Let it out

>>16573622
It's about 18:20. Thinking of getting a sandwich and going to the gym.

>>16573634
622, thinking about hitting up trucknigger on facebook

Am I a terrible person if I take advantage of the fact that I'm a girl to manipulate people?

>>16573640
what a bait

1:25 am I love him so much it hurts

01:26 thinking about her

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>>16573622
>about how easily people can say words to you but do the complete opposite with their actions.
>wondering if people are conscious about the above when it happens or not.

>>16573652
oh and 6:27pm

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>>16573622
>6:27
>passing my first final exam tomorrow
>preparing for my 3 other final exams
>going home for the winter break
>getting my shit together for the future

>>16573638
Do it, faggot.

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21:31

I kind of miss her, i wonder if she's thinking about me at all.

>>16573622
6:33
gonna smoke me one for doing good on all my finals
i need to get out more with others
im way too reclusive

5:41 thinkin bout goin to the bar and gettin blackout drunk

>>16573661
UGH BUT IM HUNGRY
(and i want to play dota)
love u tho senpai

6:46 and thinking about getting in shape and then getting bitches

12:46 pm. I want lunch

>>16573684
Th-thanks. You, too.

I'll be crying into my sandwich at the gym.

>>16573622
Its 350pm and I'm thinking about whether I should drive to Nevada and lose my virginity to a prostitute, risk hiring an escort, spend years fixing my body in hope that a decent looking girl will want to fuck me, or keep on keeping on by visiting strippers every other week and having them jerk me off.

Fuck my life I fucking hate myself

>>16573702
>hiding in the mens locker room sniffing underwear

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Whether or not I should use apache or nginx.
The choice used to seem so simple but now I'm paralyzed by indecision.

00.00
thinking about her again

18:58
Wondering why I even bother trying to make plans with people. Ditched at the last moment again.

9:14 pm
Thnking about when should i message the nerdy guy that asked me out a few weeks ago and if it would be appropriate to compliment him on his new glasses.
Also wondering if i should message him at all because i didnt realize he was asking me out until recently and all this time i kind of ignored him.

>>16573714
Why would I do that? I brought my own.

>>16573777
Do it. DO IT.

7:31

Thinking about finishing these last 2 pages of my semesters finals, browsing this instead

00:40
I should really study for that test doe but I can't focus so just thinking about random shit

7:57 P.M
Wondering if my decision to move back home soon will be good one.

6:59pm
want to study but cannot study. fuck

I'm almost 22 and I'm still a virgin. I grew up religious and always wanted to save myself but everybody these days are sluts, even us Muslims. Contemplating whether religion is even worth it anymore. I know my family will disown me but there's literally nothing good to look forward to.

02:38am
If I want to commit suicide and don't do it, am I a wuss or smart enough to breed?

>>16573622
Its 1844.
How to kill myself

21:44

I'm total scum and can't manage to squash my unrequited love for a friend.

>>16573622
9:47 PM

I would rather sleep in my car and be homeless then stay with my older brother. I don't have a room, the couch I used to sleep on is now an air mattress, and he and my father still haven't placed the carpet I don't even want in my room.
Not worth 200 dollars a month...

It's 02:47 a.m. I'm going for a run at 6.00 and should probably get some sleep. Told my girlfriend I was into cuckoldry yesterday and she wants to do it. So I'm thinking about how hot that's going to be.

>>16573622
>0250
>don't really know, it seems that I don't really think about much at the moment, just work for my degree and the gym been pretty empty headed the last few days, i don't think i'm happy though, fuck knows

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1:40pm
Need to go shopping
I don't want to go outside

10:10... I really want to suck ----'s dick right now.

why has she suddenly stopped flirting with me. she did it regularly for almost a year now, only thing that changed was she got really busy near the end of the semester (lots of assignments and finals). I cant tell if its because of that or something else. she told me shes been really stressed lately and nervous about her results (said she might fail a class). we still talk often and hang out but its missing that one thing. Is it really the stress thats making her....unaffectionate?

It's 7:43 pm and I'm thinking about how my boyfriend and some girl exchanged nude snapchats behind my back for three months. Feels bad. Feels real bad.

only 8:03 pm, thinking about frustrating things with work and how the guy I want I can't have

loving life

>>16574299
As an ameriburger, that's breddy damn hot. Does amazon do same day delivery there?

>>16574388
It's probably finals, brotato.

>>16574401
Would it make you feel better knowing I haven't received a snap in over 3 months?

>>16574306
He has herpes.

>>16574435
you have herpes

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>>16574448
I have to use a sex simulator to meet new people.

>>16574465
...im sorry

>>16574465
How do you manage that?
>tfw you want to meet some new people but don't know how

1:23AM, I'm so fucking lonely, did I fall in love with her again? is this hit even love? maybe i'm just horny, not sure.
I need to start running, heart's been feeling odd lately.

06:25 - Lying in bed, scraping the last bit of willpower together to get up and go to work. Thinking about my wife's sister, her tiny breasts, wondering what those nipples look like, the taste of her honey pot... Things I'll probably never know.

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>>16574479
I use the internet to look at boobies and other female body parts. I then use my imagination and one hand to further the relationship.

4:30 Am Listening to music, thinking about her and how much of a pussy I am and the fact I'll never make a move

>>16573622
11:32 pm

I'm thinking about what I'm going to do with my life.
My final grades are in and I'm so incredibly depressed.
I failed organic chemistry, made a C+ in physics and a B+ in accelerated Spanish.

I have NEVER failed a class. Ever. But this semester has been so incredibly brutal.

It's my first semester here (I transferred from a much smaller CC to a MUCH harder uni) and I just was not ready for the intensity of the classes. It's also the first time I've moved out of my parents house, and the first time I've had an actual part time job. And the worst thing this year is that my sweet grandfather passed away.


I had a 3.7 cumulative GPA prior but my MD dreams are completely demolished. I'm going to retake organic chemistry next semester but I am so incredibly depressed. Practically on the verge of suicide, it's that bad.

It's just. I don't know. I feel like I've let everyone down, my parents, my grandfather, everyone.

10:41 p.m and thinking about what to do cuz I'm freaking boooored

>>16574426
Aw noo that makes me sad.

11:44 and I'm in a bit of a crossroad atm.
I'm considering joining the air guard because I am tired of being in my town. Everyone I know is at uni and have forgotten about me.I wish someone who went away to college would message me but I guess I'm just a memory no one bothered to keep. I have one friend who got left back in middle school and is stil la senior and he's my boy and all.My only other friends are a bunch of degenerates who smoke weed all day that I'm trying to avoid. I'm kinda upset that I might never experience that college freshmen experience but I need to find a way out of here. I ended up failing my final because I missed a bus due to the fact that I commute(i go to a community college) I also failed another class so I ended up failing two out of four classes this semester. I feel like it's a good choice as I have thought about joining a military branch before but I'm still thinking on it. I don't have alot of options so I feel as if this would be a good thing. I also want to leave here because being in my town still is bad for the soul

It's 11:54. She likes me. I like her. She's sad. I'm going to make her happy :)

>>16574571
You got it all figured out man

6:14pm
How much of a fuck up I am, and how the ONLY thing I'm good for is sabotaging relationships that make me happy. I'm waiting for him to realise what I've done and for everything to come crashing down.

Seriously thinking about ending it all kek.

>>16574523
I know this feel bro. It might not seem like it right now, but taking a year off to work is absolutely something you should do if school isn't working out at the moment. Most people that I know that have done it come out much happier for it. Remember that it's an option after next semester if it stays rough.

I don't have much experience with relatives passing, but believe me, you aren't letting anyone down if you have to take some time off, recalibrate your expectations, and try again in the future. It's overall a MUCH better decision than just toughing it out, and you'll be happier about it all too.

>>16574426

I dunno. I guess if you get it locally they might but I wouldn't hold my breath. Went shopping and got all my Christmas presents, back home in sweet sweet aircon.

>>16573622
23:35, thinking about the same thing I do every time I go to bed.

I'm lonely, and every opportunity I've had I've let slip through my fingers. Oh well, at least I'm not getting fucked over actively...

5:41

I sent him a message on Facebook
I was drunk
I'm pathetic

02:41, thinking about how my friend won't get custody of her kid back from her cunt of an ex until after the new year.
Also I want to get a pixie cut.

It's 2:44. Wondering if my husband is cheating on me with the girl he drops home every night from work(no evidence) even just emotionally, or if I'm just a overly jealous bitch.

>>16575118
Get a pixie cut for sure.

>>16573622

>23:46
>thinking about reasons not to kill myself

>>16575128
Will do, but I had wanted to get it the day she was possibly getting custody back(a little before xmas so I could show it off to the kid. Now I'm torn whether to wait or not.

>>16575128
>pixie cut
>2015

>>16575137
Pictures on Xmas? I say go for it, cause it'll still look pretty fresh after just a week or so, and then you get your new look in time for pictures. Otherwise, I think you'd make the right call by waiting.

Bf hasn't replied in hrs. We got in fight almost grown up couple days ago now we good. We usually fall asleep on phone every night through whole relationship. Now not even a reply. Whats the ultimatum.

>>16573622
Meh I'm think about if I should smoke a cigarette or wait 20 minutes.

3:02 am.
Why I suddenly lost my sex drive. Not that I really had much of one to begin with, but when i was 15 it was more than now (19).
I've been with the same guy for 4 years, this past year I just suddenly lost it. The desire for sex, making out, kissing, sometimes even cuddling.
It makes me wonder so much if it's just my feelings for him diminishing. I don't want it to be that. I want to go back to normal.
I just don't understand what's wrong with me.

>>16575176
you are slowly realizing you are not a homosex

>>16575187
I've known I am not a homosex..

>>16573622
All I ever think about I'd how much I miss her but how angry I still am after all this time. Fuck your stupid tree Megan. It's 3 28 am a girl is in my bed and I'm thinking of her on the couch.

>>16575146
How long would it take for it to start looking messy? I won't be seeing her probably till the 6th.

It's 00:30 right now. I feel lonely.

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0339 All I keep thinking about is how absurd life is, how I try to find meaning in my life and actions yet it feels like I'm climbing an escalator running the opposite direction. And I start to think about all the chaos and violence in our world, the circumstances and consequences surrounding the selfishness of human nature. Yet I go even wider still until I'm left pondering the meaningless nature of life and existence.

And now I'm too worked up to try and sleep.

>>16573734
That was gay

>>16573777
>>16573837
Oh look he found you

it is 4:13 ive been drinking all night ,all I want to do is tour with my ban d, get drunk , fuck, an cut myself. I could als o go for piza and randomly thinking about this canadian girl I used to talk to. I wanna pass out drunk while im nside her
I have few shows like 4 lined up in canada in a few months and should I message her right now to see if we can meet up while im there, or should I be sober?
I also think I release endorphins or whatever to much is that in itself an addiction or should I am just a drunk?

4:14 AM I'm hungover and want another egg sandwich..

7:04 am and I'm thinking of how in hell I will keep going on with this life

21:20, thinking it's only the 3rd drink and I already feel drunk. I'm getting weak.

13:21, and I'm thinking about all the shit I have to do and the fact that I got out of bed way too late. Again. I find it hard to order my thoughts, and get all my shit in order.

7:26 AM- Have to take an exam in 9 hours and have a paper due at midnight which I don't care about
I also want a bagel and to sleep. I was up for 30 hours then slept for seven hours until 1 am today.

In next 30 minutes I'm either getting laid for the first time or will still jack off later with my tears.

>>16573640
I'm sure some orbiter will accept you as you are.

10:30 pm I feel so lonely, wish I didnt crush on coworkers with partners I shouldve known they had considering how attractive they are

>>16575514
gl

11:35pm and I'm thinking about how all my 'friends' probably don't give a fuck about me and I'm probably just a disposable friend they keep around for fun.

>>16575524
Not happening. She wasn't home. Fuck my life.

7 20 in the morning. Been up all night thinking about him. Basically got told yesterday that itll never happen.

>>16575588
Probably at her "friends" house
Sorry my man

>>16575610
Nah she's with her family. I checked. Wish I could strangle her dad.

9 am

I should be in bed already. Also, god damn are black people fucking annoying.

>>16573622
15:55 Thinking if I should ask her out tonight or tomorrow. I think she's going to say no but I want to try anyway. Still not sure where to ask her out.

>>16573622
1503 here. 1 hour ago i tried to kiss a girl i met 15 days ago and i m going to work with til the end of december. She pushed back so i could only kissed her cheek. Then i asked if she has a boyfriend and she said yes but i think its just an excuse.

3:06 pm

Freezing my balls at work, thinking whether it was a mistake to delete my shitty facebook profile and how I really need to get a grip on things or I will just sulk into depression again

that feel when no gf

01:38

There's a girl that I'm good friends with, but while jeez, me and a friend of mine were walking together he casually called me a faggot or cunt or whatever. This is normal from him, he says it to everyone, but she does not know this. She calls him out on calling me what he called me, and he's got anger issues so he takes this very seriously but doesn't say anything to her.

He now tries to make sure that I don't spend any time with her and constantly follows me around, when I'm walking with her to class he comes in between us and walks me off to the side.

We're in fucking university, and he's been doing this for the past few weeks. He's kind of a pretty good friend but can be a cunt sometimes. I don't want to call him out in this in case he might hit me (he's a pretty big guy, for me).

He also can't seem to do anything by himself, he needs someone to be with him when he wants to go get some food off campus or wants to check something on the other side of the building. He refuses to go to the mall or whatever by himself.

He looks like he has down-syndrome, and every friend I've had that he doesn't like (including the girl), has mentioned this to me. He doesn't though, at least, I don't think he does.

What can I do to tell him this without possibly getting myself beaten? I'm trying to tell him to fuck off and not try to control who I want to spend time with.

22:38


I'm still in the process of absorbing things. Me & my bf broke up months ago because he told me that he still love his ex. We've been together for 4 yrs and we already had a 2 yr old daughter. I dnt even know where to start... sometimes i feel like killing myself knowing that i was never enough and no one loves me, even my own partner

>>16575711
*her, not jeez. Phone fucked that one up.

9:40 AM

Thinking about how I have no goals, no aspirations. How I haven't really felt anything in months, and everything I have an interest in becomes fleeting so quickly and I go back to doing nothing.

12:41am. Period pain and cramp game is strong. Boyfriend went to a party unexpectedly after work, said he'll be home soonish. I've been having trouble sleeping too for the past few days. That's life I guess.

9:42AM, woke up at 8 and took a shower then smoked a bowl. Listening to Justin Vernon and gonna smoke more in about 30 minutes.

>>16575721
>Period pain
Ewww. I'm so glad I don't have a vagina.

3:52 pm
>just came from exam i didn't pass
>thinking about how socially awkward i am
>how i am getting worsier at everything
>how i don't have any friends at uni
>how i fail everything i touch
>how i am big disappointment for everyone
>how is my english getting worsier every day
>also feeling like everyday i'm more and more stupid and awkward

I don't know what should i do, i don't have energy for enything, constantly stressed in social situations, always bad mood

How do I get from this situation... I try to be more social but everyone just kinda ditches me out..
I know this looks like r9k post, sorry for posting it here it just kinda burned me now
I don't want to kill myself because it would crush my parents, also it would be really weak..
Should I start avoiding people in general and try to get good in single activities? I'm mostly depressed because of being social degenerate, fighting with this long years

It's 9:59, I'm on the toilet at work browsing /adv/ and posting this. Wondering about seeing star wars tonight with my girl. Hope the movie is good, she's hyped for it.

>>16575742
Han Solo is killed by his son, Kylo Ren.

Rey is Luke's daughter.

>>16573622
3.05
Listening to my boyfriend complain and people on APB... rolling my eyes and thinking about how the millionth time he should block them and get out of that stupid butt community.

1:04am. Period cramp game still strong. Boyfriend sent me a text saying that he'll be awhile and told me to just go asleep. He's so silly, if I could I would.

I hate myself.

16:13 / 4.13 PM

How SessionStorage works and if/how I can apply it to the code I want to apply it to.

No codingmaster-lurkers around?

It is 0721 and I am thinking about going home on leave tomorrow for the holidays

10:50 in the am.

I did a lot of drinking last night so Im just sitting still trying to work through all the heart burn and stuff. Also I've got three weeks of leave starting tomorrow, so I'm happy about that.

>>16575746
Jokes on you, I'm illiterate and don't know those people!

>>16575739
people not even trying to cheer me up on advice board, this is great

Rather or not I should tell a girl I like her

It's 1440 I just got out of jail and am thinking that I'm a fucking embarrassment I'm afraid I may end up hurting someone. Suicide may be the only way for me.

I gotta son I have to stop this shit.

2:44 PM

Wondering if I should say goodbye to her for good. I loved her and we split due to distance. She didn't want to talk, up until a few weeks ago. Now she IMs me every few days, which I thought I wanted, but I now know I don't. It hurts. I need to say goodbye.

It's 1:46 where I'm at and I'm thinking about how I'm bring dragged into celebrating these holidays with family but I really don't want to. I just do it to make them happy.

19:47
That girl and the how the music on tv sucks

4:53 pm
Behaved like a psychotic bitch for not receiving answer from my ldr for 8 hours where we planned to watch a movie, only to find out something serious happened to their family.
Haven't heard anything since Monday morning with an apology and a "I don't think I can do this anymore"... At least I would like them to block me everywhere, so I don't get hopes of coming back together, but everywhere I log in, I see them online and I can't think of anything else.
I realize there are people with bigger problems than this, but after having a scholarship slip through my fingers from one moment to the next, I was hoping I could still count on them.

22:48

I'm 22 and I'm treated like a teenager by my friends

Mostly nervous about this physics final tomorrow.

Also, how often should I text a girl?

>>16576233
Either suffer the pain of anxiety or suffer the pain of regret.

Regret is much worse.

>>16576909
>Also, how often should I text a girl?
need more context to help

>>16576922
Asked her out a couple days ago (first time I ever did that), but a date can't happen until late January because she's leaving to Europe with her family for a month on vacation and I'm going to Honduras for a month. I don't really know her that well.

1:01 Why is he so distant, I love him but I feel so ignored and lonely. He hasn't even told me he loves me in many days when he used to say it all the time.

>>16576942
Have you told him how you feel?

18:01

Literally just sitting around waiting for a professor to post the grade from this course. I tried my absolute hardest, didn't party or anything this semester, and studied extremely hard for it, but the curve was just so bad that I don't know if I passed at all. I desperately need to pass to graduate.

If it's below a C, I'm planning to go to the professor and just talk to him, and show him all the work I did for his class again and explain how I can't graduate unless I pass and want to know if I have any chance, point out how much I worked on my final, etc. and hoping he can work with me to find a way. I understand the material for this class really, it's a math class, but the curve was very hard and the tests are full of problems which require thinking about the material in new ways, etc., as one would expect. Still, I could explain the material pretty well. I really feel that if it weren't for the curve, I would have been ok, and I certainly think I know enough of it that a C would not be unreasonable.

Any advice?

>>16576945
Yes but he just always says he's really busy, a few days ago he said he still loves me back but usually always when he says it he says some cute name but he didn't anymore. Maybe I'm just overthinking and he is really just busy and stressed.

>>16576964
What does your bf do?

Want to still be friends cause her family is basically part of my family. Also I just really like talking to her, but every time I know talk 2 her my stomach starts to hurt. I got rejected by her, didn't really hurt that much we still talked casual and shit. So why pain? I mean I've totally moved on and want to date over gals, theirs heaps out their, but friends with her was always important and all these people are telling me I should'nt be friends with her so what the heck gives, my family says its cool and ma mums still great mates with a bro she rejected. So dang, think my environment has been having negitive effects on me all year. Going to live close to her next year, which should be good fun cause the city she lives in is full of cute girls yeah. Fuck this city I'm in

1220pm

>>16576951
Any advice for what to do here?

It's occurring to me now that even if I don't pass, I could add on the course as a 6th class next semester, only show up to a few lectures and still get like 99% on the first test or two, because NOW the first 2 midterms seem so easy but they were hard at the time. So maybe I shouldn't be too worried.

Any advice?

6:02 pm
you have a bf whos an actual celeb. but you cant just leave my crush alone. i love him, stop tweeting at him stop talking about him stop talking to him just FUCK OFF. the only guy u should be posting about is your hideous white rapper bf. everyone whos a female needs to stay away from him unless you wanna fucking die

>>16577145
+ im PRETTY SURE he only likes you because your bf is 10000x more successful and well known than you. LITERALLY the only reason anyone even knows who you are is because your bf, your "business" would be absolutely nothing without him. you're a professional groupie, stay away from my man

>>16576918

You are right. Going to tell her tomorrow.

>>16573733
Apache

>>16577092
>>16576951
Anyone ever done this before?

>>16577178
Dude just chill. Put in the work and pass your semester. Just do what feels natural to you.

>>16577190
I took the last final already. Every other class is an A and one B+. It's just this one damn class.

I finished all my finals so this is all I have, and I fly home tomorrow.

If I don't pass this, I really will have to take another semester just to retake one class.

I'll try to chill...I know I freak out about these things.

>>16577197
U just need to sit down and stop procrastinating on website s like 4chan dude. Like u just really need to sit down and do the work so you dont have to repeat *no shame in repeating though* so dude get off and get ready believe u well do what's right anon

>>16577240
What do you mean? I did the work, really. If there were no curve I would be fine. The first first test, out of just 2 tests and a final, had a mean grade of 90, for example, and only 4 questions on it. So I knew 3 out of the 4 and suddenly I've got a D for the class. Now looking back, of course I can do that problem. It was just challenging at the time, but all my math classes are like this.

I have no more work to do, I took the final already.

I'm talking about going and talking to the professor after the final grade comes out and asking him to pass me, and seeing if there's anything I can do to make that happen.

>>16577240
I even went back and re-completed every homework assignment a second time from scratch the week before the final just as a means of studying for it, then met with the professor and asked him about every question in the whole course that I wasn't absolutely sure about.

All I want is to pass.

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3 am in the morning.
Anime girls and martial arts.

What I answered both questions.

00:51 am
I think about my home. I miss my parents and friends back there. It's a little over a month and I'll be back, but it feels like eternity.

I worry about my exams here and everything I'll have to deal with once I come home.

I miss my friend a lot and I wonder if he still really likes me. I fancy him for 3 years now and it all is such a mess...

I worry about my shitty, unhealthy lifestyle and the fact that I seem to be unable to change it

>>16577288
Aw cute. Just chill and ya know be yourself. Have a good childhood friend in Wellington we got really close in the last 2 years which has been cool, she use to fancy me and I use to fancy her. This year fucked up a bit and she stopped fancying me. But I can understand and we still good friendos. Worried about her cause she loves football and next year she has 2 get an op and I'm scared she'll get depressed like she did this year cause she developed anorexia. She gonna have a great future but I'm scared she would do something she would regret and destroy herself. When she's in lain she goes all blank and gets really grumpy.

>>16577288
Mate, change starts with you. Go to a mirror, look at yourself and ask is this who I am, is this what I deserve is this how I want to continue my life. I had to do that this year, I hated being inactive, lazying around and just feeling stupid. 6months ago I decided Ive had enough so I decided to try my hardest to change, I'm still changing. I don't want to be that fat clown, that guy who was sad, angry and bitter. I wanted to be happy, happy with myself and the people in my life. So I quit my pleb tier band, started going for runs *with some good tips and motivation from a friend* told people that I was angry, that I wanted to change and those that laughed in my face and mocked my decision I just cut em off. I'm way happier now. No regrets, also rejection Was a big indicate how fucked up I had became. So change for u mate, make yourself happy, sure u stumble and fuck up, but just get the fuck back up and bring on the next challenge.

got severely bitten by a dog at work (animal shelter), thinking about if the dog will be euthanized or not and what options she would have if she wasn't

and how my crush is too fucking far away

>>16577428
oh, and it's about six pm

>>16573622
It's currently 9:07 pm. today at work my mom sent me a text that reminded me of her and I had to fight tears. i went outside and smoked three cigarettes. when i got back in i was very distracted bumping into things and such.

I'm thinking about mentally preparing myself for a ~350ug acid trip coming up on sunday! So excited!!!

>>16577682
But what time is it?

>>16577685
It is 7:23 good sir

10:57
realize how my reclusiveness has pushed all my friends away now I'll be spending new years alone.I back out of plans due to overthinking, and I don't know what to do. reach out or live like a hermit...
the shit you think of when you're alone is scary

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1:07 am and I'm thinking of Chewie crying for Han Solo :c

11:08.
Just finished a book series, thinking about how underwhelming the ending was and how the characters deserved better. Thinking about how shit people are.

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4:28AM, GF's on the other side of the world...

>Nothing i can do about it...

>>16573622
It's 11:26 and I'm seriously considering removing all thoughts of women from my mind for a long period and just focusing on self-actualization and concrete goals. I'm young so I figure I'll have lots of time to lose my virginity after I do this but I'm not sure.

>>16577859
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>>16577959
Witcher series.

>>16577952
It was 11:36 when I wrote this, first goal should be getting glasses.

01:39 am

Thinking about people I recently cut off contact with, especially one girl who I've known for almost 3 years and was attracted to. Didn't treat her as well as I could have, the months prior to cutting ties with her.

>>16577963
Ah, you've read in polish or in english translation?

>>16577988
English. The ending felt pretty rushed but it may have just been the bad fan translation.

>>16575115
He didn't respond

I'm fucking pathetic

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Some fucking faggot spoiled episode 7 for me and I'm incredibly pissed about it
I didn't even expect it to be a good movie I just wanted to go in dark for fuck sake
Its not even trolling, it's just being mean to get replies
fucking shitting cocksucking cuntwaffle REEEEEEEEEEEE

>>16577997
yes you are, needy twat

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>>16573622
Too late, need to get to bed.

Thinking about how my gf did something sexual with a professor years ago, even though I know she is a different person now. Every once in a while it eats at me, thinking about how screwed up that is. Not sure what to do rather then just realize she's different now.

>>16578012
Why so upset at a random stranger?

It was the first message I sent him on Facebook
I hoped he'd respond because I'm leaving tomorrow and now I won't see him before I go

11:51 pm

I'm in turmoil, I'm a british expat studying in a US community college, A grade student 4.0 GPA.

The school is under a warning of accreditation loss, It costs me a fortune to go here because I am an international, and this is the first time I have ever put conviction behind my school work, my grades are evident of this. My qualifications from england however are less than impressive and I would maybe get into a shoddy university by august if I were to quit and go back home now without running the risk of wasting more money on a school that might shut down within the year.

The only issue is I would be back in england living with my mother, and I would probably regress back to the piece of shit I was with nothing to do but a useless job to pass the time for another year.


End it all

5 til midnight. I can't help but sometimes think that I was my girl's second choice even though she loves me more than I can explain. When we met 4 years ago she had absolutely no interest in me, rejected me, and dated a colleague of mine. After they broke up after 2 and half years of dating she hooked up with me 6 months later. Why am I still a fucking insecure bitch about about this every now and then?

12:06am

Glad I won't have to worry anymore. Enjoying my vacation and will be gone by next year to fully enjoy life. Might visit her by spring.

12:30 AM. After a busy day of shopping and prepping food for my house's annual christmas party tomorrow, my boyfriend just got a text from our roommate- the one who volunteered to be responsible for and to throw the party this year- that he won't actually be here tomorrow, until maybe an undetermined time, because he's going to do something for a friend. He said he has to go "watch his friend give birth." I don't really know if he means that literally or any backstory behind it, he just dropped that on us just now. He's not even here. I dunno where he is or if he's coming home tonight. And now my bf and i are pretty upset about it.

This roommate- we can call him S.- got to pick the date for the party and chose tomorrow specifically because he doesn't have work that night. But my bf and I, who usually do most of the party stuff but let him be in charge this year because he asked to, both have work tomorrow and can't come to the party til after we get out. In my case, I don't get out until very late, maybe 10pm or 11pm, and in bf's case he won't be out til about 4pm, an hour before the party's set to start. We had everything planned out to do some of our last minute stuff concerning the food we wanted to contribute in the morning before work, but we were really counting on S. to help clean up around the house because our place isn't really presentable for a party, and to do some of the other basic things to get ready. Now we may try to scramble to do it ourselves early in the morning. Bf is especially upset and considering calling out of work tomorrow. I think he's worried because there are a lot of guests that will probably consider him the actual host since he's done it in the past, and so he feels responsible.

I don't really know if I should confront S. about this or if there's anything I can really do. Mostly I'm just upset because this has been an important tradition to our household and I hate seeing it spoiled.

>>16573622

It's 5:35 AM and I'm thinking "why the fuck am I not asleep yet"

11:35

I just had a cute girl that really likes me come over to my house for the first time, but because I can't for the life of me be normal and not awkward I feel TERRIBLE now that she's gone. She even made plans to hang out again, but because I feel like I don't have an identity and can't just talk to her like a normal human, I don't care.

10:38

Just got home from Star Wars and feeling like my relationship is falling apart

feels in numerous directions

>>16578156
Sorry anon.
But how was Star Wars?

12:01AM
Thinking of how it has been over six years since I last saw him and I have absolutely no way to contact him.

1:06 AM I'm thinking about how I to not screw up this college thing and not live the rest of my life in debt with nothing to show for it

1:14am, thinking of him. How I miss his hugs and his good morning texts every morning at 4am before he went to work

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1:10 AM

Had a date with a cute girl. Made out a bunch of times, had a few drinks, played Dance Dance Revolution and pool in an arcade, had an all around fun adventure. She told me she brought a change of clothes and didn't have anything to do the next morning. Being the idiot that I am, I didn't invite her up to my apartment when she dropped me off. Now she's not returning my texts.

It's been three days and I still feel like shit about it. I really liked this girl and I don't want to go back to hooking up with lame Tinder sluts to forget about her. This girl was so cool but I just don't understand why she'd just cut contact after we had such a nice time. I know I should have invited her up and I know I'm a dumbass, but I really wanna salvage this.

I'm probably gonna record her a song tomorrow after my final and ask if she wants to collaborate on music this weekend. If she ignores that, then I guess I have to move on. But I'll be damned if I don't give this one more shot because I think she could be an awesome person to have around.

>>16578212

eh

>how much nostalgia and feelgood can we pack into 2 hours
>lets remake episode 4

>>16578285

Dude it is over, she moved on. She hasn't returned any of your texts. Meaning she has seen your text and then ignored it. What girl who is interested in a guy she likes would do that?

Save yourself the embarrassment and just move on. You fucked up but at least you learned as lesson to take initiative next time.

04:20. I need to wake up in one hour.

I'm trying to think about the college exam I'll do at 07:30, but actually I'm thinking about her. Not the girl I'm hanging around with, not my ex- who I discussed with just today, but her, illa Lesbia, illam amo.

>>16578302

Why are you up when you have an exam in 3 hours?

>>16578306
Insomnia.
Don't worry about that, though - I'm often doing that, and it goes okay.

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06:24, thinking about how I went to bed seven hours ago but still haven't been to sleep because I keep having to get up to pee every half hour. That probably means I'm getting old (38), which while better than being dead is not really a good thing.

>>16578310

You are an idiot, this isn't a midterm or a quiz this is a final exam. You need maximum rest and preparation to do well on it.

You will regret it, I bet on it.

>>16578290
Dang, I was afraid of that. People keep praising it, but from the spoilers I read it sounds like they just copy+pasted elements from other movies into it. I'll just wait till it's being shown in the dollar theater then.

>>16578328
>>You are an idiot, this isn't a midterm or a quiz this is a final exam.
Actually, it's a substitutive exam - due to a strike, my classes went "weird", I'll have the final exams in January. I'm just aiming for some pluses, not the whole thing.

>>16578328
Also, I did try to sleep. I couldn't.

12:26am

My gf just told me she had sex with her ex boyfriend a couple weekends ago. We've only known each other for a month and a half approximately, and I mean, our relationship wasn't official, so idk if I should let it slide.

I was a virgin before her, it just feels weird. I told her if she wants anything serious with me, we have to be exclusive. And we left it at that. She's willing to do that. I'm willing to do that. As long as it stays like that, I'm okay... I think? It's a little confusing. Maybe I'm just a huge cuck.

It's 1:30am... I'm trying to figure out what the fuck happened at work tonight... Or last night I suppose... Either way.. If I don't get drunker quicker it's going to be a long night.

>>16578334

i mean a ticket was only $10. worth the $10 just to go on opening night and see all the cosplay and stuff. but the movie was just aight. meh.

>>16578340

leave

>>16578348
Nah, I don't think I will. Now if I ever find out it happens AGAIN, I'm done.

>>16578340

Umm anon I am experienced with enough women to fill a small notepad and so I will skip the emotional shit and say to leave her. She will cheat on you again and that is something that is guaranteed to happen.

Believe me this happened to twice to me and both times they cheated after the water works and the pleading it would never happen again. For your sanity, I urge you to cut this off but do it face to face.

>>16573622
12:40 AM. Thinking about how I ended up living with my folks again.

>>16578340
shit's sideways nowadays with social media and the internet. girls can fuck their ex or some old fwb pretty much forever on the down low and no one will ever know because they don't run in the same circles. knowing this, expectations are low so you don't even expect a new romantic interested to be faithful to you because you know they're probably fucking someone else already because it's so easy for them. disgusting. what can you do? treat her like a piece of pussy and nothing more, don't ever get wrangled by a female

>>16578359
Can i just wait until I find out it happens again if it ever does? I can use her roommate to spy on her. I cold easily bribe her in an emergency.

1:43 thinking about the most painless and quick way to die.. just curious.

>>16578371

I think you are wasting your time and not respecting yourself as a person. She cheated on you with her ex early on the relationship.....for gods sake she didn't even wait a full month. What does that say about you? She probably doesn't looks down on you and still has sex with her ex.

Dude I know she was your first and that the idea of losing your virginity to a slut isn't pleasing to know but at least you experienced it and can move on to a women who actually likes you.

>>16578297

i don't get her rationale though. like who does this chick think she is?

1:51am
I have to get up earlier than usual tomorrow and I really don't want to. Worse I'm going to need to get up at 7am or so on Saturday. I've been going to bed at 4am lately and I need to fix my sleeping pattern. I get tired easily enough and I fall asleep and stay asleep quickly, I just lack self-discipline.

Taking the gun I have on my hip and putting a round through my brain. So, not much I guess.

>>16578404

A person who doesn't handle rejection well at all. She is probably used to getting what she wants and decided you weren't the one.

Lesson learned, don't fuck up your chance.

22:54. I posted in the letters thread today and now I'm sitting here wondering if I should go back and reply to a message an old gf sent me months ago. Dunno yet. I'm currently really lonely, and she was the last girl I had sex with (and more importantly, last girl I cuddled with). I feel like contacting her, even in reply to something she sent, would be in bad taste until I've put something tangible in between my current self and the person I was while we dated - and I think that means at the very least a relationship, since she was, last I checked, in a relationship herself.

The constant reminder of being lonely is also present.

Maybe tomorrow will be better.

>>16578429

i guess so. she was like totally not conventionally good looking though, so i figured she must get rejected a lot. like she had really bad acne, a weird face, and cut her own hair. i just thought she had a cute personality. i only went out with her because she asked for my number and i thought she was funny over text

12:32am I just woke from sleeping all afternoon. Meant to have a quick nap and ended up sleeping for 5hrs. Anyways I'm thinking about my crush and how I didn't get a chance to wish him a Merry Christmas, or compliment him on his new haircut.

1:47 PM
>tfw crushing on a prof who's married
>tfw Christmas break so I won't see her until January

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The fag who destroyed my hole Life he was arrogant and he like to tell everybody how much better he are

I got offered 150€ to get fucked in the ass.
I'm a straight male but I could really use those money.

Should I accept? Will I get some nasty diseases if I blow him without a condom?

>>16579007
Please tell me English isn't your first language.

>>16579055
Say you'll do it for 300
If you're going to do it negotiate a better money brah

>>16573622
It's almost 3 pm here. Thinking about how to set up a third date for sunday, what to do, etc...

7 AM.
Thinking about how to save mankind from evil. I can't believe a girl I know is an atheist. It's really depressing...atheism is just so dead...there's nothing I can do to convince her, she's been brainwashed

>>16579063
I can't ask for more
>he asked if I wanted to get fucked in the ass
>I answered only if you pay me
>How much?
>150
I-I thought that nobody would be that retarded to accept to spend 150€ for something like that.

It must feel good to have all that disposable income

2.51 PM

Laughing at what a cliché I am for "having nothing to wear" when going out today though the closet is filled with all kinds of clothes. Still do not want to wear any of it.. Damnit.

>>16579075
Lol...Muslims must be getting cucked hard in a world that revolves heavily around money. You can't work hard and expect sustainable living in EU, you have to be the lazy fatass who everyone works for.

>>16578570
Just go for teh beta male and make him alpha

>>16579077
I wish I had the excuse that I'm a poor mudslime immigrant with no money, but I'm italian.

>tfw parents made a shitton of debts

>>16579007
Holy fuck anon life must be tough, he is telling everybody how much better he is than you. And you can't even deny it with spelling like that.

>>16579074
You like said girl? And just can't date an atheist? Also is being an atheist really that bad. It's just having no religious views.

My dad is pissing me the FUCK off right now because he's been saying he'll pay for my semester for two weeks but he's been holding it off and blaming me while I've been studying. Now I'm fairly sure I can't get into the classes I want/need to transfer and get the fuck out of my house. I'm so pissed off I can't stop thinking about it. Fucking drunk asshole

>>16579168
It'll all be okay. get drunk with him so you two are on the same level of understanding then you may see where he is coming from. Although drunk people tend to have no level of understanding.

>>16579184
I would but I have to leave my house. I'm doing something important today too and I feel like I'm going to be annoyed all day.

>>16579200
Really what are you doing today?

9:48.
Have my last exam in a few, scared I'm going to fail it. It won't mean failing the class, I'm just disappointed in myself about this semester. I could've done so much better and I just didn't try at all.

>>16579203
First day at a new job.

>>16579206
Same. I wanted the GPA boost so bad. Treat it as a reminder to work harder semester so you won't feel that way. As someone that used to fail hard, take pride in passing.

17:07ish

Just thinking about the times when I actually had somewhere to go hang for christmas. Now that my family is dead I got nowhere to go.
Propably gonna end up in a bar to pretend like I'm not lonely.
Or drugs.

whichever.

>>16573622
9:26
Last day of school, thinking about the trip we're going to right after I get out.

Spent 800 skelly bones on new equip instead of waiting a week.

Probably will spend more this month but deservedly so.

Will be going to a big party that's out of town in a few days.

Already know where to take family. Might get something nice this week gonna laugh when I get it.

Not sure what we're doing for New Years yet.

Just booked a trip for next year to visit friends overseas.

Bittersweet holidays but it is what it is. Want everyone good in my life to have a good holiday actually.

7:41 am, just got done working an over-nighter shift. I've been up for 24 hours. I'm thinking about how hungry I am and debating if I should sleep or eat.

17:00 Feeling bad about not learning to my final exam which i'll take at 19:00 :/

>>16573622
>11:09 AM
>thinking about how I'll never be sccessful in having a meaningful relationship with the opposite gender. how im 26 and havent met anyone id be interested in romantically my entire life except for one woman who rejected me.
>thesefeels.jpg

>>16573622

I don't love her and I'm 26. She can't get the message and uses her fake crap to get orbiters around her.

>>16575025
What did you do?

>>16579399

Histrionics anon

>>16575589
>>16579404
You gave my bf lessons.

07:27 pm
I just have no idea what to do or where to start.

1:32 PM

I really wish I could masturbate right now

10:28

Roommate is being kind of a faggot. He started seeing this girl I had a small crush on, which honestly isn't even that big a deal, but it happened on a day where I was already in a bad mood and it just kinda fucked me up for the rest of the day. I expressed my frustration the next day, then later went back and cleared things up a little - it was still kind of shitty to do, but honestly the biggest problem was that I was having a bad day, which isn't something he can control.

Now, though, he's walking on eggshells around me which is WAY worse. I don't want you to think I'm some fragile piece of shit. I don't care if you're seeing her - obviously if she's into you and you're into her you give it a fucking go - just don't pretend like she's just a friend, and don't try to avoid talking about her if that's what you're excited about. If I can't deal with it I'll leave, cause that's on me.

Fuck dude.

1:33 PM
My hand itches and I need to pee.

12:41.

I just farted and it was hot and reeks at my cubicle. At least I hope I farted. I'm gonna check on that.

7:42 about to go to the gym

>>16573622
1:49pm
Doubting my relationship. A guy last night was hitting on me hardcore. My boyfriend and I keep having fights. I have both of their messengers open on facebook right now. Trying to gain the courage to talk to either of them.

1:49

Pissed off I'm being used. Big changes happening in 2016 one way or another. Fuck this.

Pissed off can't stop going ballistic over my friend leaving. S why did you, how could you?

>>16579621
Boyfriend first, regardless of what you actually say. For better or worse, you're in a relationship with him and that carries certain expectations. Even if all you were to do is tell him you're over, you still need to do that before getting closer with a guy that was hitting on you. There are good and bad ways to do that, but if you're going to do it, break up needs to happen first.

Only exception would be if you just told the guy hitting on you to back off, in which case go for it. But I'm not getting that vibe.

>>16573622
8:11 PM
Thinking of fapping to some fat lesbians

19:14 - Thinking about suicide. These meds aren't working.

Think I have brain damage almost crashed my car the other day.

14:25 thinking about my cat

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21:28 and I am wondering what the fuck I am doing with my life.
I am so god damn lonely. I have been a social recluse most of my life, so I don't know how to interact with people well, let alone with females. All of my peers are dating, or getting fucking married, yet I have never even held hands with a girl. And by now, the wast majority of chicks my age already have experienced dating, romance and sex, while I am at the age of 22, am just as inexperienced as I was when I was 12.

I probably should go to sleep.

I'm too brain damaged to talk to girls and even my driving skills are fucked. I can't be a junkie all my life. This has to change. I'm not even mid twenties yet.

>>16579642
I know what you mean. I don't want to dump my boyfriend. I rather work on our problems.

This guy isn't bugging me anymore. It might have been a drunk thing. So I guess I don't have to tell him to back off.

>>16578023
Where are you going? And why can't you be together with him?

I used to have a huge crush on this guy, had a kinda ldr with him for about a year (weekends and special dates through skype, sent each other cute stuff for birthday, sexted and send pics/vids a lot, etc.) but we can't made things "official" due to the distance between us. We don't talk as much anymore since then.
The thing is that we have the same group of friends, and they don't know about "us" (idk if he has talked about it with one of them); he says that he's coming to my country for a while to pay a visit and I'm sure they would prepare a party for him, and surely they'd invite me.
I really want to see him even if we can't be together but I don't want to mess things up, and thus, I don't know if he wants to see me.

>>16579908
5:50 pm.

>>16573622
Why am I shit at everything I do? Am I destined to be sub-par?

>>16580770
You're born to be that way, it's better for us who actually have ambition. Less competition.

01:53 AM
Thinking about how my friend is sending me massive mixed signals and not knowing how to deal with it.

03:54 am

Wondering if I'm still in love with him. Hoping I'm not, that would make our friendship much easier.

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11:44pm
Thinking about why i can never keep a conversation going for longer then 5mins when talking to girls, lost over 165lb been lifting for 6 years now pretty fit. STILL CANT talk to girls just fuck up every time never know what to say, i dont drink alcohol shit kills you're gainz plus just dont like going to bars feel really unconformable and not welcome also i dont like people. i hate my self how can i fall in love with someone if i cant even love my self?

11:15pm
Finished all my classes, will start doing practice soon. I'm a male psych student... And I feel very incompetent. Finishing out of obligation, but unsure where my life's going next.
My fault, really, never sought out special hobbies and played vidya too much. Didn't seek out a girl either, i can hardly put up with myself.

6:20 am
Im lying in my bed an thinking about drowning myself or jumping infront of a train
Literally no reason to not do it

>>16573622
3:28 am

Im upset because i lostbmy wallet and it had all my shit in it. License, cards, few hundred in cash. I retraced my steps, checked my car, even had the employees of the laser-tag arena i was at look in the arena. Nothing. Im hoping some good someritan found it amd will return it ik the morning or something, but im honestly not sure. At this point in dont even care about the cash, I just want my license and cards back

4:11 AM and thinking about how I should be asleep instead of browsing and posting on 4chan

>>16581312
Don't do it. It's 5:44am and I'm thinking of you. Don't fucking do it.

>>16579682
See your doctor asap

5:47 am. I want to leave my boyfriend. I'm thinking of his happiness over my own as fucking always. I can't go on like this.

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10:47 PM.
I really, really hate my boyfriend's ex. She dated him for four years and never let him see her in person.
She let him spend thousands on her.
She abused him. She didn't care about him.
She was a huge cunt.
I bet the little bitch cheated. She just added on to the pile of people who treated him like shit.

I want her dead, or at least for her life to go down the shitter. You cannot just hurt a kind soul like him that much. I give him way more love than she is even capable of feeling.
She's recently set her steam profile to private. She looks depressed. If she tries to contact him because she suddenly misses him, there will be hell to pay.
Even the mere mention of her name makes me almost vomit.
I've been through my fair share of shitty guys, and he is the first one to be genuinely nice in years.
To know that some stupid bitch did this to him, amongst others...enrages me. If murder was legal, I would save up and buy a fucking plane ticket to disembowel her.
Since it isn't, my hands are tied. All I can do is hope her life goes downhill and she ends up homeless and addicted to heroin or something.

>>16582058
Her name is cc I imagine
How many more posts are you gonna make about her before you move on??

>>16582084
Does this concern you? Unless you are her, there's no need to reply. I'm just posting in vent threads, much like all the other anons.
Tonight's not a good night for me. I gotta release this somewhere before the tension gets to be too much.

12:15pm

Thinking about her. Cant wait to see her again. She's afraid of moving too fast, I dont mind. I dont give up on what I like

Also thinking of the week of work I have ahead of me and how fun its gonna be to get home and see my family and dog.

>>16582058
>She dated him for four years and never let him see her in person. She let him spend thousands on her.
1. that's not dating
2. do you even know what dating is?
3. your boyfriend either was happily paying someone to talk to him because he's gross and sad or is dumb as shit.

>>16582115
Believe me I know it was dumb of him to be in that for so long. We're young and he entered that relationship when he was like 16 or 17.

>>16573622

8am and didn't sleep. Obsessed over the fact that I'm blocked from my gf's instagram and she says her friend must've done it but hasn't reverted it. Even asked how to unblock me and I told her. Still didn't do it. It's been like a month. Meanwhile she's getting pissy that I'm always down about talking to her because she won't do simple shit like that. There's also a guy that says shit on these pics and she got mad that I called him her instagram bf. LOLOLOL WOMEN

>>16573622
8:45 a.m.

Her.

>>16573622
8:11 am
Got a job haven't had one in a year now I'm waiting for an email telling me what to bring and shit for my first day. Thinking about what to buy my mom and stepdad with my first check since they'v put up with this for so long without kicking me out or getting on me about my joblessness.

2200 awst

My stepbrother is having a party out in the garage. went out there. smells of green everywhere.

i hate drugs.

how can my father allow this to happen in his house.

now my eyes hurt and i constantly smell fly spray.


my issue is that i cannot join any gathering of more than 3 people anywhere because it ends in abusing drugs.

why is this normal?

>>16582288
Get the stick out of your ass. If you want to live sober cool whatever but getting upset other people want to get blasted is dumb as fuck.

It's 9:40AM EST, and I'm currently thinking about my ex fiancee of 3 years who just started dating someone I thought was my friend and how I thought I was finally over it and as soon as I find out they're officially together I come crashing down hard and want to self destruct. So I'm drinking an 11% ABV beer with a shot of whiskey and smoking a bowl because that's my only coping mechanism.

Cripplingly lonely right now. YAY! Maybe a plane engine will fall on my room like in Donnie Darko.

6:35. 6 hours off work left and I'm already so stressed that I've crossed into anxiety territory and have to fake being okay, which makes me more stressed. Working in a department I'm not familiar with that needs tons of work before opening cause it got shopped super hard yesterday, and the other guy who has seniority apparently doesn't feel like doing things properly today, so I can't even do my job cause the list of things we need to stock wasn't put together right and I can't bury myself into just working it.

Top that off with an attempt to take my first break by myself interrupted by a co-worker (nice guy, but I don't feel like I can interact with people if I intend to make it through the rest of the day intact), and I'm seriously fucking worried about how I'm going to make today work. It's only a matter of time before a manager comes by and lays into me cause the department I'm working in looks like shit.

No break after work either cause my roommate is being a faggot and I can't fucking deal with it right now.

God damn can I please catch a break somewhere fuck

17:02

I want to know what's going on with him, but he is moving through a phase. I text him several times everyday, to check him. He didn't answer me. But a few days ago he told me that he appreciate what I do for him, and that he see how hard I'm trying.
Ugh. I just wish he told me what's going on with him, I really care about him.

>>16573622
It's 3:52 in the morning and I'm thinking about my ex

also thinking about buying a porn video from clips 4 sale, it's from robomeats. they do timestop porn with American girls and Odette Delacroix does one where she's a nun who gets timestop-raped.

>>16582326
Man, posting this really helped my morning. Opening went better than anticipated and only one manager got on my case. I managed to just choose a thing to do before moving on, and that helped to focus me a lot.

>>16582588
Seriously though, Odette's a cutie. She delivers dirty talk like she's reading it from a teleprompter, but with timestop it's like WHAT THE HEY!

7:00

Became a cokehead, pothead and a porn addict. My car, job and my gang are my only best friends. Nothing else matters now. I'll wait before getting another tattoo again.

9:20

Been thinking about my old friend before I sleep and I have been getting nightmares. This is the worst, my job is in the shitter, I think I'm bipolar and I'm just angry all the time. How can someone just leave, move on and forget you. Fuck, I don't think it's my fault.

1:21

I'll make sure everyone remembers good or bad. I don't care anymore no one walks away unscathed. Fuck think I am bipolar I can't stop having tourretes.

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Its 1:27pm and all I can think of is how ill never become a soccer player.

1:34 pm
thinking about him like always. i'm sorry

>>16582788
Your friends are convinced I'm you, it's mildly intriguing.