Have you anons ever sought out to do something difficult, something that you thought would be harder than anything else you have ever done before, only to be disappointed with how lethargic your feel afterwards?
well if you have lived a physically and mentally sedentary life the things that really push your boundaries are going to be kinda low, focusing on trying to maintain a productive mental state till you develop more is part of growing after being stunted for awhile.
IDk if that describes me, but like about 5 years ago i was molested at a Dunkin Donuts. For years I have avoided donut shops all together; just the thought of going into one has always brought be great stress. Recently, I figured I had to confront my fears and revisit the place of my molestation. Its been bothering me alot, and I cant stand having exploitable weaknesses. I just got back from the sense of the incident, and I didn't feel a damn thing the entire time. I was prepared for pretty much anything except indifference. What does that say about me?
Try running 10k when you're not a natural runner. Shit got me fucked up. At the end of the run, could only see 2 pinpricks of light, tasted blood, could barely move. I was sore for the next 3 days.
If it's your first time ever going on a long run, aim for 2 or 3 km. Trust me, it's still gonna push your limits. The first couple runs are hard, since you don't have a proper stride and your lungs might not be used to exertion. I don't know you, so I don't know what shape you're in, but don't feel self-conscious if you can't run very far for the first few weeks. If it's raining, wear a light, breathable rain shell, shorts or light rain pants, and bring a bottle of water (or hydration pack if you have one). Do NOT wear cotton, since it'll soak up the rain and make you miserable.
The endorphins after extreme physical exertion provide you with a nice altered state, so I guess that makes this an /x/ post?
You know what, I'm gonna work out right now, anon.
Ok, you seem to be the only one reading this right now, so I will trust you, I will run for 3k. Im in decent shape, but Its been a few years since I have run that far. Think you can stay here so that I can report back after my jog? Id really appreciate it.
Uhh maybe it means you worry to much for no reason. You can't let one experience rule your entire life like that. Don't stress so much. It's not like it resorted in any physical damage, right? It's all in your head.
Yeah. I tried to meditate once for the whole day. I thought it would be easy. Just force myself to sit for as long as I had to. How bad could it be right?
I managed to meditate a few hours taking breaks in between. Felt real shitty afterwards. I never tried meditating that way ever again.
I realized I was acting out of my anxiety to get something out of meditation, and in the end, the anxiety won.
Now, I just meditate every other day for a set time, like half an hour to an hour. I don't push myself. I just do it. And it's become a habitual thing. Now I just keep in mind, one step at a time.
Its OP. I just ran about 3-4km. Im too tired to convert it properly. I don't feel any different; I am just as numb as I was before, save for a slight burning I feel in my chest.
Well, physical exertion isone place to start. I also find running helps improve my mood but I like feeling sore and what. Though the answer to this one might not be to not search for satisfaction from outside sources. Maybe this is one of those inside deals you gotta deal with yourself. I'd still say that physical work is always a good start though personally. Try digging a whole all day and then filling it back up before sundown. It's a weird practice I do...that..I don't know..helps me not take things to seriously, I guess. Sorry feeling are weird.
Well whatever you do, you gotta keep at it. It probably won't do you much good in just one try with this type of problem. Try focusing on your task completely and reflecting afterwards on your work. Maybe take this as a opportunity in your life to help redefine yourself. Observe and contemplate. I know it sounds stupid but it's pretty simple and it seems like you're at a good point to try. Let go of the idea of feeling and just be. Maybe if you stop trying so hard the answer will come to you time. But you gotta stick it out. I'm serious.
I get it, I'm pretty sure I was like you at one point, and maybe still sort of am. Sometimes you can't be told the answer to your problems. You need to discover them on your own. I encourage to think about yourself and why you are this way and why and how you want to change. But take it slow. These things don't usually just reveal themselves so easily. And they take time to digest.