does it make me a coward that I want to kill myself but can't bring myself to do it? I feel so empty inside. Every day. So goddamned alone
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>>16947928
Like I said, I can't bring myself to do it. I have too strong of a self preservation instinct. But I think about it everyday. And I wonder what it would be like. But again, I'm a coward
>>16947921
>does it make me a coward that I want to kill myself but can't bring myself to do it?
No. It just means that you don't want to die. You want the pain to end, which is totally reasonable, but it's not the same thing.
If anything makes you a coward, it's the way you let your fear of social situations prevent you from meeting people, even though you're so lonely. This would end your pain. In fact, it's probably the only thing that can, since you have already shown that you would not, in fact, rather die.
What I'm not sure you realize is how common a fear this is. Almost everyone experiences it, some more than others, and you probably experience it more strongly than many, but most people have at least an inkling of what you feel. But you can't wait to not be afraid anymore, or it'll never happen. Courage isn't when you aren't scared; it's when you ARE scared, but you do it anyway. Be brave, and live.
And serioiusly, fuck this meme of not being to kill yourself meaning you're a coward. Fuck it right in the nostrils.
>>16948210
Not him but this is true for most because they are ugly and can't adapt or be accepted by others the majority of their lives so living is excruciatingly painful and heavy on the individual. Death seems merciful in these situations.