Don't understand my sexuality....
I've ALWAYS been attracted to women, both sexually and romantically. BUT, over the past couple of years, I've found myself watching gay and trap porn, really getting off on it. I've always had the strong desire to suck dick, fuck and get fucked when I'm in a horny mood, but would never date, kiss or have a relationship with a guy. I never look at guys and think, oh he's cute, or oh, look at his ass! I only get that with women. I've looked into the whole "being repulsed by the stigma of being gay/bi, but I don't care about that. I'm open about being the way I am. Nothing exites me about masculine men, besides the testosterone competition amongst us and the strive to be alfa.
Porn is porn. Real life is real life.
I find beastiality fucking hot as hell and love to masturbate to it.
But I'd NEVER participate in it.
Some things are just fantasies/appealing to watch, though you'd have no interest in putting yourself in those shoes.
>>18020852
Based on what you described, you're a heterosexual with gay fantasies, but only when you're aroused. You otherwise have no meaningful attraction towards men. It seems to me that you just find dicks attractive rather than men themselves.
With that being said, it ultimately doesn't fucking matter. You don't need to understand your sexuality if the stigmatization isn't something that'll negatively impact your life. Just keep doing whatever you want to do.
How much porn do you watch?
You might simply be attracted to very few men and have not come across one yet. Relax and don't overdefine your sexuality. There really is no need to explain or apologize to anyone for what makes you feel good. If it never happens with a guy, then so be it. If you think you might enjoy it, just be open towards trying once it feels right.
>>18020852
How much porn do you watch? How often? Of often do you fap? How often do you have sex?
I'm the same and I have a theory, so I wanna see if our habits are similar or not.