I'm stuck between being lonely and wanting companionship, and yet, I also feel unworthy of love from other people; as if they shouldn't waste their time with me. That I'm not worth it.
Maybe I'm better off alone.
ok
Same. Except I don't really feel lonely outright, and know I don't really -need- sexual or emotional attention. I've always been alone, so the notion of being "'with" someone else is a role I can't put or see myself in, and I assume it would be worse for the other person than their alternatives, despite not having a very solid basis for that either.
Me too.
We could all be alone together! But away from each other.... by ourselves.
Is there any way to stop hating myself as much as I do without prescription drugs or professional help?
You can't do it with prescription drugs or professional help either.
;^)
>>17364040
You can't hate yourself if you're dead ;-)
have you tried therapy or counseling?
A few years ago a friend of mine who worked at a sex shop got me a horse shaped dildo as a gag gift. I threw it in the back of my closet with all of my other toys and completely forgot about it when I got a boyfriend. It has never been used.
Today my boyfriend was helping me clean out my place when he discovered my box of toys in the closet and the dildo. We both laughed and I told him the story and I thought it was funny but then he suddenly said he had to go. I've been sitting here freaking out for the past two hours staring at my phone, should I call or text him something and try to explain?
> tl;dr got a equine shaped dildo as a joke gift and forgot about it until boyfriend found it, wat do?
So is it shaped like a horse, or is it shaped like a horse's dick? Because I know which it probably is, but my mental image is still very confused.
Did he take the dildo with him?
Have you named the dildo
How the fuck do I sort my life out?
Sometimes I feel like I have an issue but I don't know what it is, it's like I'm basically unable to have a "normie" day, especially in relation to hygiene / clothing, which is pretty shameful to admit somewhere else than online.
Basically on any day at all, I'm unable to do more than 3 of the following it seems:
>putting my contact lenses
>showering
>washing hair
>shaving beard/grooming
>brushing teeth
>have decent set of clothes
>have a normal amount of supplies available in my bathroom/kitchen
>wash clothes / have set of clean clothes available on hand
>cook stuff
The reason for this is, once I wake up I have no motivation to make myself "feel better" for the day.
Sometimes I kinda feel like a day is short and it's pointless to do all this shit to appear ok just for 10 hours or so before coming back home.
The real reason I guess is... idk, it's like that, out of all this stuff that is supposed to make me feel good, I have the sensation that the process of doing it will be painful, difficult, unpleasant... for some reason.
Does any body else have this?
Should I see a specialist about this?
You're depressed. Go and see a therapist
>>17364027
well fuck
I've always been like that though, the only times I can act kinda normie is when I'm on holidays with friends but I revert very quickly to my old self anyway
>>17364059
Like you made that list in the op, make it in real life, wake up and dont turn on your computer or tv until you do what it needs to be done
Inb4 some excuse why you need the pc/tv on, if you dont want to solve your issue its ok, but dont pretend you do
I've had Tinnitus for the last 4-5 months and while its slowly normalized to be barely noticeable, something weird has happened to my right ear.
Normally when I speak the sound is balanced. However when I "hum" with my mouth shut, its noticeably louder on the inner part of my right ear and it feels like the sound is slightly vibrating back inward. Any idea what could be the issue?
I tried ear drops to cleanse ear wax and for two days straight it was fine, but then it quickly reverted and now the drops no longer work. The ringing has also slightly intensified in the right ear.
Anyone?
Any of these sounds match it? Which sounds the closest?
http://www.hearing.nihr.ac.uk/public/auditory-examples-sounds-of-tinnitus
>>17364276
Closest would be sound 11 and even then its a lighter/higher pitch and isn't remotely as loud as any of them.
The tinnitus is in both ears but the right ear has become noticeably worse in the last two weeks as well as that issue in my OP where when I hum with mouth closed, it sounds like the sound is "vibrating" in the inner/lower part of my ear.
So I discontinued my use of Antidepressants in early June and it's now been about 40 days.
When I was on Antidepressants my dick didn't work too well.
Now that I'm off antidepressants my dick is in overdrive.
I have a social worker who I have to see about 5 times a week, several times a day and it's been happening that every time I go see her I'll get a boner.
I'm pretty sure that at this point she's noticed, but it's just an awkward thing between us.
How the fuck do I handle this? I'm scared that if this persists she may call me out or she could say that I've sexually harassed her. I'm not trying to flirt with her or anything, just... Like what the fuck do you do in a situation like this?
My current housing program requires me to meet with her every single week as well. Failure to not comply means I'll become homeless.
>>17363999
if she's your social worker she should understand
is she hot?
Tell her exactly what you just told us if she says something. Otherwise, just try not to make a big deal of it.
>>17364247
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I like calling the suicide hotline a bit too much. I don't have money and I can't afford a therapist and it's always a nice sweet girl telling me it's alright.
Do they know who calls a lot? How many people do they have answering? What are the chances of getting the same person twice? I have no friends, no friends whatsoever. I can't cope with my life.
Do they know if you "abuse" the hotline by using it too much to talk to people?
Wanna talk?
>>17363964
I have no friends
I have no family living near me
I have nothing to do
I don't enjoy video games anymore
I don't have anyone to talk to in real life
I don't enjoy walking outside because I have social phobia and being around people makes me so uncomfortable the idea of ever small talking makes me feel physically sick
I have nobody. I have nothing. The only reason I'm alive is so that my parents wouldn't be sad. The idea of them sitting in their couch knowing "Wow he killed himself. My son killed himself" makes me not do it.
But I still want to
If it's a suicide hotline I doubt they care.
Haven't really spoken about this with anybody, so I guess that the best place to open up.
My Mother is overprotictive and controlling of me. A lot of the time she is screaming and bitching at me and says mean things.
My Dad is cool, but sometimes when he is drunk (A lot of the time) He is an asshole is very mean as well.
I never noticed how much of a bitch my Sister is, ever since she moved back in after getting divorced I have noticed that she is so stupid.
Trying to be right in any situation, fucking screams for anything, and has gotten into some huge arguments lately because she is just a bitch.
The closest people in my life literally give me zero motivation, and just make me feel sad, or angry a lot of times.
This has happen for a long time and I am tired of it.
What can I do to change this? I just want to be happy and want people to respect me and treat me right. I want more positive messages, and just feel loved and happy.
I still love my Dad the most because he messes with me the least, and he really is a good person just has his flaws.
Thanks in advance guys.
Its tough because it sounds like you're not in a very healthy family position.
How old are you? What do they say? If you are from the US it is not unheard of for the younger generation to have strained relationships with their family because of lack of productivity. Just in regards to what you said about your mother screaming and bitching. Why does she? Are you lazy? Do you have a college degree and actively looking for a job?
Assuming your family isn't a complete and utter mess and you're just being slightly over sensitive, I would suggest you take steps towards being a productive member of society by either entering or continuing education or getting a job.
If you're underaged you need to get your act together fast and family issues, outside of abusive situations, are part and parcel of growing up.
>>17364047
I'm 18.
My mom has called me plenty of things like useless, faggot and etc.
Sometimes it's over anything.
Honestly I like being on my computer a lot, and I don't really help out that much.
I still shouldn't be treated like shit because of it though.
>>17364066
>Honestly I like being on my computer a lot, and I don't really help out that much.
Thats not healthy, especially at your age. You're young and you can't imagine how upsetting it is for parents to watch their children sit their like zombies. I've seen it for myself. Its a vicious cycle, parents get stressed and vent frustration, the child withdraws even further into computers.
You need to get out of the house and do something with your life. Are you at least in education? If not, then, while I don't agree with how your mother and father treat you, I can sympathize with them.
You're 18 and wasting away on your computer. You aren't learning skills or going out to socialize and meet people. Despite what you may read on other boards, normie and all that other crap, going out and socializing is GOOD for you.
That doesn't mean you go out and get shitfaced or go to strip clubs, but just being with people. Online interaction like we're doing now is not a substitute to having live, healthy relationships.
Get your act together and stop being so sensitive. Be productive, pro-active and watch your familial relations improve dramatially as well as your own view on them.
First time poster here. What is this website? I don't really get it and recently my boyfriend has been spending less time with me and more time on here. I always catch him on here but he tabs to something else. So what sort of website is it?
I don't have many memes on my phone so sorry for the image with this post.
>>17363880
Anonymous image board site where autists gather and talk/post about random topics
The topic depends on the board
Like tumblr with worse porn.
Nice bait. Anyway, pick "random" section from starting page and you'll know.
What's the best country to disappear to? I live in the UK, not happy with my life at all, thought about it for a year and a bit. I plan on leaving my country and everyone I know including parents, to live by myself. I would prefer somewhere with beautiful mountains and is kinda warm. Anyone have a similar experience either?
I would join you OP, the Swis alps or some shit haha.
>>17363876
You could move to Canada?
Its a cold, snowy winter, but if you live somewhere like southern Alberta or British Columbia where it's generally a bit warmer, much sunnier and you live right near the mountains it's pretty nice.
Pic related is downtown Calgary, Alberta. I don't know if it's a common thing elsewhere in the world but in Calgary we get "chinooks", these warm mountain winds that can bring the temperature back up to about 15 Celsius even in the middle of the winter.
>>17363938
Thanks for the advice, and I'm moving next year I'm sure of it
I believe I am mentally disabled because I neglected a part of my life where it was crucial for me to attempt to understand and challenge my brain.
For the first 13 years I was a complete little shit.
I refused to do school work and anything that mentally challenged me.
At this point im 19 and I've completely given up home for me to learn anything new.
I have no true passion, I get EASILY discouraged and I always forget a information while in the process of learning that subject. And when I say forget I mean I'm talking about chapters upon chapters.
Medication is out of the question too because if there was a medication that improved/helped peoples memories, then why wouldn't everyone take it?
Is there really any hope for me?
I've just considered to completely give up on my dream on getting a degree in CS/CE.
And to clarify on how retarded I am. I just BARELY past high school and I should had been held back at least 4-5 times but somehow didn't.
I have tried studying for short bursts such as 15 min three times a day for a couple days and I still fail tests. I study for hours and still fail tests
Summary:
I believe I have a learning disability and I have no way to work around it. Please help
You are thinking too much about the past which is why you cannot focus on the present or member stuff. Start off creating a hello world program. Then try simple operations. Better yet go on codecademy. You can repeatedly do exercises until you are master programmer. Good luck.
See if you have a learning disability and maybe try to get ADHD or ADD medication. That might help but removing ingrained habits will take a lot of will power and won't just happen immediately. Your still young so you could go to trade school and learn something more hands on and still make great pay. If your still going to stick with your major see what languages are taught in the introductory course, get a few books and try to learn it over the summer. If you can't do that you might want to reevaluate what exactly you want to do. But saying I'm lazy, I can't do the work is a self fulfilling prophecy and if you don't want to do the work it's a lot easier to just not do it instead of biting the bullet. Even if u have a learning disability medication can only do so much, so you gotta really give it your all these next few years if you don't want to flip burgers for the rest of your life. Hope that was helpful
>>17364334
Yeah, it was. Thank you.
>>17364131
Thank you too.
Is 18 and 15 a weird age difference? It's legal in my country btw, and I really like her but don't want people to think I'm a creep or something
Yea, especially if you're out of highschool and she isn't.
>>17363849
Yeah, I just graduated and she has 3 years left. Damn, I never thought about it this way.
It's fine man, that isn't a huge gap. It's quite common so just go for it.
I just got a job at a gas station a month ago, and I've gotten really sick twice in that time, causing me to miss work, and that looks very bad.
How can I stay healthy?
I'm a fit guy: I exercise, sleep 6-9 hours a night, eat well most of the time, and I don't even drink anymore.
I'm blaming handling all the cash given to me by these rednecks who come in three times a day on getting me sick so far.
>>17363824
There isn't much you can do about a shitty immune system.
>>17363827
I usually don't get sick often, normally just like a minor cold twice a year.
I moved from a really urban area to a really rural area in a different state, so I don't know if that makes a difference.
>>17363824
Anything else?
There's this girl from highschool I always sort of liked who asked me to homecoming dance once and I said no because I was socially awkward and thought she was joking to make fun of me, but she wasn't. She's really nice and a real legitimate Christian (unfortunately but whatever)
It has been 6 years since that and I still sort of regret it. I looked her up on Facebook and she doesn't seem to have a boyfriend, but she lives far away. Should I message her?
What do I say?
>>17363799
Note that my Facebook is literally empty with 0 friends, I just have it as a junk account and kind of haven't ever used Facebook for real.
Do it. Nothing to lose.
Yeah do it, but why the hell it's 0 friends man ?
Hey guys, I'm beyond desperate
i dont even know if I can convey it properly here
I'm trying to break up with my girlfriend of almost two years and i simply cant rip the band aid off. Im sure i want to do it, im miserable. But i cant hurt her, I literally cannot force myself into having that conversation. Its literally been months of me not sleeping and pretending I want to spend time with her. I know its pathetic we can acknowledge im a weakling right here.
I dont know what to do anymore. I dont have a clue I get so close to pulling the trigger every time and i never can. I dont know how to force myself. Literally stayed up the whole night last night gearing myself up to do it whne i saw her this morning but I failed again. I feel like im gonna puke.
Is there any help to be had or am i just too weak.
do it for her
you will be hurting her more by dragging it out. Pull of the band-aid, and you're trading temporary pain for a drawn-out, fucked up situation. Allow her to have her heart broken fast, so that she can get over it fast. It's the right thing to do, but it won't feel good.
>>17363792
I'm was in the same situation mate, I had the talk and she convinced me to back out.
Later on we thought she was pregnant, but luckily it was a false alarm.
You might not be as lucky desu senpai. Don't worry about what it will do to her, she has to mean nothing to you now, just tell her you do not feel the same way anymore then leave.
Make sure you are prepared when you leave.
Christ haha
alright yeah. I should know theres no way around it. I just cant gather the strength... I try turning my emotions off I try to act courageous I try to be a dick it hasnt worked. But ill keep trying. Ill either grow into a person that can do this or I wont and ill be miserable forever...