About a month ago I had the worst string of panic attacks in my life. I couldn't stop shaking for nearly 2 days, got nauses and vomited. I was convinced I had brain cancer. Ehat rlse could explain my tinnitus, headaches and wierd vision problems /s. When I went to the doctor and had abnormal liver enzymes (AST 67 ALT 94) I was convinced it was the end. The cancer had spread to my liver from my brain.
I got another liver test and came back normal, saw a neurologist and be said it's all anxiety.
I saw a psychiatrist on the 8th and started cymbalta. Since then I haven't been able to shake the feeling that I'm loosing it. Everything feels like a dream. Sometimes I have a hard time sorting my memories. Confusing some dream memories with real life. Last night I had a vivid nightmare and was upset for a few minutes, it took me two minutes to realize it was all a dream
I'm also having existential issues. Why am I here, what is the point, am I going crazy, society is so fragile, life is so fragile...
Today I was driving home and on my way I saw a mailbox and firehydrant. In the corner of my eye. I was sure it was a person about to step in the road. Like 99%. When I looked at it for a second I realized it was just a mailbox
I have had this happen before. I've also had delusions of medical problems. I was convinced I had a brain tumor a while back.
I also have small sparks or flashes light in my vision ocassionally, especially when moving my head. I have had it looked at my an Opthomoligist and they said my eyes are fine.
Could this be the start of schizophrenia
>>17532638
Hypochondriac.
Perhaps a brian tumor or schizophenia/psycosis.
Wishful thinking on my part, naw just off in the head a tad bit. I can act like a person when I need to, when I feel like it
Let me tell you about my life
25 basement dweller living with my parents
I suck at everything I do, sports, board games, video games.
I'm always last. I suck at life, at studies, at work. I don't suck with average looking women but I suck with good looking women. I suck at making friends, I suck with my family, I'm too distracted, I forget everything, I'm lazy.
I'm schizo affective I've been hospitalized twice.
I feel like I'm a total looser.
>>17532606
Hey bud.. let me tell you about mine its a little similar..
27 year old living with parents.
cant afford to move out as my city is hell of expensive to rent anything.
I work 2 hours a day as a janitor at a school every morning so that I have some money to live... I wake up at 4:50 start at 5.30 and finish at 7.30am everyday monday to friday.
Luckily I have a GF who gives me strength and was so lucky to find someone that know I have nothing but still loves me
BUT
Ive also lost all the friends I have ..so basically I spend all week on my own apart from when im meeting my GF or when my family is home..
and i suffer from anxiety and a little depression
If u want to talk im here.
>>17532606
So your completely normal.
Everyone think they have the worst shit. Well guess what? It can get fucking worse. So enjoy chilling the out in your easy as fuck life.
>>17532618
I forgot to say..that I didnt do good at school either and have no qualifications too.
My gf of 3 years is very uattractive. I think we just got together because I had low self estheem. Currently there is a little biscuit at work I think I have a chance with. My GF is good in bed, but I'd like to have sex with someone slim.
Not sure what to do. I dont want to break up yet, because I dont know how it will work out with the hottie at work. So far we have had sex one time after work, but I'm not sure if she actually wants to date. Id feel a bit silly if I broke up with my gf and ended up single.
>want to trade up
>cheated gf
There's a little saying that goes: if she'll cheat with you she'll cheat on you. Have a little self control you big dummy and either break it off with your current gf or learn to like her.
>>17532436
I like my gf, I just think her body isnt as great as it could be.
>>17532426
wouldn't be surprised if you got rejected by the hottie and created this thread to get adv's validation
Are girls are nice as I imagine? They smell pretty nice when I'm around them...
They are human too. So no, probably not.
You're going to meet pieces of shit and truly good people depending on who you hang out with and what connections you make.
Also, don't confuse hospitality or politeness with interest. You need to understand the difference before anything else, capiche?
>>17532275
Not even remotely
>>17532275
nope
they have lots of medical issues
their snatches stink
they're mean
they're not even smart
many of them can't support themselves financially
etc.
Let's have a demographics thread.
Post:
>age
>occupation
32/M
teacher
>>17531603
>21
>Electrical Engineering student
>>17531603
>21
>NEET
>Turned 18 yesterday
>Have been browsing this site since 13 and it's been the only site I browse since 14
>See jews everywhere I go, can't make friends, suspicious of everyone, everyone I meet thinks i'm weird, have all sorts of "out there" opinions/feelingd no one else knows about
Can you repair the raw fucking damage this place does to a brain
Quit 4chan, get professional help.
Opinions aren't damage. Just lie to everyone.
>>17531530
Yeah, it's not hard. Just stop using the internet except when you need to. Easy peasy.
What is a fuck boy?
Girls use it as a compliment. Guys use it as an insult.
What is the correct way to use fuckboy?
Well.
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=fuck%20boi
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=fuck+boy
Could help.
>>17531227
>"Don't know how to use google" the post.
If someone looks like early JB he is fuckboy. Women like it, dudes not.
>>17531227
>Girls use it as a compliment
lol no they dont
they mean it exactly like guys do
a bitch ass mark
I am an asshole and i openly admit it.
>2 year and a half relationship with my Gf.
>Constant discussions since past year, got heavier some time ago (even involving physical violence, usually it's her punching and i easily stop her hits or evade them.
>Have this gorgeous friend that i've known for a year and a half now.
>Cheat on my gf with my friend past May, making out with her at school.
>Things get worse when we go farther (she gave me a oral).
>Friend realizes i'm still on my relationship and wants to be the only one.
>Guiltyness eats me alive each day.
>Today i saw my gf and we had great sex all day.
>Go to a bar with my friend, we leave and end up fucking (for the first time) on my garage.
Now, i know my own actions have taken me to this place, but in al honesty, i really regret doing all this to my GF and i am crying right now.
I feel it's too late to stop things with my friend, she thinks i already broke up with my gf and it's very in love with me.
I realize i'm literally scum
My plans are currently two:
>Tell my girlfriend everything, tell my friend the situation and see what happens.
>Slowly dump my friend and then tell my gf the truth.
In advance i thank anyone who takes the time to read my crap, thanks
Shameful self bump
>>17530981
Need ur age, and ages of girls involved
A female friend of mine who I've known for a year asked if she could join me on a trip I'm taking next month. I thought it was interesting that she was so forward about wanting to join me and gladly accepted the offer.
The problem is that I'm a guy, and I'm well aware of the narrative that surrounds men and women being "just friends" (that is to say, they don't exist, and at least one secretly wants to bone the other). A couple of male friends are already egging me on to put a move on her, or seem to think that this was part of some cunning plan on my behalf to get closer to her. In reality I have put women/dating on the backburner, and just want to enjoy spending quality time with people I feel comfortable around. I've grown tired of doing everything by myself, and when people themselves offer to accompany me on my trips like this I'm very enthused.
I won't lie and say that I am not attracted to her. The problem is I've been burned so many times and while she is fun, interesting, cool and pretty good looking I can't pull the trigger. I don't think a relationship is what I need right now. And I don't think pursuing her is in the best interest of my emotional/mental wellbeing. The only thing that would change my mind is if, we go on this trip and we find out we are very compatible and there's even some spark. Otherwise the last thing I want to do is muck up a quality friendship with something stupid like "confessing my feelings" (ugh) or some similar nonsense.
Why am I so damn prude? Everyone who is into me just want to fuck me. Take me on a damn date before you send lewd pictures to me on Snapchat dammit. Why is it that people today view sex as the primary target? I just want a relationship first. Sex comes later when I feel like we're intimate enough.
I like you too but you're giving me the wrong message when you do that, buddy. Am I just too sheltered? Did living in a Catholic household make me feel this way or am I justified when I hold these values?
Is the dating scene gone? Is it just hook ups now? Maybe I'm just wrong thinking things wrong. Maybe it's sex first then getting to know each other later.
Went from lying in bed trying to sleep to sitting in a room with 6 guys and a girl, all of them high as fuck and several of them snorting Molly off my roommate's desk
Despite my initial jitters about them getting busted, I was actually really happy that this happened. It's the most human connection I've had in a while.
I think we both know we want to fuck, but that doesn't stop me wanting to spend quality time with him, enjoying our lives together, doing things together, because he makes me so happy. I just love his company so much. He feels so good. Of all my friends, hobbies and work arrangements, he's the only one that makes me feel that boost, he's lovely. I'm in love with him all ways
You know what to do.
Last one (straight-up died): >>17526901
Eat shit and die you cunt.
Dear ______,
The world has been infected with cruelty, it has run amok in the streets and laid roots in even the farthest corners. I hope you learn every day is a war between love and hate.
I want to marry you so badly, but Im starting to think it'll be the worst decision of my life. Please, I need you to start taking things off my plate. I've had 3 psychotic episodes in the last month. You know I hide my stress until I snap, so why won't you help when you know I need it? Why do you keep buying things when we're still thousands of dollars short for the wedding expenses? Why do you say you'll take care of something, but I have to go out in the middle of the night to do it for you because you forgot? Please, please, I need you to help me.
I'm 32 years old. Is there any way I can still lose my virginity without a prostitute?
>>17525887
>tfw im in the 1%
>>17525898
>Being this sure to not be in the last 4%
For fucks sake OP! There's literally nothing wrong with getting a nice escort to lose your virginity. This whole 'the first time is special'-Bullshit is just retarded.
>>17525887
Have you tried hanging out at a senior citizens rest home with a fifth of tequila and a box of condoms? Probably chicks over ninety are pretty easy.
Rohypnol and young nieces and nephews are a strong possibility. Your parents would also make good targets, because they probably wouldn't expect it. Most anons probably aren't cool enough to have sex with their parents, though.
I had a huge fight with my girlfriend yesterday. She's half white and half first nations and I'm white with Italian roots. I say this because she hates white people. She says racist things to my face and comments on how we all need to die daily. Now normally I don't care, but yesterday when she was msging me while going through once of her rants, it was a lot and it was getting annoying. So I texted her saying racism isnt good to combat racism. She then goes on a huge rant about how much her people have suffered over the years and its okay that she gets to be racist.
We live in canada where racism against natives is a problem still and residential schools were a huge problem over the last century with the last one being closed in 1996. Now, her people may have suffered a lot, her grandmother was one of the last children out of res school so she does have a second hand experience, but she herself never went to res school, or was abused by a white guy, or whatever. Worst shes had done is some guy call her a racial slurs. Shes lived a pretty sheltered life because of being half white. So i told her that you shouldnt hate a race based on individuals. I have been mugged by natives before and my friends have been held at gun point and nearly killed by a few, being said i don't hate natives for that even though they have actually caused trauma in my life.
She then went on a huge rant about how it was ok that that native mugged me and nearly killed my friends because he was probably abused as a child and that white people were the problem with why they were so fucked up. She basically pulled the "my oppression card" and victim blamed me for being white. Anything I said after that she responded witih " I need to shutup and check my privilege."
I stopped at the part where she is a cunt.
You shouldn't be with her.
>>17525531
Stop hanging out with people of other races. Just date a white girl.
It's really that simple. Grew up in a diverse area where the blacks and Mexicans were actively beating the shit out of eachother. Could be avoided if people stick with their own
>>17525531
she's right though, whites are a plague that must be purged from existence. if you don't like it go back to europe.
The best way to kill myself?
Living has a 100% chance of dead
Fuckin' partying dude
>>17533992
"Choose your fate and die" -James Hetfield, 1983
"Die by my hand" -James Hetfield, 1984
"I was born for dying" -James Hetfield, 1986
"Watch our mother die" -James Hetfield, 1988
"Die" - Maynard James Keenan, 1992
"I think it's gonna rain when I die" - Layne Staley, 1992
"It's evolution, baby" -Eddie Vedder, 1999
"Kill kill kill kill kill" -James Hetfield, 2003
So let it be written, OP; so let it be done.
I'm not afraid of rejection from women, but I am absolutely fucking terrified of approval.
That is to say, I have no fear in approaching, flirting with, and asking women out.
But the instant they say "Sure" to a date, I lose my fuckin mind. I don't know what to do. I'm suddenly horrified that it's just going to be a bad date, and it usually is. I lose all conversational topics. I resort to the shitty "SO WHAT'S NEW" or "DO YOU LIKE YOUR JOB" topics you use when you're left alone in a room with somebody you don't know.
How the fuck do I like, make dates good?
Depends, are you looking for a woman to flirt with or a mate?
Fuck the shitty stuff, ask yourself what exactly you're looking for in a mate. Does she like vidagames? What kind of movies? Cock gobbling? How many all you can eat buffet challenges have they done?
Everyone loves to talk about themselves.
Just don't act like you're trying to impress this woman with how smooth you are. Act like you would with your friends. She needs to be your friend if you want things to last with meaningful conversation.
I bet you'd be pretty pissed to be on a date with a chick and her ask you 'SO WHATS NEW' instead of talking about her tits
Basically, just find out if she's worth a second date, whatever that means.
If you just wanna bang, you could probably talk about that. Even just in smalltalk terms.
>>17534005
>Everyone loves to talk about themselves.
See I'm not sure how to get people to do that.
I can't create conversation out of movies because its just like
>Oh I really liked The Dark Knight!
>Yeah that was a great movie.
>.....
Like, what? Do I start discussing the filming techniques or some shit? Continuity errors? Plotholes?
I genuinely just try to get some kind of natural conversation going on dates but either i get nervous and basically shut down, or I can't seem to find a thread that is actual conversation and not just yes/no
Okay so my fiancé and I moved in with his parents to save money for college.
His family is really nice to me but the problem is, his dad invites me to spend time with him and watch tv and stuff in the living room and he smokes in there. I have bitch lungs with asthma and the smell makes me feel ill. How do I tell him politely that it's not healthy for me to breathe that air in?
>>17533893
I don't understand your post. You say in the title "I don't want to hang out with him" but you say in the body that its because he smokes.
If it's just because he smokes then the next time he offers say that you can't be around him when he's smoking because it bothers your lungs and you don't want to be exposed to second hand smoke. If he says no then its on him and if he agrees then good on him and hopefully you actually like the man because if you don't I don't know what other excuse you could use.
You need to move out for like 5 reasons
>>17533920
Why's that