>i see her in my dreams
>we have a life together in another world
>or maybe we had one in a previous lifetime
>the details are irrelevant
>when i'm with her i feel complete
>she's like a goddess
>ocassionally she manifests in the people around me in waking life
>she tells me i have to save her
>she communicates in code
>we're both trapped
>i want her to save me
>everything feels unreal
>i spend my days in a haze of marijuana smoke and alcohol
>at night, my real life begins
>she appears to me
>she calls herself Sophia for she is wisdom
>I am the Logos, Christ reborn
>when we reunite, the cosmos will be healed of the primordial geotrauma
>but i despair
>i wish to sleep forever
>to dream into eternity
>never wake up
>i need a sign
>or something to sustain me
>otherwise i feel i might kill myself
>and finally sleep forever
I have had a thing for Sophia too. I am a dreamer, but I sleep too much as well. We can do increadible things in our dreams, that the people around us might discount to thinking its not real, but dreams are very real. People don't like that we all get together in the spiritual plane every night and decide the fate of the world. Some like to destroy, others to create. All the energy we manifest then goes into our thoughts and feelings.
Op please try to lay off the drugs, and maybe stay alive. We need all the hope we can get. I believe that she is like the spirit of matter, so taking drugs isn't exactly bad, but they cloud your perception. Spirit is where it all comes from, and where it all returns too.
On LSD I went to another galaxy, Andromeda where beings are merged with their twin flame energies. Now sometimes I can dream to Andromeda. Like you I also stay in the dream world all night, but by day we can be yogis.
I'm gonna make a big sorcery play around spring. Like I did on lsd, but without it. Last time I channeled so many past lives and saw Brahma and my own future. I think maybe you should hold on to hope this year.
My guides seemed to indicate 2016 is a big year for spiritual development.
Hi op you are facing a crisis where you give up like a faggot or you can cross the invisible bridge. It's belief in yourself not in outside forces that will save you so wake up and create your destiny.