I tried therapy and that didn't work. I tried alcohol and

Yeah, I know how you feel.

>>18019650
This is likely depression and it will take a lot of work to fix. See a therapist and just force yourself to interact.

>>18019650

what is that picture of?

>>18019667
I saw a therapist but I was only marginally better and only while I was seeing him. Once I stopped I reverted back to my old ways. A big problem is that I can't interact with normal people, I always fuck it up and stumble over words and what to say and shit. I think I've permanently damaged my ability to socialise by spending my teenage years hiding in my room on my computer.

>>18019676
my life.

>>18019683
>picture of my life

your life looks interesting. and strangely mesmerizing. WHAT IS IT???

>>18019694
Just a distorted image of a dog or person, I can't remember which. I'd post the original if I had it.

>>18019694
Close up of a vag?

Anon, I can relate. I find it difficult to converse with people I consider normal too. Just know that most people are also worried about looking stupid or failing at socializing.

As for the connections thing, I understand. It's fucking scary when we can't connect to people. Slow down and take a deep breath. I too tried therapy and didn't like it. I used to drink myself to sleep. After a couple of years I was worse off than I originally was. I kept my darkness a secret from everyone except a couple of people. I got to the point of committing suicide, unsuccessfully. Back to the therapists I went but it was an intensive group therapy and my family knew about everything. Turned out to be the best thing for me. I now takes meds and frequently talk with my family and see a therapist once a week and a doc twice a month. Things are better but not perfect. Sometimes I still feel a disconnect but I know it's only temporary. You can do this anon. You're not alone and you will someday connect with others. Keep trying to see a therapist or psychiatrist. Shop around until you find one you're comfortable with.

>>18019650

Join the furry scene

Lots of damanged autists that are prison-gay for one another

> Boys give better head anyways

>>18019683
Try a different therapist, read a bit on finding a good therapist and on forms of therapy to try one that may suit you better.
Also group therapy.

You can't expect to get better while not training to get better.

>>18019650

unable to enjoy anything? drugs can help there, at least temporarily. ofc has its own disadvantages, but at least it's an alternative to depression and suicide. worked for me enduring last 18 years.

God you sound like me. The only girls I get are to old for me. All the girls that are my age seem to avoid me and only talk to me a little on facebook. I can only talk to girls for 3 fucking seconds. All my guy friends never try to talk to me.

What kind of helps me is I have a journal were I put all kinds of monsteres information and talk about hurting people. And it really does help me to not hurt people. Another thing is having goals it does not matter how simple they are other then that it helps you feel just a little better then before.

I know it may not matter but I hope you know that the person who wrote this is cheering for you