I'm going to cut contact with only person I ever truly loved in my life. Nobody ever understood me more, nobody I felt closer in my life, not even my family. We are like brother and sister. She is the only good thing I have in my life but it will be better this way. I'm used to being alone, but I will really miss her. World is gonna be even emptier after our ways are going to split. She will be desolated, but she is the most rational human being I ever met, she will understand this. I told her that I see her as something more than a friend.
I just can't take this anymore. Being so close to someone who you know will never love you in same way as you love the other. It's fucking my head up, knowing that we won't spend our future together. I fucking love her so much, but she is a lesbian. I want to kill myself, everyday I wake up and that's the first thing that pops into my head, I have no motivation to get off that bed.
When will I be ok? Can we ever be friends after this again?
>>18007196
lol dunno depends if you can stop being melodramatic.
>>18007196
Stop being such a fucking pussy
god damn dude, if I even have slight thoughts like "she's perfect" my mind calls me a fag
>>18007210
>>18007237
You never met anyone who'd be the person you always wished for? Fuck's wrong with you.
>>18007196
Although you're going through something much worse Im currently dealing with cutting someone off that I love.
Right now im doing alot better. I would recommend just doing things for yourself and putting your mind of her.
Even though im doing better I always think of her more than once a day and Im sure you do too. Its hard anon it really is knowing some you love wont ever do the same but you cant do anything about it besides moving on.
>>18007196
Been there done that
Currently in that self destructive faze
Can't even be bothered to get out of bed anymore
Worse part is I know she doesn't miss me
Maybe I should crawling back at her feet and beg like a dog
>>18007294
yes i have. and thats fine,. but you're being melodramatic about your entire life, as if you're just some tragic character forced to live a uniquely depressing existence.
you'll meet other girls who are everything you always wished for too. the difference is we dont act like 12 year old girls who just read twilight.
fuck's wrong with you?
>>18007196
>wanting to fuck your sister
c'mon maan
everyone here is right.
You will never get over her.
You will always think of her.
It's like AIDS man just take your medicine and move on.
>>18007196
I did the same 3 years ago and I'm still pretty fucking devastated.
>>18007451
FUCK
>>18007434
>just take your medicine
I'm already becoming a druggie alcoholic, if I had more money I'd already be dead.