You ever completely fuck yourself over semi-purposely? Like you

Yeah, I do it sometimes

>>17568025
Happens alot to me. I fuck up alot of things by it. I think its my comfortability in control and my impatience with things that bother me. May be wrong

>>17568034
For me I just bottle shit up for so long that it just comes out eventually in the worst way possible. I just get to a point where I have to get those thoughts out of my head and I don't care how.

>>17568050
Same way. I bottle shit up and eventually when coping and rolling with the punches loses its usefullness i resort to saying "fuck it" and destroying a situation. Im very honest but i put myself in a bad spot when i try to bottle things up to protect other people or suppress emotions.

>>17568088
It helped me to keep a little diary of these things. Maybe you should try it too.

I excel at difficult situations. It's the only time I exist as a competent person. If something doesn't take up all my concentration, then it gets none of it. I nearly failed out of high school because I just...stopped. Then I took night-classes on top of work and regular school, and I did phenomenal at all three.

I put myself in bad situations because, ironically, the stress fights my depression. I'm just an angry dude who needs to be fought.

I find sometimes I drop myself into shitty situations for the bants, like to engineer a Fawlty Towers-esque disaster. I guess I just wanna entertain people.

I do pretty much everything everyone itt has said, but I do it very occasionally, only in situations where I don't really want to be in.
Like for my master thesis, which I hated, I basically didn't sleep for two weeks. Got a 99% (we have different grades in my country).

yeah. a couple years ago i was seeing this girl who i had lost interest in, and she took me to a family get together so i got trashed and acted like a jackass to everyone.

didnt seem like it at the time but looking back i think i subconsciously did it on purpose to get away from her. i really am a douchebag sometimes.

Sometimes I just say what people expect me to say, for example if someone is blaming me for something I didn't do I might say that I did it just so that I can get people to stop pointless arguing.

>>17568091
Thank you. I will try it