Who am I?

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I would like to know the answer to this simple question.

Who am I? Who am I inside? What does my inner me want from life? What purpose is there for my life? By what morals, rules and standards should I abide to? What is good and bad, what do I want, what makes sense, what doesn't?

Recently I have been thinking about life and to this moment I believe I have been doing nothing but what others expect from me, or at the very least, projecting in myself something I see off cool in a propaganda, game, movie, something a family member expects from me, or whatever. "Be successful!"; "You should study engineering!" "Having this attitude is cool!". I've lived good part of my life chasing these ideals, being a copycat, and actually believing all of this bullshit.
It feels a bit like I'm a blank cavas who has been painted on by many different factors, and I'm not really myself.

I've been thinking about this a lot and I can't help but suppose that there's nothing as being yourself, people just are the result of the immediate envorinment, combined with their "original, primal self", as I'd like to put it. The result being what you see in the world, a lot of different people.

If anything, if one cannot find the answer to the question I ask here, I understand that he should pursue a hedonistic lifestyle, without any greater goals other than the immediate comfort and pleasure. After all, if you can't figure out the right thing to do with your life, then just try and take everything out of the material world, this is what I've been doing for some months now, but I can't get this thought - who am I? - out of my head.

So I need to ask if anyone can relate to this feeling that I have, if anyone has ever felt like it, and what did you do, I think I need help figuring out what to do with my life.

Even if I find out, how can I be sure I'm right? That this is it, this is the person I'm meant to be?

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