

I guess what I'm asking is, how can I get angry? Not just irritated or pissed but blood mist, screaming, throwing fists angry?