My mother never loved me, in fact she was a violent, abusive, manipulative cunt. I think she's the reason that I have avoidant personality disorder.
Anyway, I'v been chasing the illusion of a decent maternal relationship for a long time.
Is it healthy to find a substitute parent into adulthood? Can early childhood damage even be fixed?
>>16619154
Lol childhood damage is irreversible but through processes of reasoning can be turned to positive effect. Unfortunately, much of it is founded upon the idea of being in control of your own actions and opinions, so blaming mommy would be out the door. I doubt you'd be interested.
Finding a substitute mommy won't do anything but awaken a fetish
>>16619154
>looking for a substitute parent in adulthood
You are far more fucked up than you know if you even consider something that abstract
>>16619194
not like a literal substitute, but a mental substitute, like implanted memory therapy.
>>16619235
Just move on you dingus
All i got from a no-love childhood was some masochistic personality disorder mixed with traits of borderline. Step one was getting the fuck out at age 18, then breaking contact with dad - who some years on died - then i broke all contact with mom about 4 years ago and my life has only improved since. I have no other family.
>>16619235
I hope you are not old enough to have relationships and sex yet....