ok, so I've thought long and hard about an hero'ing, and basically ive decided thats the cowards way out. rather than off myself, whats a good way to donate my life? I've read about the kurds accepting westerners to fight ISIS, but so far thats my only lead. give me some ideas.
OP, that's an awesome thing to consider.
French Foreign Legion. You can spend the next year being an utter criminal asshole, and join the FFL and start over with a new name and identity. If I hadn't gotten my fuckup younger self organized, I'd have gone that route.
An Hero is not an option, if you have people who care about you. It's just awful for them.
OP, get your shit together. Regardless of how bad it is now, you have options to build a good life. Don't walk away from the opportunity to start fresh.
exactly my point. too many poeple care about me for me to just put them through that selfish pain. an hero is not an option
Ive got my life "together" I make 60k a year as a machinist after only being graduated for 2 years. I workout everyday, and have plenty of people that would call me a "friend"
I took my 2nd dose of mushrooms about a year ago, and it absolutely changed me, I saw the world for what it is, and myself for what i was. I quit drinking, smoking and doing drugs about 3 months after that, and on paper, my life is grand. but it still feels so meaningless. I guess im just ready to throw in the towel, but I want to do so with a purpose
If your life feels meaningless, seek out meaning more in your life. Build something- a life for yourself, or connect with someone and build a relationship. If you're a person who is cerebral, thoughtful, and not too self-involved, have a damn kid or 3. Having a son changed me.
I can't speak to your experience, but I found that the things that I didn't have drove me. I was shy, smart and quiet, so I sought out the opposite, and it worked. I grew up. You can find the same for yourself.
>>17455498
bump
>>17455498
bump before i pass out. hopefully this is still alive tommorow
HEY ANON. Do you really want to die? Or is that just you saying stuff?
>>17455703
ehhh I mean not really, but from all I've observed in the past 24 years I just dont see a reason to, fuck having a "normal" life, I'd rather spend mine doing something meaningful, preferribly in the process
>>17456579
Well don't kill yourself mane