Hello I've been suffering from depression, PTSD, and bipolar

>>17371906
First and foremost, have you been properly diagnosed?

Second, yes. You sound young and id suggest that you try to see why your self esteem is so low. Diet? Lifestyle? If you are on here I would say to leave the house and pick up a hobby which is good for you like running.

>>17371906

I went through the same thing, I basically missed one math class in high school during math and it fucked my foundation forever. I just hated math ever since. I only played video games to pass the time, sure they were fun but I always felt like I was biding my time?

Anyway, met a great guy, we dated, he left me. Why? He said I had no ambition. Even though I was doing the best in my department at the time in Anthropology, it didn't help. I felt stupid, for doing something I liked, because it was easy and I was very comfortable.

Now I'm doing an engineering program, with a ton of math, physics and chemistry classes. I would have said around the break up that I was doing it for him because I was.

Now I do it for me, and I'm glad I stepped up to the challenge because I couldn't go back to doing what I did before.

Anyway, tl;dr you can either step up to the challenge and pursue something difficult so no one can make you feel inferior to them but there'll always be someone smarter than you or in a higher position than you that will very well make you feel inferior.

So you need to do what fulfills your needs at the current time and don't look back.