How do I get adderall if my country doesnt have it anywhere? Are they being sold on the streets as a drug? If so, how do I find a dealer?
I'm getting ritalin prescribed for my narcolepsy. It's not as good as it's said to be. Would rater get pure amphetamine if I where you.
To get it you need:
1. Contacts
2. Tor -> Silkroad
3. Make yourself
4. Get ADHD or other diagnosis that might get you the drugs.
How to get contacts.
-Find someone that uses it.
-Go to parties who are known to do drugs.
-Find a friend of a friend of a friend that sells it or uses it.
else you're fucked.
>>17734051
Would you happen to know how much pure amphetamine costs? And isn't it really addictive? I just need to do some college work
>>17734229
Depends where you buy it on silkroad it's 3-4 times the street price. 5gram -> around $150, ±50 on silkroad.
And yes pure amphetamine will exhaust your body quite bit. Not actually that addictive only if you snort a lot all the time. I recommend doing some research before doing the pure stuff.
For collage work get I recommend Ritalin, Concerta or Adderall.
Though if you don't have ADHD the concentration benefit might be 5-10% if you're lucky and have slightly ADHD it can get up to 20%. For some people their concentration get a lot worse on methylphenidate or amphetamine.
If you get some benefits they might also go away after 1-2 months use. And it will give you just as much boost as a cup of coffee.
I recommend silkroad if you got a lot of cash at hand to spend. Brought from them a few times with zero problem.
>Before me, she was single for a year. Pretty insecure and low self esteem, she only ever had 1-2 week relationships (nothing serious).
>I come along, and become the best boyfriend ever, spent 8 months together, was her first kiss and first everything else.
>Always done cute things for her, made her smile, bought her things, and she done the same for me, she really opened up to me and trusted me
>She always said how I was the best thing that's happened to her, how much she loved me, how I was the kinda guy she'd always been waiting for
But then out of nowhere she breaks up with me 3 weeks ago today. Nothing major happened she just gave vague reasons. And almost straight away she is talking to some guy, then it was guy 2, then she got with guy 3. I got pissed and we argued. That rebound only lasted 2 days. I've tried ignoring her but she always contacts me first and we just argue.
I seen her yesterday as we live in village and she lives literally 30 seconds away, she was walking the dog with her sister so after we're done her sister takes the dog in and I ask to talk to her. And I tell her that I know these past few weeks have been messed up, but I just don't understand how we were so close and you break up with me, nothing major happened, and you move on so easily. She tells me to get a grip and grow up, she don't like me anymore and move on, I told her its hard because I love her. I also bought up how mean she's been recently, and how she said "I don't know why I got with you in the first place", it was hard to say that out loud and when I did she just pretending to focus on something behind her. I just asked why can't we work things out? But she got frustrated and stormed off home.
>>17734025
**CONTINUED**
She then sent me a message saying "seriously you don't wanna mess with me". Lol wtf? I told her what are you talking about, and she said why did I bother coming earlier seriously, and I made out I missed the dog.
Shortly after I sent her a message saying about all our ups and downs, but how we were so close, and even when it got hard at times we always found a way back to each other. And all our good memories, and how we've both made mistakes and said hurtful things but I really want to try and fix things, but it can only happen if we really talk it out, and start new. But she replies almost straight away.
>Her: No i don't want you i don't like you no more seriously did u not listen to a word i said earlier
>Like Wtf i swear all i do is talk to a brick wall
>???
>Me: Feel like I'm talking to a brick wall too
>Her: Wtf how can u say that
>Me: Because of everything we been through it was worth fighting for to me, but you just don't want anything to do with me like I've done something so terrible I don't get it
>Her: ffs
>U just don't understand do you no
>Don't know how many **** times i have to say
>Me: No you made it loud and clear, I go from being the man you'd always been waiting for, the best thing to happen to you, us being so close, to you don't like me anymore and want nothing to do with me. I just wanted to try one last time, so I can move on without any regrets because I did try hard, and I know I messed up at times but I treated you the best. After I get your sister her things tomorrow that will be for the last time, and I won't contact any of you anymore.
>Her: Good im glad finally u make me sound like such a horrible pathetic person you know that don't you why bother come earlier like seriously
>>17734025
She doesn't want to be with you.
Stop talking to her, block her on all media, do not reply.
Do not cling on her like she's the only girl on earth.
>>17734031
**CONTINUED**
>Me: Yes finally, the best thing we ever had is completely over what a relief, and how do I make you feel that way?? you make me feel like I'm worthless and not good enough, and I came earlier to talk to you and show you how much I care but I'm just stupid aren't I
>Her: What?? and cause of the thing you say to me and do
>And yeah seriously
>Whatever im going hope you have a lush life with out me
I'm having trouble keeping it up. Me and my gf moved in about a month ago. The first few weeks we fucked non stop. But lately it's slowed down to like twice a week and like every 2/3 times we fuck, I lose my boner. It usually goes like this
>start fooling around
>she gets me only like 90% hard
>start fucking
>I'm usually good for about 5 min
>start to slowly lose boner while inside her
>eventually become completely flaccid and there's nothing I can do to get hard again
My gf is extremely understanding and is telling me I'm probably stressed from the move and school and I'm psyching myself out. But it's still happening and I'm becoming very worried. It's been forever since I've had a 100% diamond boner. I have no idea what to do
Any suggestions? I really don't want to go to the doctor cause he'll just give me some viagra and I don't want to become dependent on pills to fuck at the age of 25.
>>17734016
How often do you watch porn/masturbate?
>>17734021
also are you a fatty or smoker?
>>17734024
>>17734021
I'm on and off with the porn. Sometimes it's once a month, other times it's every other day. But I've never really had a problem before with porn interfering with my sex life. Also no to fatty and no to smoker
>meet girl go on date and get back ot he rhouse
>just end up kissing and cuddling because i am a beta virgin
>didnt know how to read the signs and wasnt sexually agressive
>firendzoned the day after
>girl is part of mutal friends
>drunk texted her last night that its a shame hat we couldnt give it another shot
>still like her because shes fucking gorgeous and actually a nice preson
>dieing of embarrassment
What do bros? just pretend none of it ever happened? this shit is painful I cant stop thinking about how much i've fucked up in the last few days
>>17733975
No one's going to care by next month
Just learn from it
Shit, I look back at some shit I did in my late teens and laugh at it now. You'll look back and be glad you have things like that to remember - rather than nothing at all
>>17733978
Eh maybe. im just 21 so i guess its not too bad.
Its just i was right in front of my and I didnt take it. I cant live it down.
>>17733978
Should i try and salvage it? i mean i still want to fuck her.
Has Anyone Really Been Far Even as Decided to Use Even Go Want to do Look More Like?
>>17733967
Nope
>>17733967
I not but you they do might if yet sometimes only maybe but.
>>17733967
hey theseus
We met in uni and we've been going out for 2 months now, but I'm not really sure if I want to continue our relationship. She's pretty nice and clearly likes me allot, but I never truly cared for her. At the moment I feel like the only reason why I'm with her is so that I can socialize with other groups in uni that I normally never (nor will I ever) get the chance to talk to/know them. Plus I'm kind of using her as sort of a secretary.
Things we're going good so far until I realized that I'm spending much needed time with her rather then focusing on keeping my shit in tact in uni. I am currently way behind schedule in some projects and I totally fucked up some of my exams (which I'll have to redo as soon as possible or otherwise I drop out).
Yes, I know she has nothing to do with my shit being fucked and me being a fucking retard, but my concern is that if our relationship keeps on going it will eventually crash pretty hard and leave me in a fucking crisis (cause It's only a matter of time before I start falling for her). On the other hand if I leave her now it'll probably fuck her up for good. What the fuck do I do???
>>17733966
its only 2 months, if you don't want to be in a relationship don't
No. I was in a somewhat similar situation awhile back, wanting to break up with this girl after about a month, but riding it out for 3 because I felt like an asshole for breaking up with her. Was probably for the best because I was getting really irritated at her about nothing constantly/flirting like I didn't have a Girlfriend. Sounds cruel, yeah, but she'll get over it.
i wanabsleep...
>>17733934
i want that sandwich.
thers policr sirens and this really loud so8hnd cominf from my boiler rooom i hate thios i cant sleeep before it was quiet but i wad laying down for like 2 hoirs literally 2 houra and i couldnt fall asleep i tried reading a book too and butit didntbhellp i kist wanna sleep
Fuck off.
So, how much does it affect me in my later life by hiring a trans hooker to fuck me?
I was in my early-20's who just wanted to comfirm if fapping to 2D trap porn affected me or not.
It wasn't that great and hurted like hell so I'm probably not going to affect my 3D relationships, but my 2D fapping habbits have changed drastically since.
So you fapped to trans porn, had sex with one, didn't like it but still fap to the porn?
It's probably just a masturbation fantasy. I mean there's your sexuality when you're alone, and there's your sexuality when you're with someone else, they don't have to be the same.
Keep in mind porn's just like that, you always want something more extreme to create more interesting fantasies.
>>17733884
Probably true. Had to go in first time really drunk and I wasn't sure so I had to try again.
Big waste of money, honestly. I should've done it in Japan or Thailand.
>>17733888
You were that unsure? Or were they just not that pretty?
So what was it like anyway? Just hurts and feels awkward?
Why can't i get over her /adv/ I dont know what's wrong with my head. Am i fucked?
I dont frequent this board but any advice would be great.
Also, Ive tried the basic shit like, distracting myself, working out. im focused on school but whenever im not studying/ doing homework she's on my mind. It may sound a bit strange but i dream about her every night as well..
Who is she to you?
>>17733859
The person I could honestly say i'm in love with. And i dont know why. I dont know if I just enjoy the idea of her or what it may be.
i have always insecurities about my look and i had rhihinoplasty.my nose is thinner now and i am more handsome than ever
but problem is i wonder if i ll be cheating my future wife with my look.Because maybe she would not like me if she had seen me before surgery
so what should i do about this feeling?
pic is not related
>>17733834
>i am more handsome than ever
and a fabulous homo too.
>>17733834
But to be fair, you didn't like your own look before the surgery ether, so why bother if someone else did.
If I look good in a pair of jeans, but not so good in the other, this is my opinion. Should I then get mad because my wife thinks the same way?
The looks you have gives you the opportunity to do a first good impression, after this we can hope the girl you meet sees the man behind the looks.
>>17733844
>jeans
stop the jeans analogies dude wtf.
My boyfriend and I discussed adopting a cat quite a while ago and collected him last night. He is a wonderful little thing, very affectionate and has already bonded with me in less than 12hrs.
However, when I think about the fact I now own a cat, I hit a state of intense anxiety. I'll own this cat for at least 12yrs. My partner and I have to consider him before anything else. All things I knew beforehand but I seem to be focussing on how this will effect my relationship.
I'm worried this is some kind of relationship development, that now we're on the road to being "settled" and boring. I love this man so much that I don't want things to change and unfortunately, in my mind, this cat seems to have fit the image of change.
I've been in relationships before where I've adopted a pet and the relationship broke down (on an unrelated note) and I think in my head, it's all connected.
Should I just return the cat and continue my life as it was before? I love my life with my partner, I just want to keep enjoying it without the risk that something will change.
It's like I'm suddenly panicking about everything.
>>17733802
Its a fucking cat, having one does not make you senile, make you boring or force your current relationship to be more serious or change, it is a cat, one of the most low maintenance pets out there that couldn't really give a hoot so long as it is fed and warm.
Love that lil bastard, if things don't work out with him, say your farewells, but thinking a cat of all things will somehow be the spearhead of your relationships downhill is dumb.
>>17733808
Thanks. I do understand how stupid it is to think this way - in fact I think the only reason I could be thinking this way is because I'm mixing together a few different issues.
I think the cat is very sweet, I have a few days off with him now and he has settled in amazingly well. I'm also used to owning cats so it isn't like the experience itself is new to me.
I just don't want it to be at a detriment to my relationship and in my head, that's what the risk is.
>>17733816
It won't be, trust me, a lovey dovey cat does wonders to peoples mood, itl help you two if nothing else.
Relax, I get the paranoia, but the chances a cat would be a catalyst for that would, at a hypothetical best, be a single digit percentage, at best. Just love the lil bugger, and good luck with the relationship, hope it turns out well.
Anyone have advice on how young is too young to make babies? I'm (male) planning on not making any babies until I'm older than 35, is 35 is too young? I'm considering waiting until I'm 45 years old but either way the girl I do it with is going to be around 30 because I don't feel comfortable with the idea of a 25 year old mom/wife.
when you are ready to take responsibility for raising them
probably more chance for it when you are older
limiting yourself to such rules seems foolish but if thats what you want then do it that way
>>17733798
You need to have the energy to raise them, not just the money, patience, and desire. You have to find a medium. If you're not done being irresponsible and selfish by the time you're 35, kids might not be for you. Women have the biological clock for a reason. After a certain age the risks mount, and nature takes the ability away from them. The younger they are, the better their bodies bounce back, but the older they are, the more maturely they will be able to care for them. Like everything else in nature it's a balance.
Of course men are not bound by such biological terms, but can you be an effective enough father at 40 that when your kid graduates HS in your mid 50s you can. Take your hands off the wheel?
Parenting is exhausting if you're doing it right. Don't depend on your partner alone for the raising. There is a reason it's a two person job.
>>17733798
>I'm considering waiting until I'm 45 years old
Do you want kids who post on 4chan or something?
>the girl I do it with is going to be around 30
What? How do you know this?
I came across a very emotionally manipulative 'friend' who used me to get close to my friends. I am no longer in that social circle because I'm too old for girl politics. I haven't confronted the manipulator, as i decided to cut my losses and move on and make less theatrical/ more intelligent friends. The manipulator in question has been trying to get in touch via every social media outlet and messaging service I have. So far I have been ignoring her. I highly doubt she is curious as to what I'm doing. I'm trying not to read into it but do you think she's making sure I haven't talked to anyone about her behavior? If so I'd like to shake her up by not supplying her with any information. advice - should I block her, confront her or continue to pretend that I'm not receiving her requests?
>>17733792
Guys plllls
Aaah I don't miss being 13
Ignore her she's fustrated your not effected by her shit. Don't be her play toy.
To give some background, I have dealt with depression for a significant portion of my life -- at least seven years but possibly longer. I have gone through a year of therapy and tried both Zoloft and Abilify generics to limited, and sometimes worsening, effect.
What I am interested in is any methods that you have found particularly helpful in forcing yourself to begin and continue pursuing your interests.
I'm starting to have a difficult time managing this destructively stagnant state I am putting myself in. I spend my days either working, or trying to figure out what I should do, and typically settling on the least difficult activity, i.e. Youtube, pornography, or video games with some friends I've maintained online. I do these things instead of what I recognize as my strongest interests, i.e. fiction writing, tabletop RPG's and their development, and consuming bizarre animation/storytelling.
So again, any advice on pursuing your interests despite mental illness and a pervasive sense of apathy? Thanks.
Bump for interest. Don't really have anything to offer you op, but I relate
>>17733717
As someone who's been living with MDD for 15 years. Here's a tip.
Stop being a lazy cunt and force yourself to do shit, you're going to hate it but just keep forcing yourself to do shit until you find something you don't hate.
Either that or you might as well just kill yourself because fuck it.
>>17733761
Also, stop wasting time on pointless bullshit and you'll be more fulfilled and feel less like a useless sack of shit.
Do I just live off my parent's coattails forever?
>mid 20s, ex drug addict, uneducated, fresh out of jail with a lengthy petty crime record
>live with my parents, work a shitty job
>needless to say i've fucked my life up so far but it's not hopeless
>parents are retiring in a few years
>they will be getting over 10k per month because of their union pensions
>they tell me theyre planning to sell the house and leave the country to somewhere cheap and exotic like thailand or costa rica
>offer to take me with them since they will have extra money and i "could find something to do"
so the obvious choice is to take the free ride to paradise right? then i start feeling like that's giving up on my own road and succumbing to failure. it feels like id just be suckling off my parents forever which im already tired of doing but they insist that it wouldnt be a hardship for them. on the other hand i really dont want to follow their path and bust my ass doing a trade for 30 years which isnt even a sure thing for me
anyone?
last bump
Whats there to think abou go with them