Demotivation?

>>16949916
>I have this mental block that just restrains me from it, just some sort of mechanism that reminds me of all the shit relationships I have and how much better I could be doing had I made better decisions before.

Forget the past and the shit relationships. The only thing that matters is the present moment and what you're doing with it. You have to work past this mental block, because putting the work in is what's going to put distance between you and whatever mistakes you've made.

>>16949951
You're right anon. Its just when I go over the point of life to myself, I consider the things I'm doing which benefit myself and my peers. I'm pretty used to intimidating and envious characters and just feel the need to entertain and stabilize their ego. Its like normal for me around others to be the doormat, to the point where its considered me being the 'asshole' simply making a subtle disagreeing statement.

>>16949985

But what does this have to do with not being able to put extended work in?

>>16949995
I don't know. I feel like there's nothing right in my life ever. No relationships I have, have had proper chemistry since I was like eight years old.

I can't just start working without the energy obtained from socialising and entertainment. The family I have to socialise or so predictable and superficial I might as well stare at a brick wall all day

>>16950004

Would it be fair to say your own thoughts are getting in your way?

>>16949995
I know I sound melodramatic but I'm telling you. Like 95% of the relationships I have nowadays are toxic and disconnected, I feel like a sociopath when I talk to them because if I act myself and attempt to connect with them, they'll think its part of some 'narcissistic process' of using them. I got nothing bro... but its just so painful having to encounter all these characters every single day

>>16950018
Yeah they are, but I mean, I haven't got much peer guidance or communication. I'm used to being compared and shit by my parents, as long as I'm better than the few retards who can't even piss properly into a toilet, I'm "adequate", and me trying to achieve me is like an imbalance or violation of the dynamics of the family

>>16950020
>>16950033

The only relationship you should worry about when schoolwork needs being done is the relationship between you and the assignment. The rest is a waste of energy and detracts from your efforts and your goals.

Who you think you are or how you think other people see you does not matter when there's work to be done. The work matters.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-u5LE6X6ME