Quarter Life Crisis

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Hello everyone, I could really use some advice here.


For the past year or so I've been having a huge crisis. Every single day I think about aging, about losing my looks, about my options in life narrowing, about me not achieving anything with my time, about not being cool anymore.

I am 22 years old and have just now transferred into Junior year of Uni in NYC after working at community college for four years to get here. Every day I feel stressed out about being surrounded by people two years younger than me who are at the same level as me, I feel as though I have wasted two years of my life. I came to NYC for the acting, directing, and comedy scene and I am terrified to get into it because if I fail I will feel like I have nothing. I have no money either so thats a big problem.

I have become obsessed with comparing myself to successful people i.e. directors or actors, looking at where they were in their lives at 22. I become incredibly depressed anytime I find out an actor or director is, or was my age, when they started to become- or were- successful.

I cannot imagine being old, being old feels like a death sentence to me. I'm much more afraid of getting old than I am afraid of dying. I am afraid on not being able to sleep with beautiful women, not have the excuses that age offers to be adventuresses and try things. Life seems bleak and terrifying as you slip into nothingness.

I know all of this is rambling, there is obviously allot more I could list. I just feel consumed by these things and need to figure out how to let them go.

Thank you in advance for replies.