>Be 21, mom wants me to go to Mexico because "Good opportunities in studies"
>She signs me up to this really prestigious university.
>Fucking tuition for a semester is $100,000 pesos. (Roughly $5,600 american dollars)
>Friday was my first day
>Lost as fuck, I can speak spanish but fuck I can't understand the terms they're using.
>Today I told her how I feel, and that I wanna go back to the states and finish my community college.
>She agrees and I even ask her if she's mad at me. Apologize for disappointing her. She says everything is fine, etc.
>30 minutes later her best friend calls.
>She starts talking about how I'm dumb for not taking such opportunity, and that she's sad and disappointed in me. That I won't accomplish shit back in the U.S and will end up like my older brother. That I don't value what I have.
(Older brother is 27, and took him about 7-8 years to finish his associate's since he kept quitting and signing up for school.)
Extremely depressed /adv/, I don't know what to do now. I was certain that I wanted to go back to the US but now I just feel shitty and sad. My mom wants me to move to a country that I haven't lived in in over 10 years. She also expects me to ace a top-notch university? I can't do it, but it hurts how she just said that.
I really want to die now /adv/, what now? Am I a horrible son?
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bumpin' out of serious hurtin'
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>going to college
>in fucking MEXICO
Your mother is fucking stupid. That degree won't be worth the fucking paper it's printed on. You'd be better off in some discount community college degree from Bumfuck Nowhere, Ohio.
>really prestigious university
>Cartelxico
Pick one and only one.
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>>18617055
Exactly you get hooked up right you my friend could be a drug mule , easy money op lots of opportunities to join the fbi too
I need fucking help.
Recently I've been having some troubling dreams.
One of which, was of me talking to myself. And this other copy of myself was telling me how useless everything is and how it would be better for everyone if I were dead. I've also been having dreams of me killing people or of me getting killed.
Wtf is wrong with me? I don't mean to sound like edgy or anything it's just been really concerning.
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What does your conscious mind think?
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How do I get my motivation and drive toward a perfect work ethic back? 2017-08-13 05:28:15 Post No.18617037
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How do I get my motivation and drive toward a perfect work ethic back?
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During freshman year of college, I studied 80+ hours a week and only attained a 3.73/4.0 gpa. However, things changed my sophomore year when I got bronchitis 3 times during my first semester and was given 3 rounds of antibiotics at University Health Services.
I did bad during the winter semester as well. My dog died and my engineering buddy unfortunately committed suicide. I was depressed while studying that year and only got a 2.9/4.0 my sophomore year. I could only study for maybe 42 hours a week maximum. (Note: I ,of course, know to chunk study as in 2 hour session with intermitten 15 minute breaks).
After all that, I can not seem to get back to my 80+ hour self. Please help me and give me the best advice you can. I will appreciate it.
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How tf is it even possible to study for 80hrs? Even 60 seems unjustiied to me. Fuckin asian fags dont evn study that much.
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I may have overstated that. Sorry, I included lecture and lab time as a part of that. I go to a top 20 engineering university, so I have to study a lot to do well. I am a white male.
I would prefer help. Please help me. I do not want my gpa to be in hell.
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Get into a routine and stick with it. You know what the issue is, it's self-discipline.
So... someone know install a VPN directly into your PC and not your browser ?
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For last 2 weeks i have been losing my erection during sex. The first time it happen i was embarrassed but i retained it and we kept going. But ever since i have been losing it everytime we have sex. Have i lost sexual attraction to my partner? I really love him but it is gotten so bad where tonight he wont even talk to me.
Btw im young and we have been dating for 4 months
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You're not really gay
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>>18617045
That would be very interesting if it were true, but we have been fucking since day 1 of our relationship. The sex was amazing but all of a sudden i began losing my erection ):
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Performance anxiety
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Lossing my confidence 2017-08-13 05:03:00 Post No.18617010
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I tried everything to get rid of the bad acne :
>exercise (30mins per day)
>washing my face 2 times per day with 3 different types creams
>stop jacking off ( because of the dht and what not)
I really don't know what to do and it's really fucking me up
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>>18617010
If it's really truly bad, get acutane
If it's just a pimple here and there, get used to it for the rest of your life
I'm 29 years old and I still have pimples. But unless they're severe, you just need to deal
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>>18617010
Grow up.
Literally.
90% of acne is caused by the chemical and hormonal imbalances of adolescence, doing havoc to your skin oil production. (The other 10% is genetic, diet and cleanliness).
When your hormones finally settle down, the acne will stop.
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Acne.org. the regimen they show helped. Had acne literally on every cm of my face. Now its much clearer
How do I overcome shame and embarrassment felt over my past? I did some nasty shit as a teenager, and now that I've mostly grown out of that I can't walk around my town or work without seeing those people I was a dick to before, and freaking out internally. Anybody know this feel?
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Whenever I talk to women, I will almost always start blushing. Every fucking time. I don't act nervous, or even really feel nervous, but I will ALWAYS BLUSH
Had anyone else worked through this kind of thing?
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Nobody gives a single fuck, seriously. You've convinced yourself it's a problem, but the most it could ever cause is for some girl to think that it's adorable and flattering.
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>>18616969
It's a self-generating thing. Because you "know" you're going to blush, you get nervous and blush. Because you sense you're blushing you get even more nervous and blush more.
So let yourself blush. Don't give a damn about it and you'll stop reinforcing the nervousness and you'll stop blushing
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I promise you most people aren't paying enough attention to notice someone else blushing. Unless you're super white and go bright read it's not a problem.
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Don't know information on codeine doses
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I take 10-20 15mg codeine 500mg paracetamol tablets a day and I'm trying to convince myself to stop, I've been doing this for about two years so does anyone know how long abouts it would take to kill me?
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>>18616949
LD50 for codeine is the following
>In adults, ingestion of 7 to 14 mg/kg may cause death. Much higher doses may be tolerated by chronic users. Ingestion of more than 1 mg/kg of codeine in children is capable of producing symptoms, and doses more than 5 mg/kg have caused respiratory arrest.
your liver is going to stop functioning before you overdose.
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Any idea how long of continued use could it take to box my liver? Keeping in mind I've been doing this for 2 years and have at times taken up to 30 or so in a day
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The paracetamol is going to fuck you. Look up how to do a cold water extraction to separate the codeine from the para.
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I've got an associates and from a community college. Next step is transferring to a 4yr university. Pretty much locked down on University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign.
Only problem is, I can't choose what to major in. I'll probably go for computer science, but I don't want to fall into a shitty networking/IT job. I could have just gotten a CCNA if I wanted that. I love taking math courses, so I thought about majoring in mathematics. It looks like there aren't any jobs for people majoring in applied or pure math. Even then, it would be a better option to major in CS for possible careers instead of math. I enjoy chemistry as well. There's something fun about working in a lab with chemicals that I can't describe. I just don't know what careers that would lead into, though, after school. Engineering sounds cool too, but it seems like its getting overpopulated now. Mechanical engineering, electrical engineering are the main options. I kind of looked at med school as well. The university is opening up a med school with an engineering focus soon. The idea of helping create prosthesis and augments is amazing.
My college GPA is high, and that's pretty much all they look at UIUC, so I could transfer into pretty much anything. I can have a strong work ethic and motivation if I know it's something worthwhile. I really want to be someone that helps advance America in some way. Life would be meaningless for me unless, I'm creating something and not just maintaining the world others have built. That's why I don't want something like IT. I know I could do something to help, but I don't have enough information. What can I/should I do? Helping create human augments would be a dream. So would helping with general AI, better robotics, or leaving an impact in any science. What would be the most feasible?
This is pathetic and re-reading it has made me sad.
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>>18616944
As long as you have a degree in STEM you pass the bar for computer jobs. Most programming positions will take physics, math, engineers, computer science degrees. If you have a math degree and know a language and algorithms compared to a physics degree and know the langue and algorithms, then who gives a fuck. And computational mathematics and such end up taking programming like matlab and Haskell, R, so there is a place for them in their own niche
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Biotech is hitting hard this year. In another life I would go for it. I know the work of some electrical engineering professors there, it is impressive, but I agree the area is overpopulated with electric cars and AI.
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>>18616944
you actually sound like you have you're shit together OP (way more then most of the peeps on this board).
Not a stem guy so can't give you specific advice, but I'd check out "what it's worth," put out by the center on education and the workforce by georgetown university.
It's a set of compiled statistics on projected growth, demographics, average salary, etc. in different fields. Could be useful and you might see a sub field you like that pays well you were not aware of.
Is it even possible to turn your life around past the age of 23?
>asian
>college drop out
>kissless, handholdless, contactless virgin
>no job experience
>no friends
>masturbate to cuckold, interracial, raceplay, wmaf porn 1-3 times a day
>no drivers license
>no skills
>no hobbies
>brainlet who can barely stay focused on reading for more than 10-15 minutes
>spend at least 8-10 hours a day on 4chan, minimum
>don't enjoy video games anymore
>don't enjoy anime anymore
>can't watch a show without losing focus
tired of living such a pathetic "life". how can i fix myself?
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>>18616916
I literally lived that life around the same age.
I moved back into my parents, and then I went back to school again, this time with dedication.
You can do it.
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>>18616916
I lost my virginity at 23 as well. Just know that you're probably the only one that gives a fuck about any of those problems. Focus on finding your way and do something you actually want to do. I know that sounds generic but it has to actually click in your head
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>>18616916
my friend was pretty close to that description. ended up losing his virginity to a cute girl at 26 and now is good little wageslave with a baby on the way.
have hope
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I hate my best friend 2017-08-13 04:12:31 Post No.18616898
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I don't work well with people and my best friend is someone who I absolutely despise they don't act anything like they used to except if I don't have them I won't have any friends or interaction with real human beings
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>>18616898
Hate is a strong emotion. Perhaps it's time to cut him/her off and perform maintenance on your life? You don't owe him/her your friendship.
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>>18616902
yup, cut them off if you really feel that way. i cut many people off recently and its honestly better having no friends at the moment than being around people you dislike
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About 169cm
Should i kill myself?
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im 172, i know how yuou feel...
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>>18616885
>Like 2cm under American male average
Just for that???
I'd say yes but because you couldn't handle it if you ever had real problems.
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yes do it
How do I get started learning how to properly meditate? I made a thread here a day or two ago and that was one of the only pieces of advice I got for me problem. I couldn't ask the poster for my info because I lose connection here for whatever reason and can't make replies so I'd really appreciate some help getting started.
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If you want peace of mind and clarity just sit still in a quiet place and empty your mind of thoughts
your brain will work better
if you need something to focus on, pick two stimuli, like the warmth of your chair, the breeze from some wind/air conditioning, a static noise, or warmth of sunlight. pick two things you can feel and focus on both of those at the same time.
build focus and make your mind work better
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>>18616913
But I can't find anywhere quiet. I'm 18 and still in HS and I live with the loudest family in the world. They spend everyday blasting shit music and even if I move up or down a few floors in our apartment complex I can still hear them.
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>>18616877
Google mindfulness meditation.
If you have connection error try "post a reply" button instead of the pop up box.
So, me and some friends are trying to move out soon. We all have money and jobs and such, but there's an issue.
Will someone rent a five bedroom house to five twenty year olds? I don't know if they'll think we will trash the house or something. We definitely won't, as we mostly play video games and are pretty clean people, but how can we explain this to them?
I heard I should just expect a bigger down payment, which is fine. As long as they will rent it to us I don't care.
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>Will someone rent a five bedroom house to five twenty year olds?
Maybe, depends on how you come across and what you do for a living.
Also you say you're pretty clean, but are you sure it's not just because your mothers are there to clean up after you?
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>>18616874
No, I definitely clean up after myself. Not only is my job a cleaning job but my mom has always had me clean a lot and do my own laundry etc
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A five bedroom house doesn't mean a nice house, it could be a standard one. Also, students do fine renting 9 bedroom mansions.
I had one potential landlord who was patronising to me (told me this isn't like my house at home, he thought his place would be nicer than my family home lol). I think he was autistic. We just went somewhere else.