[Boards: 3 / a / aco / adv / an / asp / b / bant / biz / c / can / cgl / ck / cm / co / cock / d / diy / e / fa / fap / fit / fitlit / g / gd / gif / h / hc / his / hm / hr / i / ic / int / jp / k / lgbt / lit / m / mlp / mlpol / mo / mtv / mu / n / news / o / out / outsoc / p / po / pol / qa / qst / r / r9k / s / s4s / sci / soc / sp / spa / t / tg / toy / trash / trv / tv / u / v / vg / vint / vip / vp / vr / w / wg / wsg / wsr / x / y ] [Search | | Home]

Life

This is a blue board which means that it's for everybody (Safe For Work content only). If you see any adult content, please report it.

Thread replies: 7
Thread images: 2

File: download.jpg (7KB, 215x234px) Image search: [iqdb] [SauceNao] [Google]
download.jpg
7KB, 215x234px
>be me
>be 15
>be kind-of shy
>be foreign
>go to international house for about 6 years
>speak english fluently asf
>time to take a cambridge exam, flyers level
>preparations for it, they combine two different groups into a single one
>the lessons are paid
>be in the "inferior" group, the other one was a higher level
>first time there, sit parallel to this chick
>dayum.jpg
>pretty dank 10/10
>black long hair, generally good looking
>open minded, rebel-ish, articulate and social
>her nickname was Paris, i thought that was her real name for like 6 months
>was 12 at that time, obscenely timid, anti social as fuck
>fall in love after 2-3 weeks
>literally stare at her the entire class
>we were the best in that group
>we take exam
>i get full score, she gets full score
>module ends, summer comes
>during 3 months all i did was stare at facebook photos
>2nd module is here
>enters classroom
>first thing i do is say hi to everyone
>she greets me, tells me that the teacher is british and doesn't know our first language
>okcool.jpg
>she cut her hair to shoulder length
>can't remember shit from the 1 hour and a half i was there
>all of us exit classroom
>we go outside, i wait for my mom
>everyone in this circle, rambling about stuff they did this summer
>i try to stick in a bit
>she pulls out this white looking tube
>white looking tube is a cigar
>stares confused for about 5 seconds
>she starts smoking
>isthisreallife.jpg
>at that time i subconsciously made a opinion of anyone who smoked
>i legit start pinching my arm
>amifuckingdreaming.jpg
>everyone is surprised as fuck
>everyone asks "you smoke?"
>i back away
>i look at the street, almost breaking down
>mom picks me up
>i stay silent the entire ride home
>i look out the passenger window, dropping tears
>get home
>jump in bed
>have a mental breakdown
>ihatelife.jpg
>i refused to believe that it was true
>next week comes
>she still smokes
>i accept the reality
>this time i really hated everything and was hostile to everyone
>>
>i am hardcore depressed for half a year
>i was still shy as fuck, couldn't dare talk to her
>occasionally she would smile when looking at me
>in the rare cases in which she would talk to me, my response was "yes" to everything
>1st module of new group ends
>exams
>college
>passed.jpg
>module 2, she doesn't come
>she quit
>i almost want to die, but in the same time, i learn to not care
>the "i don't give a single shit" state i induced myself into works
>i don't like any of my school mates from college
>still thinks of Paris on a weekly basis
>goes to this programming event
>meets former secondary school colleague
>i sit down with a bunch of random fuck heads around this table
>pulls out laptop, chats to my ex-colleague
>howslife.mp3
>random girl sits down on the chair next to me
>finds out that the girl is in the same class as my friend
>a few hours pass, i find out she's a gamer
>she's shy as shit
>never knew that i liked shy people so much
>i wasn't as shy because i didn't know i would fall in love with her yet
>nor was i shy in general at that point and time
>coolbeansmate.jpg
>8/10 could look better
>she had more or less the same appearance as Paris
>her name was Leia (not really but close enuff)
>Leia had long black colored hair
>after 9 hours of continuous interaction, i find out i fancy her
>forgottogethernumber.jpg
>2 days pass since the event, texts secondary school buddy
>"yo dude what's her number"
>gives me her number
>me and my buddy talk over text, he convinces me to call her
>calls her
>retarded 50 second long cringy call in which i ask her out
>"yes sure, just after the finals"
>2 weeks pass, she texts me first (did not expect)
>we establish date on sunday
>we go to the mall
>firstdateever.jpg
>she looked decent
>we talk
>we know eachother's birthdays (desu i forgot hers)
>we go to a movie
>then walk around the mall
>date was cringy because we are both shy as fuck, i could've done better
>date ends, she hugs me
>fuckyes.jpg
>>
>days pass and i start thinking more about Paris, less about Leia
>i don't like Leia anymore even though my buddy said she likes me
>howthefuckdoichangemyopinionsofast.jpg
>mind=fucked
>don't know what to do next, as i didn't text her at all
>not even to say "merry christmas" or even "happy new years, 2017"
>i think she doesn't like me anymore either although I have no fucking idea
>don't know what to do
>my birthday is in 2 days, if she messages me saying "happy birthday", i'll be down for another date
>Paris changed a lot, i can tell from fucking facebook pictures
>partially dyed her hair green
>theFUCK.jpg
>still looks good tho
>she probably still smokes too
>the lack of communications between me and either of them was insane
>haven't seen Paris for like 6 months
>haven't seen nor talked to Leia for 1 month
>do i back out and stop giving a shit because there's virtually no means of meeting either
>do i countinue trying with either of them
>i like how Paris looks more, even after all the shit she did to herself
>i can't say i like Paris's personality too much
>Leia looks decent, just kind of a big nose
>has best personality ever
>and plus she likes me
>i honestly don't give a shit so whatever you nerds say is better for my pathetic heart
>even if the option is to back out, there are plenty more fish in the sea
>hopefully........
>>
no one is going to read all this garbage
>>
holy fuck you are a cringy mentally retarded autist.

>gets depressed because grill smokes

top kek.

advice: you want what you can have you narcistic piece of shit. just fuck leia and get hooked through hormones after a while.
>>
>>17915032

can't have*
>>
File: CDQdPex.gif (619KB, 400x225px) Image search: [iqdb] [SauceNao] [Google]
CDQdPex.gif
619KB, 400x225px
>>17914987
>be you
>have autism
Thread posts: 7
Thread images: 2


[Boards: 3 / a / aco / adv / an / asp / b / bant / biz / c / can / cgl / ck / cm / co / cock / d / diy / e / fa / fap / fit / fitlit / g / gd / gif / h / hc / his / hm / hr / i / ic / int / jp / k / lgbt / lit / m / mlp / mlpol / mo / mtv / mu / n / news / o / out / outsoc / p / po / pol / qa / qst / r / r9k / s / s4s / sci / soc / sp / spa / t / tg / toy / trash / trv / tv / u / v / vg / vint / vip / vp / vr / w / wg / wsg / wsr / x / y] [Search | Top | Home]
Please support this website by donating Bitcoins to 16mKtbZiwW52BLkibtCr8jUg2KVUMTxVQ5
If a post contains copyrighted or illegal content, please click on that post's [Report] button and fill out a post removal request
All trademarks and copyrights on this page are owned by their respective parties. Images uploaded are the responsibility of the Poster. Comments are owned by the Poster.
This is a 4chan archive - all of the content originated from that site. This means that 4Archive shows an archive of their content. If you need information for a Poster - contact them.