Guys Im freaking the fuck out.
I havn't posted here in ages and I've kept my nose clean of the occult for almost 2 years. But the last few nights I keep having dreams about a fae. And in these dreams she keeps getting her hooks deeper and deeper into me.
Last night in my dream I broke down crying begging to serve her.
I wrote it off as just dreams at first. But I know what kind of shit is out there. And now Im not as certain and freaking out.
What should I do? Even when I was experimenting I kept my distance from the fae because they scare the shit out of me. I need protection
Pic related is the best I can come up with
I think the thng is unseelie. But I dont really know
Run with it.
Worst that can happen is they steal your firstborn and replace them with a doppelganger.
I've noticed that outside entities like the "fae" have been growing more powerful and demanding lately. Not sure why that is, I'm not really a spiritualist or theologian, but I do know that the idea of being "under a binding contract" with another entity is just an illusion. Yeah, you can negotiate an agreement and "sell" yourself, but at any point you can break that agreement and the outside entity will have no proper recourse to stop you. So go ahead, make a pact with her if you really want to, and when you're sick of it tell her to fuck off. The only repercussions will be the ones you allow yourself to suffer from.
But Im happy I have a decent job. Great friends. A woman I'd die for.
There isn't much I want. Apart from maybe some artistic inspiration/talent.
Say I bargain for that. Once I tell her to fuck off does the talent go too?
One other thing: Part of what makes it scary is it makes me want her. Like during the dream it was wonderful and exceptionally pleasant. Only when I woke up did it freak me out.
I'm in a committed long term relationship.
Im not afraid of women.
Im afraid of faeries.
Also thought all of you should know Im about to Get a little drunk and attempt to summon the fae for a conversation. To figure out what she wants.
Its been ages since Ive cast anything.
Wish me luck