Getting over her

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2 and a half years ago I got dumped by the girl I was seeing, and it changed my life. There was no reason for me to have such a big reaction to it. She was my closest friend and we'd slept together a few times, but I knew we weren't in a relationship. What's more, I knew that she wasn't the sort of girl that I wanted to be in a relationship with, and that it would probably end badly. And yet, when it did end badly, I was heartbroken. I realised that in my own way I'd loved her and depended on her far more than I knew. In the time that's passed I've been frequently depressed and lonely, and although I'm ok right now, I still feel like I'm not 'over her' and don't know if I ever really will be.

I've not slept with anyone since and it's really starting to get to me. One-night stands seem meaningless now, and I've not met anyone else who made me feel the same way and want to pursue a relationship. I'm a bit of a weird person (in that my hobbies/interests are different to most people's), and I'd need to meet a girl who's the same sort of weird for it to click, and I haven't done that. She's still the only person that I ever felt really comfortable being myself around, but I got so bitter/jealous when she started dating someone else that I had to cut her from my life completely, even though she wanted to be friends. I still know she's not the right match for me long-term, but it made no difference. All traces of her had to be removed, and now I just feel as lonely and isolated and far away from properly moving on as I did the day she told me it was over.

Does anyone have any advice to help me with this?