Christ for the past week I haven't been able to sleep. All I can think about is death, my death, how nothing I do matters, how I can't stop my death, and etc. Been trying to look for advice or a book that will make me just be able to stop thinking about it.
I have been reading online, but nothing has been helping. "Do you remember before you were born? Same thing. Death isn't anything to be afraid of." Bullshit. I am conscious now and I want to always be conscious. The fear of completely not being scares me. The thought of being 80 and in bed slowly going to sleep knowing I won't wake up scares me.
God I wish I was religious and could just pretend there was an afterlife waiting for me. I never use to think about this. This past week for whatever reason it hit me hard and I can't seem to handle anything.
Why do you think we invented god in the first place?
Man is mortal, nothing you can do will change your fate.
Everyone dies, just try to enjoy this shit as much as you can.I think every atheist has gotten death anxiety before and desu its normal if he goes on for more than 2 months go to a doctor.
>>17555585
My death anxiety didn't last longer than a week.
At the end of it I felt more motivated, and at least these days I work harder to distract myself from the inevitability of the end usually work my career and hobbies.
That's all anyone can really do.
I am a gay man and in April I had sex with a guy and he wore a condom. But now since August, I have been getting sick. I had a bad cold, then a kidney infection, then another cold which has now led to tonsilitis. However I'm NOT just getting sick out of nowhere, in August my entire family had the cold, and the second cold that I just caught last week everyone in my class had a cold/fever too.
Since everyone else is getting sick too, should I still be concerned?
>>17555539
If you're sexually active you should be getting tested regularly regardless.
So instead of getting concerned get tested.
>Be fag
>Get fag disease
weII there you go
>>17555539
get tested regardless
>be me
>18
>studying finances at the uni
>good grades
>got hired at a forex company
>good pay
>leave house by 6:30am, come back home at 9:45pm
>bought a sports car(370z)
The only thing im missing would be a place of my own(i live with my mom), im so close to achieving a way of life many people die dreaming of but im unable to feel happy, im mostly craving a gf but im a very depressed person and i cant see myself making a woman happy, how can i give others happiness if i dont have any?, i might kms one day... cant keep taking this...
>im unable to feel happy
>leave house by 6:30am, come back home at 9:45pm
There's your problem
I used to work a job that maybe might have lead to me making $1m/yr by 35-40 but fuck working such long hours. It's not worth it.
>>17555528
i dont wanna leave neither the uni or the job, what should i do anon?
>>17555600
how many years Ieft at university?
ive been on okcupid for a couple years noiw and ive had zero luck with it. i get into some conversations now and then that dont last very long, and then thats pretty much it. i have some good pictures of myself, i make myself sound interesting on my profile, i reach out and try to chat with women who have things in common with me, but for whatever reason i just dont get a lot of interest. i know this is a very broad question (and being such a broad question, feel free to ask any questions you have), but what am i doing wrong?
You have to post your profile and some convos
>>17555563
alright fine.
I'll tell you the most practical way to get there.
(In Life)
I am in my 2nd year of a 3 year nursing degree and when I finish I want to work in Canada or America and live there for at least a year how the f do I do that
I'm from Australia
>>17555463
You must join the Canadian Nurse Association. Look them up on google then go into the contact info - write to them and they will inform you of any legal requirements.
I'm an 18 y/o Canadian art student just starting my second year of school. I would like to live somewhere after I graduate where my chances of being a self-sufficient artist are high.
I've been depressed almost my entire life, and I've tried thousands of things to get out of it. So far I've tried:
>Getting over it and growing a pair, as my father said
>Seeing a psychologist
>Exercise
>Meditation
>A second psychologist
>Doing "what I love in life"
>Suicide (I was too stupid and got caught)
>A third psychologist
>Reaching to my family for help
>Reaching to my friends for help
>Reaching to total strangers for help (and now I'm doing it again)
>Seeing a fourth psychologist
I really don't want to stay like this. I really don't want to kill myself, and I know I lack the courage at this point. But I don't know what else to do, and staying in my room browsing the internet to not think about it all only helps some days. I don't want to die, but I'm sure that living like this is way worse.
Have you tried hard labor? It worked wonders for me, personally.
>>17555540
Do you mean physical exerting work, or just working a lot?
Why is it that if we know, we so often choose to ignore?
>>17555449
Tolerance, acceptance, understanding, hoping it isn't true.
A comforting lie is much easier to accept than a painful truth
>>17555449
Usually because of a lack of power. If you had the power then be sure that you'd overthrow the world dictators and assure world peace for those who deserve it.
You can't be honest without being courageous.
>live in a house with a bunch of different people (~20 in total, co-ed)
>new girl moves in and she's pretty cute
>talked to her a few times
>most recently we were talking in the kitchen and I started eating a banana
>after realizing that the bottom half of it had gone bad/soft, I told her to feel my banana and she did
>sort of flirty
last night:
>drinking in a housemate's room with her and a few other people
>sitting on the couch with her
>she has her arm along the back of the couch
>decide to put my arm up and say sorry when our arms touch (pretending not to notice her arm was already there)
>a little while later I lean my head back (drunkish)
>it touches her arm and she says, "getting a little close aren't we" or something like that
>without skipping a beat, I said without thinking, "what you don't feel the same way?"
>she said, "no, not really"
I'm not sure if it was 2 or 20 minutes after the exchange, but she left the room after that and was talking on the phone downstairs in Spanish in a frustrated tone. Not sure if it was family or if she's mad at me for saying something so dumb to someone I live with.
So yeah. Fuck. I don't know what to do. Really fucking hate myself right now. Feel pretty embarrassed and sad that she didn't react more positively. I guess it's possible that she was posturing since other housemates were in the room (although I don't think they were paying attention to us).
Not uncommon for bitch girls to switch-in-bait guys like this (if she ever truly did at all - I don't know I just have your interpretation to go off).
Either way, you probably jumped the gun a bit yourself by doing something sort of affectionate like that. Shit like that tends to turn girls off faster than anything.
And also either way, you now know that she wasn't interested/you disqualified yourself (either way, same effect) so don't keep playing the fool and chasing after her. But don't be butthurt either. If I was neutral bystander I would have absolutely read your response as snarky/sarcastic so just go with that and move on with your life m8. This doesn't sound like a le cringeworthy social catastrophe.
>>17555423
Well last night she invited me to go with a few other housemates to a nearby nature reserve thing today and I expressed some interest. She brought it up/invited me last night before the awkward exchange.
Saw her in the kitchen this morning and she asked again if I'd like to go. I told her no and that I was hungover. Not sure what her decision to re-extend the invitation this morning means.
I guess it was good for me to decline since it shows her that I'm not dying to spend (more) time with her.
>>17555464
it means that this thing you perceived as a disaster was completely inconsequential to her
learn 2 chill m8
Hey /adv/
I'm a 20y/o F at college. I just want to make some decent friends. I don't drink and I don't like to party at all. I just want to make normal friends I can stay in with. I have a boyfriend and he really is my best friend ever, but he can't always be here every weekend at school and I just need atleast 1 more friend than just him anyway even if we lived together.
I like watching anime and playing simple games, so I joined the cosplay club a couple years back, but all they do is drink and go out to party, and I feel completely unable to interact with them. I have 1 other friend but hes a guy, he parties, he drinks, he does drugs and last time we tried to hang out and just watch a movie he made me really uncomfortable and only really talks to me when hes drunk
it seems like everyone at this school is just obsessed with drinking and partying. ive made friends back home who are fun and enjoy things on the weekend besides all this crap, but its so hard to find anyone here to spend time with. I feel very alone.
Can anyone help?
>>17555376
What school?
>>17555435
sorry I dont give that private info out online. its a smaller school about 2 hours away from any city in some mountains. its a beautiful school and i prefer its small size but everyone here drinks and parties and the ones i do try and be friends with who are fine having a movie night after theyre done partying wont respect my boundaries and that im taken
>>17555443
You went to a small school in the middle of nowhere, what did you think people were going to do other than drink?
Anyway get active in clubs and talk to people from your classes who you thought said something interesting.
I won't go into details. I just see most people as stupid. They always have some retarded rules they expect you to follow otherwise they get mad. Like i have this stupid fat ugly fucking cunt of a chem teacher who gets real mad at me for no reason, she stares me in the eye but I stare the bitch back and then she stopped doing it. She basically likes to treat people like shit because she's a fucking cunt of a bully.
Same thing with another teacher of mine. He's a fucking midget who wants to be "respected" by everyone, which by him means kissing his ass.
List goes on. I find myself sitting in crowds with my head up and staring at people, except they are lost in their own little hamster wheels and they never lift their head up, very few do - these few I like as people. These are mostly women surprisingly but some are men.
What the fuck do i do /adv/? how do i start feeling love towards these fucking potatoes. I spent a long time in a shithole environment where I let go of my old personality,but now that my personality is back, i really can't stand these fucking people man and I am so tired of pretending I feel for them or their feelings =/....
I am not a bad person, I always do the right thing I truly care for people, but alot of them I just feel too tired emotionally to invest into them (most). And yes I do find alot of them downright disgusting and weird.I am a judgmental asshole and I have been since i was a child.
Like I even find most girls and models ugly as fuck except this bitch emily, who i think is very hot. Any idea?
>>17555362
>I am not a bad person
>I am a judgmental asshole
you judge people because you're insecure with yourself. if you were a better person you might see that those people are difficult because they're in pain for whatever reason, and be able to forgive them, rather than trying to view them as inferior.
Okay, I'm not going to leave advice because I don't have enough time, but know that beauty is subjective. I see lots of models and women who make it to the Miss Universe pageants and all that and I don't find them attractive. Sure, they're pretty, and other men might like them, but not me.
Other things like personality and beliefs also factor into attraction, but know that the phrase beauty is in the eye of the beholder―as in it's subjective―holds true.
For example, I don't find this woman attractive. I don't like her overall facial structure to put it into summation.
My boyfriend of 2 and a half years dumped me in mid August and I had to move out of our house. I wasn't even thinking of dating and then I met this guy who had no idea what was going on and he asked me out. I should have said no but I didn't, everything went very well, and now we talk every day.
I'm 29 so "taking time to be single" isn't really a priority post-breakup like it was when I was younger and still ~~finding myself~~
adv, what do you think? Should I go for it?
Yes?
No?
>>17555355
if you're enjoying yourself with him then go for it.
I'm 26 years old and never had a girlfriend before. My face does not look very good (6/10 or 7/10) but I'm not overweight and I'm 6'1". I don't want to comment about my wits but I'm not dumb, I'm studying for PhD currently if it gives any leads. I get along pretty nicely with people and I do have friends. I also can make friends with girls without a problem.
But, no one seems to be interested in me at all. I meet new people, I make friends, but still no one has shown slightest interest in me. I know it's not enough information but if anyone else has a similar situation can you give me what I might be doing wrong?
well tell me what you think of women HONESTLY?! only way you can be helped.
What are you looking for, that one perfect girl? want kids and a family soon?
or
you just want to experiment with different girls until you settle down.
I am in High school, but that's my life... To a point even height.mfw
>>17555349
>>17555361
I don't want the perfect girl, I just want an average looking girl with similar interests. I'm not planning to marry soon because I'm so inexperienced I believe I will have trouble. But if she turns out great why not in a few years.
So a bit of both.
I need some legal advice. Would this work?
>sell Trump campaign sign to friend for $1,000,000
>buy it back for $1,000,000
>get the transaction recorded on contract
>you are now in possession of a $1,000,000 piece of cardboard
>plant sign in yard
>place security camera at it
>get a Bernout on camera destroying it
>sue him
>become $1,000,000 richer
No, it fucking wouldn't work.
>>17555347
Why
>>17555350
You must be 18 or older to post on 4chan, but here's your (You).
Insurance/appraisal companies decide the value of something, typically compared to a median value of similar items. What you manage to buy or sell something for does not mean shit to anyone but you and the other party.
Now go back to /b/.
I've banned my girlfriend from twerking in public when she dances.
Am I in the wrong? Twerking began as a sexual ritual in Africa so I don't feel it's appropriate for my girlfriend to be doing that in public with other people. Or am I too old fashioned ?
You can't control what she does. It's also kind of a shitty thing to "ban her" from doing something. Yes you can voice your opinion on it and tell her that it makes you feel uncomfortable, but ultimately you cannot control what she does.
Chill out! You're her boyfriend, not her dad.
>having a girlfriend that willfully performs this nigger mating ritual
She has sex with blacks, dude.
Can you guys rate me and guess my ethnicity and post looks matched females for me? I want to know from an honest third party view what I look like.
>>17555313
>looks matched females