>Be me >Finishing up my medical residency >My hot fiancee

How are you in med school and you don't know how depression works?

>>16498700

That's the thing, I don't think that this is depression. Also

>implying I'm a Psychiatrist

>>16498702
sounds like textbook depression

talk to someone

>>16498702
Look dude, I've taken exactly 1 bio class my entire life and I'm pretty sure depression is also caused by something going wrong in brain chemistry and not necessarily affected by how great our life may be going

Also you wanted to kill yourself tonight, and you don't think this is depression or some kind of mental problem? Well if you don't want to see a therapist/psychiatrist that's your call

>>16498697
>How can things be so great while I feel like such shit?

What other people tell you that you want may not be what you actually want. Just having your life all planned out and settled makes a lot of people feel unhappy and trapped.

If it makes you feel better Anon you have the life I never be able to accomplish.
>be disabled femon
>smart but audiotary dyslexia that is bad and short term memory loss

M-maybe Anon since you are a med student you could research into audiotary dyslexia. I have known I have had it since I was 8 but they basically told me I had to figure things out on my own which did not help.

I really appreciate you helping Anon I have been to so many specialists now and I just want to be normal and function at the pace my brain does for everything else. If I was in your boots I would go off on my own and randomly help people. I find helping people really helps my depression.

There are a group of people in Quebec that wear super hero costumes and carry around a first sid kit to help the homeless. They do it so they can not be followed by how their face looks and so they stand out if anyone needs their help.

>>16498741

Might be part of it, but it's not lie I don't have the option to do a dozen different things with my degrees.

>>16498756

Well that's shitty. I wish I could help you out somehow. Neuroscience is always getting better.

>>16498697
Obviously all those spiritual folks were right all along and there is no happiness to be found in material wealth and achievement alone. The fulfillment of desire only begets more desire, which turns to disillusionment and eventually despair.

Try looking into some spiritual shit like meditation, or yoga, or tai-chi or whatever and devoting time to be of service to others without expecting anything in return. I joined a community service group lately, and I'm really enjoying it. I do self-esteem building work in it and hang out with some really great people. It's improved my life a lot and i lurk a lot less

Welp anon, I'm in the same position as you, just got the aprotunity of a lifetime, should be the happiest in the world, but im kinda stressed and question the path i took in life. Not that i dont appreciate it, im excited as hell to start, but its just this woble woble in my head. I think its normal to feel a little scared standing in front if this new chapter in life, you should discuss this with your partner she'll be glad to comfort you. You're not suicidal, rather scared of this strict path and not sure you like it, its perfectly normal bud. Remember you're not alone in this combat, from where I come from alot of doctors change profession after seeing its not to their taste,and medicine is a pretty wide subject, you can always go to research, hech even join those settlements in the north pole, they're always looking for docs. The ball is in your court, and you can do a whole lot with it. Best of luck to you anon.

>>16498697
>How can things be so great while I feel like such shit?

Could be a Thyroid problem.

Common signs of an under active thyroid are tiredness, weight gain and feeling depressed.

>>16498697
Have you tried the "Black Jack" route?

>>16498697

Maybe you don't feel worthy of any of it because you have never struggled in your life.

I see this a lot in kids people whose parents paid all their bills. You look around and see other residents who maybe came from the slums of India or another who perhaps was once an illegal immigrant who had to sell oranges with their mom as a kid and you just feel silly standing in the same place as them complaining about your stupid problems.

Any of that sound right?

subconsciously you know the oligarchies days are numbered and your going to be completely fucked when it comes (well at least your bitch is, you'll be needed cause your a doc)