Mirrors and Disembodiment?
Have you ever stared into a mirror long enough to have that absent feeling within your body? Like, you begin to question if you are actually "there" or like able to leave your body somehow? Just standing there for long periods of time, in utter silence and just stare, its such an odd feeling of disembodiment. Thats the best word I can use I suppose. This is such a strange feeling ive experienced and I have such a hard time putting it into words so was wondering if any of you /x/ peeps experienced something like this as well or have more information onto what this feeling is?
I've had this phenomena happening to me since i was twelve,but it really happens if i stare long enough and thinking to myself like i was being apart from reality,i remember telling to myself that there is no point in life and has no meaning at all,strangely,this happened while i was living like a twelve year old boy,happy with good family conditions,i don't see what provoked this experience,but since that day,i was introverted,reserved,deep toughtful and have had serious suicidal thoughts even though i know have real reasons behind that thinking,later i knew that this phenomena is called derealisation or alienation.
>i knew that this phenomena is called derealisation or alienation.
I wouldn't stick labels on it, but yeah. You also pretty much fucked yourself from the wonder that is this perspective by having suicide thoughts, but hopefully you got out of that. The unfortunate part of this perspective is when some people allow it to depress them. The unknown should enlighten people rather than scare them.
>The unknown should enlighten people rather than scare them.
fuck off m8
Kinda do this at the gym when I'm running. My gym has huge mirrors in front of and flanking the treadmills. If I stare at myself while running long enough, its like watching someone else, I lose all sense of connection with my body
>derealisation I think fits well but yeah I dont know if labeling it just that does it justice. >>17310464
Enlightenment is the goal but in reality its still terrifying as fuck.
>>17310966 Exactly this. The losing all sense of connection.
when younger i used to turn the lights off and have only the monitor give out the light then i stood infront of the mirror without focusing anywhere for some time... My face literally started getting kinda scary my face kept looking more angry and angry until it pretty much looked like the devil.