I feel deep pointlessness and I don't know why?

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Venting more than anything, but would appreciate any advice if you could think of it

>19M
>About to start college full time because I took a year off to work/save up/decide what I wanted to do
>Living with two good friends, and come August a 4th room mate that seems cool for the most part
>Transferred to different store under same company to work in town. Things seem good there
>Plenty of hobbies, although certain ones I can't do in town because no place to do them (Shooting range for one)
>Never talk about this with anyone because I just don't care to vent to people I personally know. I don't feel it solves anything, and that their responses are biased
>Going off of prior experience/women telling me, I guess I'm a handsome guy. I've been told 7 or 8/10
>Only a few small time relationships though so no real experience
>I've had a handful of chances that I've either fucked up or just wasn't interested
>Sometimes feel desperate not for anyone in-particular, but for a relationship in general. It's been two and a half years since my last official, 9 months since I've even been interested in anyone
>Watching anything with romance makes me feel sick because I don't experience it much. Not like "Wahhh I'm lonely" sick, but physical nausea.
>Until school starts I just hang out with two friends, play vidya/4chan/cook and work.

I feel like right now I'm just on standby until school starts in a month. I'm really excited to start my degree, and except for these slumps once or twice a month, lasting a few days each, I'm very happy with my situation. But I'm always gloomy at times because lack of romance in my life. I feel like these are my prime years and I'm worried about going through 3-4 years of schooling and not experiencing anything.