Hello /x/, I'm working on something of a master list of youtube/reddit/other accounts of those who are mentally unwell, specifically those with paranoid schizophrenic type delusions (gangstalking and the like). I have no particular reason for doing this other than that they fascinate me and figured they might fascinate others as well. I'll share the small list I have so far, and welcome contributions. I'll add more as I remember them, since I'm mostly pulling this from years of very rough archives.
Any other discussion relating to the topic is welcome as well.
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https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCrFna6o334h5T6KEpjJanFQ [Moko Fukahori]
https://www.youtube.com/user/moron160 [aka Moko Fukahori]
https://www.youtube.com/user/spottswood [Jesse Spots]
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCCs5VEriqIQpBKXAwT8W21Q [Rick Boughton]
a little more on him, he is definitely at the very least a mild case of paranoid schizophrenia, a huge conspiracy theorist, loves to cast imaginary blame on people in his past. homeless also.
I mean, I've been trying to find out why people believe these things for a while. Why those with paranoid delusions tend to believe the same sorts of delusions, and why their insight is so poor.
What is the bizarre incantation he utters at the start of every video
There isn't really a why as far as I know. I'm pretty heavily medicated now and looking back it's bizarre. I still have minor delusions that I suddenly will understand are fictional, but the last ten years I lived a different world. It was a world I was sure was real and that everyone else was just blind.
best i can figure is it's a random string of names of people he used to know or people he made up, or a combination thereof
usually after that he will lay into one of these people about any number of topics ranging from violent crimes or rape to government plots. there is very little consistency
>gangstalked cult leader
>says he's not a cult leader
>stream of consciousness schizo
>god talks to her every day. helps her solve crossword puzzles and shit
>be this guy
>have psychotic break
>make youtube channel
>lose your wife and kids due to obsession with symbolism and synchronicities and numerology
I think I've done the most research on Jesse Spots (https://www.youtube.com/user/spottswood ).
He's interesting because, unlike many of the others, his old videos did not hint at any sort of mental illness. I can't exactly place where it started, but here's a few examples:
This is his second oldest video. His interest in theater continues even into his illness, but you can tell he's fairly normal and well adjusted at this point. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0EqAIFl6INE (Oct 5, 2006)
This is the last video you see of him with his improv friends. There's nothing really indicating his particular state of mind during the video, but I feel like this fact is significant. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CQKf63AjIwM (March 6, 2014)
This is the first "strange" video he posts. This is the first time he is clearly starting to become unwell. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TjRgZlrtIJ4 (Jan 18, 2015)
This is the first theater bit he posts with conspiracy themes. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7wHETBKGm8Q (Feb 3, 2015)
After this point it's all downhill, but he remains among the more lucid (or at least understandable) of the youtube schizophrenics.
There is no reasons and whys in shizos. The moment you go mad is the moment you won't be able to tell that you are wrong anymore.
You will be unable to understand how it is you that is delusional. Therefore you will always stick to you silly little phantasies until the put you away for safety.
You go nuts, you go hospital, you get better, you feel ashames.
But the worst part is: you'll have to take shitty medication that is not really long term tested for as long as you are being told or otherwise you delve into madness once again.
I know my stories, I work there. I am the man binding you to the bed, restraining your moves so you won't kill yourselves. Or maybe I do it just because you yelled ad me, thinking you were Adolf Hitler, living in his very own parallel universe.
Okay, standard procedure is: Pump the patient up with neuroleptica for at least 3 days until the levels of medication in his blood have reached a decent percentage. To keep the target quiet, sleeping and harmless he will swallow more than 2 big, blue Valium a day.
The medication blocks neurologic receptors in the brain, memories and series of paranoid thoughts get interrupted. They cloud the patient's minds so that they can stop thinking for once and that is when the patient realises that his actions were irrational (he has another point of view again). Another outcome can be that the patient refuses his real memories, doctors think it was fiction and then no treatment is done. Such cases... makes me stop wonder why people kill themselves.
We do currently NOT know any method of healing this shit without a big sledgehammer of pharmaceutical stuff. We just fill them up with smarties (pills) and see what happens. Most turn even weirder when they get their first Valium, you see them dancing acound like children. They are so lucky I am not filming it.
i'm just taking this straight from the wikipedia page but it gives you a pretty good (and grim) picture about long term anti-psychotic treatment.
>The majority of patients treated with an antipsychotic drug will experience a response within 4 weeks. The goals of continuing treatment are to maintain suppression of symptoms, prevent relapse, improve quality of life, and support engagement in psychosocial therapy.
>Maintenance therapy with antipsychotic drugs is clearly superior to placebo in preventing relapse, but is associated with weight gain, movement disorders, and high dropout rates. A 3-year trial following persons receiving maintenance therapy after an acute psychotic episode found that 33% obtained long-lasting symptom reduction, 13% achieved remission, and only 27% experienced satisfactory quality of life. The effect of relapse prevention on long term outcomes is uncertain, as historical studies show little difference in long term outcomes before and after the introduction of antipsychotic drugs.
>A significant challenge in the use of antipsychotic drugs for the prevention of relapse is the poor rate of compliance. In spite of the relatively high rates of adverse effects associated with these drugs, some evidence, including higher dropout rates in placebo arms compared to treatment arms in randomized clinical trials, suggest that most patients who discontinue treatment do so because of suboptimal efficacy.
people think schiozphrenic people go off their meds for no reason but there's a good reason. it often doesn't eliminate symptoms well enough and causes all kinds of side effects that affect your life negatively.
youre an asshole
why dont you go read the occult section of the library
theres hundreds of books about... mind control!
try "mind war"
also google "lobotomobile"
>your really far off
Montagraph aka Dale Bennett
Had some so-so videos, then slowly spiraled downward and got into his "NWO" soldier tinfoilhattery.
I've talked to a person with autism before and it's quite difficult to really follow their thought process. Person switched thinking so much that it was really hard to really follow what was going in their mind. Autism is weird, man.
Honestly man you need one day in the mind of a schizophrenic. You are way to matter of fact about this and it sounds like you observe your patients like science projects.
>cloud the patients minds so that they can stop thinking for once
I really don't think you realize how disturbing this will become for them over a period of time. When was the last time your mind stopped talking without your control?
Seriously, imagine the torture of existing for just 1 week without being able to process a thought
Jeez. Of course it's wrong, I was a patient once. They stuffed me with pills, waited for 3 weeks and now I sit here lying to you about my job.
I'd be damned, working in such an environment. Would go mad /10
My guess is that you're on /x/ because there's no clinical test for mental illness and thus it's a myth?
Should I remind you that antipsychotics were made to deal with chemical imbalances and there is no clinical test to check for that? Or that it has never been proven that a "mental illness" has been caused by a chemical imbalance?
I feel everyone talks about me and I must check. Sure, commonly people believe this, but it's obsessive. I'll look around and see people looking away and such but I'll stare at them for a while, waiting to see if they'll look at me. Then, I worry that they see me staring at them and do the same, and the circle continues.
I also cannot be left in the dark with a large space behind me. If I am, no matter what, I feel a presence and movement behind me, making me move, the quickest way possible to a source of light.
Last is that I plan to do a Year Walk to destroy my sanity completely, for research.
Anyone got the Youtube of the girl who screams at the mailman and thinks Leonardo DiCaprio is in love with her? Or the dude who thought a mentally challenged man on a bus was stalking him?