I am completely lost on what I should do. I am 18(almost 19) and about to graduate from high school. I will probably not be going to college. I will be getting kicked out after summer.
All I really do is smoke a lot of weed, occasional pills(opiates+benzos), and drink on weekends. I have never had a girlfriend and the 'friends' I do have are hardly friends, more like smoking buddies. All I have done the last 4 years is fucking play vanilla wow on private servers while accomplishing absolutely nothing towards my real life. Will probably buy some heroin for the first time this weekend, already talked to my buddy who can get it. I just need something to dull me from this completely 'average'(shit) life, or figure something out....
I know what I want. A girlfriend. Real friends. To make a lot of money one day and go big places are all desires of mine but I have no idea how to achieve any of that.
what do i do /adv/ ? im lost.
Not do heroin for starters. Unless the goal is to end up dead in McDonald's bathroom one day.
Well, you could join the military.
>but I don't want to risk my life fighting a war I probably don't support
Well, its better than the road you're heading down. Ask me, US Army, SPC, 89B (ammunition specialist) and my life's pretty decent. Plus, girls dig it (sometimes, gotta be humble about it) and love a man in uniform. Although the best part is the friends you'll make. Literally people I would die for. Love them to death. And if you decide that you actually want to pursue a degree, VA education benefits is where it's at with the GI bill.
So you can continue down the path you're paving, or pursue a path that has a better outcome. Yeah, you'll have to quit with the weed and all, but I'm telling you, this is worth it. At least consider it and research, anon.
my advice is to join the military to force yourself out of your shitty situation
your options are to sort your shit out or end up as a junkie living on the street, don't fucking buy heroin you don't want to go down that road. When (not if) you get addicted you'll have to be on methadone for the rest of your life if it doesn't kill you first and you ever try to get clean.